Im so puzzled by magnus' reaction after alec told him he'd like his support as a warlock leader not a boyfriend. At first i thought he was just happy that alec called him his boyfriend but then i saw someone on tumblr saying that he looked sad and now i cant unsee it and idk if he was sad or nah heelppp what do you think magnus felt, im so confused
Yeah, I think that scene perfectly shows how insecure Magnus is and how much his self-esteem has suffered after the body swap. Like, yes, Alec wants Magnus by his side the whole time as he said, but he also mentioned that he pretty much only wants him there as a representative of the warlocks—not as his boyfriend. (They clearly suck at keeping it professional in the end but this is another story!)
So, to Magnus it must look now that Alec isn’t comfortable enough to state publicly like, yes, Magnus is his boyfriend and yes he is also here because he is the High Warlock of Brooklyn. (when in fact only the downworlder gossip club is here, so …..) Normally, Magnus probably wouldn’t make a big thing out of this, but after the whole Azazel/body swap thing, this goes way deeper. (He actually didn’t smile a little bit when Alec called him his boyfriend, this really says a lot!) Which you can also see that Magnus immediately asks if he did something wrong. He really has trouble to keep the facade of him being okay and all but in fact, he is not. Not just because of this phone call, but because after what had happened. He is so hurt deep inside. Like, you can pretty much see how much he has to pull himself together and not break down, but continue to play it all cool. Like, there is still the trust issue thing between Magnus and Alec that Alec didn’t believe him at first when Magnus!Valentine told him that omamori story and had to live through all the torture and those haunted memories from his past. Thing is, they haven’t really talked about it and so this still stands between them and it will all come together in the next ep.