I think that the fact im a drug addict doesnt mean shit. It doesnt tell you who i am, what my life is like, my past, my future. I know addicts that have died, and i know some that have recovered and are now very happy.
People judge addicts like we’re all the same -dirty criminals with no conscience and no values. We’re human too. We have feelings and friends and we have goals for life. Stop treating drug addicts like their subhuman bc you can’t extend empathy to people that are usually in a lot of fucking pain.
I’m sick of people seeing a homless person and saying “oh, don’t give him money, he’ll just buy drugs with it”
Uh. So what. For all you know he could be using that money for food and water, or necessary hygiene? But who gives a shit if he does blow it on heroin? If you’re homless and u feel like shit, fuck, go get high if you have the cash. Hell, I’ll get you high. I know all too well what withdraws are like and you deserve, like any person, to not feel like/ be dying.
If youre so concerned about drug users, help them get treatment, and therapy, and safe places to live. Help them help themselves if youre so fucking concerned.
Oh? You won’t? Makes sense, because youre more interested in blaming homlessness on the individual when their situation could be caused by a lot of reasons, and you want to put yourself on a moral pedistal bc you aren’t like those “dirty junkies”
Tldr: dont hate drug addicts, hate what made them addicts and try to help. Drug addicts are human beings and having empathy could change things. Dont be part of the problem.
I remember when I started this Tumblr. I was looking for more hypnosis related content. I followed a few blogs and enjoyed all the spirals and hypnosis stories. I soon started following more porn related accounts and I was a little squeamish at some of the images and videos posted. I would see things like “goon till you die” and “worship your porn goddesses” and I felt uneasy. I thought I had gone too deep but, the images just felt so good to look at. So I continued scrolling deeper and deeper. I followed more blogs to fill my stream with content. At first, I only masturbated for a few minutes but soon I started dragging out my sessions. Seeing how long I could last. Soon 20 mins turned to 40, then to an hour. I started thinking about porn at work and couldn’t wait to get home and masterbate. More images of addiction and devotion filled my stream and I started to understand. I started rebloging photos about gooning and devotion. The same photos I felt strange about previously were now arousing to me. I started spending hours masterbating and rebloging. I started talking to other gooners. Sending images of porn goddesses back and forth and encouraging eachother to stay on the edge. I started blowing off my friends and family just to stay home and edge and goon with people I didn’t even know. I started edging naked and obeying everything the godesses told me to do. I started to goon like an animal. Everyday for hours upon hours losing track of time. Now im a porn slave and porn owns me. I obey my porn goddesses. Im a porn piggie. Im a gooner and I love it.
//-> Septisizm ve Radikal aldanma The matrix Waking life The truman show Existenz The thirteenth floor Vanilla sky Total recall The city of lost children
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//-> Estetik değerler-ahlaki değerler ve sanatın doğası The shape of things
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//-> Ölüm cezası Dead man walking Dancer in the dark Mr. death The life of david gale
//-> Totaliterizm, gerçeğin bitişi 1984 Animal farm We the living Fahrenheit 451 Equilibrium Brazil Stolen years Eternal memory
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//-> Hayatın anlamı Wild strawberries Stealing heaven The fisher king The meaning of life Ghost world O lucky man Slc punk! On the beach Leaving las vegas Montenegro
//-> Günah ve kefaret The fisher king
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//-> Postmodernizm Bladerunner Matrix revolutions Matrix reloaded Tüm bergman filmleri Mulholland drive Lost highway
//-> Din felsefesi Bruce almighty The last temptation of christ Life of brian What dreams may come Winter light Agnes of god Leap of faith Jesus of montreal İnherit the wind Ordet Day of wrath Nazarin
//-> İnanç vs. sebep Contact İnherit the wind Stalker Au hazard balthazar
//-> Nietzsche'nin ahlak şeceresi Dogville
//-> Dürüstlük erdemi Kate and leopold Antigone Lonely are the brave The man who shot liberty valence Breaking the waves
//-> Bireycilik/ahlaki risk Spider-man 2
//-> Doğanın yazılı olmayan kanunları Lord of the flies Hero Matrix revolutions
//->Faydacılık ve uluslararası siyaset Failsafe
//-> Görelilik ve gerçek Hilary and jackie Requiem for a dream Rashomon
//-> Kötülük problemi Bruce almighty The rapture The seventh sign Dangerous liaisons Sling blade Dancer in the dark Constantine
//-> Varoluşçuluk Tüm bergman filmleri Leaving los vegas Love and death Crimes and misdemeanors Rosencrantz and guildenstern are dead The addiction I heart huckabees
//-> Mantık/eleştirel düşünce Twelve angry men Proof The usual suspects
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//-> Aklın felsefesi Mind walk
//-> Kuvantum What the bleep do we know!?
//-> Kavramsal düşüncenin önemi Rain man
//-> Faydacılık Quiz show Jacob the liar Extreme measures Crimes and misdemeanors Dogville
//-> İnsan hakları In the name of the father Burn! The battle of algiers Chinatown Schindler’s list Matewan
//-> Marksizm Burn! Red
//-> Bilgi felsefesi Blow-up The thin blue line Rashomon The battle of algiers He said/she said Proof The usual suspects Dark star
//-> İnsanlık / Ahlakın değeri Blade runner Star trek: the next generation “the measure of a man” Elephant man Brave new world Lathe of heaven Le regle du jeu Mirror Stalker Nostalgia The sacrifice Wings of desire The ascent Days and nights in the forest Cries and whisper
//-> Yapay zeka / İnsanlık A.I. Ghost in the shell Solaris 2001 D.a.r.y.l.
//-> Feminizm He said/she said Thelma and louise Boys on the side Sense and sensibility
//-> Davranışçılık A clockwork orange Dark city
//-> Hedonizm, nihilizm Cruel intentions Natural born killers Dangerous liaisons
//-> Estetik öznellik Pollock
//-> Adalet ve ceza The shawshank redemption (a good anti-crito Movie) Gladiator Dead man walking The count of monte cristo
Narcissism is the pursuit of gratification from vanity, or egotistic admiration of one’s own physical or mental attributes, that derive from arrogant pride. The term originated with Narcissus in Greek mythology who fell in love with his own image reflected in a pool of water.
Arrogance: A narcissist who is feeling deflated may reinflate by diminishing, debasing, or degrading somebody else.
Envy: A narcissist may secure a sense of superiority in the face of another person’s ability by using contempt to minimize the other person.
Entitlement: Narcissists hold unreasonable expectations of particularly favorable treatment and automatic compliance because they consider themselves special. Failure to comply is considered an attack on their superiority, and the perpetrator is considered an “awkward” or “difficult” person. Defiance of their will is a narcissistic injury that can trigger narcissistic rage.
Exploitation: Can take many forms but always involves the exploitation of others without regard for their feelings or interests. Often the other is in a subservient position where resistance would be difficult or even impossible. Sometimes the subservience is not so much real as assumed.
Bad boundaries: Narcissists do not recognize that they have boundaries and that others are separate and are not extensions of themselves. Others either exist to meet their needs or may as well not exist at all. Those who provide narcissistic supply to the narcissist are treated as if they are part of the narcissist and are expected to live up to those expectations. In the mind of a narcissist there is no boundary between self and other.
The term also occurs in Hotchkiss’ discussion of narcissists: “Their superficial charm can be enchanting.” For such figures, however, there is no substance behind the romantic gestures, which only serve to feed the narcissist’s own ego.
Narcissists are known as manipulative in a charming way, entrapping their victims through a façade of understanding into suspending their self-protective behaviour and lowering their personal boundaries. Closely related is the way impostors are able to make people fall in love with them to satisfy their narcissistic needs, without reciprocating in any real sense or returning their feelings.
Sexual narcissism has been described as an egocentric pattern of sexual behavior that involves an inflated sense of sexual ability and sexual entitlement. In addition, sexual narcissism is the erotic preoccupation with oneself as a superb lover through a desire to merge sexually with a mirror image of oneself. Sexual narcissism is an intimacy dysfunction in which sexual exploits are pursued, generally in the form of extramarital affairs, to overcompensate for low self-esteem and an inability to experience true intimacy. This behavioral pattern is believed to be more common in men than in women and has been tied to domestic violence in men and sexual coercion in couples. Hurlbert argues that sex is a natural biological given and therefore cannot be deemed as an addiction. He and his colleagues assert that any sexual addiction is nothing more than a misnomer for what is actually sexual narcissism or sexual compulsivity.
Narcissistic Abuse in Adult relationships
Narcissistic abuse may also occur in adult-to-adult relationships, where the narcissistic person tends to seek out a successful (independent, educated, and attractive) yet co-dependent (empathic, excessively compliant, and forgiving) partner in order to “mirror” the behavior the narcissistic person lacks (e.g., empathy). In this way a dynamic of abuser and victim is created.
Their relationships are characterized by a period of intense involvement and idealization of their partner, followed by devaluation, and a rapid discarding of the partner. At the beginning of a relationship with a narcissist, the partner is only shown the ideal self of the narcissist, which includes pseudo empathy, kindness, and charm. Once the partner has committed to the relationship (e.g., through marriage or a business partnership), the true self of the narcissist will begin to emerge. The initial narcissistic abuse begins with belittling comments and grows to contempt, ignoring behavior, adultery, sabotage, and, at times, physical abuse. At the core of a narcissist is a combination of entitlement and low self-esteem. These feelings of inadequacy are projected onto the victim. If the narcissistic person is feeling unattractive they will belittle their romantic partner’s appearance. If the narcissist makes an error, this error becomes the their partner’s fault.Narcissists also engage in insidious, manipulative abuse by giving subtle hints and comments that result in the victim questioning their own behavior and thoughts. This is termed gaslighting. Any slight criticism of the narcissistic, whether actual or perceived, often triggers narcissistic rage and full blown annihilation from the narcissistic person. This can take the form of screaming tirades or quiet sabotage (setting traps, hiding belongings, spreading rumors, etc). The discard phase can be swift and occurs once the narcissistic supply is obtained elsewhere. In romantic relationships, the narcissistic supply can be acquired by having affairs. The new partner is in the idealization phase and only witnesses the ideal self; thus once again the cycle of narcissistic abuse begins. Narcissists do not take responsibility for relationship difficulties and exhibit no feeling of remorse. Instead they believe themselves to be the victim in the relationship.
09x11 “First Born” 09x16 “Blade Runners” 09x18 “Meta Fiction” 09x21 “King of the Damned” 11x05 “Thin Lizzie” 11x12 “Don’t You Forget about Me”
“I don’t know that I can stop it, I don’t that I can resist it…” - On Dean and Addiction
I have been writing an awful lot about Dean and how the MoC situation as well as Dean losing himself to the blade’s powers has been framed as an addiction over the past three seasons and I’m sorry, but just really like how the show keeps that thread going even now that Dean is mark free - and with that supposedly saved (which we see is not the case) - but not out of the woods by a long shot. To me the mark always resembled and was meant to allude to trackmarks, especially since the visual of how it glowed when Dean held the blade showed it connecting with dean’s veins and the mark’s, which we now can safely label the Darkness’, very own brand of heroin (the “bliss” Sidney felt in 11x05 “Thin Lizzie” and that Amara talked about in 11x09 “Oh Brother, Where Art Thou” or the “calm” Dean spoke about feeling multiple times after he killed with the blade) was entering his bloodstream and provided “the high” Dean talked about to Crowley in 9x23 “Do You Believe in Miracles”.
I asked Eyal what distinguishes mobile games or dating apps from slot machines. He gave a range of answers that sounded at once comprehensive and somewhat defensive — that tech addictions never really plummet to the league of gambling addiction; that people prone to addiction will be addicted no matter what — before finally admitting that, in a sense, everything functions like a slot machine.
“All content needs to be made interesting. What you’re doing as a writer is introducing variable rewards into your story. Everything that engages us, all pieces of content are engineered to be interesting,” he said. “Movies aren’t real life, books aren’t real life, your article isn’t real life. It’s manufactured to pull us one sentence after another through mystery, through the unknown. It’s a slot machine. Your article is a slot machine. It has to be variable. So just because an experience introduces variability and mystery — that’s good!”