I am not sure if you will even answer this question because it's so weird. I don't even know how to ask it. I have re-written it multiple times. I think I have met the perfect guy. He loves Jesus and treats me like a princess. My fear is that I will be bored with him. Sexually. We are both virgins. But I have been exposed to porn and I am so afraid that our sex life will bore me. He is so nice and kind and romantic. But I sometimes have some wild fantasies. I'm sacred. I wish I wasn't like this
This is a VALID question. Please know that. Here is what I have had to realize: you cannot go into a marriage expecting him to know what to do sexually or expecting this amazing sex your first time around. Who knows? It may not even be enjoyable for the first few times. I have no idea! However, what I am sure of is that if my husband and I love each other and love God, then sex will be beautiful. Messy, yes. Confusing, yes. Painful, yes. But there will be a beauty in discovering it. There will be beauty in us finding a rhythm and trying to understand each other. How beautiful that we will be able to experience that together you know? If God is in it, how can it not be good?
A relationship, especially marriage, is not based on physical. That is more like a gift that God gave us inside of marriage. Marriage is about laying yourself down for another person, and sometimes that means physically laying down your pleasure for the pleasure of someone else. It also means having tough conversations and learning each other. So, if when you are married, you recognize that your husband is not satisfying you, you will have to talk to him about why. And work through things together. You cannot expect him to know exactly what to do if you are both virgins.
Ultimately, I would say that is the least thing to worry about when it comes to marriage. Pray for the Lord to renew your mind on this subject and discern whether you truly love this man and can marry him with all of the other difficult things you will face in marriage. Can you lay your lives down for each other? Can you love each other unconditionally? Do you strengthen each other spiritually? Does the other person bring you closer to Jesus? Do you have fun together? Are you both pursuing Jesus in your personal lives? If all of these things come together, and God is your foundation, sex will be good. Let go of your expectations for it and trust God to be in your marriage.