aesthetics: a memoir

You can’t stay in the dark for too long. Something inside you starts to fade, and you become like a starving person, crazy-hungry for light.
—  The Joy Luck Club
The clear awareness of having been born into a losing struggle need not lead one into despair. I do not especially like the idea that one day I shall be tapped on the shoulder and informed, not that the party is over but that it is most assuredly going on—only henceforth in my absence. (It’s the second of those thoughts: the edition of the newspaper that will come out on the day after I have gone, that is the more distressing.) Much more horrible, though, would be the announcement that the party was continuing forever, and that I was forbidden to leave. Whether it was a hellishly bad party or a party that was perfectly heavenly in every respect, the moment that it became eternal and compulsory would be the precise moment that it began to pall.
—  Christopher Hitchens, Hitch-22: A Memoir
  • family: *goes out*
  • me: comin outta my cage and ive been doin just fine
  • me: LET IT GOOOOOOOOOOOO LET IT GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO CANT HOLD IT BACK ANYMORE
  • me: and the walls kept tumblin DOWN in the city that we LOOOOOUUUUUVVVEEEEEE
  • me: saaaarrahh smiles like saaarrah doesnt cARE
  • me: IM ALIVE IM ALIVE I AM SO ALIVE
  • me: iTS WERE MY DEMONS. HIDE. ITS. WHERE. MY. DEMONS. HIDE.
  • me: wellitisntmyfaultiwasgiventhosebeansyoupersuadedmetotradeawaymycowforbeansandwithoutthosebeanstheredhavebeennostalktogetuptothegiantsinthe fiRST PLACE WAITAMINUTE magicbeansforacowsooldthatyouhADDATELLALIETOSELLITwhichyoUTOLD
  • me: cOME OUT VIRIGINIA. DONT LET ME WAIT YACATH-OL-IC GIRLS START MUCHTOOOLATE
  • family: *comes home*
  • me: sup.
  • college: I KNOW YOU AND I'VE SEEN YOU AROUND AND YOU WERE IN ONE OF MY CLASSES LAST SEMESTER AND I KNOW YOUR NAME but i'll just stare at you awkwardly and look away when we walk right next to each other
A Work In Progress

Connor Franta just announced his new book, “A Work In Progress.”

In his debut memoir, Connor Franta offers a look at his Midwestern upbringing as one of four children in the home and one of five in the classroom; his struggles with identity, body image, and sexuality in his teen years; and his decision to finally pursue his creative and artistic passions in his early twenties, setting up his thrilling career as a YouTube personality, philanthropist, entrepreneur, and tastemaker.
THIS FULL-COLOR COLLECTION INCLUDES PHOTOGRAPHY AND CHILDHOOD CLIPPINGS PROVIDED BY CONNOR AND IS A MUST-HAVE FOR ANYONE INSPIRED BY HIS JOURNEY.