maybe you’re wondering why did i let you go so easily. if you ever still think about me, of course. if you don’t, it’s okay. i haven’t been thinking much about myself either. but if you ever do, here’s why i let you go so easily. i guess the people who’ve broken my heart before you were the “never again” ones. the people that came before you were the ones who built up a fortress out of my heart so now “love” has become a “never again” promise. i swore to myself i would never make all of the effort again, i would never pull my heart out so willingly again, i would just never love innocently again. it is such an awful shame that you were the one who came after all these people. i’m sorry i’ve got enough never agains pulling me back from you. i’m sorry my heart is not in its original shape for you to hold in your hands for when you reach out for it, you cut yourself with its sharp edges. i’m so sorry i’m tired enough to never try again. i’m sorry i’ve got no strength left to put up a goddamn fight. for you.
— the “never again” promise & why i didn’t say all of the things i could’ve said.