always been the only one

weefaol  asked:

talk to me about dean teaching sammy about sex and things that feel really goood but maybe should be kept secret

it started off as innocent little things, ya know. or at least seemingly innocent things.

sam walked up to dean one day and tucked his head underneath dean’s arm and stayed there because dean felt like safety. he felt like home. and whenever sam would come home with homework, dean would always be the one to help him, to teach him. it’s how it’s always been.

so it only seemed natural for sam to come to dean one day, crawl up next to dean while he was lounging out on the bed watching some rerun of “the twilight zone” and sam asked him, in that sugar sweet voice of his, if dean would teach him how to kiss. of course, that first time dean said no because what else was he supposed to say? it wasn’t like he was going to agree to kiss his little brother, no matter how much he wanted to.

sam didn’t really understand why it was wrong or if he did, he didn’t show it. instead he just shrugged his shoulders and nestled into dean’s side and was content on watching whatever black and white film was currently playing. he said “it’s okay dean, we don’t have to do it now if you don’t want to. you can show me later.”

and dean knew, that no matter how wrong it was and that if he were to do this then he would be burning in hell, that one day he was going to show his brother.

it happened much sooner than he thought, actually. they had to go to the library because dean had to pick up this book for this research paper that he had to write that was worth 20% of his english grade (not like he cared but dad at least pretended to so he had to turn something in) and he dragged sam along with him (not that sam minded. the kid loved libraries). so dean let sam wander off to the kid book section while dean went to go look for some book that was remotely close to the topic that he was writing about.

when he found sam some thirty minutes later, he was chatting away with the very nice, very elderly librarian and before they left, she handed sam this cherry red lollipop that sam immediately started licking on.

dean watched, the entire walk back to the motel, the way that sam’s pick little tongue would snake out past those perfect, pink lips and lick at the sugary treat and the way that every now and then sam would moan around it like it was the best thing that he had ever tasted and all at once dean wanted to taste the lollipop on sam’s tongue.

they get back to the motel and sam is still sucking on the lollipop, making all these little happy sounds because they don’t normally get candy and dean is trying his best to ignore his little brother but he can’t.

suddenly he’s in front of sam and sam is staring at him with these wide, hazel doe eyes, still planting little kitten licks to the red candy.

you still wanna learn how to kiss, sammy?” dean asked, all breathy because quite frankly he was out of breath. he was propositioning his baby brother who was too young, too innocent, too naive for something like this, using his childhood nickname.

sam’s eyes only seemed to get wider when he processed what dean said, head bobbing up and down, mouth still wrapped around the lollipop and the first time that dean tasted his brother was with that sickly sweet taste of that cherry lollipop.

after that, sam came to dean to learn more stuff. and dean, having already seen the hellfire and walked past those gates with his head held high, taught sam everything he knew.

imagine if the baker street boys epilogue was narrated by mrs hudson
  • Mrs Hudson: I know you two; and if you come back and live in MY house, I know what you could become. Because I know who you really are. A junkie who solves crimes to get high and the doctor who never came home from the war. Well, you listen to me: who you really are, it MATTERS, I've been trying to tell you all these years. There are two men sitting arguing in a scruffy flat, like they’ve always been there and they always will. The best and wisest men I have ever known. My Baker Street boys. Sherlock Holmes and Doctor Watson.
  • Mrs Hudson:
  • Mrs Hudson: Well then? Get on with it, I'll officiate the wedding

Claudia and Stiles, June 1998.

Here’s another sneak peek for the final chappy of Home, which I’m aiming to post in June (60 drawings + Lupus = Julie needs extra time) but now it’s 42 paintings down, 18 to go!! Thanks for your unending patience ♥

How Dan and Phil probably broke up #33
  • Phil: ChiCKEn

happy or angry? 

both

Fem!Mint Yoongi feat. Unnecessary Space Background

They’re watching baby animals videos

( @greyhairsowhat happy birthday dear !!!!  (ノ ´ 3 ` )ノ  ❤️️💕)

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supercat appreciation post: 

Ms. Grant, I need you now more than I ever have. Oh, I’ll be back.

origins

or: how each member of the original gryffindor quidditch team fell in love.

Alicia falls headfirst over lunch on a Friday, when she spills her water and all Katie does is laugh and throw napkins over to her side of the table. She falls in love in between letters hastily jotted down between breaks and late nights in her dinky flat near St. Mungos, late nights spent wondering whether to voice how butterflies get caught in her throat every time Katie laughs. How her best friend has blossomed into something fierce, something untouchably bright.

Katie breaks the silence first, one night - says, in a hushed voice, too quiet to be anything but careful, that she thinks she might be in love and Alicia’s heart plummets but Katie’s voice breaks and continues with “I think I’m in love with you” and the rest, as they say, is history.

Katie’s felt it - felt it - the moment Alicia yelled at Malfoy all those years ago on the quidditch pitch. It just took her a couple years to realize.

George forgets about love after the war, too focused on making sure the joke shop does its duty, bringing the slightest sliver of relief to parents and children again. It’s not until years later, when Angelina resurfaces on his radar past the monthly exchanged word here and there, when she comes back from training camp abroad, that love gives him a nudge, a gesture, as if to indicate “There. There I am.”

Angelina loves many people, as bold, beautiful, young women are free to do, and she loves strong and falls hard and falls fast. She’d thought it was her greatest detriment, once upon a time, but there was something almost silly about George at her doorstep, stubbing his foot on the welcome mat, shy in a way she’d never seen before. She told herself this time - this time would be the most dangerous, but three months later, she realizes there’s nothing terrifying about being held by familiar arms.

The twins are the twins, but they aren’t the same. So Fred’s always had love at the tip of his fingers, because Lee’s been at his side since they were fresh-eyed and curious, on the wrong side of too eager. It’s always been there, a quiet undercurrent, the only thing delicate and untouched between them. One day, one of them takes the leap and asks, prods at the tension in the room. When it unravels, their grins bloom tenfold, like fireworks. It lasts for a lifetime.

Oliver says he fell in love fighting on the quidditch pitch (because where else) with an equally passionate quidditch player (because who else) - and that’s how it worked, except there’s always more to a story than that. He brings Marcus home one evening, and his mother smiles and says she had expected nothing else. In reality, Oliver fell in love between dawn and morning practice, yearning hitting him hard in the gut. He’d crawled back into a surprised Marcus’ bed, disregarding his routine morning run in favor of curling into an easy embrace.

Harry finds love lurking somewhere after war reparations and before peace, an odd tentative balance in chaos. He wasn’t looking for it, just as he very rarely asks for anything at all, but it sauntered up, arrogant and brash, unable for him to look away from. Love did that - not Draco, because Draco had his own reparations to make and his own makings of peace and he’d discarded the arrogance for that. Love was a mess and a half, except then it wasn’t, and it made sense, in an odd, funny, sort of way - how inexplicably tied in each other’s narrative the other had been at the end of all things. It made sense in the way that Harry and Draco didn’t, not to anyone looking in. But Harry knows better. He knows what love is, he knows when he has it, and he knows when it’s returned, with a genuine gaze and a steady hand.

  • *Fidgety Atsushi and Dazai alone in the office*
  • Dazai: You wanted to talk about something Atsushi?
  • Atsushi: W-well, I've always been grateful to you Dazai since that day you treated me to a bowl of tea on rice and I've always been watching you and I ju-st c-can't tell you how than-n-nkful I am for introducing me to the agency, for giving me a chance at life, for saving me. An-d-d *Atsushi shakes his head trying to catch is thought* the best part of it is getting to see you every day, hearing you laugh, smile. Even this moment with you is so precious to me and I guess what I'm tryi-in-ng to say is that I... I love you Dazai-san.
  • Dazai: Atsushi?
  • Atsushi: I mean I don't expect you to accept my feelings especially since you want a beautiful woman. I just wanted to tell you and...
  • Dazai: Atsushi, aren't we already dating?
  • Atsushi: ....Heh?

Shoutouts to people who like winter and cold weather.

  • Because it’s tiresome being stared at like you grew an extra head when you say as much
  • Because countless people can say “I’m so glad spring is right around the corner!” and be praised with endless agreement, but I’m asked what’s wrong with me if I express the same thing about winter
  • Because the maintenance guy came in to fix something in my apartment, took one look at my thermostat, and wouldn’t believe me when I said there’s nothing wrong with my heater because it’s 65°F in my apartment and I’m happy 
  • Because if there’s a disagreement over the temperature, the person who likes the cold will always be outvoted 5 to 1
  • Because summer and the warmer days of autumn are mourned for their passing but winter’s end is celebrated
  • Because our endless discomfort in the summer is overlooked and brushed off because why wouldn’t we love this hot weather
  • Because winter is never long enough, summer is always too long, and no one will agree with you

anonymous asked:

i once read a text post that the problem with mcu tony is that the writer made him feel guilty of everything but they did not show it as tony's flaw, instead they make it to gain sympathiser/so that audiences sympathise for tony, what do you think?

I think the writing shows it as a both a positive and a flaw, because it is. Tony’s an inventor, and one simply has to look at his inventors to see the price of his guilt. The Iron Man suit, the arc reactor, BARF, Rhodey’s braces. But also endless weapons and Ultron (which yes, should have been a good but was a bad because Tony was messing around with things he didn’t understand but thought he could - the movie states this outright, so I’m not sure what the OP anon is talking about missed there.)

I mean, I don’t sympathize with Tony because of Tony’s guilt, I sympathize with Tony because of what he’s tried to do with it. Because even though it may end with negative results, he’s always tried to do something good with it. Tony’s guilt has made him overprotective and controlling but he’s also empathetic and hopeful because of it. The writers don’t always show it as a flaw because it’s not always a flaw. 

I mean, would the same OP think that Steve’s sense of self-worth is a flaw, because it kind of is but it’s never written that way. Steve always thinks he knows whats best (ahem. same as tony, guys.) but Steve rarely gets called out for it, whereas the movies don’t hesitate with Tony. 

There’s also a really messy gray area in the fact that Tony’s guilt has partially manifested in PTSD which the past three movies featuring Iron Man have not shied away from Tony having. So saying ‘they don’t write his guilt as a flaw’ is kinda of saying ‘they don’t write his PTSD as a flaw’ which, of course they don’t. Tony’s mentally ill. That’s not a flaw, that’s something he needs to get help for. (it does not excuse Tony’s actions, by the way. Just like Steve’s latent PTSD doesn’t excuse his.)

And one more thing: Sometimes Tony’s guilt isn’t written as a flaw because Tony doesn’t really have anything to be guilty for and the movie is trying to tell you that. It’s all in Tony’s head. Iron Man 3 guys, we create our own demons, I mean goddamn, it is RIGHT THERE in the opening and closing monologues.

Fandom Gothic
  • You are 187 chapters into this fic. You have been reading continually since you began. You must find out what happens next.
  • An unfinished fic ends on a cliffhanger. It hasn’t been updated since April 1832.
  • A new show has taken over Tumblr. You see the gif sets everywhere. Intrigued, you go looking. You cannot find the show. Five days later the posts disappear as if they never existed.
  • Your favorite author posts a new fanfic. It is a different fandom than the one you followed them for, but still one of yours. This keeps happening. You suspect the author may be stalking you.
  • The gifs of the new trailer come out before the new trailer does. People shush you when you question this. You cannot ask questions about the space-time continuum.
  • You find a new person to RP with. You send them a message and they respond two years later as if there was no time gap. It is possible that for them, there was no time gap.
  • This fanart looks nothing like the character. And yet. It looks exactly like the character.
  • A shipping war begins. You watch the body count climb higher and higher as it becomes more violent. Blood streams from your face and you clutch your weapon to your chest. Afterwords, the survivors sometimes stare with blank eyes and mutter “Harmony…. Harmony…”
  • That character is clearly a Slytherin. The rest of the fandom seems to think they are a Huffelpuff. There is something wrong.
  • There is a new coffee shop au for your ship. It is exactly like every other coffee shop au for your ship. It is exactly like every other coffee shop au for every ship. You begin to suspect there has always only ever been one coffee shop au.
  • You dare not say the true name of Binkydonk Cucumbershoots. Demon names have too much power.
  • The Supernatural fans have a gif for everything. They cannot be stopped by mortal means.
  • You begin reading a fic at four in the afternoon. When you next look up it is nearly dawn, and you don’t know what day it is.
Yes, Girl’s Day won.

And they deserved this win.

I have to say, I am very upset with the way monbebes are treating Girl’s Day. Wouldn’t anyone be upset if you had people bringing down your group? I can’t forgive the fact that this win was shrouded with harsh words from monbebes.

Now I know, not all monbebes are after GsD and are honestly confused as to why they were nominated. So I would like to clear up the fact that GsD did have a comeback stage on Show Champion. So they were eligible to be nominated. So for all these wierd statements that GsD hasn’t promoted long enough and MBC is shady is completely false.

Just like monbebes, I will defend my group. Girl’s Day is MONSTA X’s seniors, therefore, the fan base is much more established (internationally, not so much, but in Korea, definitely- and let’s be honest, those votes are where is matters). It seems logical to me that a group with 7 years of experience will best out against one with 2. When I see these comments of unfairness, I just don’t see where it stems from.

As a daisy, I have seen the struggles GsD has gone through to get to this point in their music career. They didn’t come from a well-known company, they didn’t have a sunbae group to pave a way for them. They built their fandom and popularity from complete scratch. Of course, I’m going to get upset when someone claims their wins were rigged. Wouldn’t you react the same way?

I apologize to monbebe’s for my last post’s tone and wish to retract it. I only wanted to show that GsD’s album is doing a lot better than what some are thinking. I do not speak for all daisies, I can only speak for myself.

Both MONSTA X and Girl’s Day has worked very hard for their respective comebacks. MONSTA X will have their time to shine, but please do not bring another group down in order to praise your own.

Malec fic rec’s {No. 1}

So me and the lovely @malec-luv had the idea to make a (short) malec fic rec to shorten the shadowhunters hiatus. We chose our ten favorite fics (as of yet). If you have fics, we should check out, feel free to comment. You can never have enough Malec, right? So without further ado here are our Top 20:

1. We make our own home by clockworkswan: http://archiveofourown.org/works/7284310/chapters/16540660

2. Kiss with a fist:
http://archiveofourown.org/works/7744114/chapters/17655412 3.

3. Destiny Calls:
http://archiveofourown.org/works/7420534/chapters/16854019

4. Addicted to you by AlxSteele:
http://archiveofourown.org/works/8552617/chapters/19608514

5. The Children of Merlin by Lecrit:
http://archiveofourown.org/works/7191461/chapters/16321403

6. Bright Lights, Small town:
http://archiveofourown.org/works/8275387/chapters/18957973

7. And the Oscar goes to:
http://archiveofourown.org/works/7929088

8. Dead men tell no tales:
http://archiveofourown.org/works/7618078

9. In the rain, I’ll give you sunshine by OneHundredSuns: http://archiveofourown.org/works/6549409/chapters/14984365

10.Battle scars series:
http://archiveofourown.org/series/79408

11. What’s it gonna be by lemonoclefox
http://archiveofourown.org/works/9498668/chapters/21491078

12. And you have always mine been too by magicandarchery
http://archiveofourown.org/works/9825218/chapters/22062077

13. One Show only by KouriArashi
http://archiveofourown.org/works/9205052/chapters/20882408

14. Hurting and Healing by clockworkswan
http://archiveofourown.org/works/7974853

15. In the Sin bin by otppurefuckingmagic
http://archiveofourown.org/works/6478579/chapters/14830201

16. I’ll be Home (for Christmas) by vulturemonem
http://archiveofourown.org/works/9126190

17. Fantasy by the onetruenorth
http://archiveofourown.org/works/9915344

18. Romae Dei by noksindra
http://archiveofourown.org/works/9588800/chapters/21676088

19. Fools rush in by Maleciseverything
http://archiveofourown.org/works/8432809

20. Set me in Motion
http://archiveofourown.org/works/6743893

We hope you like them! Tell us if we should do another one in the future.

I mean.

What, pray tell, THE FUCK?

OK, so like, here’s the thing. Fuck this scene but also FUCK, THIS SCENE! Because like THIS IS WHAT FIGHTS LOOK LIKE?

Like we all know what Killian’s struggling with THE SMOL DUMB ASSHOLE WHO I LOVE.  And this was possibly the WORST WAY to handle this but here we are and like EVERYTHING ABOUT THIS SLAYS ME IN THE BEST WAY? I AM A SUCKER FOR WELL WRITTEN ANGST OK?

LOOK AT HER BODY LANGUAGE THO. THE STEPS BACK, THE RAISED HANDS. LIKE, AT THIS POINT SHE’S FEELING BETRAYED AF AND CONCERNED ABOUT HOW HE MIGHT NOT TRUST HER WITH HIS PAIN BUT ALSO, BECAUSE THIS IS EMMA SWAN, SHE’S NOT ABLE TO SORT OF ANALYSE IT?

SHE IMMEDIATELY GOES WALLS UP EMMA SWAN. CALLING HIM ‘HOOK’ AND NOT MEETING HIS EYES. LIKE THIS IS ABOUT PROTECTING HERSELF FOR HER WHERE SHE BELIEVES THAT HE’S HIDING THINGS FROM HER AND THAT HE DOESN’T TRUST HER.

WHEREAS HE’S JUST STUCK ON SORT OF, I DID THIS HORRIBLE THING IN THE PAST AND EVERYONE WILL HATE ME.

AND REMEMBER HOW SHE’S THINKING HOW HE COULD HIDE THIS FROM HER AND SO SHE ASKS HIM.

AND HE IS SO ON THE WRONG PAGE. LIKE BOTH THEIR CONCERNS ARE SO FUCKING VALID BASED ON THEIR OWN PERSONAL STORIES AND PERSONALITIES BUT THEY’RE NOT CONVEYING THEM CORRECTLY BECAUSE EMOTIONAL AND FUCK IF THAT ISN’T EVERY FIGHT I HAVE EVER HAD.

AND SHE’S LIKE I DON’T FUCKING CARE ABOUT THAT AND SHE’S TRYING TO TELL HIM HOW HE’S HURT HER BUT INSTEAD OF SAYING THAT NOW SHE ASKS HIM ABOUT WHY HE WOULD BURN AWAY HIS MEMORIES RIGHT?

AND THEY’RE STILL ON DIFFERENT PAGES ABOUT THIS OMG UGH THIS IS GREAT OK SO

AND HERE’S WHERE IT HURTS ME SO MUCH BECAUSE KILLIAN’S THINKING THAT THIS IS ABOUT HIS PAST SINS AND REPENTANCE AND HIM BEING A VILLAIN, HE THINKS OF IT AS A SOLITARY THING? LIKE THE WHOLE SITUATION SHOULD BE HIS TO DEAL WITH BECAUSE IT’S HIS PAST? HIS MISTAKES? WHY SHOULD EMMA HAVE TO DEAL WITH THEM? 

IN HIS MIND, EMMA’S STILL ON THE OTHER SIDE SORT OF? LIKE SHE WOULD JUDGE HIM OR LEAVE HIM FOR WHAT HE’S DONE? AND THAT’S WRONG AND EMMA TELLS HIM SO BUT FUCK I UNDERSTAND WHY HE SOULD HAVE TROUBLE BELIEVING IT POOR KILLIAN SELF LOATHING JONES THAT HE IS

NOW SHE TELLS HIM RIGHT, THAT YOU KNOW THEM BUT THEY’RE STILL NOT ON THE SAME FUCKING PAGE BUT SHE’S GETTING MADDER AND MADDER THAT HE’S NOT UNDERSTANDING HOW HE’S HURT HER BY NOT COMING TO HER

AND HE’S LIKE THINKING THAT SHE HATES HIM FOR WHAT HE DID AND THAT THIS IS STILL ABOUT HIS PAST AND HIM NOT BEING ABLE TO FORGIVE HIMSELF WHICH HE STILL THINKS IS A SOLITARY PUNISHMENT FOR HIM TO BEAR. THIS IS SO FUCKED BUT LIKE IN MY EXPERIENCE MOST FIGHTS HAPPEN LIKE THIS? IN THE MIDST OF EMOTION AND ANGER AND NOT BEING ABLE TO COMMUNICATE BECAUSE OF THOSE THINGS?

AND THEN SHE’S HIT HER BOILING POINT AND SHE IS LIKE YOU LEAN ON ME!

HOOK SHE CALLS HIM UGH AND I DIED WHILE ALSO CHEERING FOR HER BECAUSE YES BUTTHEAD, YOU LEAN ON HER.

BUT SEE KILLIAN JONES HAS WALLS OK? WALLS AF. AND I FEEL LIKE WE HAVE HANDLED SO MANY OF EMMA’S DEMONS. HER FEARS OF BETRAYAL AND ABANDONMENT SO MUCH, THAT WE SOMETIMES MISS THE FACT THAT KILLIAN DOESN’T REALLY LEAN ON ANYONE BECAUSE HE’S ALWAYS THOUGHT THAT THIS BURDEN OF HIS PAST WAS HIS TO BEAR BECAUSE IT WAS ALL HIS FAULT AND

WHO WOULD EVER WANT TO BEAR THOSE BURDENS WITH HIM? THIS RINGS SO TRUE FOR ME? EMMA’S NOT THE ONLY ONE WITH WALLS YK? LIKE HE’S ALWAYS BEEN SO OPEN WITH HIS FEELINGS FOR HER BUT HE’S ALWAYS STRUGGLED WITH THOSE FEELINGS ABOUT DESERVING HER AND I AM JUST SO SAD RN

LIKE EMMA’S REACTION IS ALSO SO TYPICAL OF HER AND HER OWN WALLA WHERE HER IMMEDIATE REACTION IS TO TAKE A STEP BACK BECAUSE SHE FEELS INCREDIBLY SAD ABOUT THIS WHOLE THING. AND IT’S NOT THAT SHE WANTS TO BREAK UP WITH HIM SO MUCH AS SHE WANTS TO SEE IF HE WILL FIGURE IT OUT AND COME BACK. SHE’S NOT JUDGING HIM OR PASSING A SENTENCE, SHE’S GIVING HIM A CHANCE TO FIGURE HIMSELF OUT LIKE SHE DID IN THE UNDERWORLD BUT FAR LESS ARTICULATELY.

BUT THERE’S ANOTHER COMMUNICATION THING HERE BECAUSE KILLIAN FUCKING JONES IS LIKE FUCK MY WORST FEARS HAVE COME TRUE

HE HAS BEEN IMAGINING THIS NIGHTMARE FOR SO LONG NOW THAT ONCE IT HAPPENS, HE CANNOT THINK THAT SHE MIGHT WANT HIM BACK

HE CANNOT THINK OF THE SENSIBLE MATURE THING BECAUSE THE NIGHTMARE THAT LIVED IN HIS HEAD AND HAD BECOME REALITY THEREFORE ALL THINGS THAT HE HAD THOUGHT ABOUT HIMSELF NOT DESERVING HER MUST BE TRUE RIGHT?

WHICH IS WHY HE GOES TO THE FUCKING NAUTILUS LIKE THE FUCK YOU IDIOT.

THIS IS GREAT AND I LOVED IT. 

[breathes]

it just felt real you know? like half finished sentences and tangents that go off to weird places and hyperbole and extrapolation. people do this shit when they fight and because it felt so real, I am so fucking hurt ugh kill me dead.

but also pls send me hugs, I need them.

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I am definitely mixed. Both my parents are mixed. I have white family on both sides. The older I get, the more I experience life, I am identifying more and more with being black, and what that means — being more and more proud of that and feeling connected to my roots and my history. It’s been a really interesting journey because I was always one of the only black kids in any of my schools. I went to private schools full of white kids. I think a lot of that made me want to blend in or not be looked at as black. The white kids are always talking about your hair and making you feel weird. I had this struggle of accepting myself as black and loving that part of myself. And now I’m so in love with my culture and so proud to be black. It’s still ongoing, but a big shift has occurred. My dad especially has always been very connected to his history, and it’s important to him that I understand where I come from.