I am a conscious human being
Full of 
Morals and emotions.
I am aware that our
Actions are far from acceptable
Nor are they confined to
Simply hurting either one of us;
But shattering the lives of the 
People we care about.
You’re the worst influence 
I’ve ever encountered
Yet my body won’t stay away
My fingers can’t stop
And my morals are dismissed 
When you push the hair out of my eyes 
To kiss me.
I know that what we’re doing is wrong
And I know
If it were to continue 
The Thin ice we’re skating on
Would melt into nothing more than a 
Lukewarm puddle of our

But my hands still wander and 
My heart still stops
When you look at me and 
Suddenly being a decent 
Human being 
Doesn't matter much to me anymore, at all.

—  24th January 2015 (via: 365dailypoems
I would like to think of myself
As a level headed person
Yet I still read my horoscope 
Every morning 
Wave at magpies,
And avoid the cracks in pavements.
In many aspects of my life 
I am too rational for my own good
Yet sleeping with a married man
Is a justifiable action,
If not selfish gratification
And I can’t quite figure out why
—  26th of January (via 365dailypoems)
Scandalously Forgiven

All this talk and whispering
The gasping shock and misery
Who knew the hidden sins
Lurking behind so many doors
It would all come crashing in

Don’t tell me about the hurt and pain
It’s a lie to say you had no clue
Blaming spouses for their sins
A plank is in your eyes; wake up
Sin is sin; no one escapes it

Your sin is worse than my sin?
Gay, straight, trans, adultery?
It’s all the same no matter what
I will never condemn the brokenness
The broken hearted in despair

There were no perfect followers
Unflawed apostles walking with
Jesus loved them in spite of it
not only sin, they betrayed him
We can look to him for forgiveness

As a sinner, I forgive you
I’m no better than you or any scandal
My sin, your sin, all sin is equal
If God forgives me; I can forgive you
Unconditional love is where it’s at

The Shame and shunning
Is a quick judgmental knee-jerk
From all who bask in righteousness
They’re no better than you or I
Pick up a stone and throw it already

The pity party of the wives involved
Lying there sprawled on the floor
Acting as though they had no clue
Lies I tell you; believe me they knew
Unless for deaf or being dumb

A couple is never taken by surprise
So when it surfaces true; why tears?
It’s no different than a lie
Money, time, friends, and solitude
Get over it or get out; forgive him

too good to forgive? move on
you were part of this problem
Realize it or not; he needed you
The sin is not single-sided; take note
Pride and selfishness surface through

Resign from your post or run away
Don’t even think of taking your life
What you did is no worse than most
Be brave & repent; true love will win
Forgiveness has been already given

Ultimately the acceptance from God
Supersedes what any human can
It doesn’t matter what they think
Eternity with Christ already stands
Only he condemns and forgets

My advice for what it’s worth
Breathe, keep walking
Hold your head up high
Your forgiven; remember grace
The beautiful gift given inside


anonymous asked:

the first day my boyfriend and I started dating I went to a party. I drank a lot and blacked out, then had sex with my ex. I have never cheated before and I'm so disgusted with myself. my boyfriend and I have been dating for 5 months now and I'm wondering if and how I should tell him... it meant nothing and it was the biggest mistake of my life and I love my boyfriend so much..I just don't know what to do, please help..



I can’t really call this one.  It depends on who you are.  And what you want.  

The only advice I can give you is to totally throw away everything you know about morality, because morality is relative, but we live in a society where certain things, especially things associated with sex, are hammered into us as the ‘right’ and ‘wrong’ thing to do.  

Now decide, free from the idea of whether or not what you did was right or wrong - do you want to tell him?

Do not try to separate what he will do - because he will get mad, and he might even break up with you, and it will be upsetting.  Not as upsetting as it would be if you never told him and  he found out, probably, but maybe he won’t find out.  You don’t know.  I don’t know.

I think reasonable people would forgive someone for stuff they do while blackout drunk.  He might not think that, though, so there’s nothing I can say, since I cannot predict the variables.  

Either tell him or don’t.  If you tell him, stress how much you regret it, say you were blackout drunk and that you never would have done it in your current state and you don’t know what happened.  Stress how it’s totally your ex boyfriend’s fault.

If you don’t tell him, hope he never finds out.  That’s really it.