am i doing almost quality things

I have a confession to make...

I am burnt out.

I write A LOT. Like, five or six fics a week for two years now. And for a long while, it’s been because I want to keep the pace I’ve always had. I write when I’m not particularly inspired, I write when I would rather be sleeping or doing something else. And I do it because I’ve been stressing myself out about giving y’all fics. I’ve kind of given myself unrealistic expectations, and it’s becoming a negative thing in my brain.

So I’m backing off.

Rhythm of the Beat (part 3) is almost finished, so that will be posted soon. And then I’m gonna take a few days off. When I get back, I am going to write on a schedule that’s healthier for me. I deserve to have fun doing this, and you deserve quality fics.

Sorry if this is letting anyone down, but I’m gonna take care of me :) Love you all! XOXO

anonymous asked:

Are you more of a high functioning sociopath or high functioning psychopath

Dark folded his hands together and rested them neatly against the crook of his knee.

“Well, here’s the tricky part, lovely. I share qualities from both, almost equally. From a sociopath, I share the fact that I am unable to feel what I want to feel. I express no open emotion towards the things I do to others and have no emotional connection, because I literally cannot create one on my own. As a psychopath, I use manipulation and deceit to receive what I desire. Psychopaths are commented on being ruthless, focused, and charming.

Dark snickered.

“Am I not all three? But yet I feel almost nothing. What a startling combination I am.”

Important Announcement: Financial and Overall Situation

Hey everyone. So as you all know, I’m on Patreon (for those of you reading this on patreon, thank you so much for all your support and I can only ask for your understanding and forigveness for what I am about to elaborate in this post). Apologies in advance, but this is going to be rather lenghty and I really need people to read this and be aware about my online artistic endeavors and why they are in danger.

If you’re not familiar with my work, please follow THIS LINK to my artblog. If after reading this, you’d like to help me somehow, please do consider becoming a patron of mine as if I get enough money together, I will be able to loo at options of not only continuing my work, but expanding it and giving you all more art to enjoy as well.


 Just to clarify. I am 24 years old and I have been looking for a job for 2 years now and unable to find one. Every month, I send out at least 20 or more applications and attend various interviews. All ending in rejections due to my nationality. (This isn’t a racist thing, it’s because companies have to pay the local government a fee for hiring a foreigner and no company in their right mind ever wants to shell out extra for someone like me with no experience.)

Because of this, I’ve had to move home with my parents, who have been less than encouraging or helpful in my attempts to find my own way by having a patreon (something I’ve only just begun late January of this year.) They are unwilling to see what potential I have to earn my keep as a creative individual and are blind to the potential the online world of support and wonderful people that lurk online have.

A bombshell’s been dropped on me that my parents are no longer interested in letting me live with them. I am being sent to another country after a friend of theirs offered a job I could possibly take. Now, I saw possibly, because I don’t even know if they will have me.

I am a graphic designer by trade and the job they offered was a “Sales Accounts Executive.” This is really sudden and urgent as I was told just TODAY I will be shipped off (or rather, flown(?) off) next week, Wednesday March 15 2017 (March 14 2017 for those of you in America). I have less than 5 days to get all my shit together before they just fucking send me off. (I don’t even want to know what they’ll do to my One Piece collection while I’m not home to protect it).There are several problems with this:
  • Location: this job will require me to move to the Philippines, which, has been notorious in the entirety of South East Asia for having the WORST internet speed and connection EVER. It also means I will NOT have my work desk (which I do all my drawings on) because I will be moving in with my grandmother and two aunts (who are in pretty awful financial situations themselves) in a house that pre-dates WW2. That’s right. It’s situated in a backwater place where not every home has at least 1 computer and people still watch local cable. We use this home for our Christmas stay every year and I will tell you now, IT IS IMPOSSIBLE to work in. It’s hot as hell, nobody will use fans or the AC because it costs too much and there is no wifi.

  • NO WIFI: Of course, this location leads me to this very important second point. There is NO WIFI at that godforsaken old-folks retirement home. Of course, this does not mean I am going to give up and stop drawing or uploading my work. I’m as stubborn as a mule, but please bear in mind it’s going to take some time to find out how I can get an internet connection, if I can move to another relative’s house (while of course, paying rent), that has a connection, etc.

  • Schedule: Back to the “Sales Accounts Executive” position I am being offered. I was given full job details (while I will not disclose just where, just know it’s for a 5-star Hotel located in downtown Manila), which I KNOW will definitely interfere with the current output of how much art I post not only on tumblr, but also on patreon. Every single day, 5 days a week, from 9:00am - 4:00pm, I will be out and driving, catching buses and basically running around to meet 8 different, snobby, big corporate clients in order to ‘sell the hotel’. I have a minimum quota of 8 clients I HAVE TO MEET in a single day, every work day of the week until 4:00pm, after which, I will then have to travel back to the hotel and make my report. This is EVERY. SINGLE. DAY.

  • Foreseeable exhaustion: Obviously, someone who travels several kilometers every single day, especially in public transport, via walking, or whatever have you will always, always be tired by the end of it all. I can’t even imagine how DONE I will be at the end of the day of doing such a thing and SUCKING UP TO CORPORATE ASSHOLES, let alone, doing it 8 times a day, every day, 5 days a week, week after week, after week. As we all know, when you have such little time to sleep, such little time to recharge, your artistic ability or capacity or even DESIRE to draw becomes next to none. All you want to do is plop down in your bed and sleep.

In summary, this move will mean that I have limited internet access, limited time and energy to work on my art, and limited access to the proper tools and facilities I need to actually MAKE my art:

Limted internet access; I will of course give it my all in procuring a proper connection, because let’s face it, without the internet, people like me and most millenials might as well be dead. This however means that my posts might be few and far between, so I humbly ask of you to please be patient with me. I have not, and will not give up the ZoSan or the OP fandom, or making art in general.

Limited time and energy; This is one of the things I am most afraid of happening. I fear that I will be so exhausted that I no longer feel that making ZoSan/One piece/ any fanart gives me joy. As a creatively inclined person, I, like most others like me, feel very attached to our identity and our creative outlets are almost 100% if not 100% who we are. I do not want to become another zombie of corporate society. As such, I humbly, humbly beg of you to forgive me, but I will most likely have to adjust my patreon rewards as a result of this. I will still provide the same quality and same variety of work, but in less quantity. I am truly, truly sorry.

Lacking proper tools and facilities to make my art; this is the third and I believe the most important thing to address. If I don’t have a place to work or MAKE any art at all, not having the time and energy or the inernet connection to upload it will not matter. As such, I forsee a possible hiatus beginning from my move next week while I try to get my shit and my life togeher in an entirely new country I have never lived in and never been comfortable in, in all my years of Christmases spent there. This is the most important part of this whole thing for my patrons on patreon.

To my patreon patrons: 

I understand if you’re not willing to see if I can pull through and continue to make art and posts by the same amount I used to. I thank you all so much for the wonderful support you have given me not just financially, but emotionally as an artist and as extremely good friends whom I think of fondly everytime I have tumblr open. (Which is everyday to say the least XD )

I would however, like to remind you that if I do not post anything for that month, you do not get charged at all. You can still be my patron but not be robbed of your money if I do not create. (Props to patreon for this!)

Still, I know I promised at least 3 NSFW pieces and a minimum of 2-4 other pieces every month. This is a possible total of 7 pieces. While I believe this is doable no matter where I am, the fact that I am moving in the middle of this month means that either 1 of 2 things will happen:

The first possibility is that I will be able to finish my new pieces as well as continue to work on my ZoSan video special (which most of you are supporting me on here for, as you hope to see it finished), before I fly off, and be able to schedule posts for the rest of this and next month so that you get the same amount of content until I get a proper connection, place to work, etc.

It’s 1:46am for me here now and I’ve been stressing about this entire ordeal while trying to get some new stuff lined and scanned as best and as quickly as possible. I need to rest, but once again before I go, I ask that you all please forgive me for this sudden change. I really am truly sorry.

All your support has been amazing and I never, EVER thought that even a SINGLE person would care about my art enough to fund me for it. I can’t thank you enough for your comments and support on tumblr and how much it really hurts me to know that I might not be able to continue as I have been now, or even at all.

I know it wounds ungrateful of me to even wish it, but I hope I do not get this job and hopefully find another one that will allow me enough time to work on my art.

Or, that my parents change their minds entirely about really just sending me off on a one-way ticket that will force me to leave my scanner and most of my equipment they think is unecessary for a corporate job, behind.

Lots of Love, @mossybrows

anonymous asked:

THANKS FOR THE VALIDATION BC istg the second I read "Dray" I chant "bad fic bad fic bad fic" until I exit out and am cleansed (I can't stand it tbh, while people getting his name wrong or fucking with him calling him Drake or s/t is funny, Dray will always make me cringe and run)

I mean, there was once a fic that had “Dray” in it that I still really liked.

Once.

wonder-sims  asked:

Omg dude I am so excited about this grey's anatomy thing! I love it already

Thank you so much!! Ugh, same! I’m so excited to go in game and get it all done, but it’s almost midnight in the UK and I’m a bit tired, so I don’t think the posts will be as good quality as I could do when I’ve had a full night’s rest.

I have got a few episodes I’m especially excited to remake (if I make it this far, CC is limited, and S4 Studio is only limited to CAS at the moment for macs); 2x06, 2x16+2x17, 5x22, 5x24, 6x24. There’s more, but this is all I can remember at the moment.

Once again, thank you for the ask! Honestly, it’s made my day (night?)!

anonymous asked:

Plumette, Lefou

Plumette

  • What quality in a partner do you most admire?
    • Devotion.  We live in a world where it’s almost too easy to go out and have a one-time thing without anyone noticing.  If a person stays true to their partner, then they’re doing it right.
  • Can you speak another language, and if so, what language(s) can you speak?
    • When I was younger I spoke both Greek and English.  Now, not so much…though I am aiming to relearn it.

LeFou:

  • Have you ever had a crush, and if so, who?
    • I’m pretty sure I did at some point…and I think it was one of my friends from middle school.
  • Have you ever had your heart broken?
    • Yeah.  But it was a long time ago and I’ve moved on from it.
SO.

I sketched out almost forty pages of plot. And with a little math, that tells me if i continue to release plot pages at the rate I’ve been doing so, 

I will be working on it for like a year

i am not about that life!! this is just an rp plot! i got other things to be doing! and i started this thing bc i wanted to rp things bc of it, not suffer endlessly in the overachiever’s corner.  

so i’m dropping the quality of these pages so i can stand to do them more often. I’m gonna try and get like. four or five updates a week, and i sure as hell aren’t going to be doing much by way of color. Or line, most likely. 

I do have a tendency to go overboard on stuff like this tbh so lets see how well i can stick to that. 

darkspeed54  asked:

Write a long post about one piece. Like "whats good and bad things about this anime", "why would anyone watch op?", "what kind of loser spend part of his lifetime to these +700 madafakinn episodes?" "why do we even keep watching it?" etc...if you already did that a link would be great because you see i'm lazy

I’m terribly sorry for the late reply but you did assign me quite a task! There were just… so many things I could mention in this reply that I needed time to sort out a few things in my head first.

I rarely watch the OP anime because its terrible quality makes me writhe with agony (screw you Toei), but my love for the OP manga is close to infinite. There’re just not enough words to describe how much I love almost every character Oda has ever created, especially Sanji. I can rant for days about the things I like about him but I doubt you’d hear me out unless you’re a huge Sanji fan as I am so I’ll skip that part.

What I Like About One Piece

I think my love for One Piece has a lot to do with Oda’s art style. Unlike many other mangas, most of his characters have very unique, detailed designs (well, save for the female ones - which I’ll mention later). Some of them look so apalling that you need time to get used to them but thanks to Oda’s excellent characterization skills you eventually grow to like them. You can feel how much love Oda has for his characters from the way he never misses the tiniest details of even the most minor characters. But most of all, the way Oda keeps bringing back past characters into the main plot (Coby, Sabo, Koala, etc.) reminds readers that everyone is part of the story and deserves to be loved, not just the Strawhats.

I also love One Piece because it shows what true and ideal nakamaship is. Almost every shonen manga stresses the value of friendship, but I’ve never seen any other mangaka who delivers such message as effectively and enchantingly as Oda does. Turning your back on the entire world just to get one nakama back isn’t the only way the Strawhats reveal how much they care for each other. Such epic moments aside, their camaraderie is very much present in the way each of them sticks to their respective roles on their ship. “I’ll do whatever you cannot do, and you do whatever I cannot do” I think this line from Sanji captures the spirit of One Piece really well (which is one of the reasons why he became my favorite). This is why I don’t ship any two characters in One Piece - not that it’s wrong, but when it comes to One Piece it’s nakamaship than romance that better grasps the soul of this manga. I do like Zosan but I still prefer them as nakama.

One Piece is also famous for its ever expanding universe. The OP universe is not only infinite but also extremely concrete thanks to Oda’s godly worldbuilding & foreshadowing skills. Even the background of each and every place Luffy sets foot in is drawn with so much unique details that you almost feel as if such places really exist in some other dimension. I also like how the OP world accurately portrays the ugliness of our real world even when it looks so surreal.

What is most amazing is that although One Piece is coming close to its 20th anniversary and will soon be reaching the 900th chapter, Oda never loses grasp of the message he has wanted to deliver from the very beginning: the love for freedom and family.

What sets Luffy apart from typical shonen protagonists is that fact the he is not a hero. Regardless of how many lives and kingdoms he saves along the way, Luffy has never wanted to be a hero and never will be. “The person with the most freedom on this ocean is the Pirate King” Luffy’s not not a mere wielder of the freedom flag - he is the very embodiment of freedom. It’s in Luffy’s nature to understand what freedom is, so he fights for his freedom and respects his nakama’s freedom to choose. He doesn’t help others unless they very clearly make a decision about their own lives (Coby, Nami, Vivi, Robin, Momonosuke, etc.) and asks for help. Most of the time Luffy’s an idiot but that one unique brand of intelligence redeems him beyond anything.

What is One Piece without family? Throughout the entire 800+n chapters, Oda continuously tells us what family truly means. Basically, his message is that you don’t have to be blood-related to be a family. The Strawhats are the perfect example; even their backstories revolve around the people they loved like real family and all of them never fail to touch my heart, no matter how many times I re-read them. 

What I Don’t Like About One Piece

I’ve babbled too much about what’s good about One Piece XD so let’s move onto what I don’t like about it. OP is my favorite manga so there’s little that I dislike about it, but I’m not satisfied with the way Oda portrays female characters. Their faces and body shapes are just too similar compared to those of male characters, and their roles are also relatively limited. There’re exceptions of course but that seems to be the case in general.

In addition, I’m afraid to say the story has become rather lackluster after the timeskip. We’re close to the main event that is the Yonkou so there should be more excitement, but I’m afraid it’s the opposite for me, at least up to this point. I think this has a lot do with the relative lack of crew dynamics after the timeskip. I know Oda loves to create new characters but I feel like those characters are overshadowing the Strawhats as of late. Such feeling was the heaviest in Dressrosa - one of the reasons why it became my least favorite arc.

I also hope Luffy redeems his old charisma. Luffy’s simple-minded but he can become the most imposing figure in the entire OP universe in critical moments and that’s what I loved about him. In the past Luffy's leadership was more prominent - it was more evident in the way he spoke, in his facial expressions and gestures. I can’t explain the reason clearly but recently I got the impression that Luffy’s charisma is diminishing rather than growing; it may have something to do with the change of art style or maybe it’s something else. Don’t get me wrong - I still love Luffy but this point has to be made.

Well, that’s all I can think of right now. Maybe I can write more but I think my post is long enough already XD And oh yeah, I forgot to mention the epic fight scenes that hooked up so many fans in the first place - I also love the battle scenes but I just wanted to point out that there’s so much more to One Piece even without action. Anyway what I ultimately want to say is that don’t blame yourself for watching +700 OP episodes because they’re really worth your time!

All points made in this post are personal, so I welcome different opinions & exchange of thoughts.                 

ᕕ(  ᐛ  )ᕗ 2jae's doing fine

HI. HELLO. Here’s what I see with my shipper goggles, and what most, almost all people don’t see (because I’m literally grade A quality garbage for 2jae and I want to give hope to 2jae shippers out there who don’t quite see things as I do)

AND HERE’S TO PROVE HOW MUCH OF TRASH I AM. I’LL OVERANALYZE AND GIF MBC GAYO DAEJUN 2015 (where most would say there was a lack of 2jae, when in reality- there was just so much other interactions that it was hard to focus on a ship that’s literally difficult to notice in the first place unless you’re me I’m kidding…but not really

  • JB always gotta see what Youngjae’s up too *GloZell voice* is you okay? is you good? cuz I wants to know! It’s honestly out of habit that JB needs to see if Youngjae’s doing alright. (see something familiar?)
  • JB wanting to catch Youngjae’s attention during JYP’s “Don’t Leave Me” (since they performed it- JB probably wanted to share his excitement with YJ, or it could be an inside thing- maybe they both love the song a lot) 

Sadly- they just have terrible timing LOL! darnit YJ y u no turn sooner! xD

  • JB finding something funny and thinking that YJ would’ve found it funny also because they have a similar sense of humor
  • If you just watch throughout the entire time when they all go up on stage, YJ tends to just follow JB around because he’s extremely shy and can’t really interact with others, so YJ probably finds comfort in being in the back or surrounded by got7 members, or in the same vicinity as JB
  • BUT BY FAR MY FAVORITE THING THEY ALWAYS DO- IS THE CONSTANT GLANCES

AND THE FACT THEY GET SHY/AWKWARD WHEN THEY BOTH MAKE EYE CONTACT- I’M !!!!!! GUYS- gy UYS GYe Gu yS- HONESTLY- WHEN I SEE THEM ACT AWKWARD- IT JUST MAKES ME THINK THAT THEY’RE REMINDED OF SOMETHING- AND WHATEVER THAT SOMETHING IS- FUELS MY INNER 2JAE. WHAT I LOVE IS THAT I HONESTLY DON’T KNOW WHAT THEY’RE THINKING AND IT JUST MAKES ME ALL THE MORE CURIOUS. 

anonymous asked:

Hey Spacehamster, did you know that you're on a Watchmojo video? :D

Yep! It’s a little weird, I never thought something like that would ever happen. I’m actually humbled by the mention, truly! It’s weird to think though because it also put me in a weird position where maybe I shouldn’t have said anything about it and kept my mouth shut and just let it happen. I tried to make some witty remarks last night, maybe should have sat on it a bit more though, but I guess I just came off as an asshole and some people were pretty mad at me about it? Live and learn I guess! I’ll explain though! Let’s FRICKIN’ REAL TALK.

First of all, Watch Mojo, a 13 million subscriber YouTube Channel said I was underrated. That’s neat! Really!  I mean as a YouTuber I’ll take any positive exposure I can get! Having watched the video myself though, before commenting, and again before typing all of this out I can tell you that the list is as barebones as it can possibly be. Literally the only things that are said about me are non-disputable facts whilst they took clips from my channel. That’s not necessarily a bad thing! They want me to speak for myself, I get that! As a creator though they should know that most people don’t like their older content as much as their newest stuff, or it doesn’t represent them or their style as much anymore. But I guarantee you that they just went to my channel, organized my videos by most viewed (and of course my oldest videos are some of my most viewed ones) and used those during the segment. It’s likely that they did this for all the other creators as well. Is that bad? ehhh I guess not, that content is there, and probably always will be. It’s just more of a personal preference I guess. I think my skills over the years, my comedic timing, and editing have gotten better than what they showed. Not a big deal, just a thing I’d figured i’d lay out there as a creator and YouTuber.


Here’s where my mindsets at though. I’m fairly certain that, for at least a good chunk of Watch Mojo lists, Watch Mojo doesn’t do them themselves, they have their audience vote on and create new lists for them. They then finalize the polls and then throw together a video as quickly as possible, put on a clickbait title and throw out up to 7 lists per day on their channel. The epitome of content that I honestly despise. It’s zero effort, zero quality control, zero interesting, at least to me. Watch Mojo is literally a business for the sole purpose of making as many videos and as much money as it can possibly make, and to do that they basically make the most clickable titles and videos they can think of, but put no effort into the actual underlying video or product. Hey I mean… it works for them, they probably make millions of $$$ per year, and that’s more on YouTube then anything that this is allowed or a system that can be heavily abused.
But hopefully you can understand that from my perspective this is like some big brother shit where this mega-company came down and was like “Hey buddy, you’ll get there someday.” “Oh but also we’re making this list for the $$$ LOL.”

So it’s like I was used in this icky way to make them more money that they don’t need. They can do their thing, obviously it works well for them. It’s just not my bag, baby. 

I mean I could totally just shut-up and take the backhanded compliment - but I don’t like sitting on this stuff and letting it eat at me when I think something is stupid, you know? If you know me, I try to make the most quality things I could possibly make, super re-watchable content. Even on PB&Jeff we try to take things to the next level ALL the time. THAT’s the reason you know who I am, THAT’s the reason I think you guys like my channel and what I do with Austin, there’s actual content for you to watch. When I make a top 10, it takes me almost a month to make, it’s not just some slideshow that I threw together with indisputable facts. It’s a show, it’s a journey that i’m taking you guys on from the past MONTH of my life working on this one idea. Not this ONE video I threw out among the other 10 that day. 

So how can I say these things and also be humbled at the same time? That makes no sense Jeff?- you might say.  Well, Simply, I think that Watch Mojo had nothing to do with it. Someone went on their site and thought so highly of me that they threw my name into the pot, and for THAT reason, and that reason alone I am humbled and appreciative. I wouldn’t be where I am without you guys, and that is the honest truth. It’s because of you guys watching, commenting, liking, eagerly waiting for the next thing that I am even considered “underrated”, and honestly… there’s much worse positions to be in on YouTube <3.

Questionnaire found on Tumblr

1: Name: Anonymous
2: Age: old enough to be a mother too young to feel wise
3: 3 Fears: Innertia, Fear Itself, Stunted evolution…
4: 3 things I love: Love, Empathetic Life Forms, Nature
5: 4 turn ons: Courage, Fearlessness, People who know how to find the beauty & inspiration in the quotidian spaces of Life, Anything New.
6: 4 turns off: Hate, Miss-placed Anger, Ignorance, Dogma,
7: My best friend, Loves unconditionally and knows were all connected…
8: Sexual orientation, What ever floats my boat at that moment.
9: My best first date, Don’t date.
10: How tall am I, physically 5'5" Mentally 6'0"
11: What do I miss, Space, clean air, clean water and respect for Nature within the community.
12: What time was I born, 8 pm.
13: Favorite color, White because it’s said to hold the whole prism of color in its reflected light.
14: Do I have a crush, yup.
15: Favorite quote, Dylan Thomas: “Do not go gentle into that good night.
Rage, rage against the dying of the light.”
16: Favorite place: ’ Any Place on earth with pristine nature.
17: Favorite food: Almost Anything with white truffles
18: Do I use sarcasm: ‘Does a Bear Shit in the Woods?
19: What am I listening to right now: The Silence of the Hotel Room
20: First thing I notice in new person: Their Personality
21: Shoe size: 7.5 American
22: Eye color: Brown
23: Hair color: Brown
24: Favorite style of clothing: Tight, Snug, Comfortable, Fitted, Great fabrics such as Cashmere, silk blends, and any durable brands i can find with quality tailoring
25: Ever done a prank call?: ’ This is the Department of Water and Power, were having technical issues in the Area were wondering if your water’s running.“ … "Go catch it”
27: Meaning behind my URL, integration, connection, channeling of creative inspiration…
28: Favorite movie: Movies to me are like Music, Transient impermanent emotions that can’t be isolated to one genre, vibe, or platform. Cabaret, resevior dogs, pulp fiction, clockwork orange, fight club, alice and wonderland, lion king, Wallie, Blade Runner, Woman under the influence, Thelma and Louise, Fried green tomatoes, Bad Boys, Men In Black, The dark Night, Batman, Natural Born Killers, Rebel without a cause, The outsiders, Rumble fish, Bullet, Menace to society, coming to America, Independence day, Johnny 5, 12 monkeys, Stand By me, Blood in Blood Out, The constant Gardner, the insider, Woman Under the Influence, the hustler, Cool hand Luke, Cat on a hot tin roof, all about eve, inherit the wind, the newsroom, Bonnie and Clyde, Butch cassidy and the sundance kid, The Matrix, Bel duJour, the story of O, Men prefer Blonds, The devil wears prada, west side story,
29: Favorite song:I’ll be here all night writing my favorite songs its too vast to choose a favorite,
30: Favorite band: The Rolling stones covered most of my life’s emotional roller coaster of growth and evolution, in the lyrics their attitude throughout the years and especially in their time transcending classic sound.
31: How I feel right now, Mellow, Anxious, Determined, Lost… Found. Cycles through this pattern for hours…
32: Someone I love, can hurt me, can raise me, can inspire me, can bring me down, can be the fuel to my flight, or the hole in my wing.
33: My current relationship status, Running Solo, no time for distractions I’m going in, Over… Im going in…
34: My relationship with my parents: Honest, hauntingly a reality check on the impermanence of life. It’s funny at times sarcastic full of gratitude and a Joker’s smirk at all hardships endured.
35: Favorite holiday: Halloween, because when the masks come on they are actually coming off… It’s a chance to be playful celebrate life with all its archetypical symbols bells and whistles, and after the night of chaos and debauchery you see the masks slip and the truth sneaks out from all my inebriated friends, self included.
36: Tattoos and piercing i have; no piercings, One ink tattoo Hat Teaw Buddhist five point prayer tattoo from Thailand it’s on my shoulder. Its an almost 4,000 year old Buddhist tradition from south east Asia past down from generations of fighting monks who used these inked prayers made up of Kuhmer and Pali language to protect them in war.
37: Tattoos and piercings I want from now on should be invisible to the naked eye and spiritual in some way that reminds me why I live but doesn’t make an exhibition out of it.
38: The reason I joined Tumblr, is cause I became addicted to the influx of creative information I could gather after I found the right cluster of Blog’s to follow.
39: Do I and my last ex hate each other? never, well I’ll never know what the other thinks, really.
40: Do I ever get “good morning” or “good night ” texts? when I tantalize a soul who connects on a deep level yes, It’s a transient experience for me though, never quite lasts more than 2 years this chemical psychological physical dance.
41: Have I ever kissed the last person I texted? yes
42: When did I last hold hands? hours ago
43: How long does it take me to get ready in the morning? 15 minutes to an hour depends on my mood and my agenda.
44: Have You shaved your legs in the past three days? yes
45: Where am I right now? earth
46: If I were drunk & can’t stand, who’s taking care of me? I uber a cab and go home alone.
47: Do I like my music loud or at a reasonable level? Loud along as I know Im not invading anyones space with it.
48: Do I live with my Mom and Dad? No
49: Am I excited for anything? All or nothing. Either Im inspired because I’m learning vibing off a new experience or I’m counting the hours till the mundane monotonous task is over & I’m liberated to do as I please again.
50: Do I have someone of the opposite sex I can tell everything to? Yes
51: How often do I wear a fake smile? 25 % of the time out in public not to be rude to a stranger invading my personal space. That percentage goes to 50% when I have to run an errand and Im in a bad mood.
52: When was the last time I hugged someone? Hours ago
53: What if the last person I kissed was kissing someone else right in front of me? I’d wonder if this is an opportunity for a group fun situation or if the person i was kissing is just greedy and wants all the fun alone.
54: Is there anyone I trust even though I should not? There are lots of people I trust that conventional wisdom would say I shouldn’t but my measurement mechanism for trust is calibrated in such a way where I rarely trust just any human with sacred things like my heart or my life.
55: What is something I disliked about today? The seeming lack of Humanity in the systems ruling countries, where monetary incentives override reason, logic, & and in most cases ethics.
56: If I could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be? The gatekeeper for the mysterious ancient library of Vatican Island. I believe they’re may be some texts from Alexandria and other libraries burnt down across the ancient world during the roman inquisition that may hold some cool research and unveil lots of mysteries that shouldn’t be mysteries at all.
57: What do I think about most? I think about how I can take all the seemingly meaningless information Ive accumulated throughout my life and consolidate it all into film. Whether they’ll be good or bad I don’t know, but I spend most of my time trying to consolidate information. I have hope that this next generation will take this saturated era of ‘information’ and consolidate the best of this ‘intel’ into pockets of useful quality.Im not part of this generation so I struggle with Meta Data Filing.
58: What’s my strangest talent? Accumulation seemingly useless information over the course of decades, on Technology, political statistics, Nature, economy and resurfacing these pieces of intel into story lines for projects Im working on, script concepts. I wouldn’t call it a talent but its definitely strange.
59: Do I have any strange phobias? Deep ocean freaks me out…
60: Do I prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it? Behind
61: What was the last lie I told? That I was exited too.
62: Do I prefer talking on the phone or video chatting online? phone, I like to leave room for multitasking and I don’t want anyone offended that i don’t seem to give them my full attention.
63: Do I believe in ghosts? I believe in stagnant energy forces that can disrupt our 4 known dimensions in existence by blinking in and out of our space time continuum similar to electrons when they shift from wave form back to particle. Since were all made up of never dying energy that is constantly changing at a quantum level, a transition from life to death that isn’t energetically tracked by any great pier reviewed scientific papers… I leave room for the theories; Egyptian, Indian, Greek, and Roman Mystics. Living my mind open to the idea that after death a ball of energetic intension can linger at a traumatic place of death, I can imagine souls lingering between dimensions in a limbo of sorts with an energetic equivalent of a stunted consciousness or a ball of traumatized streams of energy with no conducive flow out of their stagnant state, like crumpled up charged wires that can’t exit their frequency because the wires are all knotted up blocking the flow. Something like that could disrupt our dimension of time and space. Energy is everywhere and not all energy flows freely, i can picture it.
64: Do I believe in magic?I believe magic is only magic to the people who don’t know how the act of magic was accomplished in our physical world. So yes I do believe in Magic, I just have a feeling that the practice of Magic is a science in the manipulation of nature and perception.
65: Do I believe in luck? I believe in subtle energetic attractions caused by an individuals mental processes, & this is my definition to the cause of such phenomena as the perception of Luck. When you think, you shift, by default, what you see in your experience through life. What you Think shifts your reticular activation system, and that affects what you see, what you hear, what you feel, and all that affects what you can attract in your life or repel. Im think it’s whats perceived as luck.
66: What’s the weather like right now? cold
67: What was the last book I’ve read? 'The Grand Inquisitor’ by Fyodor Dostoevsky
68: Do I like the smell of gasoline? no
69: Do I have any nicknames? Mitchy Mish MRod
70: What was the worst injury I’ve ever had? I fell trying to climb onto the second floor of the gym in some useless stunt and I snapped the ACL from my knee upon landing.
71: Do I spend money or save it? Spend invest but mostly spend…
72: Can I touch my nose with a tongue? Only if i push my nose down
73: Is there anything pink in 10 feet from me? My Jacket is Salmon pink so i guess yeah, but I must say thats rare.
74: Favorite animal? Any type of cat
75: What was I doing last night at 12 AM? Watching the film 'Interstellar’
76: What do I think is Satan’s last name is? Osiris, Hades, or Tammuz
77: What’s a song that always makes me happy when I hear it? 'I’m a Passenger’ by Iggy Pop
78: How can you win my heart? Always look me in the eye with a well informed smile of goodwill and honesty, revealing your truth constantly to me, no mask, just love, humility, drive, and relentless will towards evolution & spiritual growth.
79: What would I want to be written on my tombstone? I want to be cremated and blown into the ocean
80: What is my favorite word? evolution
81: My top 5 blogs on tumblr: I’m partial to the mixture of them 'All’ setting my favorite tone. Most of the blogs i follow are specialized & catering to varying aesthetic vibes, so much so that splitting any of the 100 or so into 5 would undermine what I favor overall.
82: If the whole world were listening to me right now, what would I say? 'Do the world a favor… kill yourself’. Jklol, I guess I would say 'We are One, Fighting that Peace of Truth is a race in futility, lets go with the tide for once and try Love over Hate.’
83: Do I have any relatives in jail? Not that I know of but then again I haven’t talked to that side of the family in a long time.
84: I accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what’s even cooler is that they endow me with the super-power of my choice! What is that power? Inter-dementional Space Time travel. This way I can harness my consciousness and leave my body at will to go anywhere I want in my eternal energetic form, fully cognitive memory in tact even after my body dies.Like those tibetan rainbow monks.
85: What would be a question I’d be afraid to tell the truth on? Do you believe mankind will be responsible enough to save himself and his home planet from blatant destruction in time for the next generation?
86: What is my current desktop picture? A Jack Kerouac Quote:’ Here’s to the crazy ones. The misfits. The rebels. The trouble makers The round heads in the square holes The ones who see things differently They’re not fond of rules & they have no respect for the status quo You can quote them, Disagree with Them Glorify them or Vilify them The only thing you can’t do is ignore them Because they change things They push the human race forward & While some may see them as the crazy ones we see Genius Because the people who think they can change the world are the ones who do.“
87: Had sex? Long, Long ago, in a Galaxy far far Away.
88: Bought condoms? Lamb Skin, Magnums, Trojans
89: Gotten pregnant? Nope
90: Failed a class? Most
91: Kissed a boy? A few
92: Kissed a girl? A few
93: Have I ever kissed somebody in the rain? No but that sounds amazing
94: Had job? Summer
95: Left the house without my wallet? all the time
96: Bullied someone on the internet? Not since they had Yahoo fight chat rooms…
97: Had sex in public? been a while
98: Played on a sports team? charity event long ago
99: Smoked weed? only when prescribed
100: Did drugs? plead the fifth
101: Smoked cigarettes? I vape
102: Drank alcohol? last week
103: Am I a vegetarian/vegan? tried it for 6 months went anemic I’m missing enzymes to break down nuts and green. So answers not anymore
104: Been overweight? nope
105: Been underweight? nope
106: Been to a wedding? yup in spring
107: Been on the computer for 5 hours straight? last night
108: Watched TV for 5 hours straight? 3 days ago
109: Been outside my home country? 4 days ago
110: Gotten my heart broken? often. usually
111: Been to a professional sports game? beginning of 2014
112: Broken a bone? nope
113: Cut myself? a month ago on a coke bottle cap
114: Been to prom? nope
115: Been in airplane? constantly
116: Fly by helicopter? 3 times last year
117: What concerts have I been to? Metallica Beyonce Madonna Prince
118: Had a crush on someone of the same sex? yup
119: Learned another language? bilingual spanish / english
120: Wore make up? last week event
121: Lost my virginity before I was 18? 17
122: Had oral sex? plead the 5th
123: Dyed my hair? never
124: Voted in a presidential election? plead the 5th
125: Rode in an ambulance? once
126: Had a surgery? nope
127: Met someone famous? happens often
128: Stalked someone on a social network? never
129: Peed outside? often at burning man
130: Been fishing? once or twice in life don’t like it
131: Helped with charity? often
132: Been rejected by a crush? once
133: Broken a mirror? don’t think so
134: What do I want for birthday? New Vibe New Friends creative space…

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Dash’s first GTSF! He’s cuter when he doesn’t look totally alarmed by the weird noises my computer is making. We’re working from the couch today. I think he’s starting to like me

It’s sort of ironic that I’m wearing a shirt that says “Run for Your Life” when I’m skipping workouts right and left. Crate training is still really challenging us so I’ve been trying to get out in the least traumatizing way. I think he’s FINALLY getting used to it. I’ve been in a different room for 15 minutes now and he hasn’t made a peep. Win (less win: for some reason he’s terrified of coming down the porch steps today. So two steps forward, one step back)!

I did manage to hit the track yesterday, however:

I was going for 8x800s in about 3:45 and ended up going a bit under that pace. Although, compared to last week’s workout of 400s in 1:45, these felt almost like a stroll! I lie, they were hard work. Just not as hard as last week.

I did see a guy running his guts out, almost literally. After every fast lap, he had to pull over and heave and gag. Call me crazy but no thank you. I understand that some people are into the workouts that make you lay it ALL out but I prefer to have some energy left in the tank. What’s the point of going insane at 7 am on a Thursday? I have things to do!

This speed session was my only real quality workout. I skipped my swims on Tuesday and today which made me a little cranky if I can be honest. But it’ll be worth it when I have a dog who doesn’t panic at the idea of being alone!