Imagine in order to fight off Lucifer's child, Cas has to knock you up so you too can have a angel/human hybrid child
All hope was gone. A true tragedy. Rumor has it that the Winchesters could kill anything or save the world at the snap of their fingers…but this was something no one expected. Lucifer had a bun in the oven, and no one knew where she was. Now, the Antichrist was on the verge of being born, and the chances of the world not crashing and burning was slim to none.
“Now what?” you sighed as you sat down in a nearby chair, your hands in your hair as stress began to take you over.
“Well,” Sam began, “research could still be helpful…or Crowley, Rowena-”
“Crowley is not going to help us on this, and Rowena isn’t trustworthy!” Dean interrupted.
“Well, do you have any better ideas?” Sam’s arms flew up in the air in frustration before coming down with a harsh slap against his thighs.
“I do,” Castiel spoke up in his monotone voice. All eyes turned in his direction for further explanation. “It took another archangel to battle Lucifer when he was cast out of Heaven…Michael. Michael had the same power as Lucifer, or even more powerful some believe. We need something as powerful as this child…another hybrid.”
“What are you suggesting, Cas?” Dean snapped in confusion.
“I’m saying,” he sighed, “that I could impregnate Y/n, so that when Lucifer’s child is born…so will the Nephilim.”
“What?” the youngest Winchester demanded, his brows knitting together.
“Hell no!” Dean practically yelled at the angel who was growing more and more frustrated by the second, yet no one bothered to ask you about your opinion even though you were the person that had the most control in saying if it was happening or not.
As the tension grew in unison with the volume of their voices, the small string that was holding your mouth shut snapped. “OKAY! ENOUGH!” you yelled as you stood up from your chair. “You two have no say in this! It’s between Castiel and I!”
“Y/n, you seriously aren’t considering this, are you?” Sam asked in a voice that dripped in disbelief.
You only shrugged. “Hey, you guys risk your lives any chance you get just to save one or two people. I think I can do the same for the entire world.”
“Save it, Dean!” With a sigh, you held your lower stomach and closed your eyes. “I’ll do this for you two. For the world. To kill that monster that is growing this very moment somewhere out there…It’s time I do something useful around here.”
Chapter Summary: You and Anthony begin to have more than a once sentence conversation. Then you and Jeff go to your first class together.
02. Girls Love Jeff Atkins
The loud and obnoxious bell rang, signalling that 2nd period is over and nutrition has started. Before you headed out to meet your group of friends, you went straight to your locker to exchange notebooks with your 4th period class. You couldn’t wait to mess around with Jeff since you have 3rd period with him (getting his schedule because you had Office Assistant for 1st). You shut your locker closed and turned on your heels to head out of the building, but came face-to-face with Anthony. A surprised gasp escaped your lips and your face was heating up as he smiled.
You’ve had a crush on Anthony Grant in 10th grade when you saw him in the gym for the football rally. Truth be told, you only liked him because of his looks; but his personality was shit - as you heard:
I am high key obsessed with kpop scandals and I want to know more about them. It is so interesting what goes on behind the scenes in companies and I want to know all about it and see what rumors are true and what is made up. Like training schedules and how much control a company has over their artists.
[Gang AU] [ Warning: Violence + Language + Suggestive ]
Jay clenched his teeth together to keep from cursing when he stepped in a puddle of unknown liquid. Loco and Kiseok laughed seeing their leader get angered so easily. “Why did we have to come here? We are higher than them.” He had been in a bad mood and it didn’t help to be called to an abandoned warehouse in the middle of the night.
“They have the upper hand, therefore they get to choose where we meet.” Kiseok was second in command, therefore he would take over for Jay when he wasn’t in his right of mind. “They finally got that helmet wearing mercenary’s location down to a twenty mile radius.”
- you wrote me a love letter in first grade but I thought you were gross I’m so sorry
- our moms were friends so we had to see each other every day but we somehow never got bored of each other and so here we are
- I was definitely the cuter kid you can’t possibly fight that
- you stole my favorite toy as a kid and apparently you found the same toy online because there’s one sitting on our dining room table with a note of how sorry you are and it’s really sweet but I have no idea what I’m going to do with this
- I had a crush on you in middle school and you keep teasing me for it and we’re in a relationship
- I have seen every single one of your life milestones and I’m really glad I’m one of them
- no, I didn’t know everyone called me that in high school and I could have spent the rest of my life not knowing that insulting nickname, why did you have to bring it up
- we thought we were so cool in high school but now we both know to never mention that time of our lives
- when we were seven your sibling said something mean to you so we ran away together and it only lasted a few hours but now when your significant other says something mean to you it could last forever I’m just saying
- everyone knows we’ve been friends forever so when you tell them something ridiculously untrue about me as a kid they all believe you (alternate: all those rumors are true so I KNOW you’re the one spreading them)
- I had an extremely embarrassing crush in middle/high school/college and you keep bringing them up and I never should have told you anything (bonus: I say my relationship with you is embarrassing and you never mention it again)
- we went back to the pond we used to hunt frogs in and it’s not nearly as impressive as I remember being
- I’ve always loved you but I’ve never been in love with you and I’m genuinely proud to be your kid’s godparent
- I hated all your significant others and I’m starting to figure out why and I really really hope you feel the same
- I saw you eat ants in kindergarten you can’t possibly do anything to scare me away now
- I mean, really, we kind of got married when we were seven under kid law
- we’ve been together for several years now and we still can’t get our families to realize that we’re in love we have not been platonic in forever
- we got really stressed about relationships and sex and everything so we agreed we’d test the waters with each other and I kind of want to try it again now that I know a little more
A/N:“One of us thinks this is a date but the other thinks it’s an informal job interview” with Kirk requested by anon for my 300 Follower AU Celebration! I had fun with this one, so hopefully you guys do too! :D Also there’s pics at the end of the dress and suit style I had in mind if anyone’s curious.
“I don’t know if I can do this,” you said as your roommate zipped up the back of your floor length dress.
“You look beautiful, Y/N. if he doesn’t give you the job, I guarantee he’ll give you his number.”
“I don’t want his number. I want the job.”
“Oh please, like you’d really say no to sleeping with the infamous Jim Kirk.” You glared at your roommate in the mirror before sighing, defeated.
♡ some of these are fluff, some are angst, some are a fucking joke, but i think they’re all what you expected lmao i wish. thank you for requesting! also, um, these are vvvvv long, sorry bout that
Netizens are losing their minds. Your ship name is trending worldwide and the number of negative comments is almost unbelievable. Jin had tried so hard to keep you out of the public eye and for so long but seems like all his attempts of doing so had gone to shit in a matter of minutes. The power of the media can’t be compared to anything, and you’re both well aware that fans are not going to let of this any time sooner. Because the rumors are true after all: Jin is eight years older than you and there’s not way you can convince them otherwise now that the cat is out of the box.
The boys are gathered around the living room in silence. Jin is holding you tight while you sobb nonstop, even though you’ve been a crying mess for an hour and a half now. Jin’s shoulder is soaking wet thanks to your tears and the front of his shirt is wrinkled because of how hard you’ve been holding onto him. The others don’t know if there is even a way they can make you feel a little bit better about the whole situation. Namjoon remembers warning Jin about this when you guys decided to formalize things but now is not the time of saying ‘I told you so’. Jin knows he fucked up bigtime and is desperate to find a solution.
He’s not worried about him. He’s so used to people making up bullshit about him and his brothers that he wouldn’t be surprised if suddenly there’s a million rumours about you being hired by the company, or even abused and forced to be with him. He knows how to deal with speculations, but you don’t. You’re so young and innocent and you shouldn’t be going through this crap. And right now there’s no words he can say to you because he can’t deny feeling surprised and exposed, so he keeps holding you tight, making sure you know by his actions that he’s not leaving you by yourself.
He’s holding the phone with both hands, while Jimin looks over his shoulders carefully, expecting his reaction. You’re sitting next to him, resting against his leg, furrowing your eyebrows. The quality of the video is horrible and the person’s hand is shaking a lot, but still you can see clearly what is being filmed. There’s a lot people crowded in the dim lighted room: in the first two minutes of the video you can only see Hoseok and Namjoon chatting with Jackson and Yugyeom from GOT7, a little bit to the right are Jin and Jungkook sitting on two small but chic couches, laughing uncontrollably and pointing to someone. Then the camera turns around and reveals two young girls smiling like fucking idiots. When the camera is focused again on the dancefloor-like room, there’s no Jin nor Jungkook, nor any other boy.
Here comes the night by DJ Snake starts playing and two lovers appear on the screen. Yoongi scrunches his nose at the sight, you just shift uncomfortably in your seat and Jimin takes a deep breath because he has seen the video already. You seem to be dancing slowly, Yoongi’s left arm wrapped around your waist while he holds a cup of something in his right hand. Both of you are smiling innocently at the each other until the second chorus of the song comes. By then, you hold Yoongi’s face and smash your lips against his. Hard. For the rest of the video, there’s only you and Yoongi making out as if there was if no tomorrow. When it ends, there’s silence. Yoongi starts scrolling through the comments, seeing nothing but “isn’t she too young to be in a club?” “is that yoongi’s personal whore?” “he can go to jail for that” “is she eight?”.
He gives Jimin’s phone back, sighs heavily and looks at you with this glance mixed between serious and unfaced, “I guess I’m your nanny from now on, kiddo”, you just slap him in the shoulder between laughs. You both that even if you’re eight years younger than him, your mental age doesn’t compare to that.
“So a fan sent us a set of recent pictures of you arriving to LAX”, all the boys nod, while Namjoon explains everything about their promotion campaign in America. Hoseok is too focused on his friend’s words to even notice the pictures are being projected on the big screen behind them, and only turns around only until Namjoon’s voice is replaced by his nervous giggle, “Oh, I haven’t seen that before”, says a shocked Eric Nam, trying his best not to look embarrassed because he had definitely seen that before but agreed with the production not to show it on the big screen for obvious reasons. Hoseok looks at the picture behind him and then to the front, with his signature J-Nope face.
The incident is forgotten soon after, when no one really comments on the picture of you and Hoseok hand by hand, with matching face masks under your chins and big smiles on your faces. It had caused a big fuss when it was first posted on a fansite and the comments about you being way too young for him were soon under every single tweet posted on BTS’s account. Honestly, the incident was so old already and even now, Hoseok never bothered to explain his relationship with this pretty and jovial girl. Not even when it was exposed on Koreaboo that she was eight years younger than him. The lack of of everybody’s interest on the topic was so big that the interview was not affected by someone’s mistake of projecting the picture and they were able to conclude the show without any trouble.
Right after they were sent again to their dressing room backset, Hoseok was quick to give you a call just to ask you about the episode. You never answered the phone so he was relieved when he remembered that was exactly the time of the day in which you take a nap. He knew you didn’t care about any of that too, but still, you were too young to receive any kind of hate and specially get affected by it.
It’s been awhile since one of you said a word. The silence that came after the worst argument you have ever had was killing you inside,but you were too prideful to speak first and so was Namjoon. You were looking at the back of his head with your arms wrapped around yourself, rethinking about all the horrible things he had said to you due to the heat of the argument. They were probably going to hunt you for quite some time. You could see he was breathing heavily judging by the way his back was raising and you wanted to sooth him with the soft touch of your hands but at this point, you didn’t know if one act that simple could annoy him or not.
Namjoon was angry enough at you for acting so immature and just remembering the way you way you were yelling at him for things he couldn’t control got him worked up again. He was decided to lecture you once again when he turned around and faced you but his heart was broken the instant he saw the way you were standing, all vulnerable, scared of his next move. You were not one to blame; he was stupid enough to think you were going to be able to manage this yourself. He also forgot he had promised you were going to move on together if that some point things got difficult, but apparently those promises were erased from his memory the moment you complained about the unnecessary attention you were getting.
And it wasn’t your fault. None of this. It wasn’t your fault that you were born eight years after him. It wasn’t your fault that he didn’t know how to deal with all the attention that was starting to get too overwhelming. It wasn’t your fault that he was so madly in love with you he thought sharing you to the world was gonna do any good. Now he was ruining your life, your young life. Was he really such a bad person?
Your eyes were closed when Namjoon came closer and hugged you, and your first reaction was to jump away. He looked at you with wide eyes as his lower lip started quivering, “I didn’t… I’m sorry Namjoon” “No, it’s… it’s okay”, but you couldn’t let him go with the idea of you being afraid of him, even when his screams were the most terrifying thing you had ever heard. So you took a few steps forward and rested your head on his chest, his arms automatically going around your narrow shoulders. The age gap was bringing you a lot of trouble, but Namjoon was too good to let go, and so were you.
“Eight years?”, the boys are looking at him as if he was some kind of strange animal. Jimin is annoyed and is trying to hide the fact that he’s not enjoying their reactions at all, but it’s a shame he’s so expressive because he can’t never get away with anything. He’s introducing you to them for the first time and the way they’re acting to you being way younger than Jungkook is making him wonder if he should just tell cancel plans with you and go somewhere else for your date night, “You don’t have to like her, just be nice”, at this point Jimin is practically begging them to treat you as if you were one of them. He knows how hard it is for you to get used to people and if they’re not comfortable with the idea of you being basically a kid, he’s not gonna make you go through this, “You’re misunderstanding, Jimin. It’s not that we don’t like her because we don’t even know her. What I meant by that is that, well… this is no easy life, the one we have, you know? Don’t you think it will be hard for her and for you if one day everything comes to light?”, of course he’s aware of that, but Jimin loves you so much he’s willing to give up his entire peace just so he can be with you, “Of course I know, and I don’t care about what the media or anyone says. Can you just give her a chance?”, the boys look at each other, worried that Jimin is committing a huge mistake by getting involved with this girl, younger than him for eight years. But they let him be and promise they’ll act as natural as ever.
To say they were shocked by your persona when you arrived to the dorms is little. You surely didn’t look like you were eight years younger than Jimin and by the way you expressed yourself, you certainly didn’t have the mentality of the typical rebellious teenager. You seemed very mature and able to maintain a serious conversation, and what surprised them the most is that you could melt Jimin with a single glance.
The absurdity of the article is in so many other levels that your first reaction when reading the headline is to blink. That’s right. You blink, tilt your head like a confused puppy and read the headline again. “V from BTS spotted near the Han River with younger sister”. When it clicks a certain buttons in your head, the only thing you’re able to do is burst in laughter. You’re screaming so hard it doesn’t take long for someone to go down starts to make sure you’re not losing your mind out of nowhere. Taehyung is glad to see you so happy but he’s curious self gets the best of him and now he wants to laugh with you, “What’s so funny?”, he asks. You’re not even able to explain to him the situation because you’re literally choking of laughter so you just throw your cellphone at him.
His reaction is very similar to yours. He doesn’t seem to get it at first, but when he does, he looks between the cellphone and your dying figure before starting to crack up too. Soon there are tears rolling down his cheeks and he doesn’t know if he should be worrying or not. Even if he tries to worry, he will end up laughing again because when in hell did his parents gave him a grown teenager sister? You’re calming down a little bit right when Yoongi and Hoseok appear at the bottom of the stairs, the first with an annoyed look on his face and the second showing an amusing smile, “What is wrong with you two?”, says Yoongi under his breath, scratching his butt and disappearing in the kitchen. Instead of following, Hoseok takes the cellphone that is in Taehyung’s hand and reads the article too.
Now there are three people laughing hard and rolling on the floor, this meaning the whole situation will never not be hilarious, “You’re so small they thought you were his younger sister, this is gold”, says Hobi between laughs and grabbing at his stomach, “This wouldn’t be possible without you baby, thank you so much”, you do your best to control yourself and you succeed, cleaning yours and Taehyung’s tears in the process, “I’m not ten” you smack him right in the head, earning a small welp from him, “Are you sure?”, he says with a straight face before breaking in laugh once again, you following soon after.
This was madness. You were warned that going through the airport was going to be quite an adventure but you never expected this many people. And they were aggressive. You didn’t have any issues with crowds but you also appreciated your life and sadly, all you could was hold Jungkook’s hand tight and hope for the best. That was your first mistake.
Their manager had told you it was best if you just holded onto his arm and looked down the whole walk to security but the moment you putted a feet out of the car, the sea of people launched towards you. Your first instinct was to hold your boyfriend and follow his way. Girls were confused, shocked and triggered so they did what they were best at: trash you as much as they could. From comments like “who the fuck is that bitch” to “let go of the maknae”, the ones that got your total attention were the ones that mocked your size and your apparent age. You honestly didn’t give a single shit about all that but you knew Jungkook did.
Just to make sure he was not about to murder someone you lifted your head slightly, catching a glimpse of him before your head was pushed back down carefully by Jin that was right behind you. Jungkook looked flustered and his neck vein was popping so much you were afraid it would burst at any moment. He hated being judged but what got to him the most was the fact that they were being so rude towards you when they didn’t even know you. He never said anything the rest of the trip, not even when you were in a safe area, but he held you. Jungkook is a sensitive guy and his emotions were always overwhelming so instead of asking him about it, you held him back, soothing him with a sweet touch on his biceps, “Don’t worry. I may be younger, but I’m not dumber” “That rhymed”, it’s his smile what you wanted to see and know that he’s staring at you with happy eyes, you can’t ask for more.
Everyone stood in wait as Kim Seokjin walked into the room.
There were rumors flying that the CEO of the company had fallen ill and was now
going to retire or even worse that he had died. You had been working with CEO
Bang for the past couple of years and saw him as a fatherly figure in your life.
Heading the financial department, your day was spent talking to him about
various ventures the company could undergo and he had alluded to the idea of
you getting a slight promotion in the future. Now as the rumors circulated the
room, you saw that dream promotion slip through your fingers and shook your
head sadly, hoping that CEO Bang would come walking through the doors with his
happy go licky attitude. As you watched Seokjin make his way in front of the
hoards of people, he seemed to scan the crowd with a determined eye.
Kim Seokjin was the assistant to CEO Bang and one of the
hardest workers you had ever met. The two of you had only interacted on a few occasions,
but Jin was nothing but nice to you as you would stumble into CEO Bang’s
office, your files flooding throughout your hands. Kim Seokjin was a smart guy,
but was known for being a little conceded. He was handsome, and he sure as hell
knew it. Nevertheless, he did his job well and seemed to keep the company in
He looked over the heads of the crowd and made eye contact
with you before giving you a slight nod. You looked around your spot and then
pointed at your chest. He nodded quickly and gestured for you to move up to the
front of the room. You scrunched your eyebrows as you weaved your way through
the crowded room to the front with Jin.
Hello, Y/N. He
said in a kind tone to which you gave him a little nod. Uhm, I’m sorry I will be doing this in front of everyone. He
murmured and you shot him a look of confusion before he clapped his hands. You
stood there, rigidly, next to him as he smiled politely at everyone. I’ve heard the rumors about CEO Bang and his
health. He started and you felt your heart begin to pound. And I’m sorry to admit that all of these rumors
are true. You see, CEO Bang fell ill a few years back and has been working
diligently to cover it up. His treatments had recently gotten so hard on his
body that he is now seceding power of the company. The roar of whispers
burst into the room as Jin made this announcement, he nodded and held up a hand
to try and quiet everyone.
Who is going to take
over?! Is it you? Someone shouted out and Jin shook his head with a small
Well if you would let
me speak, I would answer all your concerns. He murmured, the girl who had
shouted now stood with her face as red as an apple, and then Jin gave you a
small glance. You felt your hands sweat and worried that you knew what was
about to be said. The successor that CEO
Bang has named is Y/N, she is currently the Director of Finances, but Bang has
slowly been working with her to become the CEO. He wasn’t expecting to leave
for another year or so, so this is all news to her, but no worries, myself and
the other department leaders will be working alongside her to help with this
transition. You listened to the words, but your head was spinning. You
wondered if everyone could tell that you had no idea this was coming. It felt
like every eye in the company had shifted to look at you as you tried to stand
still and not fidget uncomfortably.
You felt like everyone was silently judging you, looking you
up and down as you stood there in your pencil skirt and heels. Jin concluded the
meeting and led you out of the room and up to the executive’s floor. You had
been here many times to help CEO Bang with his budgets and work alongside him
through many projects, but you had never felt so strange going up until now.
Without CEO Bang, this entire floor just seemed empty and uninviting, it had
lost its joyful atmosphere and you could still feel the eyes and whispers as you
walked by. Various assistants and interns congregated at desks and watched you
I heard that’s his
replacement. They murmured to one another and you felt the hairs on your
next stand up straight. Jin opened the office door to the CEO and ushered you
inside. You let out a breath as you walked into the room, everything looked the
same, the pictures on the wall, the large windows, the way the desk was slightly
tilted. You looked at everything, then let yourself collapse onto one of the
chairs. Jin laughed quietly as he looked at you.
I’m sorry I had to do
that on such short notice, you were gone yesterday when CEO Bang wanted to have
a meeting with you and he had to go into emergency treatment today. You listened
Yea, it was a little …
sudden. You murmured and wiped your hands nervously on the front of your
skirt. Jin sat across from you and smiled sadly.
I know it’s a lot to
take in, but don’t worry, you have me and the guys to lean on. He replied
and you nodded, then tilted your head.
What guys? You asked.
You had only worked with CEO Bang and Jin before, so this mention of guys
seemed a bit strange.
Oh the department
heads, there are six of them and they will all be working with you every step
of the way. Jin said as you nodded. Then a small knock came from the other
side of the office door. That must be
them! He exclaimed and clapped his hands together, standing up. As Jin
opened the door, a wave of chaos seemed to ensue, a group of men walked in, all
suit clad and clamoring on about various business expenditures. They bowed
slightly to Jin and then you stood up, all of them stopped and the silence that
followed was awkward. You gave a small smile.
Hello, I’m … You
started and a guy walked in front of the guys.
Y/N. We know. He
said. His eyes were enticing, his face was like a sculpture, and you could feel
your cheeks blush as he looked you up and down. Then with a smile of his own,
he bowed a little and stood back up to look you in the eye. The name’s Park Jimin, at your service.
Summary: You’re the Bolton heir betrothed to Sansa Stark. Everyone has their ideas about who you are and what this marriage will entail but none of them, not even Sansa know a thing about who you really are.
Notes: I don’t know how well this came out. I haven’t watched game of thrones since season 3 or 4 I can’t remember so lol hope you like it!
Okay, now that I’ve heard a lot of your opinions, I wanted to give you my own thoughts on Wolfstar.
Imagine 11 year old Sirius and Remus show up to school. They each are sorted into Gryffindor and they find that they’re roommates. At first, they’re wary of each other. Sirius, because he has a hard time trusting people - thanks to his family - and Remus, because he has a dangerous secret that he has to keep. But James loves everyone and pulls the two (plus Peter) into his close circle of friends. By the end of the year Sirius and Remus consider each other really close friends.
In their second year, they learn more about each other. Sirius (plus the others) learns Remus’ secret and, instead of trying to kill him and get him kicked out of school like he thought would happen, they started researching how they could become animals so they could support their friend. Remus had never been more touched in his life.
In their third year, they start noticing the attractiveness of others around him. James starts to develop a crush on Lily (which his vehemently denies). Sirius, who has already become so much more comfortable about himself around his friends than he’d ever been in his life, admits that he finds all genders attractive. Remus, on the other hand, seems to be the opposite. Sure, he can see and appreciate when someone is attractive, but he doesn’t seem to feel that same spark that Sirius and James explain. He thinks perhaps it’s because he knows he’s a monster, despite how normal his friends make him feel, he can’t imagine anyone would ever actually fall in love with him.
Fourth year starts and Sirius starts dating around. It’s obvious that he blossomed over the summer, and is one of the more handsome boys in their year (with James not being too far behind). Suddenly he has more attention that he’s ever had before, and you can tell he’s loving it. Remus starts to take notice of this more, and looks at Sirius a little differently. Why are people so attracted to him? Is it really his good looks? Or is it something else? As the year progresses, he silently watches his friend, looking for clues for why everyone flocks to him (and trying to figure out what he can do himself).
It isn’t until Remus has returned to Hogwarts for fifth year that his perspective changes. He hasn’t seen Sirius for a couple of months, and when he does, it’s like seeing the sun on a cloudy day. He’s confused at first, wondering what these strange butterflies in his stomach are - as he’s never experienced them before. It’s several months before he realizes that he has a crush on his best friend - and has likely had one for a long time. It isn’t Sirius’ looks that draw him in (other than acknowledging that he’s attractive he really doesn’t care about that) - it’s everything else. It’s how he makes Remus feel at ease, it’s his jokes, the way he takes extra time to make sure he’s doing okay. It’s the way that sneaks into the hospital wing after the full moon (many times by himself when James is at Quidditch practice) to make sure he was feeling okay or the times when he’d buy Remus something fro Hogsmeade “just because he thought he’d like it”. But Remus keeps this crush to himself. First of all, he know (he knows) that Sirius is only doing these things because they are friends. His crush is not reciprocated and he refuses to do anything that could jeopardize their effortless friendship. And second of all, how could someone as wonderful as Sirius ever have a crush on Remus, a monster? It’s not even worth a thought, it’s so unbelievable. So, he pushes the feelings down as far as they can go and continued on with life.
In between the summer of fifth and sixth year, Sirius leaves his home and gets a place of his own. He’s torn in between feeling a sense of responsibility he’s never felt before, and feeling that recklessness that every sixteen year old feels when they’re on their own. Because of this, Sirius’ perspective starts to change and he starts doing whatever he wants.
They start their sixth year and it doesn’t take long for the group of boys to see that Sirius is a little out of control. Remus’ heart aches for him, but he vows to be there for him as much as he can as a friend - because that’s what Sirius needs the most right now. However, when Sirius leads Snape to the Whomping Willow, where Remus is waiting down below as a werewolf, everything changes. Remus is hurt that Sirius would use him like that against someone he despises. What if Snape would have gone down? What if Remus would have hurt him? After weeks of not talking to each other (and feeling as though his heart is tearing into two because of it) Remus finally asks Sirius these questions. Sirius’ face immediately goes white as he realizes what the consequences of his actions would have been had his “prank” been successful. He breaks down into tears and it’s one of the few times that Remus sees Sirius cry. Remus holds Sirius as he apologizes profusely through his sobs, begging for his friend’s forgiveness. Remus forgives him, of course he does - how could he not, but he doesn’t forget. This just proves to him that no matter how much he wishes to forget, he will always be a werewolf - a monster.
The second half of their sixth year starts to run more smoothly. Sirius starts to get himself under control. He stops sleeping around with others so much and spends more time with his friends. He continues pranking (he’s a Marauder - how could he stop?) but the pranks are tame and harmless. He goes out of his way to show Remus kindness, grateful that the other boy doesn’t completely hate him. It’s during this time that Sirius starts to look at his friend more closely. His crush on his friends hits him hard and fast. It’s not anything he was expecting to happen, there was no build up. Just one morning he woke up, turned to look over at Remus who was changing his shirt, and thought, “He’s beautiful.” The wave of emotions flooded him so profoundly that he had to rush to the bathroom for refuge, much to the confusion of his other roommates. He tried to push the crush down and pretend like it wasn’t there, but there was no stopping it from pushing through. He hated himself for these feelings and hoped that Remus would never find out. After what he’d done to him earlier that year - after the prank with Snape - how could Remus ever like him more? The monster wasn’t Remus, it was Sirius.
James notices immediately when Sirius starts to crush on Remus. How could he not? He knows Sirius better than he knows anyone - and the way he gets flustered around him is painfully obvious. Being the amazing wingman and friend that he is, he starts to watch Remus - searching for any signs that those feelings may be reciprocated. When he decides that they are (Remus smiles a lot more brightly whenever Sirius is in the room), he starts to try and match the two together. He’s never claimed he was a great match maker - but he didn’t think it would take much. A prompt to compliment each other here, an excuse to leave the two alone together there, the occasional locking in a broom cupboard when the tension got too thick. It was infuriating that nothing seemed to work.
Seventh year started and James was promoted to be Head Boy. He was also Quidditch Captain and his long-time crush, Lily Evans, was finally interested in him in return. He decided that he’d leave his two clueless friends to their own devices. They were perfect for each - he had no doubts they’d see it eventually.
But, as seventh year went on, Remus and Sirius merely danced around each other - nothing ever happened. Not romantically, anyway. They didn’t realize that once they left school - there wouldn’t be another chance.
They graduated and left - knowing there was a war going on, but not understanding just how in the middle of it they’d all be. There was darkness around them; death of their loved ones, their friends, classmates, even the deaths of some of their enemies; corruption filled the halls of the ministry; destruction and chaos at every step you took; and worse of all - fear: fear that you couldn’t trust those you were closest to.
Some happy things happened during this time as well. James and Lily got married. Lily got pregnant and had their first child, Harry. Sirius was named the Godfather, much to his delight. All of them joined Dumbledore’s secret society, The Order of the Phoenix, to try and help combat the darkness with a little bit of light.
Rumors were spread that the werewolves were on the Dark Lord’s side. Many in the order started looking at Remus differently. Was he on their side? Or was he a spy?
James and Sirius tried to defend him. James - because he was a loyal friend, and Sirius - because he couldn’t imagine that his close friend whom he may or may not be slightly in love with could betray them in such a way. Remus, however, decided to just stop coming to the meetings and started pulling away from his friends, rather than have to endure listening to the muttered hateful comments and the whispering. He didn’t want to hurt his friends anymore than he already had with his disease - and as long as he was around, the Order didn’t seem to be able to get much work done. The others were too afraid of Remus. And although it hurt to lose their friendship, he would do what needed to be done, both for him and for them. He did it slow, subtly, not replying to messages when they were sent to him, until everyone, Sirius included, stopped sending messages entirely.
Sirius, on the other hand, felt torn. He wanted to reach out to Remus, to tell him the truth about his feelings and beg him to stay, but he couldn’t. Not now when it was his family that was out there torturing muggles. He needed to do everything within his power to stop them. After weeks of not hearing from his friend, he started to wonder - were the rumors true? Was that why Remus stopped all contact? He couldn’t bear to think that might be the truth - but he knew it was on everyone’s mind. Why else would he have abandoned his friends in their time of need?
When James asked him to be his secret-keeper, Sirius didn’t feel worthy. He almost said yes - but realized that when the Potters disappeared, Sirius would be the first one they tried to find. He wanted to give Remus’ name, to tell James to ask Remus to do it, but the name got stuck on his tongue. Remus already disappeared, he’d pulled out of their lives. He couldn’t ask him to pull back now - especially if it was only to find that every horrible thing said about him was true. Sirius wouldn’t be able to handle the heartbreak. So, he suggested Peter’s name instead, hoping that he could distract the Dark Lord and his followers long enough to give little Harry a chance.
But then, the unthinkable happened. Peter betrayed them, and Sirius was sent to Azkaban.
When Remus heard the news, his heart stopped. Sirius? Betray his friends? He stormed into Dumbledore’s office up at the school, demanding to know what was going on and why Sirius was being accused of this. He refused to believe the truth. But, the facts were there. Sirius was the secret-keeper, and now the Potters were dead.
Remus went by the next twelve years feeling as though a piece of him died inside. The man that he loved - and at that point he knew it was love - was truly gone. He felt numb, and tried to go through the motions of his life, wondering if it was even worth it.
Sirius spent those years in Azkaban, vowing to get revenge on Peter, and wondering how he could have ever thought that Remus, sweet Remus whom he loved, could have ever been capable of such a thing.
When Sirius escaped, and the truth came out, Remus felt that part of him that died start to spark again.
For a while, Sirius was on the run, and Remus had no clue where he was or what he was doing. And then, one morning he showed up on his doorstep. Remus immediately let him in and offered him a place to stay. It was both the best thing and the worst thing that could have happened to him. Living together again, it was almost as if they were teenagers, and that they’d never left Hogwarts. But after a moment it would become obvious that time had changed so much, and with it they were no longer the same person. Because of Azkaban, Sirius was a broken man. He’d suffered a trauma that even Remus couldn’t understand. He tried to hard to pretend like he was okay, but Remus saw through his facade. He still loved Sirius, he didn’t think he’d ever stop, but it was clear this man wasn’t the same man he fell in love with back when he was fifteen.
Sirius loved Remus as well, but he knew he was broken - no good. Azkaban had taken away his desire for many things, including sexual contact. So, he continued to ignore those feelings, despite the fact that Remus seemed brighter than ever, even after all of those hard years.
Sirius left for a time to help Harry, and then was asked to go and live in his old childhood home so the Order could use it as Headquarters. Remus dreaded Sirius’ answer, and he wasn’t surprised when the isolation and imprisonment start messing with his head more. Remus tried to visit often, even stayed with Sirius for a time in Gimmauld Place, but knew there wasn’t anything he could do to cheer the depressed man up.
When Harry was in trouble, and Sirius immediately rushed off to help him, Remus wasn’t far behind. It was almost as if it was fifteen years earlier, and it was James that needed their help. They found Death Eaters in the Ministry, and for the first time in almost fifteen years, Remus saw that spark of the man he fell in love with. Sirius had returned in the fight, with his snarky commentary and protective behavior. He was so mesmerized by the sight, he didn’t realize what had happened until after it was over. On instinct alone, he grabbed Harry, pulling him back from the veil so he didn’t go after him.
Days later, Remus realized that while he was sad that Sirius was gone, there was a part of him that was happy as well. Because finally, finally, Sirius was free from the prison he’d been forced to live in, and perhaps he could find happiness beyond.
And perhaps, when Remus’ time was up, he and Sirius could start over again.