allaahul musta'aan

I think people don’t pay attention to detail, to the small gestures, to the whispers, to the tone in their voice when they say something rude, disrespectful, mean, hurtful; I think people assume that hurt can only be a result of a major scheme, a grandiose gesture when it’s the little things. It’s the little things that hurt and you can laugh afterwards but it doesn’t make it a joke, it doesn’t make it less hurtful, it doesn’t make it okay. Be kind, be kind to people in small ways and in large ways, pay attention to your tone, to your gestures, pay attention to the details; stop hurting people. It’s not fun, it’s not funny. 

Niqaab diaries...

Earlier on this week, I visited a very close friend of mine… This sister is someone who I always have fruitful discussions with… Any who, we’re discussing things from topic to topic - and we ended up talking about the niqaab…
While she expressed so much happiness and joy when I initially shared my decision to wear it a while back… During the discussion she started saying “I could never do it.. I don’t think it’s the right country to be wearing it to be honest.. It’s just too dangerous..”
And I know that she had no intention for evil whatsoever. She’s just a very honest person and says how she feels straight out… But I can’t help but think how important it is to have a back up plan for yourself when times get tough. These words feel poisonous sometimes. While you benefit from some people and their company immensely in some aspects, there are times when unfortunately and unintentionally, they drag you down the most. SubhaanAllaah. You hear discouraging words a lot but when it comes from someone you hold dear to your heart and someone who generally strives to put deen first, it’s hard. It almost makes you second guess your decisions sometimes… Then you remember that we’re strangers in this life, and sometimes we’re strangers amongst strangers..
You have to distance yourself a bit. And you understand that Allaah will test you. You will hear deterring words from people you expect and people you never expected in your life.
And Allaah will give you strength also. You will hear encouraging words from people you expect and people you never expected in your life.

On Friday night, after a talk, I sat with one of my relatives who shared that she has been wanting to wear it for long time. As we sat there huddled in the corner… She said that when she first began to read about the opinion of classical scholars on niqaab and the viewpoint that it was obligatory - she cried. As she was telling me all this, I noticed her eyes welling with tears so I rubbed her shoulder. She broke down and cried deeply right then and there. I asked her what was holding her back? Allaahul musta'aan. She said that it’s the fear of what may happen - fear of being attacked. The fear is real and for some, its crippling.
Laa hawla wa laa quwatta illaa billaah.
Thinking back now, fear is what made my parents stand in between my decision and I for so long.
It took 4 straight years of reminding, tears, persistence and patience for them to finally let me be. I remember there was a stage when I said “I’m just going to do it and they will eventually get over it”… They were the rockiest two months in my life before I had to retract.
I look at how long the journey has been, and I’m ever so grateful that He turned their hearts. There never was a light bulb moment through my journey of convincing my parents. There never was some major event that made their heart turn. It was all simply du'aa. Du'aa, du'aa, du'aa. It was du'aa that made my parents go from “I don’t want to see you in that so please just move out of my sight” to “You look so beautiful. I’m so proud of you. May Allaah protect you”

I remember during my struggle, someone who means a lot to me said “if you don’t wear it - who will?!”

I never really understood what they meant. But the other day, my 11 year old sister tried on my niqaab and gloves and showed my parents. They smiled with joy and exclaimed at how beautifully wrapped she was. I remembered that not long ago, in that same situation I was turned away. I watched from afar and I couldn’t hold it no more… I ran to my bedroom and cried like a baby.

I understood then, the influence. The break in the pattern. The statement “if you don’t wear it, who will?”

It’s not a sentiment, it’s not a battle that many can understand. And Allaah only knows, the day they finally agreed was the day I said to myself… I have no more strength to fight. I learned that He sees your struggle for His sake, truly, when you have no more energy left - He will open the door. My choice has given me unimaginable strength. It’s a statement. I don’t care who you are or what you think. This is who I am and this is what I believe.

  • The fact that people have to actively tell the world, ‘black lives matter’ is indicative of the fact that yes, even today, as we speak there are people that do not consider black lives worthy of being lived. 
  • America was built on injustice and it will burn to the ground on injustice because it is run by unjust beings who continue to enslave other beings who are free. 
  • A white man killing a black man is protection. A black man killing a white man is murder.
  • So the fact of the matter is that murder is legal (so long as the murderer is white).
  • This has everything to do with race.

Nothing will go by unanswered. As of lately I have been asking myself ‘why’ but soon I will be answered. Nothing will go by unanswered. This was (and is) all part of the plan. This is how it was and is meant to be. Live. Do good. Fear Him. Believe. Forgive. Please, forgive. Forgive and don’t ask why. Let the moments happen; let days be lived. Let nights be filled with supplication and worship, let nights be when you are answered ‘why’ in the form of patience. It hurts, it pains, and as of lately I have been feeling so broken, but this was and is all part of the plan. One day I will be answered. This is how it was and is meant to be. This was all meant to be. Forgive.

May Allaah have mercy on those killed at the hands of terrorists. May Allaah grant their families heightened eemaan and beautiful sabr during these difficult times. These terrorists and sympathizers of their ideology will never win. They’re forgetting there is a Hereafter where they will be held accountable for their actions. & what’s sadder than committing all this chaos and assuming you’re doing good. Allaahul Musta'aan.

If you knew the true value of yourself, you would never allow yourself to be humiliated by committing sins. Satan refused to bow to you when it refused to bow to your father Adam, so how come you reconciled with it and left us? If there is any love in your heart, it’s effect would appear on your body.
—  Ibn al Qayyim, al-Fawaa’id, Pg.118

Do you know how little it takes to infiltrate the mind of the youth and for them to romanticize the concept of jihaad, because it’s too little; please take heed and educate yourselves and those in your home & friends and everyone about the correct understanding of Islaam because we have little girls and boys who are running away to Somalia and Libya and Syria to fight a war that they don’t even understand. We have the youth quickly rendering a Muslim a non-Muslim for a sin that doesn’t expel them from Islam in the first place, we have the youth that has a perverted ideology, a misinterpretation, a misunderstanding of Islam so please, educate yourselves and those in your home & friends. May Allaah rectify our affairs, guide us on the straight path, and keep us guided on the straight path and may He forgive us of our ignorance and our shortcomings. May Allaah protect us from extremism and innovation and all that harms us.

وَإِذَا مَسَّ الإِنسَانَ ضُرٌّ دَعَا رَبَّهُ مُنِيبًا إِلَيْهِ ثُمَّ إِذَا خَوَّلَهُ نِعْمَةً مِّنْهُ نَسِيَ مَا كَانَ يَدْعُو إِلَيْهِ مِن قَبْلُ

“And when adversity touches man, he calls upon his Lord, turning to Him [alone]; then when He bestows on him a favor from Himself, he forgets Him whom he called upon before..”


May Allaah protect the oppressed and grant them victory over their oppressors. May Allaah protect those who are being exploited, coerced, enslaved, abused, terrorized, humiliated, and degraded. May Allaah grant them strength and increase them in patience and eemaan. May Allaah grant victory to the victims and those who have gone through extensive hardships. May Allaah enable the Muslims to hold on to their deen, amid time of difficulty ; and may Allaah enable us  to remember Him at all times. 

This is to the Muslims in Sudan, Nigeria, Egypt, Yemen, United States, Australia, U.K, Pakistan, France, and everywhere. This is to the Muslims who we don’t read or hear about. This is to them, may Allaah be with you and may He grant you after your difficulty, ease. 

It’s not the responsibility of the Muslims to apologize for the actions of others nor is it our responsibility to prove to the world that Islam is a religion of peace. Islam is a religion of justice and any Muslim with the correct understanding of Islam can attest to the fact that acts of terrorism are never just and they are never condoned. It is our responsibility however, to return to the Book of Allaah and the Sunnah of His Messenger, upon their correct understanding. It’s our responsibility to return to Tawheed and to rectify our affairs; there is no fault here but upon the Muslims who have this perverse ideology that matters must be deal with using extreme measures. The same Muslims who would blow up an entire building of Muslims just to get that one Kaafir; Allaahul Musta'aan. When the world labels a Muslim as a terrorist, whose fault is it but our own when it is a Muslim who performs an act of terrorism. There is a disease amidst the Ummah and I ask Allaah to cure us of it, and it is the disease of ignorance mixed with arrogance. May Allaah guide us on the straight path and forgive us of our errs and rectify our affairs.  

Please act right. Be respectful to people because you’re respectful, or because you want to be or because you’re doing it for God; this idea that you need to be arrogant and always aggressive isn’t going to take you anywhere and even if it does, it doesn’t mean people will respect you. One thing I know for certain is that you never forget the people who did you wrong and you can either use that as motivation to work just as hard or use it as an experience to make sure you never succumb to such levels; but never let it get to you. People aren’t rude because you’re you, people are rude because they are who they are. Sure, you can make some excuses and say they’ve gone through so much or had a bad day, but that’s never a justification for someone to take it out on you. Please act right. Character is everything. 

The war on crime is actually a war on race because since the beginning of time is has not been anything less than a crime to be black. A life being killed for being black is justified because the perpetrator is considered a man of the law a man of justice. Where is the justice when an innocent life is killed, where is the justice when countless black innocent lives are killed, where is the justice when countless black innocent lives are being targeted, and where is the justice when there is more outrage at the burning of a flag than at the murder of an innocent life. This is post racial AmeriKKKa. 

The media hasn’t nor will they grasp the concept of ‘Khawarij’ which are the true extremists so they’ll stick to labeling any seemingly extremist view of Islam as “Salafists” or “Salafism” and this is further funded by Muslims themselves who should know better but are too busy making up words like “wahhabi” to further fuel the fire of falsehood. 

Go on then. 

The news agency is trying to make us believe that 1+1=3 when we know better and can see the truth with our very eyes.

You mean to tell me that the guy who is believed to be behind the Boston marathon explosions was so nonchalant about what he was doing, that he had no problem being part of the crowd, showing his face (knowing there are cameras), tweeting several times during that day, and when identified by the FBI, he robs a 7-11 and then hides out on a boat?

That’s really believable. No trust me, it is. It really is.