air force boyfriend

You know what really just pisses me off?
When he doesn’t reply to my text messages.
I know I sound crazy right now and I know it shouldn’t piss me off.
But it’d be nice if he was busy or not in the mood to talk, to just tell me so rather than ignoring me.
And when he doesn’t reply to me (after replying to me constantly for an hour or so) I get this stupid insecure feeling that someone else is holding his attention, some other girl.
Why am I so insecure?
Why do I get this stupid feeling, every time he doesn’t reply to me, that he’s going to leave me?
Fuck. This.
Reblog if you are a Military girlfriend, fiancée, or wife! Boyfriends, fiancés, husbands are welcome too! :) (No matter what branch!) *Marines♥ *Air Force♥ *Navy♥ *Army♥ *Coast Guard♥

Never in my life did I think I would be in a military relationship.

Never in my life did I think I would miss someone before they even left.

Never in my life did I expect to want to give up everything for someone.

Never in my life did I know I could love someone so much.

You are my best friend, boyfriend, and the person I’m going to be with for the rest of my life, and I absolutely could not be happier.

You are the one I rely on for everything and go to for everything.

Except when I’m breaking down crying for 3 straight hours because I had to leave.  I can’t wait for the day I can say “good night” or “see you tonight.”  Good bye is hard but knowing that I won’t see you for weeks at a time is harder. 

I love you with all of my heart and mind.

Love can withstand any boundary, love can conquer all. As long as you have the fire to fuel the desire for your soulmate.
—  A 60 day love letter
Thank you for loving me when I wasn’t very loveable.
Thank you for accepting me, even though the world I grew up in was different from yours.
Thank you for guarding my heart, sometimes without me knowing and even in the darkest of times.
Thank you for giving me a chance because I know I wasn’t your ideal girl in the beginning and thank you for giving me second chances when I messed up and failed you.
Thank you for protecting me and making me feel safe , when my experiences with guys my age have been anything but that.
Thank you for taking on the baggage the world has loaded me with but slowly helping me get rid of it.
Thank you for just being there, to hold me and show me the light when all I saw was pitch black.
Thank you for saving me.
—  Things I should be telling him, the love of my life

You say it won’t work, we say we’ll give it our all. If two people really care about each other, they’ll make it work no matter what the circumstance. “You just need to move on with your life and not wait.” Who are you to tell him or I what to do? I’m not holding him back. He’s making a life for himself while I’m trying to start mine. So, we are “moving on” with our lives, but together. This is the kind of connection where if there is a problem, it’s talked about. If something is broken, we fix it. We don’t throw it all away because of something stupid. Some big things have happened that would tear any two people apart, but we didn’t get torn apart. Were some feelings hurt? Yeah. Were there some trust issues there for a while? Yeah. We WORKED THROUGH IT and made it out stronger in the end. That’s how GREAT relationships work. If giving up on the other person ever crosses your mind because of some little thing, it’s not something you need to be involved in. I can honestly say giving up has never crossed my mind. I always think, “Alright.. Now what can I do to fix this or make this better.” That’s how it should be. There are PLENTY of people who like to make their comments and try to bring it all down by saying “It won’t work.” or “It’s not acceptable.” or “It’s just weird.” Well, we all have our opinions. Your opinion however is invalid to him and I because we really don’t CARE what anyone else thinks. The only thing that matters is how we feel. Everything is great. We’ve been in this 5 days shy of 7 months. Him being away has only STRENGTHENED us. It makes us appreciate the sound of the other’s voice that much more. Hey, who sends letters anymore? Hand written letters are so much cuter that text messages. Trust me when I say I’m not going anywhere anytime soon, and neither is he.

 

Is it just me or...

are there times when all you want to do is look at military/milso related stuff 24/7 and then next thing you know you’re telling yourself “If I see one more military/milso thing I’m going to murder someone?” because I have most definitely been the second mood all day long. 

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July 30th, 2017

Here’s this week’s bullet journal page! I’m going for a more spacey look for this one… I’ve even got a Portal reference in the top right, hehe. (if you get it let’s please be friends).

Lots to do this week so far and Curtis (the long distance air force boyfriend if you guys aren’t aware) is coming to visit me this Friday!!! I’m so excited!!

I love it when he tells me “you look cute today”. No matter how many times he says it, it means just as much as the time before. Whether I’m just wearing comfy lounge clothes on a Saturday or I’m dressed up a little for a date, the small compliment just means so much. It can literally make my day. I’ll replay how he said it and looked at me when he did, over and over in my head for the rest of the day. It’s such a simple little thing for him to say, and I know he doesn’t realize it or think much about it when he says it, but I love to know that he finds me cute and I don’t care if anyone else agrees.

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My boyfriend leaves for basic soon and I know communication during basic is minimal. So I wrote him a letter in advance and folded it up like my friend and I always did in school with notes, so he can keep it in his wallet and read it when he misses me and can’t write or call at the time. I hope he likes it :)