addictionis

A rant about addiction

I think that the fact im a drug addict doesnt mean shit. It doesnt tell you who i am, what my life is like, my past, my future. I know addicts that have died, and i know some that have recovered and are now very happy.

People judge addicts like we’re all the same -dirty criminals with no conscience and no values. We’re human too. We have feelings and friends and we have goals for life. Stop treating drug addicts like their subhuman bc you can’t extend empathy to people that are usually in a lot of fucking pain.

I’m sick of people seeing a homless person and saying “oh, don’t give him money, he’ll just buy drugs with it”

Uh. So what. For all you know he could be using that money for food and water, or necessary hygiene? But who gives a shit if he does blow it on heroin? If you’re homless and u feel like shit, fuck, go get high if you have the cash. Hell, I’ll get you high. I know all too well what withdraws are like and you deserve, like any person, to not feel like/ be dying.

If youre so concerned about drug users, help them get treatment, and therapy, and safe places to live. Help them help themselves if youre so fucking concerned.

Oh? You won’t? Makes sense, because youre more interested in blaming homlessness on the individual when their situation could be caused by a lot of reasons, and you want to put yourself on a moral pedistal bc you aren’t like those “dirty junkies”

Tldr: dont hate drug addicts, hate what made them addicts and try to help. Drug addicts are human beings and having empathy could change things. Dont be part of the problem.

Journey to Addiction

I remember when I started this Tumblr. I was looking for more hypnosis related content. I followed a few blogs and enjoyed all the spirals and hypnosis stories. I soon started following more porn related accounts and I was a little squeamish at some of the images and videos posted. I would see things like “goon till you die” and “worship your porn goddesses” and I felt uneasy. I thought I had gone too deep but, the images just felt so good to look at. So I continued scrolling deeper and deeper. I followed more blogs to fill my stream with content. At first, I only masturbated for a few minutes but soon I started dragging out my sessions. Seeing how long I could last. Soon 20 mins turned to 40, then to an hour. I started thinking about porn at work and couldn’t wait to get home and masterbate. More images of addiction and devotion filled my stream and I started to understand. I started rebloging photos about gooning and devotion. The same photos I felt strange about previously were now arousing to me. I started spending hours masterbating and rebloging. I started talking to other gooners. Sending images of porn goddesses back and forth and encouraging eachother to stay on the edge. I started blowing off my friends and family just to stay home and edge and goon with people I didn’t even know. I started edging naked and obeying everything the godesses told me to do. I started to goon like an animal. Everyday for hours upon hours losing track of time. Now im a porn slave and porn owns me. I obey my porn goddesses. Im a porn piggie. Im a gooner and I love it.


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//-> Septisizm ve Radikal aldanma
The matrix
Waking life
The truman show
Existenz
The thirteenth floor
Vanilla sky
Total recall
The city of lost children

//-> iyi bir insan olma üzerine
Vanilla sky
Open your eyes
The matrix
Eternal sunshine of the spotless mind

//-> Estetik değerler-ahlaki değerler ve sanatın doğası
The shape of things

//-> Varoluşsal ve Görevler üzerine
Les miserables

//-> Determinizm, Özgür irade ve Ahlak
Minority report
Gattaca
Matrix reloaded
Donnie darko
The manchurian candidate

//-> Bireycilik ve toplumculuk
The ballad of cable hogue
Chocolat
Antz

//-> Ölüm cezası
Dead man walking
Dancer in the dark
Mr. death
The life of david gale

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1984
Animal farm
We the living
Fahrenheit 451
Equilibrium
Brazil
Stolen years
Eternal memory

//-> Bireysel kimlik
Persona
Memento
The man with two brains
The bourne identity
Being john malkovich
Dark city
Who is julia?
Total recall
Eternal sunshine of the spotless mind
Paycheck
Solaris
Ghost in the shell

//-> Hayatın anlamı
Wild strawberries
Stealing heaven
The fisher king
The meaning of life
Ghost world
O lucky man
Slc punk!
On the beach
Leaving las vegas
Montenegro

//-> Günah ve kefaret
The fisher king

//-> Genel etik
Deliverance
Breaking the waves
Dead man walking
Seven samurai
The confession
Crimes and misdemeanors
The shop on main street
Shoah
Mr. klein
Transport from paradise
Private schultz
Animal farm
Groundhog day
High noon
Housesitter
Quiz show
Seven
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Angel heart
The vanishing
The doctor
Moonstruck
Antigone
Deliverance
Alexandre le bienheureux
Damage
A man for all seasons
The verdict
Fort apache the bronx
Boyz in the hood
Do the right thing
Angels & insects
The ox-bow incident
El norte
1984
Lord of the flies
After life
Crimson tide

//-> Postmodernizm
Bladerunner
Matrix revolutions
Matrix reloaded
Tüm bergman filmleri
Mulholland drive
Lost highway

//-> Din felsefesi
Bruce almighty
The last temptation of christ
Life of brian
What dreams may come
Winter light
Agnes of god
Leap of faith
Jesus of montreal
İnherit the wind
Ordet
Day of wrath
Nazarin

//-> İnanç vs. sebep
Contact
İnherit the wind
Stalker
Au hazard balthazar

//-> Nietzsche'nin ahlak şeceresi
Dogville

//-> Dürüstlük erdemi
Kate and leopold
Antigone
Lonely are the brave
The man who shot liberty valence
Breaking the waves

//-> Bireycilik/ahlaki risk
Spider-man 2

//-> Doğanın yazılı olmayan kanunları
Lord of the flies
Hero
Matrix revolutions

//->Faydacılık ve uluslararası siyaset
Failsafe

//-> Görelilik ve gerçek
Hilary and jackie
Requiem for a dream
Rashomon

//-> Kötülük problemi
Bruce almighty
The rapture
The seventh sign
Dangerous liaisons
Sling blade
Dancer in the dark
Constantine

//-> Varoluşçuluk
Tüm bergman filmleri
Leaving los vegas
Love and death
Crimes and misdemeanors
Rosencrantz and guildenstern are dead
The addiction
I heart huckabees

//-> Mantık/eleştirel düşünce
Twelve angry men
Proof
The usual suspects

//-> Savaş etiği
The thin red line
Saving private ryan
Platoon
Full metal jacket
Kelly’s heroes
‘Breaker’ morant
Deterrence
Dr. strangelove
Failsafe
All my sons

//-> Aklın felsefesi
Mind walk

//-> Kuvantum
What the bleep do we know!?

//-> Kavramsal düşüncenin önemi
Rain man

//-> Faydacılık
Quiz show
Jacob the liar
Extreme measures
Crimes and misdemeanors
Dogville

//-> İnsan hakları
In the name of the father
Burn!
The battle of algiers
Chinatown
Schindler’s list
Matewan

//-> Marksizm
Burn!
Red

//-> Bilgi felsefesi
Blow-up
The thin blue line
Rashomon
The battle of algiers
He said/she said
Proof
The usual suspects
Dark star

//-> İnsanlık / Ahlakın değeri
Blade runner
Star trek: the next generation “the measure of a man”
Elephant man
Brave new world
Lathe of heaven
Le regle du jeu
Mirror
Stalker
Nostalgia
The sacrifice
Wings of desire
The ascent
Days and nights in the forest
Cries and whisper

//-> Yapay zeka / İnsanlık
A.I.
Ghost in the shell
Solaris
2001
D.a.r.y.l.

//-> Feminizm
He said/she said
Thelma and louise
Boys on the side
Sense and sensibility

//-> Davranışçılık
A clockwork orange
Dark city

//-> Hedonizm, nihilizm
Cruel intentions
Natural born killers
Dangerous liaisons

//-> Estetik öznellik
Pollock

//-> Adalet ve ceza
The shawshank redemption (a good anti-crito Movie)
Gladiator
Dead man walking
The count of monte cristo

//-> Özgecilik/dünyaya bağlılık
Chocolat
Crouching tiger hidden dragon

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Narcissism

Narcissism is the pursuit of gratification from vanity, or egotistic admiration of one’s own physical or mental attributes, that derive from arrogant pride. The term originated with Narcissus in Greek mythology who fell in love with his own image reflected in a pool of water.

Narcissism is a concept in psychoanalytic theory, introduced in Sigmund Freud’sOn Narcissism. The American Psychiatric Association has the classificationNarcissistic personality disorder in its Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders (DSM).

Narcissism is also considered a social or cultural problem. It is a factor in trait theory used in some self-report inventories of personality such as the Millon Clinical Multiaxial Inventory.

Except in the sense of primary narcissism or healthy self-love, narcissism is usually considered a problem in a person or group’s relationships with self and others. Narcissism is not the same as egocentrism.

Traits and signs:

Four dimensions of narcissism as a personality variable have been delineated: leadership/authority, superiority/arrogance, self-absorption/self-admiration, and exploitativeness/entitlement.

A 2012 popular book on power-hungry narcissists suggests that narcissists typically display most, and sometimes all, of the following traits:

Hotchkiss’ seven deadly sins of narcissism

Hotchkiss identified what she called the seven deadly sins of narcissism:[8]

  1. Shamelessness: Shame is the feeling that lurks beneath all unhealthy narcissism, and the inability to process shame in healthy ways.
  2. Magical thinking: Narcissists see themselves as perfect, using distortion and illusion known as magical thinking. They also use projection to dump shame onto others.
  3. Arrogance: A narcissist who is feeling deflated may reinflate by diminishing, debasing, or degrading somebody else.
  4. Envy: A narcissist may secure a sense of superiority in the face of another person’s ability by using contempt to minimize the other person.
  5. Entitlement: Narcissists hold unreasonable expectations of particularly favorable treatment and automatic compliance because they consider themselves special. Failure to comply is considered an attack on their superiority, and the perpetrator is considered an “awkward” or “difficult” person. Defiance of their will is a narcissistic injury that can trigger narcissistic rage.
  6. Exploitation: Can take many forms but always involves the exploitation of others without regard for their feelings or interests. Often the other is in a subservient position where resistance would be difficult or even impossible. Sometimes the subservience is not so much real as assumed.
  7. Bad boundaries: Narcissists do not recognize that they have boundaries and that others are separate and are not extensions of themselves. Others either exist to meet their needs or may as well not exist at all. Those who provide narcissistic supply to the narcissist are treated as if they are part of the narcissist and are expected to live up to those expectations. In the mind of a narcissist there is no boundary between self and other.

Aggressive narcissism

This is Factor 1 in the Hare Psychopathy Checklist, which includes the following traits:

The term also occurs in Hotchkiss’ discussion of narcissists: “Their superficial charm can be enchanting.”[11] For such figures, however, there is no substance behind the romantic gestures, which only serve to feed the narcissist’s own ego.[12]

Narcissists are known as manipulative in a charming way, entrapping their victims through a façade of understanding into suspending their self-protective behaviour and lowering their personal boundaries.[13] Closely related is the way impostors are able to make people fall in love with them to satisfy their narcissistic needs, without reciprocating in any real sense or returning their feelings.

Sexual narcissism

Sexual narcissism has been described as an egocentric pattern of sexual behavior that involves an inflated sense of sexual ability and sexual entitlement. In addition, sexual narcissism is the erotic preoccupation with oneself as a superb lover through a desire to merge sexually with a mirror image of oneself. Sexual narcissism is an intimacy dysfunction in which sexual exploits are pursued, generally in the form of extramarital affairs, to overcompensate for low self-esteem and an inability to experience true intimacy.[53] This behavioral pattern is believed to be more common in men than in women and has been tied to domestic violence in men and sexual coercion in couples.[54][55] Hurlbert argues that sex is a natural biological given and therefore cannot be deemed as an addiction. He and his colleagues assert that any sexual addiction is nothing more than a misnomer for what is actually sexual narcissism or sexual compulsivity.[56]

Narcissistic Abuse in Adult relationships

Narcissistic abuse may also occur in adult-to-adult relationships, where the narcissistic person tends to seek out a successful (independent, educated, and attractive) yet co-dependent (empathic, excessively compliant, and forgiving) partner in order to “mirror” the behavior the narcissistic person lacks (e.g., empathy). In this way a dynamic of abuser and victim is created.[24]

Their relationships are characterized by a period of intense involvement and idealization of their partner, followed by devaluation, and a rapid discarding of the partner.[25] At the beginning of a relationship with a narcissist, the partner is only shown the ideal self of the narcissist, which includes pseudo empathy, kindness, and charm. Once the partner has committed to the relationship (e.g., through marriage or a business partnership), the true self of the narcissist will begin to emerge. The initial narcissistic abuse begins with belittling comments and grows to contempt, ignoring behavior, adultery, sabotage, and, at times, physical abuse.[26] At the core of a narcissist is a combination of entitlement and low self-esteem. These feelings of inadequacy are projected onto the victim. If the narcissistic person is feeling unattractive they will belittle their romantic partner’s appearance. If the narcissist makes an error, this error becomes the their partner’s fault.[27]Narcissists also engage in insidious, manipulative abuse by giving subtle hints and comments that result in the victim questioning their own behavior and thoughts. This is termed gaslighting.[28] Any slight criticism of the narcissistic, whether actual or perceived, often triggers narcissistic rage and full blown annihilation from the narcissistic person. This can take the form of screaming tirades or quiet sabotage (setting traps, hiding belongings, spreading rumors, etc). The discard phase can be swift and occurs once the narcissistic supply is obtained elsewhere. In romantic relationships, the narcissistic supply can be acquired by having affairs. The new partner is in the idealization phase and only witnesses the ideal self; thus once again the cycle of narcissistic abuse begins. Narcissists do not take responsibility for relationship difficulties and exhibit no feeling of remorse. Instead they believe themselves to be the victim in the relationship.

i.  prescription

(go on ahead dear)
you light your cigarettes with gasoline
& watch your reflection burn 

standing under f.l.i.c.k.e.r.i.n.g. neon
you’re trembling in the rain
clutching precious paper bag 

shivering in my doorway (again)
unwilling (?) to step inside
but you let me lead you in 

(go on ahead dear)
press that oh-so-tempting button
self-destruction by prescription 

scream at me scream: no no no
& your eyes slip shut (again)
why can’t you sing me to sleep

- - -

ii.  addiction

i can hear you gasp now & then
& your heart beats so damn fast
but i rest my head on you anyway
push damp curls from pale forehead
& kiss cracked skin of your lips
(let’s not make this a habit love)

- - -

iii.  withdrawal

when you finally woke up
you asked me if i loved you 

yes / no / maybe
   
        ??
(i don’t remember)

& then you were gone

- - -

12.12.2006

If PPAP Was About the Types

I have a “ I want to speak to the manager” haircut

I have a lack of boundaries

UGH

ESFJ


I have a A+

I have a strong political view

UGH

INTJ


I have a Phil Lester

I have a oversized sweater

UGH

INFP


I have a neon pink push-up bra

I have a vine account

UGH

ESTP


I have a cookie

I have a grandma

UGH

ISFJ


I have a motorbike

I have a pair of sunglasses

UGH

ISTP


I have a paintbrush

I have a Instagram account

UGH

ISFP


I have a hug

I have a * Beauty Guru Voice* “super cute makeup look for you guys today!”

UGH

ENFJ


I have a tumblr

I have a collection of chicken-related items 

UGH

ENFP


I have a filing cabinet

I have a student handbook

UGH

ISTJ


I have a Stephen King book

I have a Einstein

UGH

INTP


I have a dabbing addiction

I have a Joker

UGH

ENTP


I have a OOTD

I have a fangirl squeal 

UGH

ESFP


I have a Onision

I have a police officer

UGH

ESTJ


I have a billion dollars

I have a pinstripe suit

UGH

ENTJ


I have a conspiracy theorist

I have a Jesus

UGH

INFJ

Thanks for reading!

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09x11 “First Born”
09x16 “Blade Runners”
09x18 “Meta Fiction”
09x21 “King of the Damned”
11x05 “Thin Lizzie”
11x12 “Don’t You Forget about Me”

“I don’t know that I can stop it, I don’t that I can resist it…” - On Dean and Addiction

I have been writing an awful lot about Dean and how the MoC situation as well as Dean losing himself to the blade’s powers has been framed as an addiction over the past three seasons and I’m sorry, but just really like how the show keeps that thread going even now that Dean is mark free - and with that supposedly saved (which we see is not the case) - but not out of the woods by a long shot. To me the mark always resembled and was meant to allude to trackmarks, especially since the visual of how it glowed when Dean held the blade showed it connecting with dean’s veins and the mark’s, which we now can safely label the Darkness’, very own brand of heroin (the “bliss” Sidney felt in 11x05 “Thin Lizzie” and that Amara talked about in 11x09 “Oh Brother, Where Art Thou” or the “calm” Dean spoke about feeling multiple times after he killed with the blade) was entering his bloodstream and provided “the high” Dean talked about to Crowley in 9x23 “Do You Believe in Miracles”.

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Engineers of Addiction: How slot machines can explain our Candy Crush addiction

I asked Eyal what distinguishes mobile games or dating apps from slot machines. He gave a range of answers that sounded at once comprehensive and somewhat defensive — that tech addictions never really plummet to the league of gambling addiction; that people prone to addiction will be addicted no matter what — before finally admitting that, in a sense, everything functions like a slot machine.

“All content needs to be made interesting. What you’re doing as a writer is introducing variable rewards into your story. Everything that engages us, all pieces of content are engineered to be interesting,” he said. “Movies aren’t real life, books aren’t real life, your article isn’t real life. It’s manufactured to pull us one sentence after another through mystery, through the unknown. It’s a slot machine. Your article is a slot machine. It has to be variable. So just because an experience introduces variability and mystery — that’s good!”

I am the world spinning around inside of you
I am the animal that ripped your heart in two
I am the blood flowing out through your nostrils
you have destroyed with horrible chemicals

I’m your shirtless father in the front yard beating you
I am your brothers, begging him not to
and i’m your pregnant mother crying in the bathroom
I’m your pregnant mother crying in the bathroom

I am an offer you cannot refuse
I am a dress you were soon to infuse with
I am the androgyny that used to confuse you
I am your androgyny that used to confuse you

I am your late night TV addiction
I am the reason you can’t pay attention
I’m the only the only girl that could ever love you
and i’m building a pet cemetery inside of your heart


I feel like? I have to Officially settle this.

Things Elementary has over BBCl*ck:

  1. Joan Watson
  2. No queerbaiting
  3. No mayo mashed with white bread 
  4. Almost no ugly people (M*croft is an Exception, but he never happened)
  5. Actual LGBTQ+ characters
  6. Like, there are lesbians that don’t fall for a dude
  7. Trans Ms. Hudson played by trans actress
  8. Clyde
  9. Bees
  10. Deals with addiction
  11. I know I said this already but NO!! UGLY!! PEOPLE!!
  12. Asian characters don’t all die in one episode
  13. Marcus Bell
  14. Alfredo Llamosa
  15. Gina Cortes (<3 <3 <3)
  16. No ugly people (I just, need to state this multiple times, because God y’all have awful taste in men………..)
  17. GAY INDIE FILM, THE FEMALE OF THE SPECIES, DIRECTED BY LUCY LIU
  18. Definitely more, but it’s late, and I’m TIRED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Things BBCl*ck has over Elementary:

  1. ????????????
happiness is easier for some than others

I smiled my smiles
I laughed my laughs
I even loved my loves

I tried and tried
I learned to live
I evened up
(it’s simple mathematics)

I schooled,
I worked,
I meditated

I screwed my face up
through serotonin blasts

I prayed to things
not found in books of humans,
received answers
that I muddled through

I closed my eyes and fell asleep
I carried with me portable devices
entertainment to keep me drunk on repetition
I slowed to hold the roses, for a sniff

I looked over an enclosure,
felt myself pulled into a vortex
that could take me to the otherworld
if only I had not woken up from pollen’s sneeze

I am a mixture, like rum and coke
had a few of those to simulate stimulation
I grew to tolerate the taste
I found myself enamored with addiction

I had some smokes
and ate a few corpses
I read “good books”
and learned important facts

I sunk into the brainwash
I really did, I swear
at times I believed it
for a solid moment, honest

if only people knew
the ways I applied
to myself, to get to
a selflessly happy state

at least people believe me
when I half-heartedly inform them I’m okay
maybe I could stretch that into great
with grains, stock, and the wandering day