I reread home because I missed it and now that I know the last chapter is a month away I honestly have no idea what to do with my life. also I need more good fics to read while I wait, do you have any suggestions? :/ <3333
Aw, you’re sweet! I’m sorry to bear this news but, I calculated that it will probably take me until mid-June to finish the art… But I do have some good pieces that I will be posting soon!
Oh goodness, I have a handful of favorites, I LOVE:
I just rewatched the episode, and the scene that just slayed me, was when Aaron told Paddy he was happy.
Aaron didn’t think he could be happy, and probably never felt that magnetic, all-encompassing love that he feels with Robert. Imagine Aaron having these moments, where he just realises that he is happy, moments where it hits him that all the things he thought he could never have are now his reality
Waking up next to Robert, limbs entangled, smelling of sex and Robert, breathing it in and just laying his head on Robert’s chest and feeling at home.
Coming down to see Robert and Liv having breakfast, his toast ready and the kettle newly boiled for his cup of tea, and knowing he has a family.
Robert giving him a kiss on the cheek as he leaves to go to work and Aaron just smiling like an idiot because Robert Sugden chose him.
Meeting Robert for lunch at the Woolpack, and chatting about anything and everything, and their fingers touch under the table and Aaron just feels good and right and like this is something he could do for the rest of his life.
Robert getting home late from a meeting, and Aaron has saved him some food, Robert circling his waist with his arms, because they are alone and he’s a soft git, and thanking Aaron before he has dinner, and Aaron not only knowing that he is happy, but that he makes someone else happy.
Lying in bed and listening to Robert brush his teeth, playing with the ring on his finger, waiting for Robert to join him, and feeling completely safe in the knowledge that he will always have Robert to come home to.
Feeling the reverence with which Robert presses kisses to his jaw as they have sex, moaning and touching in all the right places, until they are both undone and Aaron’s mind is completely free of worry, completely blissed out as he pulls Robert to him and lays his arms around him, and he just knows that this is the way he always wants to spend his evenings.
“It has been quite the wild ride, this short while that I’ve been about, thank you, everyone, for making it so interesting.”
So there has been a lot of things happening recently, that have been keeping me away from these blogs. Back in December, when I first started this out, I really just wanted to have this be a bit of an exploratory blog into a different side of everyone’s favourite jackal.
Of course, that didn’t last that long, and I loved every moment that I spent talking with you all. Though it seemed to explode pretty massively, far, far more than I had anticipated. I had set this up as there was a lull in my actual work, but that has picked up again. On top of organising things to move house, it unfortunately left too much on my plate, which is why I have been mostly absent for the last month.
That’s changed now, I’ve moved house, and my work has settled again. While I won’t be around in the exact same capacity as I was before, I will have more time to devote to here.
Thank you, everyone. For both your attention, and your patience.
i just want to take a moment to reflect on the gravity of what we know about solo!harry so far.
as fans, we support him because we already know he is special. we have paid close enough attention that, over time, we have seen him command everything from one-on-one conversations to entire stadiums full of people. we have witnessed countless individuals – many of whom know little to nothing about him – have chance meetings with him and walk away from those encounters with stars in their eyes, in absolute awe of him, of that “something” about him that makes him harry. either we’ve met him ourselves, or we’ve been to concerts, or we’ve watched videos of concerts (or all of the above), and we’ve come to know that he’s just special. gemma – who would know better than any of us – said in her piece for another man that even as a child, harry “had that sort of magnetism that made people just want to watch him.”
i mention all of this to underscore that those of us who are already fans are fans for a reason. we already know he’s going to excel on his own; we’ve just been waiting patiently (or not so patiently) for him to get started.
but can we take a minute to talk about the people who are actually involved in this process? the entire team behind him that is currently revving up to launch him as a solo artist? those people are in a totally different position than we are. they aren’t interested in harry’s success because he brings them personal joy (although, let’s be honest, he surely does); they’re interested in his success because it will bring THEM success. that’s the bottom line here – big money.
if you, like i, have grown up in the rapidly-changing digital era, you may have noticed that the music industry runs differently than it used to. as a child, i would buy an entire album on cassette or cd because i’d heard one song on the radio and wanted to listen to that song over and over again. i bought many albums as a child that, to this day, i still haven’t listened to in their entirety. but the industry doesn’t work like that anymore. when music went digital, it became a lot easier for consumers to only buy the songs they cared about. as a byproduct of that, new artists these days are often given a very limited budget in the beginning – they’re only allowed, at first, to record one or two songs. those songs are released as singles, and then, if they do well, that artist goes back into the studio and records an entire album. it’s a smart decision on the part of record companies to avoid spending too much money on artists that end up “flopping.”
i keep thinking about harry in this context. i keep thinking about how he has had the ability to release solo music for more than a year now, about how easy it would have been for him – and columbia and everyone else involved – to record one single, release it quickly, do a bit of promotion, (likely) make a bunch of money and then go from there. coming off of 1d’s tremendous success, it would have made everyone a quick, easy buck.
but they didn’t do that. although harry and jeff signed together on january 1, 2016 – likely their first opportunity to do so – they still took their time. columbia, et al. agreed to invest $75-80 million worth of resources (at least) into harry as a solo artist without even requiring him to release a “test single” first. they’ve agreed to let him record his entire first album (and, seemingly, have started planning to release it) without even requiring him to release a test single first!
i won’t proclaim to be some kind of music industry genius because i’m far from it, but just based on what i’ve observed as a music fan in general over the last decade or so, this is HUGE to me. everyone behind harry appears to have so much faith in him already. i think it’s so important to recognize the personal/professional gamble that jeff is taking in this situation as well. here we have jeffrey azoff, eldest son of irving azoff – an absolute legend in the music industry – who is under a lot of pressure to live up to his dad’s name. he literally quit his job as a music agent to start a management company with harry as one of his first major clients. of course, he likely would have started his own management company eventually regardless of whether he ever met harry, but the fact that they timed this major event in their professional lives so they could “go solo together” speaks volumes about the faith he has in harry as an artist.
we’re on the outside looking in, and we know harry is amazing based on what we have seen him do as part of a group… but these people already know solo harry. they know what he is capable of, and they’re rallying behind him because they have total faith he will succeed. and that’s just really fucking awesome.
A/N: ffs you guys im ready to sleep for days lets have a cuddle/sleep party right here and now bring all the plushies, thank you ~Admin 404
He’s very excited but also very confused by Valentine’s day.
Since he met you, he’s shown you how much he loves you every
Okay well once he got past the whole “stay away from me
I’m dangerous” portion of it all he was extremely loving. Never once left
you wondering just where you stood with him. Since he’s so open about his love,
what is the need of celebrating this holiday? He gives you silly presents all
the time! Whatever you want, he’s gotten it for you! So why bother with
But, on the other hand!! He’s very excited that he now has
someone special in his life he can celebrate with! He can spoil the one he
loves and get spoiled right back! Not to mention, he now has his brother back!
Can he celebrate brotherly love on this holiday as well?
He had no ideas what to do for you though. He wants it to be
special, and fun! But he also wants to do something for his brother. Is he
allowed to combine the two? Would either of you mind? Is it wrong of him to do
that? HE JUST DIDN’T KNOW WHAT THE RULES WERE!
After searching everywhere on the internet, he still had no
clue what was okay and what wasn’t okay to do for Valentine’s Day. How could
the internet let him down like this?! He’s spent days trying to think of
something for all three of you.
One day, he’s gotten so frustrated that he’s slammed his
head against his desk repeatedly for a solid 5 minutes. Vanderwood came in to
the sound of banging and stood with their arms crossed, watching as the younger
man smacked his head against the table.
“As much as I’m loving this, what is your
problem?” they asked, watching as the red head shot up, pushing his chair
away from the desk.
“I!! HAVE RESEARCHED!! FOR DAYS!! AND I STILL HAVE NO
ANSWERS!” he complained, stomping his foot like a child. Vanderwood raised
an eyebrow, questioning his temper tantrum.
“Answers foooor…? What, exactly?” they asked, as
Saeyoung threw his hands in the air in a huff.
“For what to do for Valentine’s Day! What to do for
both MC AND Saeran! What am I supposed to do?!” the pitch of his voice
rising with each word he spoke, running his hands through his hair. “I
want it to be special for the both of them!! But also I don’t want it to get
awkward or creepy either!! All the ideas I’ve seen online are romantic which I
mean is great for MC but what about Saeran? What am I supposed to do for
“I’m pretty sure your brother is fine without
celebrating Valentine’s Day with you,” they threw at him, throwing their
hip out to the side. “It’s more of a romantic thing anyway, isn’t it? Why
bother trying to do something for your brother then? That’s just weird.”
“I have to show Saeran I love him too!!! Strong
brotherly love!!!” he sighed before sitting back down in his chair,
leaning his chin in his hand. “I just want to spend every holiday with the
two of them! Holidays are for the people you love, and I love the both of them
very much.” He looked at his mouse, staring off into space. Too many
thoughts were running through his head at once, he couldn’t focus on anything,
let alone listen to whatever Vanderwood was telling him.
“Hello?? I’m talking to you!” they shouted at him.
They tried to snap their fingers by his ear, but when they realized that wasn’t
working, they smack him up-side the head. “Hey!! Will you listen to me when
I’m talking to you!?”
“Hm? Oh, Vanderwood, what did you say?” he looked
at them from the corner of his eye. He was only half listening to them, so he
didn’t bother to make any effort to turn to them.
“I said, why don’t you all go and do something together
like at an amusement park, or the beach, or hell, even something cliché like a
picnic in the park?” they suggested. “You could all just spend some
time together, then later on in the night you can spend some alone time with
MC, make it romantic.”
“That’s…..actually a good idea! Yeah! I’ll plan like
a day trip sort of thing!” he declared, jumping from his seat a second
time. “I’ll plan something all of us will love! Maybe I’ll gear it a
little towards Saeran, then I’ll spend the rest of the night romantically with
MC…. Yes! That should work!” he turned Vanderwood around and began
pushing him out of the room. “You gotta go! I have planning to do! I have
to think! Go go go!” he called before slamming and locking the door behind
The rest of the day was thinking and planning everything.
Where to go, what to do, and what to do later on, for you! He even waited until
both you and Saeran were asleep and packed over night bags for the three of
He risked his life waking up Saeran the next morning. He was
able to coax him into the backseat of one of his babies, wrapped up in a
blanket, asleep across the seats. Waking you up and getting you dressed was way
easier! You tried to tell him “Happy Valentine’s Day” when you sat up
but he refused to let you? You tried again, thinking maybe he was just too
excited to let you speak, but he covered your mouth- making it fairly obvious
he didn’t want you to say it yet. So, you went along with his antics, knowing
that it would more than likely turn into a great time.
The three of you were on the road in less than an hour,
Saeyoung cranking the radio up, the two of you singing along terribly, and
Saeran cussing the both of you out the entire ride.
“PLEASE. PLEASE TELL ME WE’RE ALMOST THERE. I CAN’T
TAKE THE TWO OF YOU ANYMORE. NO! DON’T TURN IT UP! HEY- I’M TALKING TO THE BOTH
OF YOU! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA” Saeran started screaming at the top of his
lungs, as the both of you sang at the top of yours. After hours in the car, you
look around to see snow all around you outside. You turn to look at Saeyoung,
who’s trying to stifle a laugh because Saeran was sitting in the backseat with
wide eyes, and his face practically against the window.
The moment Saeyoung parks in front of a cute, homey looking
cabin, Saeran practically rolls out of the back seat while his brother shoots
out of the front seat, not bothering to shut the door. You calmly get out, and
watch as the twins already started building snow forts, throwing hastily made
snowballs towards each other’s faces.
“Um, you guys? Maybe you should bundle up in warmer
clothes before getting too into your game? You don’t want to get sick!”
You called out, laughing at how their faces went from determination to a pout,
both grumbling as they walk back towards the car. “Wait, do we even have
warm clothes? I didn’t pack a bag because ssoommeeoonnee didn’t tell me what
their plans were,” you sassed, raising an eyebrow towards your boyfriend.
“Hey hey hey, I came prepared!” he defended,
opening the trunk of his car, “I packed overnight bags for all three of
us!” He dished out the backpacks before grabbing the keys to the cabin,
leading you all inside. With bags haphazardly thrown into their respective
bedrooms, and everyone bundled up in winter coats, scarves, and gloves, you sit
on the porch, watching as the brothers resumed their snowball war.
You knew how much it meant to Saeyoung to spend any and
every holiday he could with his brother, so it didn’t bother you that he was in
the snow with him. You enjoyed your time watching the two of them, keeping
score, and being the referee- calling one or the other out when they play
dirty. But you never let them figure out that you were the one throwing a few
when they least expect it.
Hours went by, and once the sun went down, Saeran is asleep
on the couch, and Saeyoung is coaxing you back into the car. He drives to a
drop off high on the mountain, and lays a few blankets over the hood of his
car. Once the both of you are cuddling close on top of the car, there’s only
silence between the two of you while you watched the night sky. Shooting stars
flew by constantly, and he kissed your forehead every single time he saw one.
“MC, I’m sorry I didn’t take much of a romantic route
this Valentine’s day. It.. well it was my first one so I wasn’t sure what to
do, but I also didn’t want to leave Saeran out of it completely, you know? I
just wanted all of us to enjoy our day as a mini vacation and celebrate our
love for each other collectively,” he whispered against your forehead,
pulling you closer as he gets further into his explanation. “But I’m
hoping laying here, in my favourite spot- the one I used to run to every time
work got too tough or I couldn’t handle my feelings- the one place that meant
the most to me, is romantic enough for you.”
Your heart almost jumped out of your chest, and when you
pulled away to look at his face, you could tell how sincere his words were. One
hand on his cheek and one tangled together with his, you pull his face back to
yours, capturing his lips in a soft kiss.
“You said it meant a lot to you.. why? And why did you
say ‘meant’ like it was in the past?” you asked him once you pulled away,
and you watched him smile down at you.
“It’s always got fresh air up here, makes it easier to
think. You can see the stars perfectly at night up here too, lots of shooting
ones, great for making wishes. But now I have you and Saeran, I don’t need to
wish on them anymore. Wherever you are is my new favourite place,” he
said, giving you the biggest, sweetest smile he could. He may be a big goof but
he’s such a sweetheart and you couldn’t help but bring him in for another kiss.
Then another, then another. After a while, he pulled away from you and looked
you dead in the eye, a thick layer of seriousness flooded his face.
“MC, do you think the aliens can get us up here? Hey
what are you- Hey!! Don’t push me off of the car! MC! It’s cold! Let me back
into the blanket please I’m sorry! I won’t ruin the moment again!”