Neil looked up from his laptop at Nicky’s voice, “What’s up?”
Nicky was looking down at his phone, “I was…uh, well. You said you don’t swing.”
Neil took a second to compose himself, of all the things Nicky could ask him about, this was not what he was expecting.
“Nicky, I meant what I said. I don’t - “
“No, I - I mean, yeah. I get it. You’re not lying. So you don’t identify as gay or bisexual, but. Well, I was looking into it, and well,” Nicky blew a breath out through closed lips unsure how to proceed, “Here.” He said as he turned his phone to Neil.
Neil saw a block of text uncomprehendingly at first, then focused on the bolded word “Demisexual.” Neil furrowed his brow, unfamiliar with the term, an individual who does not experience sexual attraction unless they have formed a strong emotional connection with another individual.
Neil read the definition 2 more times.
His brow relaxed and then furrowed again, He opened his mouth to say something, but no words came out. He tried again, “I -” he swallowed, not sure.
“Hey, it’s ok.” Nicky reassured him softly. He clenched and then unclenched his fist before placing his hand on Neil’s shoulder. Grounding Neil.
Neil still wasn’t saying anything, “I’m -” He didn’t know what he was trying to say, his mind moving faster than his mouth could keep up.
“Neil.” Nicky started.
“No…I mean, I’m not sure…I don’t want..”
“Neil.” Nicky said more forcefully. “You don’t have to know. This isn’t a yes or no question. Unlike the kind you and Andrew are so fond of.” He grinned. “You’re ok.”
No, this didn’t mean Neil knew what he felt for Andrew had a label. No, it didn’t mean Neil wanted to have a label. No, it didn’t mean Neil didn’t want to have a label. And no - it didn’t mean Neil knew that he identified as demisexual.
here is different version of “the queen’s hour” my fansong about kevin day from aftg! my other versions of this song and my other songs can be found here on my tumblr or here on my soundcoud <333. i will probably do a nice recording of this version at some point but for now enjoy!
Neil sees poi spinning and hoop dancing one time (idk, through vids or in person)
He’s intrigued and impressed by the smooth flow of all the dancers’ movements and their seamless transitions paired with the flashing, glowing lights of the tools they wield; the mesmerising dynamics of it all makes him want to try it out for himself
And so he does
Robin online shops with him for the LED glow poi balls, sticks, nunchucks, and one large + one regular-sized LED hoop at first
At this point Andrew’s already graduated and on his new team, so he doesn’t know
Neil doesn’t think practising poi/hooping would particularly interest Andrew so of course he doesn’t mention anything, he’s always too busy simply adoring Andrew when they facetime or call each other anyway
Neil’s only supposed to have time for Exy, but he starts practising poi and hooping on the dl / whenever he can’t go outside because it allows him to simultaneously concentrate and relax
It’s not quite the same feeling running gives him but it’s a good feeling, especially on rainy nights or when he’s just feeling particularly homesick from Andrew, he’ll practise with the thought that one day he’ll show Andrew his Smooth Moves
Let’s just pretend Neil naturally has a good sense of body rhythm and so he gets real good, real fast after following Youtube tutorial vids and letting his body feel the music/do it’s own thang
Let’s also just assume he practises to whatever music other hoop dancers and poi spinners move to from vids he’s watched
Robin is v impressed because between Exy and poi, Neil’s got talent
She tries to record him but Neil’s actually embarrassed and doesn’t give his consent (which she respects pls ty)
She doesn’t tell Andrew either bc if Neil’s not saying anything, neither is she
It’s just a hobby of Neil’s and so he continues at it on top of Exy and leading his team
Then, Andrew comes to visit for a few days and they do their Andreil thang but the day before Andrew has to leave, it’s only during mid afternoon that Andrew starts to seem a bit off and tense
Leaving Neil affects Andrew the way having to see Andrew go affects Neil
So Neil suggests they go for a drive in Neil’s car
In Neil’s car, secretly stocked with his poi paraphernalia
Andrew merely gets in the driver’s seat and doesn’t even need to ask where to before Neil points in some random direction and off they go
Turns out they end up driving along a completely open road, no one around for miles
Amidst no buildings, alone together and under the stars, they stop and take a breather (a.k.a they whip out the ciggies while sitting on the hood of the car)
“Gonna miss me too much then,” Neil teases, questions, states and Andrew just puffs smoke at him in acquiescence
Neil flushes and an idea suddenly springs to mind
He casually says he wants to show Andrew something
Despite the Silent Minyard Treatment, Andrew’s confusion when Neil takes out his hoop and poi items is a sight to behold
Neil tells Andrew to pick one and with a raised eyebrow but an otherwise unimpressed gaze, Andrew picks the nunchucks
Neil hands Andrew his phone, the playlist ready, and asks Andrew again, “Pick one.”
Neil smiles a beautiful smile and says, “Just watch. You can record me if you want.”
And when the music starts, so does the show
Neil puts on a show for Andrew the likes of which he’s never seen before
Cigarette fallen to the ground, Andrew’s like Excuse. You. What. The. Fuck.
With the stars above and the darkness around them, Andrew is the moth and Neil is the flame
Neil is hypnotising
And Andrew is burning
Andrew is fucking mesmerised, he feels ignited from within, and for the duration of the first song, he tries not to be so stunned / tries to not let some alright moves affect him so???
When Neil stops, Andrew thinks he won’t stand for that however
Andrew Minyard is So Gay for Neil Josten right now
He is so fucking here for this, yes
“The hoops,” he grounds out and Neil only smiles, swapping out the nunchucks for the large hoop as the song changes
Andrew is just so hot for the way Neil moves, from his hips to his legs to his arms; the way Neil spins that shit around his body, all over and across and around his whole damn body
Andrew’s completely transfixed on all of Neil, he’s unable to look away and he has no need for a recording
Is Neil an idiot: pfft yes, because Andrew, oh, he won’t forgetthis
The show goes on for a while as Neil expertly wields all that glows and demonstrates what he’s got using every equipment he has, each to a new song
When it’s all over, Andrew has to get himself in order
“Cool, right?” Neil grins and Andrew gets a hold of him immediately
“Yes or no?”
Needless to say, passionate things were done on and inside Neil’s car and when Andrew leaves the next morning, though they’re both eager for the next time they’ll see each other, the distance doesn’t seem too bad
Not when Andrew has the vivid images of Neil poi spinning and hooping in his head, and Neil has the knowledge that Andrew quite frankly enjoys Neil’s new hobby (and skills)
One day soon after, Neil gets a package and finds that he’s been given an LED light staff, accompanied by a short message:Use this next time.
And so Neil masters wielding the staff
Neil let’s Robin record him after he finds a cool song to move to and Neil sends the video of him using the staff to Andrew who immediately replies with a, ‘don’t send vids to me.’
Robin tells him Andrew meant that he wants to see Neil show him in person, but also Neil should send vids to the original Foxes
And so Neil does
Nicky loses his shit and demands more videos (also implores Erik to take hooping lessons with him), Dan and Matt are so impressed and proud (they also want more videos); Renee praises Neil’s skill, Allison curses that she never even thought to bet that this could be a thing, Kevin scolds Neil and tells him not shirk on Exy practice (which he doesn’t, obvs, but then Neil sends them a vid of him wielding his Exy racquet LOL), and finally, Aaron doesn’t care for it at all… but when Katelyn tries hooping, then Aaron does care for that very much
Let’s just say Andrew feeds Neil’s poi hobby more than he does his Exy obsession
He buys Neil all the poi and hooping gear and equipment
The only thing Andrew and Neil both know Neil won’t try is fire poi; ain’t about dat life
Whenever the Foxes get together they make Neil dance for them; basically it’s his party trick, one that no one gets tired of watching
Sometimes, when Andrew needs to anchor himself, the image of Neil dancing with glowing and flashing lights is enough for Andrew to concentrate on and calm him
Nothing is better than seeing Neil dance for him in the flesh though
In the future, any time Neil wants to put on a show for Andrew (whether he knows Andrew’s having an off day or whenever they go out for drives and stop in the middle of nowhere), Andrew does not object to it at all, ever.