all day nothing

i hate that on social media, your username is still the nickname i gave you.
the one i made up
that you said made no sense but used anyways
that your friends began to recognize, too
i hate that you got a t-shirt with it on the back
and whenever i see you wearing it it’s like a punch to the gut

i hate that our mutual friends had to choose between us
and i hate that most of them chose you

i hate that you don’t acknowledge that anything’s changed
that it’s almost spring but we won’t go on our usual walks this year
i hate that it doesn’t bother you

i hate that i bought your birthday gifts but they arrived too late for your birthday
and once they finally got here, i forgot them at home
and didn’t manage to get them to you
and it was only a week after you stopped talking to me that i finally remembered them
i hate that they still sit there on my desk
so fucking painfully hopeful
i hate that i don’t either throw them out or give them to you
as if i can pretend that everything’s still the same
and i’ll write a nice card and hand them to you in a couple days

i hate that sometimes i forget we don’t talk anymore
and i will catch myself mid-movement or mid-word
and i have to cut it off with a jerk.
i hate that i try to forget the taste of your name
and i hate that i can pretend that my mind will forget you
but i know my body never will
i hate that i have to remember and feel the pain all over again
fresh, like it’s new
again and again and again

i hate a lot of things about our breakup
so many goddamn things
but the only thing i can’t manage to hate
despite how much i try

is you.

—  HATE // H.S.

birbybirdles  asked:

I used to listen to the In The Heights soundtrack and think "Wow how wholesome and pure this experience is" but now.... Champagne and piragua. Also I hope your having a great day would you mind sharing a highlight of it?

same?? in the heights was pure for me i mean it’s still pure but champagne is slightly soiled now

ALSO THANK U!! ive been at work all day so nothing exciting but now im going to baltimore to see my friends’ band! they’re always on tour so i only ever get to see them like once a year rip

anonymous asked:

Tfln: maybe after they get back together and H has to go out of town for meetings or something and the missus starts sexting him and he's getting all hot and bothered?

Harry. Missus.

Why did the last 2 and a bit weeks go so quickly?

We had too much fun, didn’t we? You know what they say, love. Time goes by when you’re having fun.

We should have just stayed in bed and slept and done nothing all day. Gone to a library or something and had boring sex.

Sex with you is never boring.

You always find something new to bring to the sheets. Like when you suggested doing the 69 position. Never eaten a girl out whilst she sucked on my cock before.

Didn’t it feel good though?

So fucking good.

I’m laying in bed right now, really REALLY craving you, you know?

Well, if it helps, I’m really REALLY craving you, too.

Should have just joined you on tour.

That would have been so fun. But, you’ve got work to do for the magazine. How is everything going there?

It’s really good. They gave me my own office now. It’s pretty damn gorgeous, too. The view is so lovely! It faces the Thames and you can see all the buses go by and everyone’s bustling past. It’s so lovely.

That sounds so gorgeous! You’ll have to take me one lunchtime.

The window would be great to fuck against.

Christ.

Seriously. Pushed right up against the glass. Imagine that. We’ve had garden sex in your little pool house; now imagine the thrill of it being in an office. With people outside. 

How high up are you?

7 floors. 

And, I’ve looked from below, too. When I leave for work. It’s hard to get a look in and get photos through the window. You’d have to sneak in with that hideous disguise you have through the front, but, if you get unseen below, people won’t crowd outside to catch a glimpse of you.

Imagine it.

God, love.

I am.

Is it turning you on as much as it is me?

Definitely.

You want me to fuck you against the window in the bright of day, yeah? Stick my cock deep in you and fuck you up against the glass? You’re so dirty.

Your dirty girl.

Christ.

Yes. 

What about giving you a nice, sloppy, quick blowie against the window? Smush your pretty arse against the window and give everyone a nice view?

Fuck.

That’ll be on my agenda when you get back. I’ll schedule it into my planner. “Give Harry a blowjob against the window of my office.” 

Schedule in “Get a spank from Harry for turning him on when he’s meant to be getting ready for the day.”

Love youuuuu.

Can’t wait to get spanked.

Bent over that desk.

Yeeees.

Getting wet at the thought.

Might have to bolt towards the bathroom and get rid of this feeling…

You have an up to date dick pic for me?

Unfortunately not. But, you have loads already.

I do, but, I need some new material.

Give me a couple of hours and I’ll get one to you. I promise you. xxx

Andrew: “I hate you. Every inch of you.”

Andrew: *promises he’ll protect Neil*
Andrew: *literally agrees on anything Neil asks him to do*
Andrew: *gives Neil car, room and heart keys*
Andrew: *lets Neil drive his car*
Andrew: *buys Neil clothes*
Andrew: *kisses Neil*
Andrew: *lets Neil touch him*
Andrew: *asks Neil to stay*
Andrew: *blows Neil*
Andrew: *wraps plastic bags on Neil’s injuries so he won’t hurt them in the shower*
Andrew: *showers with Neil*
Andrew: *chokes Kevin for Neil*
Andrew: *fights a fed just to see Neil*
Andrew: *threatens Abby because she wanted to touch Neil*
Andrew: *helps Neil through his panic attack*
Andrew: *stops taking crackers dust because Neil said so*
Andrew: *chooses Neil over his brother*
Andrew: *answers Neil’s questions about his past*
Andrew: *breaks Riko’s arm for Neil*
Andrew: *lets Neil pull him in*

Andrew: “There is no ‘This’. This is nothing.”

GOOD MORNING GABOS (with a small helping of Jack)!!!

Aka the rest of those happy Gabe doodles

me: im gonna skip the intro theme songs of shows bc its annoying

also me: *bangs hands on the table and screams* LOOK AWAY LOOOOK AWAY LOOK AWAY LOOOOK AWAY 

3

ok but his bed hair must be impossible to fix

I thought I’d finish at least one thing in between studying ;w; 

someone please burn down my uni 

also:

..though her hair isn’t any better