alevers

chewing an aleve

T +0:00 - started chewing aleve
T +0:01 - tastes gross, pieces of pill stuck in teeth, throat burns almost to a worrying extent
T +0:03 - body is tingling but could be a possible side effect of the lemonade I drank to cleanse the taste of the aleve
T +0:05 - pain is alleviated, for now…

Analysis:
recreational value - 8/10 for the novelty of using an unnecessary route of administration for an otc medication
risk - 2/10 for the taste and possible ulcer
would do it again? - in the right setting

Overall score: 6/10

zamansız.

dur diyor ses, sakın. dur diyorlar karanlıklar, dur diyorlar aydınlıklar. mum yanıyor, alev kokusu her yerde. is, ciğerlerine sinen is, nefesinde. yaklaşma bana.
beni en iyi sen bilirsin diyor, sarıl. göz kapakları kapanana kadar sarılıyorum. diz kapakları kapanana kadar sarılıyorum. kapılar kapanmıyor.
iç. zehre sahip olan zehri bilemez. hastalık hasta olana aittir. bir garip karmaşa.
paran yok, çirkinsin, akılsızsın, kalbin yok. biliyorsun bunları, bunlarla doğmuşsun bunlar olmuşsun. kurayla belirlemiş onlar, onlar belirlemiş kurayla. simetri ile değişir mi hayatlar. şikayet yok, çekince yok, akıl yok. bedenler makine, bedenin makine, bedenim makine. biliyoruz, biliyorsun, biliyorum. türkçe dersleri, iyelik. ya da değil, eminsizlik. üç maymunu oynuyorlar, onlar. bilmiyorlar, kızgınlar, korkmuşlar. anlıyorsun en iyi sen anlıyorsun, sen bensin ve biz.
topyekün gıcırdıyoruz*

hastayım imkanım olsa alev gibi bi domates çorbası yapar getirirdim be diyen var mıdır aranızda. getirmese de olur önemli olan niyet..

15 yaşında olmayı o kadar çok isterdim ki sadece arkadaşlarımla buluşup yemek yiyoduk. Şimdi buluşuyoz masa dertten alev alıyo amk.
bucky barnes headcanons #2

i was thinking about the physiology of bucky barnes a little while i was at an alternative therapist today watching my aunt be treated, since she was having her left shoulder worked on.

so we know he has a metal arm, and that it’s probable that he has supports and/or replaced bones in some areas of his body, along with a sort of interface, due to the damage sustained during his fall from the train and the need to provide a way to transmit electric impulse from living nerve to wires in the arm. this is probably very painful and stiff and winter, and he has to do stretches when it’s cold to make sure he doesn’t lock up. the juncture of his skin and metal probably swells in response, and overall, bucky’s just kinda hurting and miserable. so maybe steve suggests physical therapy, maybe a few aleve or some tylenol? and bucky tries it out.

now, what if conventional therapy and medication couldn’t help him? he probably burns through regular medication really fast. so he turns to the internet, and there he finds out about acupuncture as well as more body-based methods, like different types of massage.

armed with his four million dollars in military back pay, bucky goes to the acupuncturist and finds out that for the first time in a long time, he feels good. like, really good. so he keeps going there every so often. he gets special massages, he meditates, and of course, he continues his usual exercise, switching up some yoga into it twice a week to stay limber and gently stretch his joints to work on his range of motion.

idk. i just. talk to me about bucky and what he does to control his physical pain. because he needs that relief, and standard medicine can’t help him.

Veda edenin sevilmesi ne kadar da kolaydır! Çünkü uzaklaşan kişi için, gemiden ya da trenin penceresinden sallanan o varla yok arası bez parçasının beslediği alev daha saftır. Uzaklık, gözden kaybolmakta olanın içine bir boya gibi işler ve onu munis bir kora çevirir.
—  Walter Benjamin, Tek Yön

Uyuman gerekir ya hani, uyku zamanı gelmiştir, yatak bekler ama son dakikada hüzünlü bir müzik dinlemiş ve boyut değişmişsindir. Uyuyamazsın, uyumak bir yana kafanda kocaman bir dünya kurmaya başlarsın. Müzikle körüklediğin, alev alev içerisinde yandığın…

İnsan soruyor kendine o duygunun üstesinden nasıl gelirim… Niye gelemiyorum. Neden acı çöküyor aniden üzerimize. Neden uyumak ve yaşamak bir anda bu kadar zorlaşıyor.

Aslında her zaman öyle ama…

Bende insanım diye bağırmak’’ geldi içimden.

İyi geceler. Ya da sadece geceler.

anonymous asked:

Hi! Can you recommend some good history books to read? I'd really appreciate it. Thanks!

hi! sorry for the late reply, i was trying to list all the books i liked lol

anne boleyn (and tudors):

  • eric ives - the life and death of anne boleyn
  • alison weir - the lady in the tower
  • david stakey - six wives: the queens of henry viii
  • antonia fraser - the wives of henry viii
  • tracy borman - elizabeth’s women: friends, rivals, and foes who shaped the virgin queen
  • julia fox - jane boleyn: the story of the infamous lady rocheford

ottoman empire: 

  • leslie p. peirce - the imperial harem: women and sovereignty in the ottoman empire
  • caroline finkel - osman’s dream: the history of the ottoman empire
  • alev lytle croutier - harem: the world behind the veil (the parts about the sultanas - hurrem, nurbanu and kosem - are pure trash but the rest of the book is very enjoyable)
  • galina yermolenko - roxolana in european literature, history and culture
  • colin imber - the ottoman empire, 1300-1650: the structure of power
  • jason goodwin - lords of the horizons

general books:

  • dan jones - the plantagenets (or anything by dan jones, really. he’s one of my favourite historians)
  • david starkey - crown and country
  • lisa hilton - queens consort: england’s medieval queens
  • susan higginbotham - the woodvilles
  • elizabeth norton - she wolves: the notorious queens of medieval england
  • sarah gristwood - blood sisters: the women behind the war of the roses
  • antonia fraser - warrior queens

other biographies:

  • flora fraser - pauline bonaparte: venus of empire (she’s antonia fraser’s daughter!!)
  • maria bellonci - lucrezia borgia
  • antonia fraser - marie antoinette: the journey
  • david baldwin - elizabeth woodville: mother of the princes in the tower
  • amy licence - edward iv and elizabeth woodville: a true romance (i haven’t read this yet but a friend of mine has and i trust her :D)
  • jonathan clements - wu: the chinese empress who schemed, seduced and murdered her way to become a living god

i hope these are enough! i had so many books on my ipad but i lost them all :(((