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Our friend Beren Jones created this great teaser for The Midnight Mischief Cabaret. You can see shots of Ginny and I (and our many many wigs and weaves) doing some of our favorite numbers. Music is “The Midnight Cabaret” by The Reverend Glasseye. More of their stuff here.

Tickets will likely sell out so get yours in advance (and save a little money too) over at Brownpapertickets.com

On Finding Family ...

The bond that links your true family is not one of blood, but of joy and respect in each other’s life."  – Richard Bach

While creating my second piece for A Dark Knight in the Asylum I snuck in a "moment” for The Penguin and The Riddler - not because this is canon, but because the roles were being played by Dewie Decimator and me.

Dewie is one of the people I have known the longest in the Boston burlesque scene. I met her backstage at a Rogue Burlesque show several years ago. We were there as kittens and assistant stage managers and had both just started dipping our pinky toes into the world of burlesque.

Well, actually, Dewie was much farther along than I was. She had already performed (as part of Rogue’s very first Lucky 13 Amateur Competition - an event she would later go on to win!) while I was mostly spending my time backstage or in class.

I had been aware of the Boston burlesque scene, as an occasional fan, for about 6 years before I ever decided to get involved. Many factors drove me to exploring burlesque - a need to reclaim my body, try new things, re-ignite my passion for performance, and find a creative outlet that could be just mine. (After almost a decade of making work for other people I was finding I was too burned out to create things on my own time for my own purposes).

I was also, around this time, dealing with the loss of my “Boston family,” my first “chosen tribe.”

A funny thing happens when you grow up in a huge family - you don’t really see the need to make friends because you’ve got a house full of them at home. Sure, I had acquaintances and teammates and a few study buddies, but my sister, brothers, and cousins were and always will be my best friends. Growing up  with a house constantly full of people, I was never lonely. In fact I relished any time I could find alone - rare moments of quiet and solitude were precious.

When I entered adulthood however, I found myself far from the family I had grown up with, and realizing that I had taken that support system so for granted. For the first time in my life I encountered real, true, profound loneliness.

I was fortunate enough to start meeting people and rekindling old friendships with a group of folks who would become my “Boston family.” We called ourselves that. We were a tight knit group who lived in the same neighborhood, had keys to each others’ places, and had dinner all together at least once a week. We supported each other through breakups, tragedies, successes, losses, everything.

But time passed and due to varying circumstances people started leaving. Some to forge new career opportunities, some to pursue new relationships, some to return to their own families and homes.  I was the only one who stayed in town. And while I had lots of acquaintances, I did not have anyone else in my life who I felt close or comfortable with the way I did with “the family.” So as my Boston family dissipated, I found myself again on my own.

I didn’t intend or mean to find a new family in burlesque. I didn’t even necessarily come to my first classes or shows with any expectation of making friends. But over the years that’s what has happened. And it’s been amazing.

Outside of my massive biological family (125 first cousins and counting), I’ve never experienced unconditional love, acceptance, and support the way I have from the burlesque community over the last few years. I’m still stunned, dumbfounded, and generally blown away by the honesty, open-ness, and kindness I find not just in Boston but across this medium in general. And letting myself accept and build new relationships and kindnesses has been a profound lesson in learning what it really means to be an adult. 

After that first show backstage (PS - that’s also where Ricky Lime got his start), Dewie and I of course kept in touch. She joined Rogue Burlesque as a full time member, and then, a few months later (after a LOT of encouragement from Dewie, Polly Surely, and the troupe’s founders, Dixie Douya, Ms. Sassypants, and Busty Keaton), I got on stage for the first time as a burlesque performer. I eventually went on to audition for and join Rogue and I had an amazing career with them for the next two years.

Eventually the time came for me to part ways with the Rogues. I had other artistic avenues to pursue, specifically music, and wanted to spend some time exploring life as a solo performer. Everyone was supportive and encouraging in this new step and it proved to be a very positive change, artistically, for me.

One of the most interesting benefits of leaving the troupe was being able to spend more time socially with my former troupemates - focusing on being together as friends and individuals rather than professionals preparing acts together. It’s nice to sometimes just be crazy-cat ladies or gross out queens or horror movie buffs together.

But I’d be lying if I said I didn’t really miss sharing the stage with the ladies of Rogue, especially Dewie (aka the second half of the Skeevy Brothers, Earl). And so when it came time to put together the ambush and fight scene for Arkham, I had The Penguin step away from the fight, opting instead to watch the action with The Riddler after returning the question mark cane.

I doubt anyone in the audience thought much of it, but this was one of the rare instances in my artistic process where I did something not for the audience, but for me as an individual - and not even as Allix Mortis, but as Alli, the person I am offstage. For 15 seconds, I enjoyed sitting, quietly, with one of my closest friends, while chaos reigned behind us. I let myself have a split second of taking in the sold out crowd and the fact that we were together on the stage where we first met. If you were at the show, you might have seen a GIANT almost manic smile on my face as that scene ended. So I will here admit - it wasn’t because I was in character, but because I was relishing the moment I was sharing with my chosen family, and marveling that we found each other and are navigating this beautiful, raucous, planet together.

Photos by Hans Wendland

 

 

 

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Photos taken by Hans Wendland. All capture my Alice Cooper tribute act.
Sometimes when you first start out you try to make an act out of something you love –and it doesn’t really work, but it spawns other, better, things.
When I first did a routine to Feed My Frankenstein it was a muddled Victorian steampunk, Jekyll/Hyde, too many things going on, slightly dancey for no reason, mess. BUT out of that routine, I took the best parts and with some workshopping created my She Wolf number (that was selected as part of the first International Nerdlesque Festival!).

I love Alice and I love “Feed My Frankenstein” so when I had an opportunity to put together a new Halloween number, I went back to the song and to my original inspiration - Alice himself.

Some of the choreography from my original routine still fit perfectly - and my hot cop/cowboy costume pieces nicely filled out the rest. And - after years of performing drag and ignoring the “rule” that burlesque dancers should NEVER EVER lipsync, I combined all of the strongest parts of my old routine, my costumes, and my own skill set (dude, my lip sync is fucking spectacular), and BOOM - new signature routine.

I first debuted this at Bon Appetit Burlesque’s Halloween show, Ghoulesque. These photos are from the second performance, at Punk Rockin’ & Pastie Poppin’ - a monthly show hosted by Dinah Deville and her collective, The Bloodstains.

Break rules, nurture your ideas, play to your strengths and your passions.

XO,

Allix

Only Roger Gordy can catch me doing calf stretches and hip circles and turn the moment into a beautiful photo. Here’s a “backstage” showgirl at The Midway at Punk Rockin’ & Pastie Poppin’ on 8/10. 📷Roger Gordy #prpp #themidway #bostonburlesque #burlesque #allixmortis #burlylife #neoburlesque #bighairdontcare #neoburlesque #barroomstripper #fake #showgirl

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The first teaser for Magnetic, the Cacciola / Epstein film that I’m starring in is now up online. Surprise! That’s also me singing with Night Kisses, the soundtrack band to the movie.

I’ve been involved with burlesque for the last five years, performing on stage the last four. When the @midnightmischiefcabaret made its debut on January 31st, my mom, sister, Godmother, and aunt were in the audience. It was their first time seeing me perform. While the night let us be a little funny, a little cheeky, and just a touch old fashioned, I was excited to really let my special brand of weird show with this routine. I guess for an introduction to burlesque it’s not bad - there’s classical music…and assles and tassels and twirling and teasing and so much face. Thank you to @hanswendland for capturing this! You can see more of Hans’ work at Flickr.com/hanswendland #burlesque #bostonburlesque #queen #queerlesque #queer #pink #marieantoinette #wig #comedy #tease #neoburlesque #allixmortis

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Taking a trip down memory lane…these are shots from the first MAJOR burlesque show I ever performed in. I was so amped up and excited to be part of that show - I am trying to refocus my energy and remember exactly that excitement as I approach new performances and new numbers. 

My body, performance style, and even my character, are very very different from where they were at when I first started - even my reasons for performing are different - but that shouldn’t stop me from carrying some of that same exuberance through several dozen performances later…