adultary

I am a conscious human being
Full of 
Morals and emotions.
I am aware that our
Actions are far from acceptable
Nor are they confined to
Simply hurting either one of us;
But shattering the lives of the 
People we care about.
You’re the worst influence 
I’ve ever encountered
Yet my body won’t stay away
My fingers can’t stop
And my morals are dismissed 
When you push the hair out of my eyes 
To kiss me.
I know that what we’re doing is wrong
And I know
If it were to continue 
The Thin ice we’re skating on
Would melt into nothing more than a 
Lukewarm puddle of our
Wrongdoings.

But my hands still wander and 
My heart still stops
When you look at me and 
Suddenly being a decent 
Human being 
Doesn't matter much to me anymore, at all.

—  24th January 2015 (via: 365dailypoems
I would like to think of myself
As a level headed person
Yet I still read my horoscope 
Every morning 
Wave at magpies,
And avoid the cracks in pavements.
In many aspects of my life 
I am too rational for my own good
Yet sleeping with a married man
Is a justifiable action,
If not selfish gratification
And I can’t quite figure out why
—  26th of January (via 365dailypoems)

anonymous asked:

the first day my boyfriend and I started dating I went to a party. I drank a lot and blacked out, then had sex with my ex. I have never cheated before and I'm so disgusted with myself. my boyfriend and I have been dating for 5 months now and I'm wondering if and how I should tell him... it meant nothing and it was the biggest mistake of my life and I love my boyfriend so much..I just don't know what to do, please help..

Uhhh.

Honestly?

I can’t really call this one.  It depends on who you are.  And what you want.  

The only advice I can give you is to totally throw away everything you know about morality, because morality is relative, but we live in a society where certain things, especially things associated with sex, are hammered into us as the ‘right’ and ‘wrong’ thing to do.  

Now decide, free from the idea of whether or not what you did was right or wrong - do you want to tell him?

Do not try to separate what he will do - because he will get mad, and he might even break up with you, and it will be upsetting.  Not as upsetting as it would be if you never told him and  he found out, probably, but maybe he won’t find out.  You don’t know.  I don’t know.

I think reasonable people would forgive someone for stuff they do while blackout drunk.  He might not think that, though, so there’s nothing I can say, since I cannot predict the variables.  

Either tell him or don’t.  If you tell him, stress how much you regret it, say you were blackout drunk and that you never would have done it in your current state and you don’t know what happened.  Stress how it’s totally your ex boyfriend’s fault.

If you don’t tell him, hope he never finds out.  That’s really it.

psyomblis asked:

Is that not indulging in sensual pleasure

There’s nothing wrong with enjoying sentsual pleasures, my friend! I have no guide lines for my life other than my own! However, they are based on Buddhism. The precept that talks about avoiding adultary meansbto have mindless sex with anyone. I believe that between two people who are together, it is okay to express your love! Of course, this is simply what is best for me, many of my friends are polyamorous and have multiple partners. That way is not for me, but what they do is none of my concern.

Plant Seeds, not Weeds,

Sébastien