In Temeraire series news, I am now on the second book and have more reasons that I should marry Will Laurence, probably:
He forgot to change his dress sword in for his proper cutlass before getting into a battle, and proceeded to fight someone with a snapped off sword while walking around a dragon flying thousands of feet up in the air
He has a dress sword in the first place
He got obviously injured in this fight and kept trying to walk around on his bad leg and had to be wrestled into bed because he’s a nerd
The British Ministry was legit trying to arrest him right after battle as he lay there, injured, and Temeraire and the entire dragon crew defended him (because they you know, care about him) and that nerd is sitting there thinking about how they’ve broken the rules and now it’ll be his fault their careers are ruined and I’m like you huge weirdo you are a rebel and you need to learn to accept that
Yet this same man is going around pissing off foreign princes and the British government and telling them to “go to the devil” because they’re trying to separate him from his dragon (Temeraire meanwhile, threatens very calmly to squash people if they separate him from Laurence)
When people were glaring at his (girlfriend? Friend with benefits? Mistress? I don’t know what the status is exactly) anyhow they were staring at the scar she got from you know, being in battles where dragons are involved as they walked down the street and he glared at ALL OF THEM until she hit him in the arm and told him to stop (PS Jane Roland is the most badass I love her)
Someone in the British ministry said he had never been happy to see a hanging but he might be happy to see Laurence’s and Laurence was pretty much like “thank you” like he is always fretting over rules and customs but when it really comes down to it he’ll push back against them he’s a stubborn honorable nerd
Never knew my parents Moved from town to town Foster families raised me Never settled down A damn good source of income From the time that I was three Orin’s good for cash But lousy company Just a monthly check Just another pair of hands on deck Orin doesn’t talk much He’s not got much to say Orin doesn’t smile much I guess that’s just his way Social worker pegged me As ready to ignite Belligerent and shifty and
untrusting And ready for a fight So my file said So my file read in black and white That’s what they all said So i believed them Then one day I met a stranger with a scowl upon his face He asked me if I wanted what was in his vinyl case He opened up the latches to show what was within I peered inside and gazed upon this dusty violin Such a broken thing Then I pulled a bow across its
strings Orin’s off exploring Castles in the air He’s always sits beside you He’s never really there Orin doesn’t feel much He’s icy to the bone Orin doesn’t smile much He’s best when left alone That’s what they all say So I believe them That’s still who I am That’s still who I am So whatever you think you might
feel in my songs It’s all just part of the routine See you around… Turn around look again I will still be here Change the pain into a thing of
beauty If you would allow I could show you how Sweet Elizabeth Don’t believe That I am worth the fight Turn and walk away You better not ??? I won’t forget tonight Turn around Orin doesn’t trust much Have some faith He’s icy to the bone I have some to spare Orin doesn’t smile much He’s best when left alone Please believe Can’t teach this old dog new tricks If you turn around I will still be here Others have tried Just walk away Turn around Walk away Turn around Walk away Turn around Walk away Turn around turn around Love receives all things Love receives all things Love endures Love is a stage Love believes all things Orin doesn’t laugh much Orin doesn’t talk much Orin doesn’t feel much I will still be there Orin doesn’t trust much I’m not going anywhere Love endures Love contains Love receives all things Love love endures (???) Love is a stage Love believes all things Love believes all things Love believes.
(this is a rough transcript of the lyrics - i can’t really hear what Holly Miller is singing at times - so I’ve conveniently left those out - also, please help out with the ??? if you can - thanks!)
After I read homestuck it made me more suicidal and depressed then I ever thought was possible. I truley tried to kill myself and thought of suicide more. I just got into it but I still regret ever getting into it still.
I truly hope that you are ok, if you are reading this please contact me if it’s possible.