actually this is my life

At first I had planned on getting on my soapbox and talking about being bi for bisexual visibility week on here. Its been such an urge since the start of the week. And then I decided y'all probably don’t want to hear all my personal shit, especially after not being very active on here lately, so I ended up tweeting this shortened version, because avoiding oversharing on here was the entire point of my twitter. And then I changed my mind again because thats who I am and I like to talk about being bi, so y'all just gotta deal ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

When I was about 15 I met the first person that I knew as gay. Of course, me being the repressed bisexual back then, I found it life changing for no reason I could figure, but it still was nonetheless. He and I became quick friends, and he influenced me on the lgbt community, since for a while he was the only exposure I had. And I still remember exactly where I was, what time of the day, even the damn weather, of when he said “If you end up being queer, go for gay, bi isnt a real thing, better to be straight instead of indecisive.” And I was easy to influence because I was young and naive so of course that was, unbeknownst to me at the time, a huge shove further into denial and later on, self-hatred. And I’m not out to him. We still talk, that was the only time I’ve heard him say something like that, but I’m terrified of what he will say. This guy, that for a while was my only damn friend, my introduction to the community I would end up realizing Is My community, and he could just say I’m not valid. I don’t know what that would do to me.

But I am valid. I’ve been told I’m not pretty enough to be bi. I’ve been told I’m just hoping if theres a bigger selection I’ll find somebody that will like me. I’ve been told the classic “you’re just confused.” I’ve been told I’m just a straight trying to fit into a community. And all this plus more in less than 2 years, since I wasn’t really out to anybody but myself before that. Only been out in public for less than a year. And my hands and voice still shake when I talk about it. I still choke on the word “bisexual.” I still fall into a spiral of doubt on whether I am actually bisexual. But even though I am terrified, even though I stumble and trip, I make sure I am visible. “Stay afraid, but do it anyway” is the best goddamn advice I have ever seen, thank you Carrie Fisher. So when it is safe for me to do so, I exist openly proud. And I educate people. I explain. I make sure people understand that I am going to be bi whether they understand or not. And it helps. Yes, I’ve dealt with the assholes, but I’ve also been lucky enough to find people that will take a step back to listen, learn, and then go on and be a better ally. I am damn proud that I have had the ability to help people understand.

So tldr, what my overall point is, is that bisexuals are valid and biphobes can go fuck themselves. But also that its ok to be scared, to be confused, to take a while to figure yourself out. But be proud of who you are. You don’t have to speak up if you don’t feel comfortable or safe, nor do you have to fully commit to do it every time. Exist however you wish, but if you want to be heard, then just go for it. Existing visibly is a rebellion in of itself when we are told, even by those in our own community, that we are wrong. So wear your bisexuality proudly, or loudly, or however you damn well please, and don’t let anybody tell you that you’re wrong, because I promise you, you’re doing amazing sweetie
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anonymous asked:

Re: Check out my bad self. Ash, you just know that Andy is gonna be (if he isn't already) one of those dads. The ones that are dorky and embarrassing, but the dad that all your friends will have a secret crush on.

Oh, he absolutely is. It’s actually a big part of what I love about Andy – he is a complete dork, who makes the silliest jokes that make me face palm (and yet, I still laugh), and it’s sexy as hell. He’s fun and funny and kind and it certainly helps that he looks like that, and can turn on that Rick Grimes swagger pretty much anytime he wants. I agree with Danai saying he hatched from an egg. He’s precious. ☺️

lawyer au?

lawyer au.

it’s happening… it’s 17k and steadily growing…

coming soon?

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me: yeah idk i dont really care for romance-centric movies, they tend to be boring and unrelatable

The Shape of Water (2017) by Guillermo del Toro: has sexey fishman, who looks like a cross between abe sapien and thane from mass effect. also protagonist is mute lady who teaches fishman asl and they fall in love and escape from a tropey research facility? doug jones plays fishman ?

me: 

If you love Supergirl check out @plastic-pipes ‘s art, it waters my crops and clears my skin, this piece especially, I keep staring at it, and it’s the one who made me want to draw some supergirl in the first place, thank you for blessing us with it <3

stop taking pictures or he’s gonna get grumpy 

i only have two settings: 1. unconscious and 2. terrible