I said a bit of this on Twitter, but I guess I just want to talk it out here.
I guess I’m disappointed about the Zayn thing for a few reasons. Firstly, don’t say you’re leaving to be a normal 22 year old if that’s not the case. Definitely don’t say it’s because you’re exhausted and anxiety-ridden as well. That’s just like a sad person saying they’re depressed. It’s pretty crap for the clinically depressed community, and it’s a lie. And lying sucks.
And if you want to leave to pursue your own music, maybe wait until you’ve fulfilled your obligations to the band. Finish out the contract you committed to of sound mind. If you were in no medical or mental peril, then don’t screw your boys over and put their careers in jeopardy (there was no guaranteeing they’d keep selling tickets and albums without him). Don’t leave your fans when they were still expecting to be able to see you.
I’m not upset that he didn’t like the music. And I’m entirely sure he’ll make good music on his own. I’m upset because of how he did it. It just seemed like such a bratty, disrespectful move. And now here he is wanting everyone to be excited for him. And I genuinely think I would be. If I just thought he felt any bit of the gravity of what he did leading up to this.
I think that’s the thing, isn’t it? In his mind, I don’t wonder if he’s thinking, “Well the fans still get 1D and they get me, too, which they’ll probably really like. And I’m happy because I’m doing my music. And the boys are happy because they’re doing theirs.” But what he doesn’t understand is we don’t have 1D. Not really, not anymore. Because 1D was so much the five of them together, more than any boyband I’ve ever experienced since The Beatles. I loved NSYNC with all my heart, but anyone could spot from a mile that Justin was the breakout star of the five of them and not one person could honestly say they were in it entirely for Chris. They didn’t have the bond these guys did. You couldn’t take two of them at random - a JC and a Lance - and claim that they had their own special friendship the way you can do with any two randomly selected members of these boys.
And that was SO IMPORTANT to us as their fans. That was what I loved, more than even the music, was the togetherness that bled from them to their fans and wrote all these stories of all these groups of friends who met because of this band. And when he left - especially in the middle of things, especially out of no where - he broke that. And I honestly don’t think (or hope I suppose) that he really knows that. I could honestly see him sitting there thinking it was the more the merrier when in actuality, for all intents and purposes, 1D broke up back in March and we didn’t even get the opportunity to properly mourn for them because the tour and the album and every other fucking thing just had to roll on.
I really don’t think I’m being unreasonable about that. I don’t want Zayn to be arbitrarily forced to stay a part of something he didn’t want to be a part of anymore. And I don’t think 1D’s music is this generation’s greatest artistic contribution to the musical lexicon. I don’t expect boybands to last forever. I just wanted him to treat his departure with a little reverence and respect. I wanted him to acknowledge - to understand - that in order to get his way he’d be ending something deeply important for millions and millions of people who loved and supported him. And to act fucking accordingly.