admitting you love someone you can't have

I have a very fragile heart that constantly breaks at the thought of your arms around someone else.
—  Things I realized when I admitted that I’m not over you, part II

monika113079  asked:

Hey guys! Do you know any fic where Derek doesn't want to admit that he's in love with Stiles but he can't help loving him?Thanks in advance.

yes i do!!!

First Rule: Do No Harm by LandingStrutts (23/23 | 79,654 | R)

While they are both eye fucking each other, Dereks view of focus is replaced by someone else rushing toward him. It is Tom and he has a shitty evil grin on his face. “Derek. Where the hell you been man? You’re twenty minutes late. It’s freezing out here and we are waiting for someone to open up the building.” You would never have believed this is who sent a text with an exploding kitten.

Love At It’s Purest by AbsolutelyNot2801 (11/? | 22,459 | PG13)

Sometimes Derek does things that makes Stiles think his crush is not completely one-sided, like gentle touches, soothing words and embraces like the one they were in that morning. And then he goes and does something stupid like getting a stupid girlfriend like Jennifer. It’s not because of Jennifer at all really. She’s lovely. But Stiles can’t help the hint of jealousy when he sees the loving gazes and soft, shy smiles.

And this is his step-brother he’s talking about. His step-brother!

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Or a fic in which Stiles and Derek can’t help falling in love with each other. But there’s a problem, they’re step brothers. A fic with angst, feels and a happy ending.

Surfboard by FiccinDylan, spellwovennight (10/10 | 30,672 | NC17)

Derek Hale is confident in 3 things: His station as beta in the McCall pack, his control over his wolf traits, and his ability and desire as a red blooded heterosexual were to carry on the Hale line.

Then one day Stiles Stilinski walks around the loft wearing a wig.

Denial by Angelwithwingsoffire (1/1 | 3,384 | PG13)

Five times Derek denied his feelings and the one time he actually admitted to them. 

  • Fyodor: *kills someone*
  • Fyodor: *kills someone again*
  • Fyodor: *is the reason why Dazai got shot*
  • Fyodor: *massively kills people again*
  • Fyodor: *basically is the mastermind for all the shit that has been happening*
  • Me: You terrible little shit.
  • Also me: I love you.

anonymous asked:

as someone who comes from an abusive home, i will admit that the first instinct when characters i love are in any sort of relatable pain is to cry "HOW COULD YOU!?!?!/11/?!?" however, i see and know for a fact that you're telling a masterful story, one that's really resonated with me, and as a storyteller/artist you have my utmost respect and appreciation. i really can't begin to tell you how much the fantasy au means to me. lately it's been helping me through so much. so thank you .

thanks dude!!! i’m glad! this is very sweet 

parting line of a breakup (if you break their heart)
  • aries: "I deserve better anyway. You never would have been enough for me and this should've ended a long time ago."
  • taurus: "I'll never forget you, but neither will I love you again."
  • gemini: "I'll admit, you made me feel something for a while. But I will NOT hurt over you."
  • cancer: "I feel so stupid. When did everything go wrong? I thought we were forever."
  • leo: "You can't leave me. I'm the best thing to happen to you. WE CAN WORK THIS OUT."
  • virgo: "Well, what can you do? They didn't deserve me anyway. I'll find someone better, someone who wouldn't deliberately hurt me like you did."
  • libra: "Why do I feel like leaving is the bad option? Shouldn't I give you another chance. You deserve that. WAIT, no. I'm already gone."
  • scorpio: "You'll regret it. I promise you of that."
  • sagittarius: "Were we really even a couple? Couples aren't supposed to drag each other down like that. I was feeling trapped and you were too blind to even see!"
  • capricorn: "Did I do something wrong? No, it couldn't have been me... But was it?"
  • aquarius: "You changed me. I didn't want to be changed. We're better off as friends anyway... right?"
  • pisces: "You hurt me, you hurt me so fucking bad and yet I'm still in love with you. How is that?"
LadyNoir July Day 12: Communication
  • Ladybug: *Knows Sonnet 40 from school
  • Ladybug: Chat, you can't-
  • Chat Noir: I absolutely can! You think I'm just a flirt, so you sidestep my advancements out of professionalism. And...okay, I admit that I can get a little showy, but I mean it. I've had my heart set on you since Stoneheart when your bravery blew me away.
  • Ladybug, melting a little: I-I'm sorry... There's someone else th...that I like.
  • Chat Noir, steadfast: I will always love you Ladybug, no matter where you heart takes you. Whoever makes you happy, I will always be here for you.
  • Ladybug: *Can't take it anymore, swings away to sort herself out.
  • Chat Noir, sighing: Take your time, My Lady.
Send me a Danny Phantom character!
  • Amoropho: You can be anyone in the world for one day, who do you become?
  • Box Ghost: Do you have any strange obsessions or collections?
  • Clockwork: If you could go back in time, and change one thing, what would it be? How do you think this would affect your life now?
  • Cujo: Surprise! You're now a dog! What breed have you become?
  • Dan/Dark Danny: Do you think you're capable of murder?
  • Danielle: Would you allow someone to clone you? Would it be interesting? Or ruin your individuality?
  • Danny Fenton: What is the biggest lie you've ever told?
  • Danny Phantom: If you had to pick a superhero name, what would you choose?
  • Dash: Play any sports? If not, any you find interesting?
  • Desiree: If you had one wish, and couldn't wish for more wishes, what would it be?
  • Ember: What's your favourite band or singer?
  • Freakshow: You're in a circus! What is your act?
  • Frostbite: Is there anyone you greatly admire?
  • Ghostwriter: If you could write a story about your life, how would it go? Whats the theme? Or you the villain or the hero? Etc.
  • Jack: Blather on about something you find interesting and/or love; just let it out~
  • Jazz: You can have a vast knowledge of any subject in the world with the just the snap of the fingers, which subject do you choose and why?
  • Johnny 13: Tell us about a time where you got lucky
  • Kitty: Do you believe in true love? Or is everything circumstantial?
  • Klemper: The wildest thing you did for/with your bestfriend
  • Lunch Lady: If you could only eat one thing for the rest of your life, what would it be?
  • Maddie: Do you have any unique and/or interesting skills?
  • Mr Lancer: Favourite fanfic? (or book, if you do not read fanfiction)
  • Nocturne: Tell us about a dream you had recently, or one that sticks out in your mind
  • Pandora: You're going in to battle! What is your weapon of choice?
  • Pariah Dark: You're royalty! Tell us what sort of kingdom you desire, and how you would rule it. Get creative~
  • Paulina: Tell us about your crush
  • Poindexter: Tell us about something/someone you absolutely hate
  • Princess Dorathea: If you could become a mythical creature, what would you be?
  • Sam: How would you describe your style? Do you wish to change it? If yes, what is your desired style?
  • Skulker: If you could have anything in the world, what would it be? Is this valuable in general? Or just to you?
  • Spectra: How do you feel about immortality? Would you choose to be immortal?
  • Technus: If you could insert yourself in to a video game, what game would you choose? What would your role be?
  • Tucker: What would you consider yourself especially good at or knowledgable in?
  • Undergrowth: If you could create a world that best suits you, what would this world look/be like?
  • Valerie: Have you ever sought revenge on someone? If yes, do you feel it was worth it? If no, do you think you're capable?
  • Vlad Masters: If you were given a choice between money and love - no you can't pick both - which would you choose?
  • Vlad Plasmius: Be honest, what was the meanest thing you're done that you're willing to admit to?
  • Vortex: If you could only live with one season, what season would you choose?
  • Walker: Oh no, you've been arrested! What is it most likely for?
  • Wulf: Do you speak more than one language? If yes, what? If no, which language(s) would you like to learn?
  • Youngblood: You're a pirate! What is your role/duty on board the ship?
‘Be with someone where the only argument you have is about who loves the other one more.’ Um no. Actually, be with someone who you can argue with and five minutes later be okay. Be with someone who fights for you and never gives up. Be with someone that can’t stay mad at you. Be with someone who is willing to put aside his or her pride when it is necessary. Be with someone who knows how to admit to being wrong but will also make sure you know when you are. Don’t be unrealistic about relationships. Understand that without the arguments and battles, you’ll never grow.
Imagine Dean finding and showing Sam the letter  you never gave to him...

Sam stared down at the piece of paper Dean had handed to him. “What’s this?”

“Something you should read,” Dean said gruffly.

It was a letter, scrawled out in your familiar handwriting, and not addressed to anyone specifically. ‘I’ve told myself to move on a thousand times, that there is no way you could possibly feel the same way I do, but I can’t do it. And I find myself forced to admit, that against my best efforts, I have fallen for you.’ He looked up at Dean in annoyance and confusion. “Why the hell did you give me this? I don’t want to read some letter Y/N wrote to someone else…” he said, dropping it onto the table and swallowing hard, feeling his stomach drop at the thought of you in love with someone that wasn’t him.

“Turn it over, dumbass,” Dean said with a half-smile.

'To Sam’ was scrolled in the middle of the page, just where it would be front and center if the letter was folded up. He tilted his head and looked up at Dean as if to ask “Really?”

Dean smirked at him. “Seemed like something you should know,” he said, leaving Sam to puzzle over just what to do with the news…

BN song feelings
  • Wild: Crushing on someone like you've never had another crush before; the first few stages of a relationship, when your eyes are full of stars when you see the other person and you can't imagine anyone's touch feeling better than theirs.
  • Bite: Someone extending their hand to you with a mischievous smile on their face, the second before you take it and smile back, kissing them wildly to forget any reluctances.
  • Fools: The moment you decide that despite something being hopeless, you're going to go for it. Watching someone you love picking someone else because you haven't had the courage to speak to them.
  • Ease: The second you break down in someones arms because you've missed them so much, their warmth by your side and knowing that you will never stop needing the feeling of their presence. The lump in your throat finally disappearing because you feel okay for the first time in forever.
  • The Quiet: The second after someone storms out of the room when you know you've really messed something up. Staring up at the ceiling in the dark with your phone by your side, hoping that they'll call you because you're too afraid to call them, but knowing they won't.
  • DKLA: Not having any tears left to cry. Someone leaving you despite all of their promises of forever. Promising you'll never love again because it hurts too much.
  • Talk Me Down: Wondering if both of you are ready to take another step forward. Being afraid of losing everything if you move to fast.
  • Cool: Driving down the street with your windows down and music up because you have nowhere to go. Trying to be someone you're not because you want others to like you, but running from that person because they aren't you.
  • Heaven: Being afraid of yourself. Finally realizing that you don't want to live in fear of yourself forever. Wondering what your future will be like if you tell the truth.
  • Youth: Being so in love with someone that you don't care where you are as long as it's with them. Driving to the middle of nowhere to watch the sunset by their side and realizing that you'll give them everything, if they only ask.
  • Lost Boy: Not being ready to love someone back but telling them you are because you can't let yourself hurt them. Finally admitting that it won't work and hating yourself for letting them down.
  • for him.: Feeling as though their smile is enough to make any place your home, knowing that you don't have to conform to anyone's expectations because the two of you work perfectly the way you are. Recalling old memories together and laughing your asses off, and feeling more than ready to create new ones. The smile that crosses your face when you meet their eyes.
  • Suburbia: Nostalgia. Missing the way your home town was because at least there you knew how things worked. Walking through a place where everywhere you look there are memories. Having to leave to follow your dreams but wishing you could be there as well.
  • Too Good: Being with someone even though you know that the morning will be filled with regret. Wishing that the hands against your skin belong to someone else, and pushing that away because you feel like you need this. Giving into your senses and throwing yourself into the other person, because you need to feel something.
  • Blue: Seeing the sadness in the person you loves smile. Being willing to do anything to make that sadness go away, but knowing that it's hopeless. Wishing someone had it in them to love you, but knowing they can't even love themselves.

anonymous asked:

My boyfriend admitted that he cheated on me and has cried and plead for forgiveness. We have been together for 4 months and I honestly don't know if I should give him a second chance. The Lord forgave sinners but why can't I have it in my heart to forgive someone who said they loved me but cheated on me.

Jesus forgave, but that does not mean you have to take this boy back; nor should you.

Do not settle for what is convenient, seek what is good; what will help you grow. I cannot tell you how many times I have seen people get cheated on, they think just because a boy comes into their life that it was destined by God. Let me say this, it’s not.

We have a responsibility to love others the way Christ loves, we should be seeking out those who will also love us in that way. You can forgive this boy, but don’t let him back into your life; he is poison. I don’t care how many times he pleads for forgiveness, you are not married to him, so you should not have to pay for his mistakes; let him live with it and go pleading before Christ.

Take some time away from relationship, allow healing to happen, learn to trust again, and when you are ready, make sure you find someone who is more willing to pray for you than he is to take from you.

I pray for healing, I pray that you learn to know that someone is out there who will see you as the most incredible creature to ever exist. My sister in law was cheated on, and then she met my brother, and a Godly man will stay loyal because he understands the magnitude of commitment.

Look to Jesus, learn to forgive this guy but also have the courage to move on.

-Todd

anonymous asked:

Hello, do you enjoy how Stiles and Derek are portrayed this season? I'm asking you that because I have to admit that I haven't been able to enjoy any of season 4 because I can't find a trace of what made me love these characters in previous seasons. They used to be my farorite characters and now that they're so different I can't even bring myself to care about any of their scenes. I know I'm being a kill joy, sorry about that, but I'm really curious to know if someone might feel the same...?

Hi love, sorry for the late reply. Don’t apologise honey, I think a lot of people have mixed feelings about season 4. I’m not as crazy about it as I’d hoped to be either - on the one hand I’m absolutely loving the thematic development, we finally have the start of Scott’s dark arc, supernatural creatures as an allegory for racism and othering by the bigoted hunters, Stiles coming out of the closet (both as super bisexual and supernatural) - it’s very impressive. But I’m not enjoying the surface level stuff as much, it’s falling a bit flat for me personally. I was discussing this with the meta group the other night and we were talking about how S4 seems like a set up season, a lot like S3a was (I struggled with the surface level stuff in 3b, too). I think this season is about setting up Scott’s big dark arc in S5, much like 3a set up Stiles’ dark arc to play out in 3b.

Anyway, the thing to remember is this series is more like a series of novels, rather than a number of more or less contained seasons. So each character is going through a coming of age story, and Derek and Stiles in particular are going through the hero’s journey. The problem is, becoming a hero in the Hero’s Journey is not as simple as having someone dub you a True Alpha because they believe in you. It’s messy, full of sacrifice and fuck-ups, loss and guilt, and as many failures as successes. When your characters go through the Hero’s Journey, they’re going to change and because their journey is a hard one, it’s a hard change to watch (think Frodo in LOTR). We can see that with Stiles each season - at the beginning of S4 he looked like a complete wreck and he’s very much on edge, struggling with guilt and coming out of the supernatural closet after the Nogitsune mess. Whatever else Stalia may be, I think guilt plays an enormous role in driving it on Stiles’ side.

Derek’s a little more tricky. Davis told us we wouldn’t like him this season and many don’t because it doesn’t seem like our Derek - not completely anyway, and that very likely has something to do with whatever Kate did to him.

I’m keeping my fingers crossed for certain things to pay-off and signal positive things for S5, here’s hoping the last two episodes will be a blast. =D