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Mana is the millennium earl...

So with the newest chapter release of D.Gray-Man it reveals that mana is actually the millennium earl. And allen is nea. Duh. But I did research about mana and…he is 188cm tall and 76kg in weight. Then I looked at the millennium earl and he was 188cm tall and 76kg in his human form. So mana actually is the earl but since he is then who’s spirit was it that he called back into the akuma then? I hope we find out soon.

I would also like to one more thing. When we saw the fourteenth about to alnost kill mana but road was holding him, that make much more since now that we know he was the earl.
Depression

Since nobody knows me, at least know this. I’ve been depressed alnost my entire life. Its to the point where i dont even understand it or what feels good or what is normal. Since i was four i knew how the world was and i was more than pushed around. I wanted to die, honestly. Sometimes i still do. I had this whole plan of how to honorably disappear after i turned 18. Really the only reason im alive today is that im not going to die by my own hand and nobody that’s tried has been able to overwhelm me. I still touch my nose to buses and trucks as they pass on the street, still chase after anything that i know is dangerous but risky. I don’t know how to be happy, but i do know how to make others happy, hell i’ve beaten depression. It’s just never mine.

i think the thing that angers me the most is not only did i trust my roommates to be direct and honest with me, not only did i try my hardest to be a great roommate/friend, but the fact that i was FINALLY on the right track to stabilizing my life. i’m working part time (which i wanted) and i was gonna go to school and try to make friends and join clubs and everything and actually do something with myself. i tried so hard and i was alnost there. i was so patient and it all just blew up in my face. that’s what angers me the most.

Nutrition habits

This 60 days I try to change my food habits too.

These days I try to eat 5 times a day:

Early breakfast. My first meal after the workout. Usually I eat oatmeal with cottage cheese or potato salad.

Lunch. Almost all time I choose berries of apples.

Dinner. The most calorific, fat and varied meal. I try to eat big portion of carbs (like oatmeal, porato or even bread), some protein (fish, eggs or meat), bit portion of salad. In the afternoon I let myself something sweet: sugar, honey. Anything.

2d dinner. Another variant of lunch. Try to eat apples, salad or berries.

Supper. Time for big portion of protein. My favourite variant is cottage cheese with sour cream (russian sause).

Some notes.

- I try to eat clean. There is no people who loved Snickers more than I. But right now I alnost don’t eat food with artificial butter, trans-fats, too much sugar e.t.c. This food is a signal for my brain to stepback. Bad variant.

- I try to not eat snacks between meals. 

- I try to avoid one bad thing: eating when feel dull. This is one the worst habit. Thanks genetics, I’m not able to gain fat. But it’s not efficient for me.

I will try to keep such nutrition plan for few weeks. And I like it. My goal is to keep it until my half marathon.