Chapter 3 of “The Newsflash That Broke Emma Swan”
Warning: In this chapter, Emma tells Codfish about her love for Regina, so he’s in it. Also because he’s in it, there is an “unwanted” kiss, as well as a brief mention of their relationship. Another trigger warning is “domestic abuse” (when did you think you’d ever see THAT in a juicecupswanqueen post?). I promise you, there is no other kisses betweem Emma and Codfish ever again. This is very much a Swan Queen Story.
The dark of night shrouds the house in shadows when Emma creeps in through the front door. She hopes that he’s asleep. Please, let him be asleep.
Now, that she has had hours to replay the scene from that afternoon in her head, guilt and shame weigh heavily. Her swallow is hard to force down as her insides thrash about.
She tries to dissect her feelings. There is no shame in loving Regina; she has always loved Regina. But, there is disgrace in how she behaved so wantonly, while still attached to someone else.
All those years ago, when she arrived that first night in Storybrooke, she was instantly fascinated by Regina Mills, and over the next few weeks, it turned into an embarrassing crush, but she hardly admitted that to anyone, including herself. Then, as time went on, it transformed into deep caring, though she tried to convince herself it was because Regina was Henry’s other mother and he cared about her. She hadn’t expected to forge such an important connection to a woman, who by all means, was trying to kill her.