alyssa ex

You were ripe red berries on a summer day
the humid air filling my lungs with just enough breath to whisper “I love you”
Legs tangled in the comforter as I turned to watch eyes blink away sleep from a peaceful night
Everything was just so alright
I was happy
Something I hadn’t experienced before your gentle fingers grazed my cheeks
Before your eyes lit up as I spoke of all the things I adore
Before I felt your lips curl into a smile against my own
You brought me joy
Gave me flannels when I grew cold
Offered a warm hand to hold
& a chest to rest my head on as your fingers got lost in my hair
When I think of you
I remember Steak & shake drive thrus
The way you looked from a profile view
& how the fluorescent lights washed over your grinning face
But it isnt all peachy like the froyo we lived on
At least not since you’ve been long gone
My heart grows heavy as my mind plays games
& taunts me with memories I’ve all but forgotten
Like when mild hands turned to furious fists
Knuckles met cheek, knees met the floor
When you practically dragged me out my bedroom door
As I sobbed “please dont leave me
Not again”
But you did
You fled the scene every time
My limp body leaking blood & tears onto the dirty carpet
As you’d drive away from my house, I’d spit from my window
Cursing every step our feet took in unison
Cursing every forehead kiss
Cursing your very existence
At one point you were my sun, my moon, my stars
My universe
Though the night sky doesn’t look quite the same these days
—  “Strawberries” by Alyssa Pearson
Man sets himself on fire, runs into bar where ex-girlfriend is working

“A Memphis man died after setting himself on fire while livestreaming on Facebook and then running into a crowded bar early Saturday.

The shocking video shows the man, identified by police as Jared McLemore, 33, dousing himself in kerosene and then bursting into flames. He then runs off screen. The Memphis Police Department said McLemore was taken to Regional Medical Center, where he later died from his injuries, according to WMCA.”

“McLemore’s ex-girlfriend, Alyssa Moore, had been working at Murphy’s as a sound engineer Saturday night.

Moore’s older sister, Sara Moore, told BuzzFeed News that her sister does not wish to comment, but that she is thankful for the support that has been offered to her.“Alyssa is thinking of everyone who had to witness this, both in person and on Facebook Live,” Sara Moore said in a statement shared with BuzzFeed News. “Those who were at Murphy’s that night to enjoy the music witnessed Jared targeting Alyssa in her workplace, terrorizing her, and also terrorizing as many others as he could in the process. Alyssa knows many have been affected by this event, for many reasons, and hopes that when she’s ready, she’ll be able to give back the same love and support she’s received from so many of you.”

The statement also said that Alyssa Moore had an active restraining order against McLemore.

“Jared’s family is also in Alyssa’s heart,” the statement continued. “We want to make clear that this happened because of a perfect storm of domestic abuse, the stigma around it, and the visceral reality of mental illness.”

https://www.buzzfeed.com/mbvd/a-man-is-dead-after-setting-himself-on-fire-while-streaming?bfsource=bbf_enus&utm_term=.itkR4RO23#.uyBqoq180

You gave me flowers
Always
And I didn’t realize for months
That it was because you never saw me as living
The flowers were always gorgeous
But that’s because you knew I was a walking tomb
You were paying your respects to a walking grave site
You always gave me flowers
But they weren’t the kind to make me feel alive

Club Thrive: Say What You Feel

It’s your right, no matter what.

“Over the years—at work, with friends, and with love—I’ve grown accustomed to saying or acting like I’m OK when I’m far from it. I can’t pinpoint the first time it happened, but like many women and girls, especially women and girls of color, I have been conditioned by dominant culture to dilute or de-prioritize my emotional needs in order to protect, forgive, or support people with more power and privilege than myself—in my case, men and white people.”

By Jamia Wilson.