Sound and Fury: a mix for Tarsus IV and the aftermath

i. in the woods somewhere - hozier // ii. ready to lose - the knife // iii. biting down - lorde // iv. consecration - woven hand // v. last man standing - people in planes // vi. hunger of the pine - alt-J // vii. hunted - snow ghosts // viii. science/visions - chvrches // ix. fallen empires - snow patrol // x. can’t kill us - the glitch mob // xi. when under ether - pj harvey // xii. glass heart hymn - paper route // xiii. until it hurts - fransisca hall // xiv. wave(s) - lewis del mar // xv. teardrop - civil twilight

The War Within: The Aftermath

I completed The War Within already. God gracious, I didn’t like the idea of Operators since Second Dream was released but now I’m in love with it. That was really something, so muh emotions and HOLY SHIT THE GRINEER QUEENS. The Operator had to see some real shit, lol.

And I’m 100% sure the Operator would fight against the cold they got because of [SPOILER] after all this story. Well, you know.

Now that’s what I call the war within, lol.

Cause drama and try to ruin my reputation over Facebook? Now everyone knows your secret.

This is going to be long, but I’ve been dying to tell this story. It’s about how I put a narcissistic woman in her place after being accused of stealing on Facebook.

A few years ago, I was involved in one of those “swap and sell” groups on Facebook. It was specifically for stay-at-home moms, and mostly centered around trading and selling clothing, toys, etc. It was an awesome resource, because you could get things for your children at a very low price, and often make new friends in the process.

There was one woman, however, that made the swap and sell group an unpleasant place. We’ll call her Kathy. In person, all she ever talked about was herself, specifically about how great she was. She did the same for her kids. She would also slip little hints in about how you or your children were inferior in some way. For example, she would say things like “Oh, your child’s soccer team came in third place last season? My son’s team came first, but that’s not very surprising considering how good he is. I must have done a great job raising him and it’s a shame that others can’t do the same with their children.” She really would say things like that.

In hindsight, she was a narcissist. I’m not just saying that, I’m pretty sure she could be diagnosed. I just did the best I could to avoid her if I saw her in the next aisle of a store.

One day she saw me with my infant son. He was crying, so she came over and said, “Oh, let me hold him. I can get him to calm down.” It was infuriating. Almost everyone hated her.

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First off, I want to start by thanking @taylorswift. December 5th was an absolutely incredible day, and I loved meeting you, and I loved the concert. More than that though, I want to thank you for being a constant in my life for the past seven years, for sending me a package, for helping me through my friend issues, for being so excited and happy when you met me. It honestly means the world to me, which I’m sure you already know, but I wish I could have told you that more clearly when we met. I love you so much, and I will forever be grateful for you.
Second, I want to say a massive I LOVE YOU to my friends and mutuals and followers on tumblr because WOW the excitement you guys had over me meeting Taylor was incredible, and made me smile so big.
So, let’s do this, I guess?? I’m so sorry if this is long and rambley (update: it totally is), but here’s my story about meeting Taylor Swift.

Okay, so this story begins exactly a week prior to the concert, and I’m sitting at the hairdressers (Obviously a holy place for me seeing as Taylor sent me an emoji when I was at the hairdressers) when I get a call from Dani, and she’s crying into the phone and tells me she got an email from Sierra from Taylor Nation. Immediately I’m a shaking mess because I’m so darn excited for her, and then, as soon as I get home, I run to my laptop to see that I’ve got an email from Taylor Nation too, and they asked me which show I was going to. So, of course, I replied. Fast forward a week and I’ve still got no reply from TN and I’m freaking the heck out. As @dancingroundtayskitchen and @theaustralianswiftie can confirm, I was a ball of anxiety and skepticism for an entire week because I was convinced something was going to go wrong.
So, it’s the day of the concert, and it’s about 10am, and I’m listening to out of the woods acoustic when I get a phone call anD THE CALLER LOCATION SAID NASHVILLE. I was shaking and crying before I even picked up the phone. Kevin from TN was on the other end of the phone, and after what felt like forever, he said to me, ‘Well, I’m about to get you even more excited- Taylor really wants to meet you!!’. Cue tears from me. After the phone call, I could genuinely not breathe properly, so I opted for texting Dani. Flash forward 4 hours, and Dani still hasn’t got a call, and we’re both beginning to freak out so I called Kevin and was like, hey do you want Dani’s number and he said yes and SO WE WERE GOING TO MEET TAYLOR SWIFT AND WE WERE FREAKING OUT.
And so we got ready together and headed down to the stadium to be there at 4:30 and there was a moment of absolute freak out when the people at the box office had no idea what we were talking about when we mentioned the meet and greets, and could barely believe they weren’t paid for. Five or ten minutes later though, we get the passes, and people in the crowd lining up to get in are staring at us having a freak out and we’re like, well, we’re awful bad at secrets aren’t we.

Meeting Taylor
We met up at a section in the stadium and this really nice guy from Taylor Nation chatted to us and then took us back stage and at this point my heart was likely to give out at any moment. My heart totally stopped when we walked into loft 89 and Dani was gripping my arm going, ‘She’s behind that frickin curtain!!!’ Loft had pizza and cookies and all kinds of food that looked incredible but I decided to avoid it in case I threw up from nerves. For some reason, someone decided it was a good idea for me to be the second person to go in, so I had no time to prepare. (Side note: I’m having heart palpitations writing this) And so, once the little girl who went before me was done, Erica was telling me to go in. I THOUGHT I WAS GOING TO DIE. MY HEART DROPPED INTO MY STOMACH AND A VAGUELY REMEMBER LOOKING AT DANI IN ABSOLUTE PANIC BEFORE WALKING IN. So, first things first, I recently found out there were a bunch of people in the room Taylor was in, however, all I saw was Tay. So I walk in, and Taylor is RIGHT THERE and my legs were about ready to give out on me, and Taylor opens her arms for a hug and goes ‘Meagan!!!!!’ I can’t remember exactly, but I’m pretty sure I went. ‘Hi, oh my god!’ but I can’t remember properly because all that was going through my head was oh my god oh my god she said my name oh my god that’s my name oh my god. Tay then pulled back and was holding onto my arms and she goes, ‘oh my god! You wore the dress, it looks amazing! You look beautiful!’ Cue me throwing myself onto her for another hug (And she squeezed me and I was like nope I can’t do this anymore I’m going to die). I was freaking out internally because I was like OH MY GOD SHE REMEMBERS SENDING ME THE DRESS WHAT THE HECK????? SO we complimented each other and I was just so blown away by her extreme beauty and her kindness and everything. Then we started talking about how long it had been since package day, and she said how it had been a long time coming and nearly a year, and then we talked about how she hadn’t played in a week and then I told her how I was really looking forward to hearing OOTW, and she goes, ‘Yeah! That’s probably my favourite song to do on the set.’ Then she asked me if I wanted to grab a photo and my mind went BLANK. But luckily, Taylor grabbed me and squeezed me into this incredible hugging pose. (I was so not mentally prepared for another hug, hence my looking a bit of a mess in my photo). In typical Meagan fashion, I didn’t know where to look but Taylor assured me if I looked into the black square of the camera then I was doing it right. Then it was time for me to leave (I don’t know how I knew this. Did someone tell me? Did someone open the curtain?? I don’t know) but Taylor opened her arms for another hug and goes ‘Thankyou for coming! I love you!’ and I said, ‘I love you too! Thank you so much for the package and just for everything.’ Then as I was about to walk out I said, ‘I love you!’ and she goes, ‘Love you too!’ and that was the last thing I heard her say to me. Dani tells me Taylor was still facing me watching me walk out when she walked in. I can vaguely remember someone handing me a signed photo, and at this point I lost it. I walked out of there crying my eyes out and the little girl who went before me smiled at me so big and the lady she was with asked me if that was good, and all I could do was blubber. Dani came out about 2 minutes later, and we just hugged and cried.

The Aftermath
I was on the verge of tears for the rest of the night, and I couldn’t stop thinking about the way she smiled at me and said she loved me and hugged me. It was insane. I felt insane. And I loved it. During the concert, i absolutely went for it and danced more than I’ve ever danced in my life. Just when I thought my night couldn’t get better, Taylor was playing OOTW and then I saw Lauren @wefoundwondreland and she was SO excited and then I saw she was holding a loft pass and I was like OH. MY. GOD, so we hugged and screamed, and then I danced EVER HARDER THAN BEFORE because I was so happy. My night was entirely magical, and I couldn’t be happier.

So that’s the story!! Sorry for the length of it but WOW what a night. Taylor, I love you so so so much, thank you for that experience, I could not have asked for more.
Love y’all ✌🏼💌


Castle AU Season 6 aftermath

i uploaded this and then took it down coz i wanted to change the ending, tell me what you think, also …. have tissues around somewhere.