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songs I've been listening to a lot lately old and new

good songs I’ve been listening to :
get away - yuck
thinking about you - the big scary
chamber of reflection - Mac demarco
dissolve me - alt j
cobwebs- animal collective
street flash - animal collective
the purple bottle - animal collective
raspberry cane - youth lagoon
mute - youth lagoon
everything is happening so fast - mgmt
tiny dancer ( never gets old ) - Elton John
band on the run - Paul McCartney and wings
advanced falconry - mutual benefit
I just wanna die - FIDLAR
unfucktheworld- angel Olsen
post production - over the Atlantic
walkabout - atlas sound
oh Louie - Shannon and the clams
beetles - warpaint
liar - built to spill
Crimson and clover - tommy James and the shondells
I think it’s beautiful that you are 256 colors too - black moth super rainbow
skeleton key - Margot and the nuclear so sos
float forever - peace
jump into the fog - the wombats
what’s a girl to do - bat for lashes
last night at the jetty - panda bear
how can you really - foxygen
anemone - their satanic majesties second request
heartbreaker - girls
all die young - smith westerns
horse race - colormusic
the city in the sea - crystal stilts
Nancy from now on - father john misty
nightmare of you - I want to be buried in your backyard
tell me ( what’s on your mind ) - Allah-las
Bisou magique- melodys echo chamber
the sun was high - best coast
the hours - beach house
other people - beach house
sad girl - lana del rey
you and me - disclosure
she’s a rainbow - the Rolling Stones
im gonna crawl - led zep
punching in a dream - the naked and famous
Simeon’s dilemma - why
election - don dilego
never known love - thieves like us
bad kids- black lips
Billie holiday - warpaint
snow days - real estate
stop crying your eyes out - oasis
Caesar - Ty segall
one million lovers - the growlers
golden age - beach fossils
sleeping lessons - the shins
curse of curves - cute is what we aim for
ice hotels - dinosaur bones
daughters and empty space - the story so far
song for zula - phosphorescent
and many many many more

لا حول ولا قوة إلا بالله

There’s no movement nor power except by Allah’s will

So, la hawla wa laa quwwata illaa billaah for every sin i cant abandon

So, la hawla wa la quwwata illaa billaah for every worship I’m unable to do

So, la hawla wa la quwwata illaa billaah for my hardened heart

So, la hawla wa la quwwata illa billaah for my for the knowledge I’m trying to seek

So, la hawla wa la quwwata illa billah for my soul

La hawla wa la quwwata illa billah


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Letter to my Family: Coming Out

Dear Mom,

(This letter can be for Dad and Evan, too)

It’s time for me to be honest with you. I am Muslim.

All my life, I have tried to connect with Christianity and I never was able to do it at the level I desired. I dropped religion entirely for a while. But now, I believe in God (Allah) stronger than I ever have in my life. Islam has filled my heart with so much faith and love; I no longer feel the empty void I felt before.

Please remember that Islam is not what the media portrays and maybe not even what some Muslims make it out to be. If you judge a religion based on its followers, you will always be disappointed. The religion is perfect, its followers are not.

I am a Feminist and a Liberal Muslim Intellectual. I am not brainwashed and I have not gone off the deep end. I have not joined a foreign clan; I chose God above all others, even family and friends. I want God to be the number one thing in my life. I have a sincere desire to have a relationship with God directly. My heart has been touched and moved by the powerful words in the Qur'an. In fact, since I first learned about Islam, I was drawn to it and I never stopped learning about the religion over the years.

My conversion and path that led to Islam is complicated and is a deep story. But for now, my conversion in a nutshell: la ilaha il Allah. It means “There is no God but Allah.” This is the foundation of my faith and my belief. Please know that I do love Jesus and I admire his tireless service and submission to God. I don’t worship him or see him as God incarnate, but I still love Jesus. God does not need Jesus or a partner. God is God alone. I understand the trinity and I know the arguments are reasoning behind it, but it seems to separate God into three parts and that just seems unnatural to me. It doesn’t feel right for me. I need to follow my heart and I chose Islam for a variety of reasons.

Islam is to submit and surrender one’s will to a higher truth and a transcendental law, so that one can lead a meaningful life informed by the divine purpose of creation–a life in which the dignity and freedom of all human beings can be equally protected.

I want you to ask questions and support me. But sometimes your questions feel like they come from a skeptic or someone who is openly against Islam and trying to prove it wrong. This puts me on edge and is a trigger for me. When you bring up something, I am wary about where you are going with your questions. My guard is up right away, ready to defend myself and my faith against your interrogations. I don’t want it to be like that.

I hope that you and I can hear each other and come to terms with each other’s beliefs. I hope that we can listen to each other with open hearts and begin to understand the passion for God that dwells deep in each of our hearts. Religion has divided people and split families apart and that is something I never want to happen.

The Christmas season is a time for family gatherings and gift giving to those to are less fortunate. Islam is about being kind and gracious to all people. Although I do not celebrate Christmas now that I am Muslim, I do respect the holiday of Christmas, and would never mock others for their celebrations. I think kindness is easy and the best way to show non-Muslims my love for Islam. Gathering with family is nothing more than a formality to enjoy each other’s company and eat delicious foods. Spending time with my family does not mean that I am celebrating Christmas. Instead, I am celebrating peace, love, and kindness.

I actually started a cool blog called After my Shahada. I can send you the link. It has my conversion story, and everything. I am getting great feedback. I am sure you will love it, too.

I love you (all)!



Thank you for reading, liking, and reblogging this post. I will be following up with this post one week from now (January 5, 2017) to talk about my family’s response to my change in religion. If you would like to learn about how I came to Islam, please click here.