also the way you try to avoid the camera

105 pound difference between these two photos. Size 22 to Size 12. This is the only picture I have at my highest weight and it’s so dark and grainy, you can’t really see the horror. I’ve been trying to track down more, but I did a fairly good job of avoiding the camera. Honestly, this photo is really embarrassing for me, even now. The photo on the right was this weekend, on my way to a party that I was happy to attend. I avoided parties when I was bigger, mostly for lack of fashion options, but also because I didn’t want to be seen. I only went to this event because it was a good friends wedding and I only posed for this picture because she was standing next to me.