Deep inside, she knew who she was, and that person was smart and kind and often even funny, but somehow her personality always got lost somewhere between her heart and her mouth, and she found herself saying the wrong thing or, more often, nothing at all.
I take losses.
No one sees me as tough girl anymore. No one sees me as special girl; girl who can keep up with the best of them.
Heaven knows I haven’t seen it in a while either. No one has really been there to remind me.
I am weak girl.
I am girl who takes punches and crumbles.
I am girl who does not get back up.
I do not return to the fight.
Only that’s actually the story of my life.
My mind betrays me.
My mind tells me to die.
My mind tells me to stop trying.
My mind tells me it will never work; I will never be good enough.
I will never be strong enough. My ambitions are too high.
But you know what I do?
I say fuck you, I will live.
I will try harder. I will succeed.
This is my life.
I fight myself everyday. I get back up everyday. Everyday is a test of my strength and while victory is not promised, battle is always fought.
So don’t you tell me that I can’t handle it; that I would run away screaming.
Because I assure you,
I’ve seen scarier things in my own head.
to the boy who laughed when I said I could kill zombies
I wanna start exercising, lose some weight, but I'M SO FUCKING LAzy I hate myself
Noooo hun this is the actual story of my life, ask any of my friends, I’m as lazy as they come😂 Don’t hate yourself boo, it’s a lifestyle that can be broken I promise! We can do it together 😊 start small, simple fun monthly challenges, (I recommend blogilates, she has these amazing free excersize calenders that you can view online) drink more water, eat less junk. Don’t pressure yourself into full-blown workouts every day. Most importantly, give yourself a reason. A why? Why am I doing this? Why does it mean so much? Whatever it is, stick to it, and force yourself to think about it whenever you feel motivation is low! Keep me updated love!💕
There are so many Taylor Swift songs from over the years that I fell in love with long before I would ever actually experience the same story in my own life. They’ve prepared me so well for so many events along the way, and I’ve learned that you never know when you’re going to need them. It’s like having a soundtrack ready for anything that could possibly happen in my life — and I already know all the words.