!!!! of course (this ended up being a tiny ficlet lmao sorry)
for all his life Rick has had alpha male masculine no homo forced down his throat and he’s never let himself cry around people. the only times someone else has seen him crying was:
- when bill had hurt him particularly badly and that night when he was crying himself to sleep in his bedroom Janet heard and came in
- one night he was in the cave with Kieren and when he thought Kieren was asleep he let himself start to quietly sniffle to himself
and from then on he was more careful. at times he had probably been near breaking point, eyes watering and body seeming to shake, but Rick wouldn’t let himself cry in front of anyone - even Kieren, who he knew would not mock him and who he trusted with his (second) life.
it was unhealthy. he needed to be able to cry and bottling up his emotions for months at a time and weeping for hours the moment he had locked himself away somewhere was not right and it worried Kier to no end.
that was one reason why they were so lucky to end up with Simon. after the initial awkwardness between them, Rick and Simon ended up very close. one night Simon asked Rick about his past and his dad, knowing the brief summary from what Kieren had told him, but feeling that he should know for himself.
Rick had closed up and awkwardly sat, not saying anything for ages. Simon started talking about all the stuff with his own family, hoping that would get Rick to open up, but not planning on pushing him about it if he didn’t want to.
when Simon was done Rick started to talk. he gave the short version, trying to keep emotionless, but Simon gently prompted him to go on, realising there was things Rick needed to let out. Rick talked and talked until he paused, his voice hitching and breaking, his shoulders suddenly shaking as he started to cry and cry for minutes on end, Simon just holding him, rubbing his back and whispering small reassurances into his hair.
i feel i made this too sad u were probably hoping for a cute headcanon im sorry im so so sorry