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#26 Broken, as you clutch the sleeve of my jacket and beg me not to leave
“Please, Derek, please, I–“ Stiles chokes back the beginnings of tears and clutches harder at the sleeve of Derek’s jacket. He’s on his knees, having tripped in his scramble to get to Derek from the other side of the loft. “I love you, okay? And I’m sorry I didn’t say it before, I’ve been a coward about this whole thing, but I love you. And I know you love me too. I know you do, and I need you not to leave like this, fuck, Derek, please don’t do this.”
Derek stares down at him for a long time, heart clenched in his throat.
And then he looks up at where the other Stiles is pursing his lips in a hard frown as he watches the scene.
“It isn’t real?” Derek asks for the hundredth time since the other Stiles, the real Stiles, showed up in this apparent dreamscape.
Stiles shakes his head stiffly.
The Stiles on the floor is still pleading with him around tears, but the noises of his despair are starting to fade, as if Derek were now hearing him from a distance. Even his heartbeat, a sound that Derek has been clinging to as an anchor for what feels like forever, begins to disappear.
Derek swallows and steels himself against feeling anything more than determination to get through this newest mess.
“What now?” he asks, tone clinical and firm.
Stiles answers him in a similar tone, his expression betraying nothing about what’s going on in his own head. A far cry from the Stiles that Derek first met a couple years ago, terrified and mouthy and young. “Now you wake up.”
Buddy, pal… Ayn Rand’s novel Atlas Shrugged is considered the 2nd most influential book in American History after the Bible itself, which makes it the Most influential Fiction book. Every fiscally Conservative politician has read it and lives by Rand’s objectivism. But it’s ~just fiction~ which is why Speaker of the House Paul Ryan’s entire ethos is based almost entirely in Ayn Rand’s philosophy
For context, Ayn Rand believed that Selfishness was a virtue and Empathy was by extension a vice and a form of parasitism. Putting the needs of others above your own needs was the highest form of evil her philosophy. She once described a serial killer as a “Superman” because “other people do not exist to him, nor should they.”
Now back to Paul Ryan, the man behind the gutting of the ACA, he, a conservative, says that the conservative morality is laid out in Atlas Shrugged, and he’s not the only one who believes this. Rush Limbaugh, Michelle Bachmann, Ron and Rand Paul, and basically every major Libertarian politician all cite Ayn Rand as an influence (and it’s probably why Ron Paul named his son Randall).
The entire objectivist morality is that the government is an anathema to the Individual, which is sacred.
Individuals, especially rich, selfish individuals = good
Government = bad
But sure,,,,,, fiction is fiction so it doesn’t affect the way people think,,,,,,, people can tell the difference,,,,,,,, ,,, fiction and reality are totally separate and one doesn’t influence the other,,,,,,,,,,,, obvi
Steven knows the Gems have been grooming him to take her place, even if that’s not really all that true, anymore. He knows they have high expectations of him. His mother is an absent yet omnipresent specter in his life. His father’s and Pearl’s lost love. Garnet’s friend. Amethyst’s mother figure. How can he possibly measure up?
How can he possibly make up for her?
Steven’s been faced with harsh reality after harsh reality. How much Homeworld hates her. How much damage people have done coming after her. The knowledge that as long as Homeworld keeps sending people after her, they’ll be coming after him. How many people she’s hurt, justified or not. He can’t even process how killing someone can be justified; he’s still too young to balance “taking a life” with “in defense of others”. How can he possibly “repair” her legacy? Does he even want to? Does she even deserve it?
How can he possibly deal with her?
The more he learns about her, the more her absence is felt. The damage she did to Greg and Pearl. The responsibility she foisted off on Garnet. How confused and angry and scared Amethyst is without her guidance. How could she do this to them? She was his mother! She was supposed to be there for him! She was supposed to be family!
She’s not family. Greg and Pearl are his parents. Garnet is his guide and mentor. Amethyst is his sister. These people are his family. Rose barely even entered into the equation. He needs to let go of his expectations of her, his hurt at her absence, and his need to justify her actions. She wasn’t a god, she wasn’t a queen, and she wasn’t some all-knowing, all-benevolent figure.