all the feels in the world right now

anonymous asked:

So, I had to go back to the hospital again. This time because the new meds were making it impossible to keep food down. Nolan was right by my side but this time and not as a kind nurse, but as my boyfriend. It's been a long day of tests and doctors but Nolan drove me home and made me broth to drink since my stomach's been so upset. He's currently asleep with his head on my lap while watching Netflix. I can't remember a time I was this happy with my life. He's all I've ever wanted. -N&N

I cannot words right now, so gifs it is:

I am so incredibly happy for you, Nonnie. Both of you. I just wish you all the good things and the happiness in the world, you deserve it. I’m mentally hugging both of you right now and aaaahh, this is so amazing I AM SO HAPPY FOR YOUUUUU

P.S. I hope you feel loads better soon. Keep me posted on how you’re doing, okay? <3

demonickittyangel  asked:


11. are you listening to music right now? 
Yes! I’m listening to Ghost by Halsey (I love that song a lot)

13. how do you feel right now?
I’m not sure, but I do know that I just backed up the fandom and defended it against stupid and blatant hate. All I know is that fiction means a lot to me and I will tolerate no hate against things like this on my blog.

29. favourite film(s)
oooh so many! 

  • I origins
  • Big Hero 6
  • The Game
  • Now You See Me
  • Inception

These are the only ones I remember right now but it’’s a very long list!

53. 5 things that make me happy

  • Fictional Worlds
  • The idea that one day I’ll be able to travel the way I want to
  • Rings
  • Music
  • Learning (not the way they teach in school… the way I learnn is picking up pieces of random information, learning something about going to a place or just listening to a really educated person telling me about the stuff they like like with an intense passion. But never the learning in school.)

55. tumblr friends

these are just the names I remember right now sorry if I missed out anyone… These are the people I talk to the most here…

anonymous asked:

There's been a shooting in a school here in Monterrey. I don't know what to do. A student killed kids. It's almost the same as Columbine. I feel weird. My mind's spinning, my stomach is sick. I think I'm not going to be a Columbiner anymore.

I’m so sorry to hear about this! It’s always hard when something terrible hits so close to home in a community you know very well. From the sound of it, I’m glad to hear that you’re at least safe from immediate harm – I hope the same also goes for your friends, family, and other people you know. =) It’s tragic that this new shooting wound up being another loss of life, though, and my prayers are with everyone affected.

The most you can do right now is let yourself feel it all and do what you can for your community around you. Use this safe space you’re in to listen to yourself and the world around you – you will know what is needed, and you will know how to give. If it’s uncomfortable for you to be a part of the Columbiner community right now in light of this, then take your distance and the time that you need. I will say this, however: what you have learned from Columbine will be with you and will hopefully allow you to navigate this current space with greater empathy and intelligence.

I’ll be thinking of you and your community in the days to come! <3

what’s so frustrating is how the entire world is silent right now. especially these fucking celebrities and the media who all speak up when there’s a tragedy in America or Paris etc. but are MUTE right now on everything going on in Aleppo. Why are people turning a blind eye? this is a genocide. a crime against ALL of humanity. is it because it’s muslims being killed that no one wants to speak up? and at the same time its so mind-blowing how none of the other muslim leaders in the world seem to be doing anything to help their brothers and sisters in Aleppo. the world is silent while innocent people are being killed. 

Tonight, we are genuinely scared. Deeply saddened.

Hard as it is for us all to believe, Donald Trump is our next president.

There are simply no words to capture the collective pain we feel right now. We’ve elected a racist, bigoted, sexist, predatory man with fascist tendencies and a huge temper.

Jake and I have spent every waking moment of the past five years working toward the mission of informing, inspiring and empowering our generation to change the world. We tried to channel the best ideas from our generation. And in the moment when our generation became the biggest voting bloc in American history, our voices fell silent.

We failed.

That hurts. We’ve asked so many friends to drop everything and join us. We’ve made promises to our community of millions of peers. We’ve obsessed over harnessing the power of ideas supercharged through our global networks. And yet tonight, in the face of the most damning threat to our future, we’ve hit rock bottom.

So what are we going to do about it?

1) We will empathize. Comfort your loved ones and stand with those who are immediately threatened. Our friends, siblings, parents and many loved ones could be affected by Trump’s draconian policies. There will be genuine fear, grief and even panic. Reach out to those you love.

2) We will report. We will shine a light on our generation’s brightest stars and best activists. We will create both physical and digital spaces for open dialogue that gives voice. We will stay focused and make our generation heard.

3) We will mobilize. Fight to defend our values, our principles and our basic tenets of democracy and human rights. We will deliberately and strategically insert ourselves in the political process to block Trump’s hurtful policies and force him to reckon with us. We will take up this fight head on and aim to minimize his damage at every turn.

We won’t fail again. We are ready to dig in. There will be no mass deportations under our watch. There will be no reversal of equality under the law. We will dedicate every minute of every day to ensure our voices are actually heard.

We will build this movement from the ground up, with the best ideas from everyone. We want to hear you. We want your feedback. We’re ready to build this together. Because this is #NotOurAmerica.

— Chris Altchek, co-founder Mic


I’ll go first since I’m the oldest
I’ve come to this nice place but I don’t know what to say, but it’s a fanmeeting right? Really, this fanmeeting. I’m happy to be together with our ARMY (?? I don’t really remember what he said but he did aegyo) Because of you guys, I feel as though my life has become happy. I don’t know if you’ve heard but there are three precious 금’s in the world. First is gold (황금), second is salt (소금), third is being together with you right now (지금). This moment right now is happy and precious. ARMY, I love you

The face that we’re in this large space with just ARMY in Gocheok Dome is so so thrilling. Once again, I want to say think you to you all. Since meeting ARMY, it seems that my dreams have come true one by one, honestly, these days have felt like dream. Just like a dream. Meeting ARMY’s is the happiest greatest luck. Thanks you you guys my dreams have come true, and also I’m able to have other dreams, so for that I want to say thank you. Really thank you so so much.
I had though “no way, no way”. I am so thankful that I’m able to achieve the things one after the other that I thought “no way” to since debut. In the future, I think that I can make better music and be better on stage, I hope that as BTS we will is make better music and better stages too. Thanks to you guys, day after day it feels like I’m dreaming. Thank you everyone. Thank you.

ARMY’s do you remember the first muster? Our first muster feels like yesterday but suddenly we’ve come to this place. A fanmeeting is about meeting the fans right? It feels different communicating and sharing than at a concert. I think in places I can get closer with you guys. I feels so proud and happy that us and ARMY can fill this place with one heart and one goal in mind. Are you guys happy? If, so please cheer this wherever you go from now on. You guys are happy right? Wherever go be proud to say “I am a BTS fan”. Thank you so much for coming to this place and cheering with us and having fun with us. “If you believe say 2, 3” really believe. We believe and we want ARMY to believe in us too. I love you

First, It’s nice to see ARMY and their ARMY bombs at Gocheok Dome like this. For us to be able to perform at Gocheok Dome is a day that we won’t forget. Really thank you. And today, I want to tell you guys something about me. If i don’t do it now, I don’t think I ever will. Recently, Fans have been asking me “Taehyung-ah, why are so tired nowadays”, “are you feeling down?” and I want to reply to you then but the words couldn’t come out of my mouth. So this time i want to say something about me in Gocheok Dome to all of you. Recently my grandmother passed away. I heard about it while I was in the Philippines on the 3rd of September. At the time, I couldn’t believe that my grandmother, the person who raised me for 14 years just like my parents, the person who I would talk to when I was tired, (who I’d talk to about about) what I wanted to do, things I wanted to eat, the person who would indulge with me in the im possible, the person who was really precious to others. When we won Music Bank for the first time (BST), it was the 49th day since she passed away. My grandmother wanted to see Taehyungie on the TV and she wished that I’d say I love her while on TV but the timing was wrong. That is what I regret the most. My grandmother who really precious to me, said to love you guys (the fan s) a lot. Really, it’s because of you guys that we are at Gocheok Dome and are receiving more attention. I think my grandmother is cheering me on a lot in heaven. I believe that too and I will work harder so our ARMY is are most beloved ARMYs, please keep my precious grandmother in your memories.
Thank you

Everyone, Taehyungie has managed to overcome it well.
Everyone, it’s been a while right? Ah, everyone’s cried~ you’ve missed me, right? We’ve missed you guys so so much too but we’ve come to the fanmeeting now right? I was really nervous since there are a lot of stages we are showing you for the first time. I really wanted to tell you guys about two three. I usually listen to it a lot. When you listen to it, you get choked up right? The members have said all they ever wanted to say to you, so you get choked up right? But today I want to say something to you.
I’m not crying~
When your ok, you don’t really smile, but when you’re really happy you smile right? I hope you guys are just full of those things. And thank you for coming so far to see us, I love you

I didn’t know it when we started the fanmeet but when we started two, three, and I looked, the stage is really big. It made me think about our debut. We wanted to know how we could ever come to a place like this, I we couldn’t believe it. To be able to perform at such a large venue- Ah I’m sorry (starts crying). The seven of us gather and talk a lot. Each time we talk, we continue to m ake new goals and think about things and think about you guys so we’re really working hard to move to a higher place. I’m really grateful to ARMYs who have been together with us so far, and I hope in the future there will only be happy days like this. Thank you, and after finishing activities, thank you again for allowing us to perform at Gocheok Dome which is so big.

The light is so bright. Sometimes I feel the weight of the lights. So sometimes I have thoughts like that. When Taehyungie is talking about his struggles and Jungkookie’s tears and the other members too. How sincere should I be. When I’m 100% sincere, how many people will listen? I’m scared of that, I’m scared.
If I confess the things that I think are really tough, my sorrows, my heart, will people think that I’m weak and laugh? Will they mock me? I’m scared. I’m grateful for the courage that I’ve had to share so far, I understand the feeling well too, so once again I just wanted to say to the members, I love you. However, when I’m in despair, I can only think of 3 things. First is music, second is family, third is really you guys. If there’s no one listening to our music, there’s no point. Really thank you to those for becoming my last bastion, and for supporting me and the members in times of desperation. I love you.
Really thank you who came to BTS 3RD MUSTER ARMY ZIP PLUS. Gocheok Dome is really an incredible place, a place like a dream.  Thank you for filling it up. I will talk a little more before we end it, the army bombs sparkling really makes it seems we are in the universe. It’s like we entered the universe together with ARMYs. This universe is getting bigger and bigger and growing but I hope you don’t think the distance between us is getting further. Amongst  each and every ARMY bomb your eyes shine the brightest. We see that your eyes are working hard to shine bright for us. And you see this universe right? In this galaxy, were are one. I hope you guys won’t forget you are our universe.

trans; @hobuing | sc; εVEVEз

You know you’re fucked when you’re only 15 but yet it feels like the world could end right there and you would be fine with it. It’s fucked when girls and boys are so young but so depressed, so heartbroken. Feelings fuck you up, i remember when i was only a little girl and i had this whole life ahead of me and all I wanted was a boyfriend. And now after having one, I don’t understand why I needed one, it’s messed me up. Emotionally and physically, I am fucked.

He was the type of boy you could just see yourself lasting forever with, and that’s exactly what I did. He teased me so much that I used to sook about it, but that didn’t matter because at least he was making me smile in some way. He cared so deeply, and he was so sensitive even though everyone I knew saw him as this big tough guy. He was gentle, he was romantic, it was like we were 23 and just madly in love. Our relationship was beyond what you would expect at such a young age, but we were just so maturely in love. But that’s the thing, i’m not 23, i’m so young and now i’m heartbroken and it’s not as simple as going out every night to get him out of my head. I have to sleep early because of school, i have to go to school, I have to study and commit to all of my commitments and it’s impossible to get him out of my mind. He wasn’t just my boyfriend, he was genuinely my best friend and sometimes we fought as best friends would. But no matter how we were fighting, we fought as hard as we could for each other because that’s what love does to you. But one day i guess he just decided to stop fighting, and it wasn’t like I was expecting it. We always swore we would fight for each other, fight for the relationship, fight for our fucking love but he didn’t want too anymore. He didn’t want me anymore, and i can say with all my broken heart that killed me. It’s the worst thing to wake up happily in love and then go to bed broken because you’ve lost the reason why you even got up that day. He said he lost feelings, but I can’t place when. When did he lose feelings? With all of that sweet talk, the kisses, the texts, the calls, the hugs, everything and at some point he somehow started to lose feelings. And it hurt and surprised me so much because everyone knew that he was crazy about me. I saw parts of him that he would never dare to show anyone, we were so comfortable with each other and we allowed each other into our hearts but for some reason he just didn’t want that anymore. I can not place that all in my head, how you can suddenly lose interest in something you once loved. And it wasn’t like the hurt stopped there, no a month later he found himself with another girl. Making all the memories, the love, the jokes, that we were once doing. And the weirdest thing is, everyone around him can see that he doesn’t love her. Not the way he loved me at least. And i can’t seem to process the thought of why you would throw away a diamond for a fake one. Why would you throw away your perfect girl for someone who doesn’t even come close? Fuck, she’s not even pretty and yet i feel like i have to compete with her. And every month goes by, and they are still going strong and for some reason my brain still can’t process it. I still can’t believe that he’s moved on from me because love doesn’t just go away. You can’t just get rid of love because you don’t want it anymore, feelings don’t leave when you ask them too. So what is he doing with her when he can be with me? I’ve never been the girl to wait for someone, i always want to try with everyone but for some reason i am constantly drawn to him, as if he’s truly made for me and i think he is. I think he’s the love of my life and maybe i’m just not his. But when you love something you don’t just let it go, you fucking fight like crazy for it and i can promise everyone i would never go down without a fight. Okay maybe he’s happily in love with her, but what about me? What about my love for him? That doesn’t just go away, that doesn’t get excluded so fuck society and their expectations. Fuck everyone who thinks i won’t succeed. I know what I want, and i’ve never been so determined to get it.


okay, i have a few words about The Tie Scene™

i’ve watched the episode about three times already, to make sure i felt like i had everything straight on point. 


look at the top. “Victor! Victor!” and if you guys remember, Victor was cheerfully smiling and waving at the people, he was happy they were shouting his name. 

and then, YUURI’S FUCKING FACE! he looks like he’s not pleased at all by all the people shouting at his boyfriend. so HE PULLS VICTOR BY THE TIE, AND SAYS

WHICH made me realise: Yuuri is Jealous. in one of the last episodes, Yuuri monologes about how he likes the feeling of being the one that stole Victor from the world. right here, he’s basically saying: “i’m fucking skating, look at me” in very very subtextual way – like he wants Victor to understand that fuck the other people i’m going to skate now.

And Victor fucking complies:

He understands what Yuuri meant with his phrase. he unserstands that Yuuri needs Victor to pay attention in him and only him. 

fuck this couple is going to make me loose it 

Yuuri is jealous over Victor

Waking up after episode 12 and realizing that the beautiful pair skate wasn’t a dream, that it actually happened and was seen by thousands of people in the world is the best feeling ever.

I slept like 4 hours but I feel more alive than ever, fueled by that pair skate and all its beauty. I actually want to get out of bed for once. Even the morning after, I can say that this anime was a blessing and we got more than we deserved and I am so fucking happy to be alive right now.

Kubo-sensei, the entire team behind YOI, thank you so much. For everything. We hope to see you again soon.

I know things are terrible right now but take a look at my cat. She’s fine. She’s content. She doesn’t even know what a President is. All she’s worried about is when I’ll give her breakfast and whether the bed or the sofa is the better sleeping option. No matter what happens all is well in the world of my cat. Even if the world goes to hell, she is happy.

I know you’re hurting right now but please don’t shut me out.
I hate seeing you like this.
When I look in your eyes all I see is sadness and I feel so powerless that I can’t help you…. that I can’t make it better. I know you’re probably tired because life goes on and you have to put on a brave face for the world and pretend everything’s okay.
But please know that you don’t have to pretend with me. If you want to talk about it - I’m here.
If you want to talk about something else so you can forget everything for a while - I can do that. And if you need to be left alone to process everything that’s going on - I can do that too… just don’t be upset if I check on you from time to time. I do it because I’m worried about you and I care.
I just want to help - in any way I can … just open up to me and tell me what it is that you need. All I want to do is hug you tight and tell you everything will be okay. I want you to know that you can rely on me, that I’m thinking of you and I’m here for you whenever you need me.
But most important of all…. I want you to know that you’re loved.

Freeform didn’t listen. I called Netflix through their customer service line, and told the man I was speaking to that I would hang up right now if he was busy, because I have no intentions of being disrespectful. He told me he had time to talk, and asked what was going on. I told him that Girl Meets World was cancelled , and asked if there was any way Netflix could pick it up. I see all of the links in which you can request a show, but I feel like the word will spread through Netflix easier if people call their line and speak directly to them. This was my philosophy behind calling instead of emailing. Word spreads quicker. Their number is 1 (866) 579-7172. Stand behind me? Stand behind us? All we need is support here. He told me all we needed was support.


You don’t have to apologize for who you are, and you certainly don’t have to apologize for who you are not. I think what you need to know most of all right now, is that all you ever need is yourself. What other people think or say can hurt — that is valid, PLEASE don’t trivialize what you are feeling — but you must matter most to yourself. You owe it to yourself to care for your truth. You owe it to yourself to live that truth.”

i’ve always admired and loved louis since the beginning not only for his incredible talent but for being the amazing person he is, but right now? that admiration and love has gotten a million times bigger. what he did tonight has left me speechless. losing someone you love is the hardest thing someone can go through, mostly if you’re so young, you feel like the world is going to end and all that motivation you had left dies. but he went out there, found the strength, got on stage and performed this beautiful song in tribute to jay, a song that has such positive lyrics and that truly anyone can find comfort in and i’m just speechless. he’s one of the strongest and bravest people i’ve ever had the pleasure to admire, love and look up to and i’ll never find the words to describe how proud i am of him and i’m 100% sure the angel that now jay is is too. you deserve the entire world, louis tomlinson.

I woke up on the morning of my twenty-third birthday to a dead-end job, a failing relationship, an empty wallet and a complete lack of direction. And I’m sure I’m not alone in that fate.

The years following college aren’t kind to us. We are thrust into the real world with a large amount of student debt, jobs that barely pay enough to make rent, relationships that are rapidly changing and a profound feeling of being lost on how to handle it all. Nobody likes you when you’re twenty-three, including your own life.

And yet, we pull through.

Most of us make it to our twenty-fourth year. Most of us make it out of the woods. Most of us are lucky enough to say that by the end of our twenty-third year we’re no longer feeling completely and utterly lost. But in case you’re not there yet, here are a few things you may need to be reminded of right now.

1. You’re not going to be lonely for the rest of your life.

Twenty-three is a lonely and uncomfortable age. College is (probably) over. Your professional life is (hopefully) just beginning. And your social life is doing an awkward, uncomfortable shuffle in response to all the changes. You’re far away from the people who know you well and not yet emotionally close with the people who physically surround you.

Give it time. Give your relationships the chance to evolve. Give yourself the chance to adjust to no longer living with a group of your closest friends (yes, you will adjust). Loneliness doesn’t last forever, even when it feels like it will.

2. You don’t need to be working your dream job right now.

It’s okay to take a shitty office job because you need to pay the bills. It’s okay to spend your spare time volunteering to get the experience you need. There are a thousand different routes you can take to get to where you want to go. Don’t beat yourself up in the process – just keep moving, steadily and slowly, toward wherever you would rather be.

3. Everyone feels lost at some point.

No, seriously. Every single person you meet, interact with or think about in the course of a day has almost definitely had a period of their lives where they had NO clue what they were doing. So this is yours. You’re just getting it out of the way early.

4. You still have so much time to fail.

You have time to fail at love. At your career. At your creative aspirations. At your personal goals.

You are still young enough to fall and pick yourself back up, so many more times. So don’t be afraid to take those big, scary risks now – while you still have the time and the strength and the determination to start over.

5. Someone is going to love you again.

You’re going to feel that insane over-the-moon feeling again. You’re going to want to tell someone ‘I love you’ again. You’re going to have something real with another human being again, even if it doesn’t feel like it right now. The ability to love other people doesn’t leave you, even if it’s a muscle you haven’t flexed in a long while.

6. You are going to love you again.

Your self-perception is going to adjust to encompass the new, adult you: the one that you are still growing into. Don’t beat yourself up about who you are or are not yet at twenty-three – you have so much time left to grow into the person you’ll become, and to be damn proud of whoever that will be.

7. You are allowed to set and keep boundaries.

Being a young adult means saying ‘Yes’ to a lot of things – long work hours, demands from our partners – because you aren’t yet sure what you’re allowed to say no to. But here’s the deal – you are allowed to set whatever personal or professional boundaries you need to set in order to stay healthy and stable.

You don’t have to earn the right to take care of yourself. You deserve it, as a basic product of your existence.

8. You are never entirely without support.

You may not be lucky enough to have parents who are able to give you financial support or even friends who are immediately available to give you emotional support, but rest assured, if things ever went really wrong, you’d have people there to help you out in ways you may not expect. If at least a few names come to mind, you’re doing better than a lot of people.

9. Being disappointed in yourself just means that you know you can do better.

If you were never falling short of your own goals, you’d be living your life all wrong. Disappointment – in moderation – means that you believe in bigger things for yourself. And holding that belief in life will take you further than you could possibly imagine.

10. It’s not your job to live someone else’s dream.

You don’t have to move to Asia to teach English if it’s not going to make you happy. You don’t have to move to a big city and get a mind-numbing office job because it’s going to impress your parents. The choices you make now set the tone for the choices you’re going to make the rest of your life. So you’re allowed to make the choices you want to make – and only worry about impressing your future self.

11. ‘No’ is a very important word.

You’re allowed to use it. Say no to jobs that don’t entice you. Say no to people who bring out the worst in you. Say no to all the opportunities that prevent you from pursuing the bigger, braver, bolder life course that you’d rather be on. Say no confidently, strategically and as regularly as you need to. It is your right and in some cases, your greatest asset.

12. Nobody can read your mind – you’re going to have to ask for what you want.

Nobody is going to come hand you your dream job or your perfect relationship or your ideal lifestyle because you’ve been obeying the rules so diligently. You have to ask – directly and sometimes incessantly – for those things. It’s unfortunate that the adult world works this way, but it does. The sooner you get comfortable asking for things, the sooner you start getting big results. Results other people don’t get because they’re too afraid to ask for them.

13. You don’t have to be embarrassed.

Not by the job you’re working or the person you’re dating or where you are in life, in relation to the people you graduated college with. Embarrassment is a choice. And the prouder you choose to be of yourself – no matter where you are in life – the further you’re going to go. Confidence is a major predictor of success.

14. Your body is not seventeen anymore.

You can’t exist on a steady diet of beer, burritos and power-naps forever. Your body is starting to change and you have to change to accommodate it if you don’t want to feel just a little bit worn-out for the rest of eternity. Treating your body properly is going to have more of a positive impact on your life in the coming years than you could possibly imagine right now.

15. You’re probably hotter than you think you are.

Something I hear over and over again from middle-aged people is that they can’t believe they ever thought they were unattractive in their early twenties.

We are our own harshest critics at this point in our lives and it’s more likely than not that your most unattractive quality is the lack of confidence you have in your own appearance. Start believing in yourself a little more right now, so you have to kick yourself a little less aggressively later.

16. You aren’t done changing yet, and you probably won’t be for a while.

There are those rare, beautiful moments in our early twenties where it feels like we’ve got it all figured out and we’re entirely out of the woods. But those moments never last for too long. Life is constantly changing – but that’s far from being a bad thing. Your brain is still developing. You are still developing. And the worst thing you can be right now is stagnant.

17. You have to give yourself a break.

At 23, it’s easy to get so caught up in the working and progressing and forming relationships and finding ourselves that we forget to ever take a moment to just breath. To relax. And to take a brief break from frantically dashing toward the future. You still deserve to live and enjoy your life. Your future will come soon enough.

18. Losing friends is a natural consequence of this stage of your life.

Losing touch with your old college roommates or your hometown friends or the loved ones who settled down earlier or later than you did is a natural consequence of growing older. It isn’t solely up to you to keep every friendship you’ve ever had alive – some things fade out naturally, because they should. Because some of the friendships you shared were meant to last a season, not a lifetime, and that’s okay.

19. There will be people you have to leave behind as you grow, and that doesn’t make you a bad person.

Everyone grows up and grows into themselves at different paces. And the older you get, the more you will notice that some people almost deliberately choose to stay stuck or hold themselves back. And it is not your job to rescue these people from themselves. You can love them, you can support them and you can encourage them but at the end of the day you just can’t hold yourself back on their behalf. They have responsibility over their lives and you have responsibility over yours. You are not selfish or horrible to keep moving forward without them.

20. Comparisons are completely senseless, unless you use them as a motivator.

Comparisons are a great thing if you’re using them to motivate yourself to rise up to someone else’s level of greatness. If, however, you’re only using them to beat yourself down, they are the single greatest waste of your time and energy. You are not your friend or your college classmate or your co-worker who just got a raise. You are you. And if you want to rise above the rest, you have to use the skills that are unique to you, rather than pining after what comes naturally to everyone else.

21. Everyone fucks up.

No, seriously. Everyone has made at least one big, huge mistake that they wish they could take back. It’s just that we tend to not talk about our fuck-ups, which creates a culture where everyone believes that they’re the only ones who ever encounters them. Trust me: you’re not alone. We’ve all done some royally screwed-up stuff. And we’ve all survived it. Which means that you’re probably going to as well.

22. Everyone’s terrified.

Nobody really knows what’s coming next. Nobody actually has a foolproof plan. Nobody is 100% sure of how to get where they want in life and nobody has it all figured out.

Even the most confident people are a little bit unsure and a little bit terrified sometimes. Life’s just like that. Uncertainty is a key ingredient to the whole shebang.

23. If you had it all figured out right now, the rest of your life would be boring.

If you had the rest of your life locked and loaded at twenty-three years old, the rest of your life would be a let-down. The ups and downs are just a natural part of what keeps things interesting. And the truth is, now is the best time imaginable to ride out those fluctuations. A period of struggle prepares you for a future of resilience. So struggle away at twenty-three. The future has plenty of time to fall into place.

—  Heidi Priebe

My heart is beating fast, I can’t sleep and I’m thinking about Pokemon.
Seeing all these classic Kanto pokemon scattered all over my hometown is just giving me an unbelievable amount of feels. 

We’re really seeing something pretty cool happen right now, right in the middle of all the crap that’s happening. The world is nuts. 

Going back through these watercolors from the archive- think I might revisit this series soon :D

if anyone feels especially down and hopeless, find videos of the anti-trump rallies going on right now. there are streets absolutely packed with people of all different backgrounds, standing together, sharing one voice, refusing to back down and be silent
it’s really inspiring and reassuring to remember that there are so many good people in the world and that giving up and feeling resigned to hatred isn’t an option. we just need to stick together right now

I’m talking serious right now, it’s a thing i don’t do every day, my followers know i’m one to play often.

But let me tell you guys something. I’m really, really proud of BTS and GOT7. GOT7 is known around the world, we all know that, they speak so many languages too. But this prize… He made me feel so proud in so many levels! Now, we know GOT7 is a group that is going to make history with ahgases. Really, they’ll surely be a great classic in a few years, and they are still so Young compared to the others! The boys were surely happy with this prize. I remember when Jackson gave up everything to give a shot in the dark to music, and when JJP was over, JB and Jinyoung still got to go to GOT7, and I’m happy Mark kept training and didn’t got tired. I’m happy he didn’t got back home. Im happy Bambam, so small, had so many friends to push him to the world and his dreams. I’m happy anybody made their minds and happy that they re what they are today. I’m happy that the scandals o few months ago didn’t took bambam away, happy to see Yugyeon with this confidence in his dancing, i remeber his predebut. I’m happy that youngjae is still singing with all his heart like the begining and didn’t lost hope. i’m happy that GOT7 exists.

But BTS… I don’t know how to say.

At Melon Music Awards, we, ARMYs, were trying to give them the Artist Of The Year Daesang, but we got Album of the year. We were SO happy for the boys, they cried, smiled, they even weren’t believing it was for them at the firt seconds. I never saw Namjoon so happy in my life. Never. But now, at MAMAs, where EXO was meant to win EVERYTHING POSSIBLE, and BTS also was competing with so many good dance performances and artists, they won. They fucking won. Yoongi looked so proud, so happy to know it’s real, they really made it. Their biggest dream in the moment was this Daesang. But with their hard work, we could vote and help to give them two Daesangs. TWO. I’m proud to say that i believed when they said they would make it, they believed with me when everybody said that some bulletproof guys weren’t going to win a thing. They made history. They were the first ones who were not from the trhee big companies to win the daesang of artist of the year. I hope i see more of this. I hope i see Hobi in pure Joy again. I hope i see Rapmon, a person who doesn’t have any problem speaking, speechless, i hope i see min Yoongi cry in disbelief again, i hope i see Jimin holding back tears and showing emotion through his face, i hope to see Jin crying in joy and i hope he remebers he made it right dropping acting for a while and denying SMTOWN, hope to see Taetae’s proud face again, hope to see Jungkook crying when he sees that his biggest dream came true because of all this efforts, all the singing, dancing, rapping, sweating and nights without sleeping. All of this makes me love GOT7 ang BTS so much that i cant explain the feeling of seeing their happiness throug tears. I surely can’t.

I hope that GOT7 and BTS keep being friends, and keep growing. Keep it together, happiness sadness, anger, all of this is going to lead them to a great music with great feelings, and even if they are tired, they’ll keep this joy in their minds. Because loving what you do is great. I really hope GOT7 and BTS have their Most beautiful moment in life.

Yuri on Ice and my Mental Health

Wednesdays are fairly important to me at the moment.

Yuri on Ice of course drops on a Wednesday which always makes me so happy I don’t know what to do with myself.

But it’s also the day of my counselling appointment.

And increasingly those two are related.

Two weeks ago I brought up in my counselling appointment that the only thing that was breaking through my shell of numb indifference to the world, the only thing that could make me feel, was Yuri on Ice.

At the time I was embarrassed but my awesome counsellor was all “No! Embrace it and use it to help you!” and she was right. We scheduled in my responsibilities (like studying) broken up with “spend time online involved with Yuri on Ice” and it worked 

I was significantly happier this week when I went back but my balance of activities is still way out of whack so we took it a step further.  So now I have 10 minutes of studying followed by 30 minutes of “Yuri on Ice/Tumblr” time followed by another 10 minutes of studying followed by 10 minutes of “getting up and moving around the house, possibly doing chores”

It seems such a little thing but it is massively helpful and I’m looking at that like “Yeah I can do that!”

I’ve also scheduled time away from Yuri on Ice to spend time with my husband.

I’ve also scheduled time with my kid but some of that is Yuri on Ice related cause kiddo is a fan of the show as well.

Making time in my schedule and life to be involved in this fandom and not have to apologise for it or feel guilty or silly is great. I’ve been given permission to be excited and happy about this and that’s really great.

Also I talked a bit about the story and about how the main character is anxious and depressed at the beginning but the show is about him finding confidence in himself and even when he had a breakdown in episode 7 he came back and did well despite that and she said “That is a really positive message and really positive thing to have in your life.”

So all those people saying “Yuri on Ice cured my depression”? Guess what? Yuri on Ice might LITERALLY cure my depression…or at least put it back into remission.