When you’re gone.
Hi! Thank you so much for sending in the request. I wasn’t quite sure what you meant with it but I just interpreted it as I see it so, hope you enjoy this angst. I wanted it to be really filled with angst but this is as much as I could give at the moment. We have finally less than 20 requests for me to go through and soon, I will be opening the requests once more! That aside, thank you and hope you enjoy this.
“This is your fault!” Damian all but screams and this really surprises everyone in the entire room. They have never heard Damian raise his voice like this and they also have never heard the raw emotion in his voice. “If you had let her go on the mission with us, none of this would have happened!” Damian is just shouting at a random direction – it did not even matter at that moment. Nothing else mattered anymore.
He lets the tears fall and he drops to the floor, holding on to one of the sweatshirts that you really loved to wear – it had been the last thing you had been wearing and it was bloodied and torn, here and there and it is probably going to be a constant reminder for him that he had failed you. He had failed you and disappointed you!
Dick approaches Damian and places a hand on the little bird’s shoulder. “Damian…”
Damian shrugs Dick’s hand off of his shoulders, glaring at him. “This is your fault too!” He roars in anger and tries to throw a punch at Dick but because he had miscalculated his distance with Dick, Damian almost face-plant instead.
“Damian, please.” Dick knows Damian is just saying those words in anger – he knows Damian needed someone to vent out all of the anger in him. But he knows. He knows what it was like to lose someone they love – someone that they cherished. Dick knows very well – he lost his parents at a very young age but that didn’t mean he didn’t know how it felt. So he knows just how hurt Damian is.
Damian cries out your name as Dick gathers Damian in his arms. He hugs Damian tightly. Wanting his little brother to know that he is there for him. He knows the bad place one can go too during times like this – he went through it before too.
Jason’s body is trembling in anger. He was by no means close to you mostly because Damian always get super hissy and protective whenever Jason is around but he knows you enough to respect you and your skills. The two of you would often talk about a lot of stuff whenever Damian was not around – i.e. when he went to go on his solo missions – and he has certainly come to look at you as his youngest sister. The fact that you are gone and cannot be brought back to life is just a fucking stab to the heart. It almost feels like death all over again.
Bruce is frozen, still and the words Damian shouted all but rang on a loop in his ears. He stumbles slightly and would probably have fallen to his knees if Alfred and Tim had not caught him, supporting him.
Tim has tears running down his eyes. The fact that you are no longer around and the fact that Damian actually has other emotions and is showing these raw emotions had been too much for Tim. He has always loved talking with you and geeking out with you whenever there were new technologies as well as conspiracy theories. The latter was more of a common thing though and now that you are no longer around, who is Tim going to talk to whenever he has a new conspiracy theory?
Damian cries like he has never cried before, clutching your sweatshirt close to his chest. He is never going to be able to forget this day – he will never be the same ever again after this, Damian knows as much. You are one of the reasons as to why Damian is the better person he is today. Now that you are dead, Damian is just so angry and hurt.