Sometimes I just wish I had someone to talk to who understands the struggles of living with trichotillomania. I don’t know how to deal with this anymore. I feel like I’ve tried everything, but I know I haven’t. I just don’t know what to do.
Current collection of books on or taking place in Russia – From L-R: Anna Karenina (Leo Tolstoy), The Kitchen Boy (Robert Alexander), Farewell to Matyora (Valentin Rasputin), Petersburg (Andrei Bely), Moscow to the End of the Line (Venedikt Erofeev), The Major Plays (Chekov), Ten Early Plays (Chekov), KINO: A History of the Russian and Soviet Film (Leyda), The Count Who Wished He Were A Peasant - Leo Tolstoy biography (Philipson), Russia and the Russians (Geoffrey Hosking), The Romanovs (Robert K. Massie), Nicholas and Alexandra (Robert K. Massie), George, Nicholas and Wilhelm (Miranda Carter), The Last Days of the Romanovs (Helen Rapport), Alex and Nicky (Virginia Rounding), Rasputin (Fuhrmann), A Lifelong Passion (Maylunas and Mironenko), The Escape of Alexei – Son of Tsar Nicholas II, and Tsar (Peter Kurth)
I’ll love you if -- you can spell correctly, use proper grammar, hold an intelligent conversation, and make me laugh/smile.
Someone you miss -- My sister-in-law Karen, my sister Brenda
Most traumatic experience -- Losing all of my hair. (27 - 29 inches total, by the time it was completely gone)
A fact about your personality -- I put up a facade to make people think I'm a bitch, but that's only because I want to protect myself. If a person tries to break through my wall, then I let the barriers down. But if they don't even care to try, I don't see the need to make them think differently.
What I hate most about myself -- Multiple things. My weight, trich, depression, anxiety, lack of social-life, lack of friends
What I love most about myself -- My open-mindedness.
What I want to be when I get older -- Actress, Film director/producer
My relationship with my sibling(s) -- Kevin = fantastic. David = Improving. Julie = Improving. Bobby = Quiet, but no problems. Derek = Perfect. One of my best friends, even though he's 17 years older than I am. Brenda = Never knew her... She died before I was born.
My relationship with my parent(s) >>> Dad = perfect. I'm Daddy's little girl, I can tell him anything. Mum = she's my best friend, but sweet Jesus.. Sometimes I just want to strangle her.
My idea of a perfect date -- Anything with a person that understands me.
My biggest pet peeves -- Incorrect spelling and grammar. Also, I absolutely loathe the word 'legit'
A description of the girl/boy I like -- I don't actually like anyone at the moment, surprisingly.
A description of the person I dislike the most -- Self-centered.
A reason I’ve lied to a friend -- To protect them.
What I hate the most about work/school -- The god damned people.
What your last text message says -- Forgot to tell you I love you this morning before I left for work, so I love you, Hannah Rose! (from my Mum this morning before school)
What words upset me the most -- Fat, Bitch, Failure, Bald.
What words make me feel the best about myself -- Pretty, Successful, Talented
What I find attractive in women -- Uhm, I don't really know, actually.
What I find attractive in men -- Intelligence.
Where I would like to live -- London, England; Oslo, Norway; St. Petersburg. Russia
One of my insecurities -- My weight.
My childhood career choice -- doctor
My favorite ice cream flavor -- Eskimo Kisses. (vanilla with chunks of fudge and coconut)
Who wish I could be -- Happy the way I am.
Where I want to be right now -- Right here, at home.
The last thing I ate -- Grilled Cheese
Sexiest person that comes to my mind immediately -- Tom Felton
A random fact about anything -- I have trichotillomania.