also excited about next week

SCARY ASS UPDATE

Hello everyone! 

OMG I AM SO FUCKING SORRY ABOUT MY INACTIVITY LATELY!

But i finally feel ready ready to explain to you guys why i have been so inactive lately, i am still REAAALLLLY nervous to tell you guys but i feel that you are all a big part of my life so i wanted to tell you and i didn’t want to keep it to myself any longer. 

Okay, so i’ve been incredibly sick for the last month or so and a lot of different things followed shortly after that led me to this very moment now to tell you guys. I AM SO FUCKING NERVOUS BUT…..

I GOING TO BE HAVING A BABY! I AM WITH CHILD! THERE IS A BUN IN THE OVEN!

I don’t know if you guys will care or not but i felt like i should tell you and explain why i haven’t been around lately. I am so excited but also really nervous too. I know this isn’t OP related and being pregnant isn’t really going to stop me from being here, in fact i should be back up and running in a couple of days now that i feel so much better lately! 

I just hope you guys continue to support me and i hope this news doesn’t affect our friendship in any way. 

I AM JUST SO GLAD I GOT THAT OFF MY CHEST!

my mum let me infodump all the way home in the car a couple of days ago and it was really nice… she said she’d like to watch some of my shows with me because she’d like to know more about the american comedians i like!! yay i’m excited

So here’s the thing, I feel semi confident that next week is going to be satisfying for carylers. The fact that they’re hiding the reunion annoys me but is a good thing, means there’s something important there to hide, right? I also am not bothered by Ezekiel being so curious about Carol this ep or about the kid saying he cares about her, of course he does, this is Carol we’re talking about. I can also see them setting it up so that once Ezekiel finds out about Caryl he legit ships them and steps the fuck aside like…ohhhhh, now I see.

So yeah, I’m excited about next week. I am also terrified that this show will break my fucking heart and give me another “Consumed” which was great and a bunch of shit happened but NOTHING REALLY HAPPENED. And if that’s the case it’s been swell, I had a good run. I will need ten years of therapy to correct my ability to let this show get close again because it’ll be like the boyfriend that keeps texting and you know he’s bad news but he says sweet things sometimes…

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someone has probably pointed this out before but the corrupted gem that’s seen crawling out of the ocean in one of the new (official) previews looks a lot like crazy lace agate, and seeing as bismuth is seen saying “where’s the rest of them? … crazy lace!” etc etc, it would certainly make sensse

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“I came up with the title ‘Mobile Orchestra’ because I travel and make music all the time and that’s what the title means. Inspiration doesn’t care about convenience so I often find myself working in hotel rooms, on airplanes, trains, tour buses, backstage in the green room, even outside on the patio at my house.”

A beach day with calum would be so cute like you would do that really cheesy thing where you draw a heart in the sand and write your names in it and you would look for seashells together and when he found a pretty one he would give it to you and say “Its beautiful, it reminded me of you” and you’d kind of give him a look bc like it was a cheesy line but secretly you’d be flattered and he’d carry you into the water and drop you in when it was deep enough and you’d pop right back up and drag him down with you and he’d be all shirtless and looking fine and his back ugh and his skin would be all glowy from the sun and he’d smell like sunscreen and salt water and you’d cuddle up together under the blanket you’d brought and watch the sun set and lay on your backs together your faces inches apart like Hazel and Augustus on The Fault in Our Stars movie poster and just talk about anything and everything and you’d take such cute coupley pictures and you’d have your hair all wet and sand all over but it wouldn’t matter because you knew calum always thought you looked good why am i not at a beach right now