addiction recovery quotes

The worst part about anything that’s self destructive is that it’s so intimate. You become so close with your addictions and illnesses that leaving them behind is like killing the part of yourself that taught you how to survive.
—  L.L
As a child I was taught to believe addicts are somehow “bad people.” However, now that I am white-knuckling through my own sobriety and recovery, I am finding these so-called “bad people” are my soulmates. Addicts are remarkable people. Addicts fight a war within themselves every single day. Addicts are stereotyped and discriminated against. Addicts are beaten down and made to believe they are weak. With all odds against them, addicts do live healthy lives in recovery, and for that, I am grateful.
The hardest part of recovery isn’t when you’re not sure whether or not you want to recover. It’s tossing and turning at 2:30am wondering why you don’t feel any better even though you’ve been sober for almost three months. You’ve been trying your hardest, gone through so much pain, and yet you still feel like you’re not getting any better. In fact, it feels like you’re getting worse. Your heart wants to fight, but your brain wants to give up. It feels as though time is against you and recovery goes against everything you believe in. Keep staying strong. Eventually, instead of feeling like you have to keep fighting, you’ll want to.
—  Your purpose in life is to heal and evolve
When you finally work up the nerve to inhale powder up your nose or stick a needle through your arm, that’s when you know you’ve gone too far. You’ve taken the road you promised yourself you’d never go down. That’s okay. Just make sure to eventually promise yourself you’ll find your way back. You’ll thank yourself later. Drugs will never feel better than finally learning to respect yourself enough to move on and keep fighting.

Relapsing is part of recovery and it’s nothing to be ashamed of, but remember how fucking shit the junk life is. There’s a trade off with addiction, and you definitely get something in exchange. But every time ya take a couple inches, H takes a mile.

And the most fucked up part is that you don’t even notice because you’re nodding the fuck out.

Excerpts from a conversation with a fellow addict and old friend.

For whatever you’ve done or whoever you’ve been in your past, you are here now. Forgive yourself for anything and everything. It’s the first step in healing. If you forgive yourself, you will be okay.