also anyone know the source

name: [I would rather not reveal my name publicly.]
gender: Female
eye color: Hazel
hair color: Light brown
relationship: Single
zodiac: Cancer

favorite color: Green
favorite season: Winter
favorite place: Home
favorite holiday: Christmas, my dad makes an amazing turkey
favorite video game: Journey
last show you watched: Disco Heat

what’s your honest opinion about your muse? Dude I have no idea what to say that won’t make it look like I’m patting myself on the back. I mean, I made Auro, what do I even say? Of course I like him but I’m not going to dote over him.

would you date your muse? I cannot think of a single reason why that’s a good idea

what are your favorite kinds of threads? Any threads as long as there is no explicit sexual content.

are you a selective roleplayer? Not really, I’m fairly open.

do you have a favorite muse (if you have more than one)? I have Auro, Karthus and another OC who I haven’t done anything with. So my favourite would be Auro by far.

what made you decide to join the fandom? I previously had League blogs, so the main fandom I interact with is that one. Before that, I followed a couple of League RP blogs on my personal before making the jump myself.

do you see yourself staying with the fandom for a long time? Sure, why not?

tagging: if you see this you are tagged no takebacks

tagged by: nobody i am a loser


You always have neat things to say, so I have a question for you. In the upcoming crossover trailer, Mick mentions to Kara that he burned his family alive. This sort of surprised me, because I don’t think that is necessarily information Mick would casually share–especially to someone he just met. I don’t even think the original Legends team knew (besides Len and maybe Rip) before the Pilgrim, so why the sudden sharing of backstory?

My personal opinion is that Mick’s trying to put her off. Kara comes across as someone who blatantly likes to help and bond with anyone she comes across, and because Mick is not sure he deserves that help he tries to push her away with the ugliest bits about him. He needs to be undesirable, unforgiven. He’s still grieving; he doesn’t want anyone having touchy-feely moments with him or getting too close, so he adds familicide to his “animal/IQ of meat” front so people will leave him the fuck alone.

What do you think?

Originally posted by fatedxdestiny

I mostly agree with you, though I don’t think it’s coming purely from a place of self-loathing because he needs to remain unforgiven (in his own mind). I think it’s more that he keeps others away, at arm’s length, for fear that they will confirm all of his most negative thoughts and feelings about himself if he lets them in. By keeping the angry front, the ‘deliberately being an ass’ behavior I’ve talked about, at the forefront, it means that if people don’t like him or don’t respect him and his intellect, it’s because of that, and not because of the parts of himself he actually feels vulnerable about. For instance, it’s one thing to have your intellect insulted when you’re playing dumb, and totally another to have it insulted when you’re trying your hardest to be smart, or thought you had done something clever.

So him telling Kara about his past seems to me to come from that place: having to keep her away because like you said, she’s warm and sweet and wants to see the best in people and reach out to them, and that would make Mick feel quite vulnerable (especially because he might unconsciously think: what if she sees the best in everyone else but still hates me? what would that say about me?). Finding bigger tools with which to push her away (e.g., mentioning the familicide) makes sense in that lens then. “She’ll hate me for that” and he’s safe again, from letting people in, and the vulnerability that comes along with it.

Beyond that, a slightly less in-depth reading is just that, like you said, no one knew before (except Len), but now everyone he works with does, thanks to The Pilgrim. The secret’s out. And he might want to be the person to tell his own secrets before anyone else can tell it behind his back. Putting it front and center because he knows he can’t hide from it anymore, so it adds it to his arsenal and armor instead.

And finally, I think we also need to consider the impact that seeing his younger self had on him. Technically, a stay at that house with Rip’s foster mom has been added to his past now, right? Even if he was returned to the same moment in time from which he left so his absence wasn’t noticed, he should still have gained that memory at some point (same with teen!Sara actually). Hearing from his older self might have impacted how he ultimately coped with it. 

Alternately, if that’s not the case (because Legends and continuity are not friends so maybe we shouldn’t assume he’d remember his stay at that place), he still talked to his younger self. Mick’s had that event as a memory, something he did. Now he got to see it as something this young teenager did. Still him, but the contrast between him now and him at that age is stark. He can see that he was just a scared boy who didn’t mean to do it, who has all these walls up. He’s been confronted with that reality, and now that he has, it might mean that he’s being more open about what happened. It was a mistake, and though I’m sure he’ll always blame himself for it, he can recognize that it was an accident, in a way he might not have let himself before seeing that young scared kid.

Is That Okay?

Title: Is That Okay? 

Dean x Reader

Word Count: 195

*Imagine Dean sneaking into your bed for comfort*

The mattress shifting slightly is what woke you up. The springs groaned under Dean’s weight and you rolled towards the depression his body created. Rubbing your eyes in the dark,you tried to process this turn of events, unsuccessfully, through a drowsyhaze.

“Is that okay?” He murmurs, voice breaking. Humming your consent sleepily, you lift the blankets for him to edge under and the cool air kissed your skin for a second before you’re enveloped in a cocoon of warmth once more. 

His warm hand edges over the curve of waist, followed by his trembling arm snaking around your body. He pulls you in slowly until your back is wedged against his front.

Fumbling to turn around, a tiny spike of panic cuts through your sluggish state and your t-shirt bunches up in your struggle. 

“Are you okay?”

You squint through your sleep at him, his face leaving your heart in a thousand tiny shards. The weight of it all finally showing. In the creases of his brow, in his pleading expression, the dark bruises under his eyes. And in the unshed pain in his eyes.

The bit that cuts you most of all, is his tiny mouthed “no”.