sorry if I'm late but can you do one with "I'm supposed to die dumb ass!" love ur writing btw
“I’m supposed to die dumb ass!”
You weren’t sure how long you had been laying there, it simultaneously felt like a forever but also a matter of seconds. It might have been the trauma to your head or the way your blood was seeping out of the wound in your abdomen but whatever it was it was making everything feel muted, like the end of a movie where everything begins to fade out.
It took effort to look at whoever’s hand was pressing against your wound, even in the drowsy state you were in you could recognise that mop of curly brown hair from a mile away. You didn’t want Spencer to see you like this but there was little you could do apart from stare at him, pondering what you were meant to say to him: I’m sorry, I love you, I’m glad I got to spent even a second of my life with you. There were too many things and too little off time.
“(Y/N) you’re going to be fine, just keep your eyes open.” There were no medics on the way and Spencer knew that, it had been your idea to go after the unsub and if it wasn’t for Spencer insisting he tag along you would have been alone. He’d tried to call but there was no reception, the whole world was going on around him while his was dying in his arms.
“I’m supposed to die, dumb ass.” You tried to laugh but it hurt too much, the feeling of your body slowing emptying itself of blood was a horrific one, yet somehow made you feel strangely calm. “We’re meant to protect people, I did my job.”
“You don’t have to die to do that.” Spencer’s voice shook as he applied more pressure onto your wound, trying to stop whatever blood you had left in your body. You were turning paler by the second, the rosy glow you usually wore had faded away leaving behind the body of a girl ready to be buried. “You can’t- please don’t leave me.”
You wanted to reach up and wipe away the tears streaming down his face, you wanted to kiss him and tell him that you loved him more than the ocean loved the shoreline, more than lonely eyes loved the moon on dark nights, but you couldn’t. You didn’t.