all my friends are fighters

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‘You got a lousy taste in men, kid. He’s not so bad…He’s got a temper, but deep down he’s all fluff. Fact is he’s not like anybody I’ve ever known…All my friends are fighters….And here comes this guy who spends his life avoiding the fight because he knows he’ll win. Sounds amazing. He’s also a huge dork…Chick’s dig that.’

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i n d i g o. Maura Chester
Indigo is the colour of integrity - responsibility, tradition, justice, and obsession.

For a moment, even I thought you were genuine.
That’s why you scare me.
If I don’t kill you now, everyone else will believe you.

You got lousy taste in men, kid.

He’s not so bad. He has a temper. Deep down he’s all fluff. Fact is he’s not like anybody I’ve ever known. All my friends are fighters. Then here comes this guy, spends his life avoiding the fight because he knows he’ll win.

Sounds amazing. 

Bruce Banner + The Monster

I’ll say one thing for tagged brucenat hate, it always makes me think about my darlings that much more deeply.

Right now in the tag there’s a rant about how Natasha says she adores Bruce for being a pacifist but she isn’t there to see him threaten Wanda, so that must mean she doesn’t really know him and he’s a terrible person how dare he. 

Uh-huh. Let’s dissect.

Bruce: You got a lousy taste in men, kid.

Natasha: He’s not so bad. Well, he has a temper. Deep down he’s all fluff. Fact is, he’s not like anybody I’ve ever known. All my friends are fighters. And here comes this guy who spends his life avoiding the fight because he knows he’ll win.

This snippet of conversation showcases many things, including Bruce’s trademark self-deprecation, but nowhere does it say that Natasha thinks Bruce is a pure vision of heavenly light. The very first thing she acknowledges is his inner demon — that deep-seated rage that has been eating away at him nearly his whole life and, for almost a decade, has manifested itself as a literal monster.

But underneath that trauma, Natasha sees “fluff” — someone truly gentle who feels gut-wrenching remorse for the part of himself that is monstrous. 

Not to pile on the Shrek/Fiona jokes, but there’s that nice little onion analogy here. Roughly: • Bruce’s crispy outer layer is his PhD in snark, • underneath, the adorakable science nerd, • which belies the mad scientist who’ll break all the rules, • fueled by jealousy and insecurity, • that derives from his “dark passenger” (shoutout to captainjanek​) of trauma and rage, • that protects, the very scared, very young child within who was abused by his father, who watched his mother murdered, • all encasing the gentle soul Bruce Banner might have been had he grown up in peace.

And what does Bruce Banner want to do with all that history of violence and self-hatred and failed ambition? 

What he doesn’t want to do is exactly what he feels like doing always — smash — and that’s what Natasha is drawn to. 

Bruce Banner wants to be good. He wants to be a wanderer, someone who helps where he can and leaves when he can’t. He’ll put himself in exile, he’ll avoid the fight because he can’t lose, except to himself

In Bruce, Natasha sees someone who is constantly fighting against his monster to let himself be that huge dork he is inside a struggle Natasha “‘beep beep’ emojis/Children’s War participant” Romanoff knows a little something about. 

Now. The second piece of the argument says that all of that falls apart when Bruce threatens Wanda.

Wanda: I know you’re angry.

Bruce: Oh, we’re way past that. I could choke the life out of you and never change a shade.

This is a disturbing statement. It’s meant to be disturbing — Bruce is disturbed. There’s a capacity for violence inside of him that, if he embraced, would be truly monstrous. 

That’s another thing Natasha and Bruce have in common. Underneath their warmth, her passion and his rage, is something cold-blooded. Natasha can be who you want her to be. Bruce can walk away from the people he loves. 

What’s more, circumstances have rendered inside of them the ability to turn off their remorse and be the monster

But that’s not what they want for themselves. 

Bruce says he could choke the life out of Wanda. Bruce grabs her in a chokehold and says, ‘Try me.’ He warns her what he’s capable of, even though she already knows. She’s been in his head.

And that’s just it. The reason Bruce Banner admits in front of Tony and Steve just how at one with his monster he has the capacity of being.

Let’s all keep in mind that, yes, Wanda is girl half his age, but she is not defenseless and she is not an innocent. I think Wanda deserves redemption just as much as anyone else in the MCU, but let’s not forget that she — someone whose parents died as civilian casualties to a weapon of war — unleashed the Hulk on a city full of people with the explicit aim for him to cause as much collateral death and destruction of civilians as possible. Yes, she was abused, but she chose to be an abuser. 

And think about what Johannesburg means for Bruce. He had a home, he had a Team, he was open for “running with it.” The lullaby, more than anything, demonstrates that he felt safe for the first time in god knows how long. And Wanda Maximoff stripped that from him in the most personally violating way possible.

Like I said, Wanda deserves redemption as much as anybody, but don’t patronize her. She can dish it out, she can take it.

So, imagine Natasha was there to hear that speech. Do you really think she’d be horrified by Bruce? No. She’d be horrified for him. Because, in one more way, the world has dropped another dark layer on top of his humanity. 

anonymous asked:

Hey Lil Jellybeanie! This is your site, and you can whine, cry, b*tch or WHATEVER you want. I know all too well about outer you being so much different from inner you. I see you’ve been going through ROUGH times, and am so glad you’ve found some ways to get through. YOU ARE A WARRIOR, my Friend. Remember -“But we’re fighters - all of us -“. You have conquered everything this far, and that, My Dear, is a Victory. I hope today can be easier for you! You Rock, You Rule! You are Lovely!

HI DARLIN! 

Originally posted by stitchholdsmyheart

Okay, first off. You sent this a REALLY LONG TIME AGO, Nonny, and I’m really, really, really sorry that I haven’t gotten back to you sooner. I have been attempting to respond to things on mobile when I can but it’s really cumbersome, but maybe that’s just me. (Oh, and also the fact that Tumblr randomly shuts down on me when I’m trying to reply to things and I lose EVERYTHING.)

ANYHOO. I think this was sent a few months ago (go me for taking five thousand years!!); at that time I was honestly not doing too well. Randomly tho - rather strangely - one day I just happened to wake up and, quite frankly, had enough of it and decided I was going to start doing something about how I was feeling. (I don’t want to say it was some sort of enlightenment or something, but in a way it felt like it). So I have been doing things to help, and I have seen a huge amount of difference. I’m starting to remember who I am, and not who my negative thoughts make me think I am. It’s a bit of a tough road sometimes, I have days that I feel quite down (summer doesn’t help at all, I hate summer and honestly feel more depressed.) but I’m able to pick myself up again far easier. 

Anyway, I’ve been doing more yoga which helps me relax a little bit more, and also meditation has been really helpful (altho this is tough because I constantly have a bunch of stuff going through my head constantly.). I have a little journal on the table on my side of the couch that I write positive things in every day (basically each day I write what made me happy that day, what I’m greatful for, and something nice that I did that day). I finally got around to getting a referral to the dermatologist in town to finally deal with an issue I have with my nails that will  I believe boost my confidence, and I have been working on my comic series again that I’ve literally ignored for like, five years almost. 

 I’m also becoming slowly, but surely, more confident at work (i.e speaking up, asking for help,) which has really helped me. I’m also slowly changing my diet to become vegetarian (not that we really eat that much meat anyway), altho I still eat meat from time to time (holidays, going out for dinner…) 

I guess I just want my blog to be a fun, positive place that people can go to when they are having a bad day, or when they just need to take thier mind off of something or whatever, so whenever I post ranty posts or negative posts and things, I feel like I’m not really helping my situation, you know? Basically I’m trying to create positive energy, manifest positive and happy vibes…

But alas, I guess we all have bad days, right? Sometimes I just feel the urge to vent because it’s easier for me to write my thoughts instead of speak my thoughts, if that makes sense? 

Anyhoo, thankyou so much for your message and your positive vibes, honestly it means so much to me, even tho I take forever to reply I hope everyone knows that your words are so very important to me!! 

I hope you are having a fantastic day! Thank you so much! 

Originally posted by level-upper

Romanoff and Banner: Bar Scene
  • <p> <b>Bruce Banner:</b> How does a nice girl like you wind up in place like this?<p/><b>Natasha Romanoff:</b> A fella done me wrong.<p/><b>Bruce Banner:</b> You got lousy taste in men, kid.<p/><b>Natasha Romanoff:</b> Well, he’s not so bad. He’s got a temper, but deep down he’s all fluff. Fact is, he’s not like anyone I’ve ever known.<p/><b></b> All my friends are fighters, but this guys spends his time avoiding fights because he knows he’ll win.<p/><b>Bruce Banner:</b> He sounds amazing.<p/><b>Natasha Romanoff:</b> He’s also a huge dork. Chicks dig that. So, what do you think? Should I fight this? Or should I run with it?<p/><b>Bruce Banner:</b> Run with it, right? Or…what did he do that was so wrong?<p/><b>Natasha Romanoff:</b> Not a single thing, but never say never…<p/></p>
red and green (don’t break the law).

A/N: So, I saw AOU yesterday, and I have the biggest Brutasha feels. Anyway, here’s this. It’s on my fanfiction.net account if you wanna check it out there. This is set before and after the events of AOU.


The first time he notices, it’s from afar and he’s a little bit surprised, but mostly pleased. They are sitting next to each other, elbows touching and legs intertwined in the fashion that’s common in the twenty-first century. He wonders what he’d say to that open intimacy if he were a ninety year old man, but the Captain’s a sucker for love, always has been, and so he watches them from behind, smiling at their subtle touches and open flirtation.

She doesn’t act that way around just anyone.

And the Captain knows he probably shouldn’t allow it, because it’s Dr. Banner and Natasha Romanoff, for God’s sake, but he rides with it anyway because what can he say?

They’re good together.


The second time it occurs, Steve pretends he hasn’t just seen Natasha playfully touch Banner’s lips with her finger, or see Banner carefully, cautiously, dance his hands towards her hair, gently tucking a curl back and whispering something inaudible to the Russian doll.

“They’re something, huh?” A voice asks, and when he turns, Maria Hill is standing beside him.

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