am-i-doing

Do the right thing

Alec stood staring at the door, hands in his jacket pocket as his mind tick over with all the events of the day that had led him here to Magnus’ front door, heart fluttering slightly as he tried to decided whether to knock or turn away.

He knew he should knock, allow Magnus to drown out everything else that seemed to be dragging Alec down lately. The clave was a large issue at the moment, with every decision he made as head of the institute getting penalised.

He had nearly lost his life today on a mission, a demon going a little to close for Alec’s liking, thankfully Izzy had taken the thing out before it had clawed away at his chest. After that everything seemed to just pile on top of him, coming back to the institute drained from the mission to find out the Clave were against another one of his decisions.

He took a deep breath, trying to stop himself from falling further into his own mind, a place right now that was dark and miserable.

With a deep breath he knocked gently on Magnus’ door before stepping back slightly and waiting.

The door open a few seconds later and Magnus appeared, wearing dark trousers and a deep burgundy floral shirt, necklaces hanging down and resting against his bare chest were he hadn’t button his shirt up fully.

Alec’s heart fluttered, beating hard against his chest as his eyes took in the man in front of him.

Magnus allowed a brief look of surprise to flash across his face before a soft smile appeared on his lips, happy to see Alec after a long day.

“Alexander,” he said, his voice easing Alec’s stress in a second, calm washing over him like a wave. “I wasn’t expecting you,” he added yet open the door fully and stepped aside to allow Alec to enter his apartment.

“Y-Yeah, I hmm,” Alec said, stumbling over his words slightly as he tried to find the right ones to explain his situation.

Magnus frowned slightly as he stepped inside, Magnus using his magic to shut the door behind him. He leant over to give Magnus a soft kiss on the lips, which Magnus happily returned, before stepping back and looking into the apartment.
He could feel Magnus’ eyes on him, studying him as if to read how Alec was feeling.

“You alright?” Magnus then finally asked, stepping closer to him and lifting a hand to place it on Alec’s shoulder.

“Yeah,” he relied before briefly closing his eyes and letting out a sigh. Magnus raised an eyebrow at him, a smile forming on his lips.

“You don’t sound like it, or look like it for that matter,” he said, noticing the bruise on Alec’s neck from where the demon had held him to the ground.

“It was just a mission, demon got a little too close,” Alec said, turning to look at Magnus to see the worried expression on his boyfriend’s face. “I’m alright now, it’s not that.”

“Do you want to talk about it?” Magnus asked. “Or maybe just have a drink,” he added when he saw Alec hesitate.

“A drink sounds like a good idea,” Alec finally spoke up and Magnus nodded.

“I’d offer you beer but I feel like this is more of a whiskey type of situation,” he said as he began walking into the living room, Alec following after him.

“I’m good with a beer, thanks,” Alec said quickly.

“You sure?” Magnus asked, grabbing the bottle of whiskey to which Alec nodded. “Suit yourself,” he then said before pouring himself a glass before clicking his fingers, a bottle of beer appearing for Alec on the circular coffee table.

“Thanks,” Alec said, picking up the beer and taking a gulp just as Magnus lifted his own glass up in a toast.

“That bad?” He commented at Alec’s eagerness with his beer.

“I’ve just got a lot on my mind that’s all,” he said and Magnus nodded in understanding, moving closer to him.

“Want to talk?” He offered and Alec took a breath before nodding, knowing Magnus would understand and that talking about everything would helped.

Magnus gestured to the balcony with the hand holding his drink, the other going to take Alec’s free hand.

The sudden contact between them eased Alec even further, something about Magnus, he didn’t know what, but something about Magnus just calmed him.

Magnus led him to the balcony, guiding him to the large chair before pulling him down to sit.

“I’m all ears,” Magnus then said, crossing one leg over the over and turning slightly to face Alec.

He swallowed as he tried to think of the right words before wondering whether he was making a big deal over everything. He was just feeling pressure from work, which wasn’t anything new so why all of a sudden could he not cope.

“It’s nothing really,” Alec said, picking at the label on his beer bottle with his thumb which Magnus noticed, his eyes drifting down to Alec’s hand before looking back up at his face.

“Alexander,” Magnus said to draw Alec’s attention away from his bottle and up to his boyfriend. “It is never nothing, if something is bothering you should never hold it back. You can talk to me,” Magnus said and Alec could see the honesty in his boyfriend’s eyes, that look suddenly gave him confidence to talk.

“It’s just…” Alec paused to take a breath, Magnus waiting patiently for him to continue. “Work is stressful at the moment, being head of the institute is everything I wanted and I’m gratefully for it but it’s… it’s,” Alec wandered off, words failing him.

“It’s a lot to handle,” Magnus finished his sentence for him, drawing Alec’s eyes back up to see Magnus was watching him closely, his attention purely on Alec and nothing else.

“There’s a lot of pressure to do well and every decision I make the clave is always there to tell me how it’s wrong and after today,” Alec wondered off. Magnus titled his head, eyes narrowing slightly as he thought for a brief moment before replying.

“What every you do the Clave is always going to be there judging you as a leader,” Magnus began, his words not really doing anything to sooth Alec’s growing stress. “However, you can’t please everyone in this life, trust me I’m talking from experience; and it’s not like the Clave haven’t made decisions that many people disagreed with. You have to decide what is right and what’s best for the institute,” Magnus said and Alec shifted slightly, turning to face Magnus move who lean back slightly to give Alec enough space.

“That’s just it Magnus,” he began, suddenly opening himself up more. “I don’t know what’s right and what’s wrong,” he said and Magnus nodded slightly in understanding.

“If you want my honest opinion,” Magnus began, propping his elbow on the back on the sofa and resting his head on his hand. “Do what you’re heart tells you,” he simply said and Alec huffed a laugh, looking away and to the buildings across from them.

“That’s your advice? My heart has been wrong many times. You’ve lived for centuries, aren’t you suppose to be all wise and everything?” Alec asked with a small smirk and Magnus laughed at his words, lifting his head from his hand and straightening out his arm so that his fingers brushed against Alec’s shoulder.

“Of course I am wise, but right now you don’t need someone telling you what to do,” he said. “And you’re heart isn’t always wrong Alexander,” he said with a small smirk, his fingers going to run through Alec’s hair, knowing that it calmed his boyfriend.

Alec closed his eyes briefly, his breathing slowing and the stress of the day somehow easing from him.

He slowly began to feel more at peace, just him and Magnus with nothing else in the world mattering.

“You have to have an opinion on the matter,” Alec said, keeping his eyes closed as Magnus titled his head slightly, dropping his hand from Alec’s hair and resting it on the back of the sofa.

“Of course I do, I have an opinion on everything,” Magnus said as if shocked Alec didn’t know that by now.

Alec raised an eyebrow at him, glancing sideways at Magnus who shifted slightly, glancing away from Alec briefly before turning to lock eyes with him once more.

“I’ve never been a big fan of the Clave and you know that, many of their decision favour the few and not the many. You’re an excellent leader Alexander, I’ve seen you flourish from it so don’t let anyone else tell you differently. If you chose to do what you think is right Alexander then I’m sure it will have the best outcome,” Magnus said softly to him and Alec took a deep breath, allowing the stress from the day to completely wash away from him, Magnus’ words helping him to relax.

“Well I did chose you instead of marriage,” Alec then said to lightened the mood which it successfully did, Magnus laughing lightly.

“You better not have sworn off marriage forever though,” Magnus replied back with a smirk before they both locked eyes, their smiles fading slightly as they realised what Magnus had just said.

Magnus looked away first, busying himself by taking a large sip of his drink while Alec cleared his throat as the air suddenly became thick.

“So you’re open to it?” Alec asked, surprising himself at how he had the courage to speak first. Magnus slowly lifted his eyes to look up at Alec, a small frown forming.

“To what?” He asked innocently.

“Marriage,” Alec said and Magnus took a breath, trying to calm his racing heart.

“Are you proposing to me Alexander?” He then asked and Alec suddenly realised what he had actually said and how it had sounded.

“No, no of course not, well not yet anyway,” he rushed out and Magnus smirked at him, the corner of his lips curving up into a smile.

“Good, because I may not look like I would but I’m a sucker for a fancy proposal,” he replied.

“What’s it to say that I’d be the one to propose?” Alec asked with a hint of mischief in his voice.

“Well I would certainly do it in a better settling and I’d especially not propose while sat down,” Magnus commented, glancing sideways at Alec who laughed lightly before shifting to stand, placing his beer bottle on the ground as he did so.

He then knelt down on one knee in front of Magnus, hands placed on his knee and back straight as Magnus turned to face him.

“Do you, Magnus Bane, promise to go way over the top if you ever ask me to marry you?” Alec asked and Magnus couldn’t help but smile at his boyfriend, picturing Alec actually asking him to marry him.

It made his heart flutter in a way it never had before and just emphasised how much he loved the man knelt down in front of him.

“I do, and do you, Alexander Lightwood promise to get on one knee if you are ever to ask me to marry you?” Magnus questioned back to which Alec smiled widely.

“I do,” he then said before standing and leaning over, kissing Magnus.

5

SVU Season 19 Bingo Cards

The last one is the call card.

I can’t believe I spent time on this.

So I read the wish lists I found then I took some reoccurring themes and created these Bingo Cards, a little early, but hey now later than ever.

Choose one and have it ready come September 27. @larkin21 you might find some interest in this.