alright-i-have-expressed-my-feelings

I feel like I always have a sock in my mouth (is that even the right expression?) I have so many feelings and opinions about Robron and I think they are actually quite alright (my opinions ;) ) but every time I write them down or try to get them across I feel like I have done it wrong. It’s not a great feeling and every time I think that I feel anxious and think I should just stop writing them down, but then I can’t help myself and do it again.

Yeah, sorry, this is a mess again. If you ever see a text post by me and it rubs you the wrong way please come in my ask and tell me, because chances that I meant to do that are next to nothing.

Repressing Anger

Imagine: Being the only one who can calm Kol down when he’s angry.

“Says the Original who was staked for most of his life,” Damon hisses, rolling his eyes. You can see the angered expression on Kol’s face, and when he gets angry… no one is safe.

“Good going, Damon. If you weren’t my brother, i’d let him kill you,” you growl, running over to Kol and placing your hands on his cheeks, looking up into his eyes. However, his remain fixed on Damon’s, anger and hatred passing through them.

“Kol, it’s okay. You don’t have to win, alright? I don’t want to have to choose between my family and the man I love,” you gulp down your fear as you admit your feelings for Kol.

What?” Damon coughs, as if he was choking. Clearly, the news had hit him by surprise.

“You… what?” Kol’s eyes flash back to normal before he looks down at you, features turning soft and caring.

“You heard me, Mikaelson. But it’d be nice if you didn’t try to kill my brother. It doesn’t matter that Damon thinks your’re too weak for me because you’ve been in a coffin most of your vampire life. All that matters is that you’re here now, and you’re with me. Damon doesn’t have any control over who I date. If we had control over who dated who, well, my brother’s wouldn’t be vampires and we’d be dead right now, in a grave. Besides, you’re an Original. When you die, you take out all that you’ve bitten with you, so you have the power to control vampires, in a way. Everyone’s frightened of the Mikaelson’s,” You smile sweetly, letting go of his cheeks. But instead of letting your hands fall back to your body, Kol grabs them and entwines your fingers together.

“Thank you,” Kol whispers, pulling on your hands and causing you to collapse into his chest. He kisses the top of your head and holds your body to his with his closest arm, “goodbye, Damon. We’ll see you later… as in after you can’t do anything about our relationship.”

His look here breaks my hearts. 

David Tennant can express a hundred plus emotions in one single look while being Alec Hardy (really any character he plays), and it’s genius, yet it hurts so much because you want to do everything in your power to make him feel alright to take away all those bad emotions to fix him. But you can’t, you have to watch and wait and hope he will be okay later on, that he will really be happy, and not just for a brief moment, but really truly happy. And this is why David is such a phenomenal actor because he makes you fall for his characters no matter how broken they seem. 

„Tony?“ Steve asks softly. „Tony, are you alright?“

“I just… People forget, you know.”

Steve stops, maybe three steps from his lover, who’s sitting on the couch with his knees drawn upwards to his chest and his arms wrapped around them. It looks like Tony’s trying to defend himself against the world and the expression on his face is also one Steve is not familiar with.

It almost looks like fear.

“People forget what, Tony?”, Steve presses gently. It concerns him to see the brunet so out of it, so… haunted.

Tony appears to be looking straight through him, at something only he can see when he answers:

“People forget just how long I was in that cave. They cared about how I was captured. They cared about my escape. But no one- No one’s ever stopped and thought about how long three months are. Three months can feel like an eternity, Steve. So much that can happen… I-”

He sighs and presses his forehead against his knees, hunching in on himself even more. Steve’s heart aches at the view, but he doesn’t know if it’s oaky to touch Tony yet, so he waits.

“Sometimes I wasn’t sure I’d live to see another day. Wasn’t sure if the shrapnel would kill me, or one of the terrorists would just… lose his patience or whatever.”

I don’t really care about music like that. For me music is all about a form, the only thing you have to ask yourself with any music whether it’s pop or where it comes from like boy bands or whatever it is, is it an honest form of expression or not. If it is , if it is someone honestly expressing themselves regardless of how they’re doing it, then it’s alright to like it.

I like pop music, I grew up around melodies dictating my life, not lyrics, you know what I mean? I love Leonard Cohen, I love people with insanely incredible lyrical narratives that change the way that you are like Dylan, but I also love Whitney and just massive big melodies and there’s nothing wrong with that. People need to get over themselves a little bit, people need to stop worrying about music being such a projection of your personality, it doesn’t matter if you like the last Justin Bieber album which was amazing, quote, amazing record.

CL Controversy

I usually try to keep away from angering stuff or expressing my opinions on this blog unless I’m asked, but I have seen way too many posts on my dash, and I feel like sharing how i feel.

I am in no way saying that what CL did was a-okay but SOME PEOPLE ARE BLOWING IT WAY OUT OF PORTION. Yep, that’s right. I feel like most people I’ve seen angry about this whole thing are non muslims and some of them are trolls trying to take advantage of the situations. I understand some of you are trying to make things alright, and there is nothing wrong in being a social justice person, or a person who believes in it, and i understand you want to be offended for your fellow muslim fans but some of you are over exaggerating stuff.

Since earlier today I’ve been seeing posts about this whole thing on my dash, now I said nothing because I usually try to keep away from fandom drama, but then I saw that it involved the Quran and people sending death threats, being muslim I was like ‘Oh no’ because you know the Quran is very holy. Based on what I saw I expected her to actually have a Surat in the song, which is totally not ok, but than i found out that it was just the voice of a boy reading the Quran and even then, you can’t hear a single phrase from the Quran. Now i am not saying that Cl should have done it, but it is not such a big deal as to send her death threats. People are talking about how it offends muslims and how disrespectful it is, but as a muslim, personally, I am not offended. I am not saying others won’t be, they have the right to feel whatever they want to feel, but to me it is not such a big deal.

Earlier I even had my grandmother listen to it, my grandmother is a very religious person who spends her day reading the Quran, now she doesn’t listen to music a lot unless it is the melodic reading of the Quran, but I begged her to listen on the phone earlier and my grandmother was in no way offended, maybe because i hadn’t told her the background of the voice, but if my grandmother, one of the most religious people i know listened to it, and could not find anything Quran related to it, then it is not that offensive to me, of course that doesn’t change the fact that she till used a snip from a boy reading the Quran but it wasn’t at the length of it being offensive.

If you are really offended you can try making a petition, messaging yg, ANYTHING to politely tell him that you would like the song modified as you don’t feel comfortable, or you can ignore it. But sending death threats is not the answer, by the way if you are a muslim who is offended and you are sending death threats, i dont know what to say to you because you are contradicting yourself as you are offended for your religion but you are also going against the part of the religion where it says that by causing someone to die when it isn’t to protect oneself is the same as killing. Basically if Cl was the type to listen to your words and actually killed herself, you would be a sinner.

Yes I know CL has a history of appropriating cultures, and she should probably try to keep away from things like this, but some of you are taking it too far.

thoughts on “ace discourse”

Alright. Okay. I’ve stood in my little corner of this godforsaken site and have mostly kept to myself. But goddammit I am about to get out of my lane like a rogue eighteen-wheeler because what I’ve been seeing and hearing is utter bullshit that must be addressed.

So. “Ace Discourse.” A lot of people think that Aces and Aros (I’m going to apologize right now for expressing this argument mostly in pov of Aces, simply because I am not Aro. Any Aro who comes across this, though, feel free to add your thoughts.) don’t belong in the LGBTQ+ Community. Which, let’s face it, is complete bullshit. I’ll do my best to make this argument as sound and simple as I can, but I’m a bit pissed off and ready for blood, so please excuse any possible ramblings.

Let’s start with the most obvious point: the acronym of LGBTQ+. As we all (hopefully) know by now, there’s an ‘A’ at the end! And what in the great wide fuck could that ‘A’ possibly stand for??? I’ll give you a hint: it’s not for allies. It’s for Asexual and Aromantic folk. Simple as that. Now, I sort of understand where all the confusion comes from. Once upon a time the acronym was this: LGBTTQQIAAP. That’s a lot of letters. You’ll take particular notice of the double ‘A’s. One was for allies, yes, but the other was for Asexuals and Aromantics. When the acronym was later reduced to LGBTQIA, the ‘A’ began standing for Asexuals and Aromantics. Not allies.

(@ allies I’m not saying y’all suck. Thanks for the help. But let us Aces and Aros have our space)

It’s obvious that Aces and Aros do have a place in the Community, a place that we are continuously being shoved away from.

Now, you’re probably thinking “Aces/Aros don’t belong! They’re not being oppressed! We’ve got people being beaten for being gay and being killed for being trans!” Well, that’s true. We’re not typically being beaten and killed (I don’t think). However, (and this is where I’m speaking as an Asexual, apologies that I’ll be leaving Aros out.) there’s this thing called “corrective rape.” Definitions vary, but what it boils down to is: a person raping another person in hopes to make them straight. Now, I understand that this happens all across the LGBT+ and not solely to Asexuals, but when someone says “I don’t want sex,” one of the first replies is “I bet I could fix that.” Sometimes it escalates, sometimes it doesn’t.

Need another example of oppression? Most people don’t think Asexuals exist. Or, better yet, it’s a psychological/physiological problem. Hell, when I came out to my father he laughed, told me that sex is a what makes us human, and said that one day I’d meet a nice guy who’d fix that for me. I’ve got some qualms with his argument:

1) “Sex is what makes us human.” Seriously. Seriously??? So all other emotions should be null and void. So a deer is a human. A turtle is a human. A fly is a human. Well it’s obviously true, because sex is what makes us human, and deer and turtles and flies all have sex, so therefore they must be human as well. In fact, if sex is what makes us human, just how human are we? It could be argued that the average wild rabbit has more sex than a human does in a month during it’s mating season. Is the rabbit more human than humans? Are we being out-humaned?

2) Asexuals don’t need to be fixed. There is abso-fucking-lutely nothing wrong with us, no matter what end of the spectrum we’re on.

Asexual but like sex? Congrats, you’re an Ace! Had a trauma and are now Asexual? Congrats, you’re an Ace! Asexual and sex-repulsed? Congrats, you’re an Ace! And everyone in between – as long as you identify as an Asexual, you are an Ace. There’s no “being Ace enough.” That’s utter fucking bullshit.

Heteroromantic? Biromantic? Aromantic? Panromantic? Any-other-romantic? Hey, as long as you’re Asexual it doesn’t matter what your romantic orientation is – you’re Ace!

I’ll be honest – I get it. I get it when people say that Acephobia doesn’t exist. I get where they’re coming from. But Acephobia does exist. The society we live in (in the US, at least) is incredibly obsessed with sex. We’ve got TV shows where every ten minutes someone is nude and/or getting it on. Movies have random sex scenes (not to mention random romances) thrown in just for the hell of it. When someone says “I don’t want sex,” or “I don’t feel sexual attraction,” the majority of the reactions are going to be rude, incredulous, and/or creepy (ie: “I bet I can fix that”). So yeah, the hatred of Aces is a bit easier to overlook, a bit harder to detect. But that doesn’t mean it doesn’t happen.

Like, come on. We’re people. We’re humans. When something doesn’t fit the status quo, we lash out at it and hate it. It’s what we do.

And goddamn, it’s so incredibly disheartening to be kicked out of what is supposed to be a safe space. Then, when Aces do make their own space, they’re still kicking people out who “aren’t Ace enough.”

For fuck’s sake. We’re nothing more than a speck of dust floating on a tiny rock in a small solar system. In the grand scheme of things, we’re miniscule. We’re nothing. What we do doesn’t matter unless we make it matter, so we’ve got to stick together. We’ve got to make ourselves matter.

tl;dr - So get off your high damned horse. If you say you’re Asexual, you’re asexual. This “not Ace enough” bullshit is just that – bullshit. Asexuals belong in the LGBT+ community. Our battles and hardships may not be as big and obvious as, say, being Gay/Lesbian, but that doesn’t mean we don’t have them. Some of us still can’t come out to our families. Some of us look over our shoulders after coming out, hoping that one of our friends doesn’t decide to take it upon themselves to “fix us.”

Asexuals belong in the LGBT+ Community. That’s all there is to it.

(And feel free to disagree, but for the love of all that is holy, contribute an actual argument. None of this “ding dong you are wrong.” Back yourself up. Defend what you believe in. Hash it out with me. That “feel free to fight me” I have in my bio isn’t just for show. Seriously, let’s talk some of this shit out. Let’s grow up.)

My rant about what I need out of 3x15 of The Originals

Alright, so I decided to make this because I just watched 3x14 and I have a lot of feels that need to be expressed. And I have a lot of expectations for the next episode. 

First off, I need a lot of Davina and Kol next episode. I’ve been waiting too damn long for Kol to come back and I just need it. I need like half this episode dedicated to Kolvina. 

Second, Cami. Like, I need to know what’s up with that girl. I need my Klamille. 

Third, I need to know where Kol stands with his brothers. Like, I know when he died the three brothers and Rebecca were all basically besties. But in the promo, he didn’t seem too pleased with Niklaus. I don’t know if that was because Klaus attacked Davina or if Kol is back to hating his family. I really hope it’s the first one and not the ladder because I really liked it when the Mikaelson family got along. 

Fourth, I need to know my baby Klaus is safe. I was upset when his sire line was broken. Like, I understand why Davina did what she did but, it made me angry anyway. I don’t like it when my baby feels vulnerable. 

Fifth, I need to know how Kol feels about Freya. I know they met long ago because Kol invited her to a Christmas party centuries ago. But he didn’t know Freya was his sister. And I don’t believe Freya had been introduced as their sister when Kol died, I don’t think she’d even shown up yet. Someone please correct me if I’m wrong. So like, are they going to get along as siblings or…??? 

So yeah, as of right now, this is what I need. Please feel free to add to this. I probably will. 

chaoticxneutrality

Hansol blinks up at Jongin with a falsely innocent expression, his hands insistent and following. “Your energies are all tangled and blocked. I thought I’d lend a hand.”


“My… energies?” Jongin raises a brow, his own hands dropping in front of his crotch to protect himself from the hands. “Uh. My energies are fine, thanks?” He tries. “Are you feeling okay? Do you need me to take you to a hospital? Do you have… medicine or something you need to take?” 

Alright. Finally. My thoughts.

On this entire situation.  I’ve mulled over how to approach it here.  I have followers and follow people who are in camp True Love, and followers and follow people who are in camp ShamWow.  Everyone is entitled to believe what they want, and express it how they want. 

That said, these are my feelings, and my feelings alone:

I really don’t fucking care any more.  Right now, as of this writing, I don’t. Fucking. Care.  Maybe that will change tomorrow, or in the next hour, or whatever, but at this particular moment in time, I AM SO FUCKING SICK OF IT.  I can’t even look for Chairs I’m so sick of it.  I don’t even WANT to.  It has overshadowed everything: The Imitation Game, the awards and accolades it has received, Benedict’s performance- everything that we should be excited for this time of year has been shoved to the wayside to make room for drama.  It’s overshadowed Setlock, Dr. Strange, and Hamlet. 

Fifty percent of me thinks he was “playing with his currency” as the UK’s Most Wanted Bachelor, seeing her casually, and got her knocked up accidentally (oops babies aren’t as difficult as people think, even in your 30’s) at the most inconvenient time in his career ever.  (We’ve all seen DrunkBatch, would it really be that much of a surprise that DrunkBatch didn’t wrap it up??)  The engagement happened to save face, she’ll have the kid, they’ll get joint custody and go on their separate ways.  In the meantime he has to ride out all the PR claptrap that comes with being an in demand star with a baby on the way.  The other half thinks there’s more sinister things happening behind the scenes.  Actually, no, not “thinks”-  KNOWS there are more sinister things going on- but how deep and sinister is what’s in question.   

HOWEVER: regardless of how the engagement and pregnancy/whatever the hell it is came about, or whether or not any of it is real, there is one thing that I am 100% positive of: this is not a healthy relationship and it is destroying the man from the inside out.  You have to be blind to not notice the changes in his personality, even in the way he carries himself.  He looks physically ill to me.  I have seen people go down the toxic relationship road before, and it is a terrible thing to witness.  It’s like a slow motion car accident. 

I don’t know how this is going to play out, I’m not sure how long I can stick it out to find out, to be honest.  I only hope in the end Benedict can regain and retain the reputation he built for himself as an astounding actor, and THAT is what sticks with people throughout his career: not whomever he chooses to marry or how it came about.

“Good morning”
“How was your day?”
“Be careful”
“Text me when you get home to know you’re safe”
“Sweet dreams”
“I hope you feel better”
“How are you?”
“Have fun”
“I miss you”
“Good night”
“Can you come over?”
“Can I meet you?”
“Can I call you?”
“Do you want to drink something?”
“Let’s watch a movie”
“Let me hug you”
“What are you up to?”
“Everything is going to be alright”
“I’m here for you”
“Are you hungry?”
“Do you need anything?”
“I just wanted to hear your voice”
“You made my day”


You don’t have to hear “I love you” to know that someone is feeling that way. Listen. People express their souls more often than you thought they did.

Title: Odds Are (We’re Gonna Be Alright)

Pairing: Michael/Gavin

Word Count: ~2,600

Rated: PG-13

Summary: Michael is really going to miss 636

A/N: Named for the Barenaked Ladies song “Odds Are”. This is completely self-indulgent. Basically my own sad feelings about the new office as expressed by Michael. Obviously a lot of artistic license was taken with the new office layout as I have no idea what it’s going to look like. Also this is so cheesy omg

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Monday

It was just a building, Michael reminded himself as he forcibly directed the car past the usual turning, so ingrained in his psyche that he his hand had been halfway to the turning signal before he remembered. And not even that great a building. It had been impractical and cramped. A labyrinth of rooms that connected at odd places, a building in two halves that meant you had to cross the car park if you wanted to use the microwave. The AH office was an overcrowded mess of machines and bodies that reached alarming temperatures in the warm weather and meant you couldn’t walk two steps with treading on something or someone. Half the team had even been in a separate location, several doors down. And yet. It had been home.

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SCANDAL; “Book” blogpost by RINA☆

「Starting from a search, the observation begins」Such a written text as on a copy of a book. In this unconcerned phrase, I feel keenly towards living in a SNS society. A ”?“ is immediately expressed when a "search” is done. Is that really alright I wonder.

※ This book that Rina’s reading now is titled ‘Modern Times’ (2008), by Japanese mystery fiction author, Isaka Koutarou.

SCANDAL; “Alteration Of Three Cold And Four Warm Days” blogpost by RINA☆

In front of the studio, I took a breather by having lunch alone. Tokyo’s warm days are increasing. I want to take off my jacket quickly. These days, we’re creating new songs.

anonymous asked:

I've had a crush on this girl for almost a year, and it's driving me crazy. She's so beautiful, smart, and funny, and I catch myself thinking about her all the time. There have been so many times I've tried to tell her how I feel, both in person and over text. I even have a message to her saved in my notes, for the day I am finally brave enough to tell her. I'm afraid she will not like me back and it will ruin our friendship, and it makes me really sad.

Hmmmmm that’s hard because I definitely understand not wanting to ruin the friendship. I think what’s most important is to emphasize how important she is to you, express your interest, but make sure she knows that if she doesn’t feel the same that’s alright and you still want her in your life. Hopefully though that’s not necessary and she does feel the same way! Honestly, I know its nerve wracking but as long as the conversation is respectful, its a huge compliment to have someone interest in you no matter how you feel back.