all portraiture

Chronograph

I’ve transformed all portraiture of virtue
My being vantage of visage revealed as
The meeting of our hearts stand as coil
To the preface of us like the sun and moon

A fever dream, you fall into unconscious
Omniscience lay down inside me as
A prism that charts no spectrum towards
My gaze so I fall deep, deeply into your eyes

And just as you were leaving, I met
Those eyes, the eyes of a woman
Who knew what she wanted as cascade of
Feelings rolled into me like summer thunder

A blue cavalcade of paired embrace and sorrow
Knowing I will never see you again - but
Smiling anyway as you kissed my cheek
A sweet remembrance of time’s lost furrows

After all we had been through I felt
As though my heart now fell further away
Launched from some unknown shore of torment
Towards an open sea with no course charted

No one at the helm but me.


© K. James Ribble

Be like Jesus, very valiant for your God. Imitate him in your loving spirit; think kindly, speak kindly, and do kindly, that men may say of you, “He has been with Jesus.” Imitate Jesus in his holiness. Was he zealous for his Master? So be you; ever go about doing good. Let not time be wasted: it is too precious. Was he self-denying, never looking to his own interest? Be the same. Was he devout? Be you fervent in your prayers. Had he deference to his Father’s will? So submit yourselves to him. Was he patient? So learn to endure. And best of all, as the highest portraiture of Jesus, try to forgive your enemies, as he did; and let those sublime words of your Master, “Father, forgive them; for they know not what they do,” always ring in your ears. Forgive, as you hope to be forgiven. Heap coals of fire on the head of your foe by your kindness to him. Good for evil, recollect, is godlike. Be godlike, then; and in all ways and by all means, so live that all may say of you, “He has been with Jesus.” —  Charles Spurgeon

Hey trans* friends: If you’re interested in a drawing of you being done, I want to draw you if you want me to!

I realized that I hadn’t attempted to draw myself at all since I came out (which was actually kind of a while ago at this point), and always felt hella strange about the ways in which I was drawn before that–and honestly, never really did any self-portraiture at all, and shied away from images of my face the same way I shied away from mirrors and photographs of myself. If I wasn’t shying away from those things, I was neurotically diving into their scrutinies, trying to pick apart how my structures worked, and split myself into enough pieces that I could start to sew some kind of cohesive narrative of my body together.
It’s been a long time coming since I let myself think about my face and my body slowly enough to draw it: so, if you’re in a similar boat, please send me any reference pictures that you have and I’ll draw you. Please specify in your contacting me if you don’t want any images I make posted online; otherwise I’ll post it on my facebook art page (http://facebook.com/noellelonghaulart) and to my tumblr (http://laughingloone.tumblr.com). I can’t promise I’ll get to every request, but I’ll try my hardest!
xo
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