all things magic

Before anything else, this is not my first ‘last letter’ to you and I don’t know if this will be the last— I hope, though.

When I think of you, I think of all things beautiful and magical. Like how the world seems so quiet from above. Or how the city lights seems to dance at night. I think of the lovely yellow lamp post on the street. Or how I see the chaotic traffic on your window. When I think of you, I hear those sentences you said. It was almost like a movie line and the whole time was a movie scene. I can’t spot anything ugly about what we had, except the fact that I don’t know if we really had something.

When I think of you, I think of your face in the morning. I think of how tight you held my hand when you thought I was asleep. I think of how you let me lean on your shoulder when the world got too much to handle. I think of your eyes and your smile or the way you frown on me everytime you think I’m annoying. I think of those horror films we failed to finish because you’re just too scared but you were acting like you’re not. It was a short time with you, but it was enough to give me memories I will remember for the rest of my life.

When I think of you, I think of the night you assured me that everything will be fine. When the stars showed up to entertain us but ending up being ashame on how you shine brighter than them. I think of those awkward elevator kisses and how you remove my eye glasses everytime I will accidentally fall asleep. God knows how I grieved for those moments when you decided to exclude me in your life completely. Like we never happened at all.

But never once I hated you for breaking my heart. How could I? You gave me the best memories I can keep in a short period of time. And for that, thank you. In another universe, or lifetime, I hope if we meet, I’ll finally be enough for you. But if not, I hope you’ll find someone that will satisfy you.

When I think of you, I think of that nice brilliant man that have the courage and dedication. I will think of how I knew you’ll go far in life.

This is my last letter to you—
Or maybe just another letter again.

My Blogs

My Personal blog

Get to know me! Feel free to send asks that dont really fit with the other blogs, or are directed at me specifically here. You’ll see just a bit of everything here. My Instagram is also connected to this blog, so you’ll see my Insta posts pop up here. Follow me here if you’re interested in the person behind these other blogs.

My Harry Potter Blog

 Harry Potter, Fantastic Beasts, all the magical things. This is also a cosplay/role-play/ask blog. You’ll see various characters from the Wizarding world brought to life. This blog features five Original Characters, several time eras, Alternate Universes, gender-bent characters, and more! Also some interactions with others in the #HPRP community. You can ask any of the characters on my character roster questions at any time, I only ask that if they’re not online, you address the character in your question so I know you’d like to see more of them. Anonymous asks are welcome, submit box is open.

My Multi-Fandom blog

Disney, Dreamworks Star Wars, and more. This is a multifandom (all except Harry Potter, which can be found on my Potter blog) cosplay/role-play/ask blog. This blog features two (going on three) original characters, a few gender-bent characters, some alternate universes, and plenty of other magic. It’s my goal as the administrator of the blog to keep the magic alive heree. I try to avoid any Out of Character moments, and keep things PG. This blog also offers a constantly updating  character roster. As I said before, you can ask any of these characters questions at any time just please address who you’re asking by name if they are not online. This tells me you want to see more of them. 

Tsum Tsum blog 

I started this blog because it was fun to take pictures of my tsums in random places. It was more fun when I actually got out and about pretty often. Now with work, I dont really have as many opportunities to take these pictures. I am still active on the blog, but havent shared any original content as of late. Maybe as the weather warms up I’ll start taking pictures again. Just kind of a fun little side hobby. Follow this blog if you cant get enough Disney plush! 

Possible upcoming blog: Art/Aesthetics blog. I need another creative outlet. Hello Tumblr! 

Monday 8:27am
I woke up with you on my mind.
You called me babe last night —
my heart is still pounding.

Tuesday 10:53pm
Today I realized we won’t work.
What we are is hurting her.
And I think she matters more to me than you do.

Wednesday 11:52pm
I broke things off with you today.
She barely said a word.
I’ve never regretted anything more than this.

Thursday 4:03pm
I shouldn’t have sent that message.
You shouldn’t have been so okay with receiving it.

Friday 9:57pm
I almost messaged you today.
I didn’t.

Saturday 8:49pm
I’m walking around town in search of alcohol.
They say that liquor numbs the pain of having a broken heart.
I want to put that to the test.

Sunday 2:32am
I heard you texted a girl you’ve never spoken to before.
I wonder if it’s because you’re trying to replace me.
I can’t help but wish you weren’t.
I thought I was irreplaceable.

—  a week with you on my mind, c.j.n.
Move on, leave, run away, escape this place… but don’t forget about me, about us, about this town. Always remember where you come from so you can appreciate how far you’ve come.
—  c.j.n.