this smile, isnt actually fake. this was the best night of my life. nothing could of wrecked it. my sisters deb was the best. not even the fact my bullies or ex were there made my night bad. for once i was my normal self. i was confident, happy and i felt beautiful. for once i actually felt like i was worth something. i didnt feel like a waste of space. i think i forgot what it was like to be happy. i truly did. i actually wish i could go back to this night. unfortunately due to a lot of things now i am upset again and feeling extremely low. oh well fuck you’s all i was happy once and im trying to go back to my happy place.