alone quotes

the moon was my
dearest friend and
every night we met
to talk about how 
lonely we were;
me in a planet home
to seven billion and her,
amongst the infinite
—  vp

so I'll tell you

I’ll tell you that I slept all day yesterday because at least my life isn’t mine when I’m not awake

I’ll tell you that the scars on my thighs are getting harder and harder to cover

I’ll tell you that I cried on the floor of the shower yesterday for an hour because tears don’t stain my cheekbones as badly when they melt into  the hot water

I’ll tell you that as the one person that makes me want to be alive, you’re the one person I’m not even sure wants to stay

I’ll tell you that I got so fucking drunk yesterday because I can’t handle anything sober 

I’ll tell you that I have no expectations but hope with all of my heart that you love me back

I’ll tell you that I am tears, dilated pupils, scars and loneliness 

I’ll tell you that I’m everything you shouldn’t want to hold on to, and hope that you hold on anyways

—  the air that i breathe IV - blue-delusion
It’s an interesting combination: having a great fear of being alone, and having a desperate need for solitude and the solitary experience. That’s always been a tug of war for me.
—  Jodie Foster