actually my favourite person in the world as of now

anonymous asked:

Ok I know everyone loves trans!richie but I think trans!eddie would be so adorable?? Because he’s so afraid that being so small and petite will give him away but his friends are so supportive and they reassure him all the time!! Can you please give me your headcanons on trans!eddie?

OH MY GOD YES MY BABY BOY

- so before he came out as trans eddie was always wearing pastel skirts and floral dresses because his mother wanted him to look exactly like her and he hated it

- “my gorgeous girl” was a personal favourite nickname of Mrs K’s

- richie always flirted with eddie when he was a girl and said he was the most beautiful girl in the world, and even though it made eddie’s stomach flutter he knew he didn’t like it

- eddie told bev first, and asked her if she could cut his hair for him (it was past his waist at this point)

- bev happily cut and styled eddie’s hair so it was now his signature parted look and he nearly cried because he actually felt pretty for the first time

- beverly also helped him throw away all of his girl clothes and make up and helped pick out new outfits for him, still liking some feminine colours and looks, including those adorable red shorts and his pink shirt

- eddie and bev walked to school the next day with eddie’s new look and literally NO ONE recognised him

- bill and stan both frowned when bev and eddie walked up to the table together and sat down, then stan recognised eddie’s eyes and he choked on his milk

- “you look amuh-muh-mazing, eds”

- “oh god, don’t start calling me that now i’ve changed my name”

- ben and mike started fawning over eddie and how he looked so cute and how the new clothes suited him so well

- ben was in awe of bev’s work on his hair and asked her to cut his from now on

- richie is the last one to see eddie and because he’s dim he doesn’t even recognise him

- “hey bev, who’s the new guy, he’s cute”

- “richie this is eddie, your best friend”

- richie’s eyes bulged out of his head and eddie panicked thinking he was gonna hate him now

- “holy shit, i thought you couldn’t get any hotter!”

- richie adored eddie even more because he could finally be his true self and eddie thanked every god for giving him these best friends

How Infatuation Feels.

I am an expert at breaking my own heart.
My fingers are permanently plastered
in prit stick glue.
I spend my nights gluing the pieces back together.
My weakness is not kryptonite,
silver,
or a spider bite.
My weakness is
infatuation.
And this is what it feels like:

Like childhood legends were true.
You spiked my drink with apple seeds
and apple trees grew
in my stomach.
You planted the tree,
now when you look at me,
each apple falls
like ping pong balls
and my stomach swish swashes like the sea.

Like if our fingertips touched;
the world would implode.
Like the world would crack, whisk, cook
and make pancakes for two.
They would ooze with syrup
as sweet as your spit.

Like dog-earing your body
as if it’s my favourite page in my favourite book.
Like your voice is a melody
and your melody is easier to digest than medicine.
Like every love poem I’ve ever written
is actually a person
and that person is you.
Like infatuation is love
but a love untrue.

Infatuation
feels like possession
and makes God consider sin.
If love is worse than this,
hand me my glue
hand me my heart
and let the gluing begin.

anonymous asked:

So the Telltale staff did a Q&A about Season 3 on the Telltale forums and this is what one of them had to say about whether or not Clem has feelings for Gabe. 1/2

“This is something that Clem will need to decide for herself. There’s some factors in her history that could make it more or less likely for her to open up to someone like Gabe, but at the end of the day, they really haven’t known each other all that long. She could feel strongly enough based on some existing choices that she’ll make a declaration on his deathbed of what they might have been – but the difference between might have been, and what will be, remains to be seen.” Thoughts? 2/2




I think this person is commenting more on whether Clem would get into a relationship with Gabe because another one of Telltale’s staff confirmed in the same thread that Clem does have romantic feelings for Gabe.

“There’s some factors in her history that could make it more or less likely for her to open up to someone like Gabe, but at the end of the day, they really haven’t known each other all that long.”

This is a pretty fair answer, honestly. ANF takes place over 3 or 4 days. However, it’s clear that despite their short time together, Clem and Gabe definitely care about each other (Gabe asking Javi how Clem is, Clem going with Gabe to protect him in the beginning of episode 5 when David insists he comes along with him). But getting to know someone – knowing what makes them tick, knowing their dreams and hopes and fears, the principles and morals they live by – that takes a lot of time. Gabe and Clem are friends who’ve talked and maybe even opened up to each other, but I doubt they’ve built that solid foundation of trust necessary for a relationship (whether romantic or platonic) in 3 days. I feel like they’re well on their way, though.

“She could feel strongly enough based on some existing choices that she’ll make a declaration on his deathbed of what they might have been – but the difference between might have been, and what will be, remains to be seen.”

Again, I think this is pretty fair statement too. It’s no surprise that they’ve taken a liking to each other. Someone else in the AMA also pointed out that it’s pretty natural for Clem and Gabe to crush on each other: Clem is the first girl who’s his age and isn’t family, Gabe is the first boy since Duck who’s her age. Whether it’ll blossom into a full-fledged relationship is another story. People grow and change and meet other people. I also doubt Clem has time to even be in a relationship, given that she’s raising AJ too. Gabe’s also a determinant character and we’re not even sure if he’ll even be alive next season, given Telltale’s track record (if he does survive episode 5, that is).

But despite all that, I think Gabe is really good for Clementine. Admittedly, I also initially had reservations about Gabe until I saw how Clem actually acted like her age around him and not the hardened, wary survivor she is. (I also I realized around episode 3 that I had the exact same personality as Gabe when I was his age so I cut him some slack too lmao. Now he’s one of my favourite characters in the game, kid’s really grown on me.) I feel like Gabe grounds Clementine and reminds her that life is beyond just surviving. I’d really hate to see Clem turn into someone who’s cold, alone, and void of humanity. But when she’s around Gabe, she’s able to forget that the world is utter shit, even if it’s only for a few moments (the scene where they’re playing euchre is SO PURE!!!).

On a sort of unrelated note, I’m also tired of seeing children die, too. I get it’s *realistic* or whatever but imo it’s the most depressing aspect of the game. I feel like it’s one thing when adults die – they’ve already become the person they’re meant to be, or are at least well into their journey of achieving that. But Duck, Ben, Sarah, and Mariana never got a chance. Gabe begins that journey in episode 5 only to die later (in some playthroughs) and it’s just really really unfair. I really wish that he wasn’t a determinant character. I’d also like to see how another kid would grow up and step into responsibility and adjust to the world around them, you know?

SHE! TIED! HIS! TIE!

Like okay, flashback to S3 when we we’re all so keen for May to come along and help Coulson tie his tie because you know, he lost a hand? And remember how disappointed we were to have had missed out on that??

THIS S4 TIE TYING SCENE IS SO MUCH BETTER  

Why, you ask? Lemme fill you in -

a) These idiots have literally only met twice before (in the framework anyway) and now they’re what? Being hella domestic and staring at each other with actual heart eyes? SO MUCH FLIRTING - DONT YOU GUYS HAVE A WORLD TO SAVE OR SOMETHING??

b) We have literally no clue how they got to this point, like did Phil Coulson, a hesitant school teacher with soap conspiracy theories just ask this former Hydra leader to come and tie his tie? Did May, dressed in her black outfit and permanent scowl, see how nervous Coulson was and just decided to, ya know, offer her tie tying expertise? 

(Or (my personal favourite) was there no talk at all? Did the two gravitate towards each other on instinct - coming together in difficult times like they have so many times before, even if they can’t quite remember it)

AND FINALLY

c) We all know he can tie a tie. THERE IS NOTHING WRONG WITH FRAMEWORK!COULSON’S HAND!! I SEE YOU PHIL! TRYING TO GET CLOSER TO MAY!! I SEE YOU!

RFA + V + Saeran + Vanderwood reaction to MC being an agent of National Security from a foreign country. Speaking at least 15 languages

JUMIN

• wait what???
• an agent?
• no way
• you’re so pure???? And innocent
• you sat the guy down and told him you have killed a man before
• and he’s like lol whatever babe
• BUT he starts to realise that you’re dead serious
• this probably explains why you’re always able to read the menus at fancy restaurants
• and why you cringe at subtitle translations
• and why when you when to Paris you had no trouble talking to locals
• and - okay it pretty much explains everything
• ngl he found it really attractive
• like woah you have a really thrilling job??? He thinks so much of you because he literally takes meetings and sits at a desk most of the time
• but you’re like OUT, doing the thing!
• the THING!

707
• okay he’s not surprised because you’re his babe
• and his babe can do anything
• “we’re a spy couple, it’s like the movies!! We’re like Mr and Mrs Jones but we’re not trying to kill each other … we aren’t are we?”
• “hey MC can I help? I can totally like hack them for you - my work? Nahhhhh it’ll be fine!”
• “babe can I show you to friends? They don’t believe you’re a spy…or that I have a partner.”
• “This is agent 707 from the kitchen over. We’re out of milk over.”
• the two of you will speak in other language in public and in the group chat just to fuck with everyone

ZEN
• I PLAYED AN AGENT IN A MUSICAL!!!
• alcohol, explosions and babes, that’s pretty much it right???
• wait what???
• what do you do???
• idk I only know about the FBI
• teach me babe!!
• babe please don’t speak in Arabic I have no idea what you’re saying
• that also counts for Italian
• “BABE JUST SPEAK IN THIS LANGUAGE!”
• still hot tho
• can you teach me a language babe??

YOOSUNG
• What???? National security???
• so like the CIA and FBI?
• no?
• YOU WHAT???
• YOURE MEANT TO PREVENT ATTACKS????
• I CANT EVEN PREVENT MY FOOD FROM BURNING!
• wow MC you’re so cool
• could you help me with my language class? Like private tutoring
• pretty please
• can I show you off to the guys at school?
• why?? BECAUSE YOURE SO COOL
• he honestly can’t even
• like, he got such a smart and brace person??? Even if he didn’t fully understand what you did

JAEHEE
• okay she wasn’t shocked
• no one is that smart
• when you told her she was hella impressed because wow omg that’s actually really hard to get into??? Like?? Congrats babe!
• when Jumin insists that they go international with his company, Jaehee will ask for you to be a translator for her sometimes
• Jumin takes advantage of this
• although he was confused because you didn’t care if you got paid???
• “MC I love you so much.”
• Thank you so much for all your help today, I honestly couldn’t have gotten it done as fast without you.“
•"let’s watch a movie okay?”

V
• wait what?
• national security??
• How did you manage to be selected? Isn’t it hard???
• he’s so proud
• you’ve had this job for years but he’s still proud
• and he’s amazed by how many languages you can speak, like this is just incredible
• you’re just too good to be true
• “that’s amazing MC!”
• he’s just so amazed
• how can one person be so talented???
• he actually hugs you because of how amazed he is
• he wasn’t sure if anything was real for a moment
• because why would someone so smart want to be with him???? Like he’s a photographer
• but you hug it out because he’s precious and you make sure he knows that

SAERAN
• wait you’re national security?!
• I thought you were just really good with languages
• “we should form a team…just saying.”
• “we could totally rule the world! - or not, that’s fine too, we can rule this house! - or you could yeah…”
•"What can I rule? - the kitchen? Does that mean I have to cook? Okay I can do that.“
• How are you so perfect??
• he actually finds it really cute, like, naww lil MC is out protecting their country
• too pure
• too kind
• he buys you a drink and cooks your dinner

VANDERWOOD
•can I hire you?
• I’m not kidding
• whatever they’re paying you I’ll give you triple
• you’re now my new favourite person
• he’s actually so impressed
• like
• he makes you recite phrases in all the languages you know to see if you’re bullshitting or not
• he starts telling Seven to be more efficient like you
• he’s just so amazed and proud
• he wants to give you all the hugs man

Sister Signs
Aries: Aquarius, Gemini
Taurus: Pisces, Cancer
Gemini: Aries, Leo
Cancer:Taurus, Virgo
Leo: Gemini, Libra
Virgo: Cancer, Scorpio
Libra: Leo, Sagittarius
Scorpio: Virgo, Capricorn
Sagittarius: Libra, Aquarius
Capricorn: Scorpio, Pisces
Aquarius: Sagittarius, Aries
Pisces: Capricorn, Taurus

The Sister Signs are two signs appart and I like to call them The Sister Signs because they’re marked under the best friend influence. I certainly remember reading this nomenclature somewhere, but I cannot remember where(or when…) and I’ve kept it along the years, because I find it beautiful(also, my sister is an Aries and so the name suits like a glove!). These signs are usually very compatible and work together like magic, they communicate with each other flawlessly and may as well be BFFs! And the “forever” part is for real. The interesting thing, and how it ties with the “Sister” part of the title is that these signs may behave more like siblings around each other than lovers, if they are in a romantic relationship. If they’re friends or co-workers, their relationship is golden!

Funny story, though, because I am the type of person that likes to analyze everything in life, when I first read about the relationship between people two signs apart, I was baffled. First off, my sister is an Aries and we have a flawless relationship, whenever we’re together we have lots of fun and I couldn’t have asked for a better partner in crime. But the story goes even deeper: my best friend(we’ve been friends for 12 years, guys!) is also an Aries and even though 4 yrs ago she moved to a different country, we’re still in each other’s lives and when we visit each other it’s like nothing has changed between us.

Now to tell you a story of a romantic relationship with a Sister Sign, shall we? I have two, actually. First, with a Sagittarius, who I’ve proclaimed my favourite person in the world - at first everything clicked between us, I literally thought we were the same person for a while(and so did he). I was madly in love with him for this reason(albeit, I was quite young, this happened 7 years ago). Because of some reason, it never worked between us, but we remained the greatest of friends and still talk to each other. We both understand the love we have for each other and it helped me realize love doesn’t always have to be romantic to be true love.

The other story is with an Aries with whom, again, I clicked instantly. We were on fire at first, but as our relationship progressed, we started behaving less like lovers and more like friends, which was frustrating on both ends. We parted ways eventually, as neither wanted to work towards a better relationship, but we both learned a few lessons from that one!

Well, this evening I found out that Jesse Lacey aka front of my favourite band in the world, is, or definitely was, a manipulative, abusive, selfish creep. I don’t have that many public figures I’m actually attached to and I was really hoping none of them would be dethroned by this revolution but here we are. He allegedly used and abused at least one teenage girl for his own sexual gratification, taking advantage of the fact they looked up to him. If anyone reading this is actually interested you can find an entire statement from the initial woman with a quick search. I don’t think I could bear to read it again.

It’s been hitting a little too close to home recently. Not with the huge abhorrent allegations - the truly unthinkable crimes are luckily outside of my reality. But with the little things. Like the fact Jesse Lacey would never have touched this vulnerable 15 year old, but sure as hell would (allegedly) make her watch him masturbate on Skype and coerce her into responding with images of her own. Or Louis CK’s recent admission that “when you have power over a person, asking them to look at your dick isn’t a question. It’s a predicament for them”. It’s taken me several years and a dabble in therapy to realise that some of the things that happened to me at 14/15 were wrong and I was slowly working to recover trust in the idea that men are not inherently selfish nor out to use and discard you, but this really threw me this evening.

I am beyond glad that this kind of dialogue is happening, and even happier to see that the coercion of young women into mild sexual activity is being taken as seriously as some heavier allegations. But I am honestly crushed that someone I respected and have loved to see perform multiple times has done similar things, likely worse, as someone who inflicted the worst experience of my life on me.

I’m waiting to see how he responds and can only hope it’s with remorse and regret. I don’t usually use Tumblr like this at all but I felt an intense need to vent this this evening.

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO AN ACTUAL CHICKEN NUGGET.  if u kno me then u kno that gen is literally the reason i am even in this fandom, so i literally owe her everything 4 even being here. i have known u nearly two years now and i am proud 2 call u the little sister i never had. we have been thru sm shit, good nd bad, together from one fandom to the next, and i could not be more proud of where u have gone with ur writing and headcanons and just??? watching you explore your characters like!!! i have literally loved seeing u blossom as a writer and even more as a person. ur actually one of my favourite ppl not only on this site but in the world, 4 real. im getting emo n im gonna stop now bc i could go on for ages here.

i love u and i hope u have the best birthday bc u deserve it!!!!!  //  @diedking xoxoxo

NCT as things I've said to my sister
  • Doyoung: When a bunny sneezes do you think its got a little tissue?
  • Ten: What kind on Demonology course doesn't have a Satanic Bible PDF?
  • Johnny: I have this thought that Chittaphon is secretly in love with cheese and crackers
  • Taeyong: Does this choker make me look like i'm into weird shit? *answers yes* Excellent
  • WinWin: I'm very cute and i just think everyone has a problem with that
  • Jaehyun: Sweatbands are just jockstraps for the forehead
  • Hansol: Why does the disney store never have an Elsa dress in my size?
  • Mark: I CANNOT believe i'm a rap genius
  • Donghyuck: I used to think if spongebob ate too much he would get too fat and soak up all the sea water
  • Taeil: Do you think pigs know they get eaten for delicious purposes?
  • Yuta: I watched 3 episodes of OITNB and i'm pretty sure i could survive prison
  • Kun: are the Jonas Brothers actually brothers?
  • Jaemin: I'm too happy to be mad at you right now
  • Jisung: Lambs is almost the same word as Limbs
  • Jeno: they might not know i exist but they already know i'm their favourite person in the whole world so, there is that
I AM NOT FINE AT ALL: Part 2

Ok here is part 2 of my Riley One Shot- I am not fine at all

Summary-Riley finally breaks, but she didn’t expect the reason she would break would be because her of her parents and best friend.

Dedicated to @buffys because she kept me motivated in writing it.

Can also be found at Archive of our Own and Fanfiction 

Part 1


It’s often said that it takes ten times longer to put yourself together then it does to fall apart and after that eventful day where Riley finally expressed her true feelings it takes ten things, ten moments for Riley to be pieced back together, to finally believe that she is worth it. After Riley storms out of the apartment she ends up going to Josh’s NYU dorm and to say he was angry was an understatement, however he put aside his feelings towards the people that caused this and instead focused on his niece, holding her till she felt better. That was the first day in a long time where she remembered someone putting her feelings first, and holding her like she mattered. After that day, Josh made sure to text Riley every day, his texts varying from a simple ‘How are you’ to providing her details about what he had for lunch, with every text never failing to make her smile. Josh becomes her person and she starts to feel a tiny bit lighter after that.

The first two pieces to be put back together happens two weeks after the event and the first piece is provided by Farkle. Farkle who seemed to be the only one to notice her feelings after Texas, and to help her through starting high school. He came by the day after and sat next to her on the bay window, not saying anything, just sitting with her. Riley laid her head on his shoulder and whispered “Thank you for believing me, even when I don’t believe in myself.” Farkle kissed the top of her head, vowing to bring back the Riley Matthews that made his world light. Besides Isadora, Riley was the best person in his life and he wanted to make her realize that.

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Favourite Shows: 1/10

Mr. Robot (2015)

Hello friend. Hello friend? That’s lame. Maybe I should give you a name. But that’s a slippery slope, you’re only in my head, we have to remember that. Shit, this actually happened, I’m talking to an imaginary person. What I’m about to tell you is top secret. A conspiracy bigger than all of us. There’s a powerful group of people out there that are secretly running the world. I’m talking about the guys no one knows about, the ones that are invisible. The top 1% of the top 1%, the guys that play God without permission. And now I think they’re following me.

Just an ordinary day in Jason DiLaurentis` life...

CeCe/A/BigA/UberA/Charles/Charlie/Charlotte: *abducts and drugs Jason*

…a few moments later…

Jason: wth, what is happening, why can`t I move??  and who the hell is dragging me?

Jason: oh, black hoodie, it must be Charles! hey Charlie, Charlie, it`s me your little brother, I have waited so long for this moment, look at me, I love you so much, I know we have a screwed up family but we can still be the best brothers that ever walked this earth, oh god why can`t I move

Jason: *catches a sight of long blond hair*

Jason: Charlie??

Jason: *sees that it is in fact CeCe/A/BigA/UberA/Charles/Charlie/Charlotte*

Jason: ok, so no Charlie :`( just my ex-girlfriend…wait, is she psycho now, too? I guess you can`t trust anyone in this world  :`(

Jason: oh, hi “dad”, my favourite person in this world…at least I am not alone…

CeCe/A/BigA/UberA/Charles/Charlie/Charlotte: *starts talking*

Jason: *listens*

Jason: Now, that makes total sense.

Jason: So just a quick summary: my big brother Charlie, WHO I thought my whole life was just my imaginary friend because my father sent him to a  nut house to protect me and my sister(well done, mr D, well done) is actually my sister WHO is actually my ex-girlfriend, WHO broke my heart when she without a reason, unexpectedly broke up with me and WHO is in fact the psychopath that blackmailed, abducted, therrorized half the Rosewood, but mainly my other sisters and their friends and WHO almost killed me in an elevator. Yeah, quite logical.

Jason: wait…

Jason:

Jason:

Jason:

Jason: WTF WTF WTF WTF WTF

Jason: OK, I need to find something positive in this. Well, it`s not like it was an actual incestuous relatioship - she is just my HALF-brother/sister. And incest is now kind of trendy in TV anyway. And she was so kind that she didn`t sleep with me, I mean at the time, I thought that there was something wrong with me, but it was actually her being considerate. And she didn`t kill me!!! I am actually quite lucky that I have a sister like that… And his/her story is so heartbreaking :`((

Jason: ehm…NOPE…not helping..i need some alcohol

Jason:

Jason:

Jason: *finally, after hours being left at Radley, because everyone cares just about Charlotte and her heartbreaking story and not poor Jason, starts to move*

Jason: *runs as fast as possible* 

Jason: Ashleeeey! The only one, who gets my troubled soul in this town(ok, let`s not mention that you also broke my heart by choosing a pastor over me)! Prepare some wine!

Jason: *after several bottles of wine* Oh, wait, I`ve completely forgotten the fact that I kissed my other sister, too. 

Jason: …

Jason: There is not enough alcohol for this…


I think that I would watch this episode just from the Jason`s POV. I swear, this guy has the most screwed up life in Rosewood and that is something to say. And funny, how some people thought that the Jason/Ashley hookup was weird/inappropriate.

Right now I would actually rather watch a pll spinoff with him, the moms, tippy and pepe than the actual pll. 

My favourite thing about “you’re over 20 and still have a tumblr?” is what the person who says it is assuming in saying that. Do they think, when we were their age, that tumblr was there and we were all on it, being teenagers, just like they are? And that at some point they will outgrow these childish things as we should have done already, these tools of childhood, and move on to, I dunno, linkedin, or something?

Are these very young people not aware that Tumblr was created in 2007, and that many of us (most of us, according to the demographics) were older than 20 when tumblr was created? That there was no tumblr when we were teenagers, therefore we don't still have a tumblr in our 30s and 40s that we’ve had since we were 14? We have tumblr now, in this actual moment, as part of our adult lives? Because it exists right now?

My favourite thing about people who say that is that it says so much about them without them realizing it. It says, “the world is just a mirror of me and my experiences, right? Everyone’s basically some version of me, living exactly as I do?” You are a narcissist, my friend. Welcome to your personality disorder.

So some of you might have seen I was very excited about something last night THIS IS FREAKING WHY.

MY. CITY. MY FAVOURITE PERSON IS COMING TO MY CITY.

I was lucky enough to find out a little over a month ago and it has actually been killing me not telling anyone but now it’s public!

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those smiles were fake but now i actually feel p good!

On Songs and Flowers...

I’ve read some amazing pieces on subtext in SHERLOCK lately (see credits at the end) and decided to add some of my thoughts to the meta level.

First things first though. I agree completely with loudest-subtext-in-television that operation Johnlock is a go (wrong blog if this isn’t your cup of tea!).

I just can’t see Moffat, Gatiss & Co. using this much subtext without actually elevating it to text. Would it require balls of steel? God, yes. But personally I think it would be worth it to be brave and „boldly go where no one has gone before“. And if anyone is able to show Sherlock Holmes and John Watson romantically and sexually involved without resorting to stereotypes and losing credibility it is this show! Would I be disappointed if Johnlock doesn’t happen? Again: God, yes. However, it wouldn’t be the end of the world and SHERLOCK would still be my favourite show.

And now, let’s talk about songs and flowers… (spoilers for TSoT beyond the cut)

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I Like Long Walks On The Beach And Asking Girls To Marry Me

The day is not perfect. The sky’s grey and the waves are boisterous and I feel tiny drops of rain collect on the tip of my nose and in my eyebrows and it’s doing unspeakable things to my hair and it’s slightly chilly and my stomach’s tied in knots and the day is definitely not perfect.

Unlike her.

Even when she feels like she’s the complete opposite of the word, she is still utterly and completely perfect. And me, I guess I’m just lucky.

Especially now, because I picked the perfect moment to gulp, the perfect moment, because the waves occasionally calm down and shush and by occasionally, I mean twice, once a half an hour ago and once now, and I picked the perfect moment to gulp and let her know that I’m anxious and nervous and scared, even if she already picked it up a long time ago, this just clarified it for her.

“Dan, what’s wrong? ”

Great.

“You’ve been quiet this entire time and we’ve been walking on this beach for almost forty minutes now…
Seriously? You’re not even denying that’s something’s wrong. Say something. Jesus, are you okay? Are you breaking up with me? Are you dying?!”

"Oh my god, no! Calm down. I’m not dying, I think. And I’m definitely not breaking up with you, trust me.
And nothing is wrong, things are actually quite right…
For the first time, in a long time.”

Wow okay, I guess I’m going to do this now. I guess I’ll never really be ready for this but I’ll have to be. But I first need to stall her, I need to wait for the perfect moment because that’s the least I owe her and I know the universe will somehow conspire to give me that perfect moment because I trust it enough to. I need this to be perfect.

"Dan?”

“Did I ever tell you why you’re my favourite person in the world?”

“Yeah, you told me I’m your favourite because when I make pancakes for you, I’ll write your name on it with syrup and sprinkles.”

“Yeah, but actually, you’re my favourite because of a lot of reasons. Like the way you eat burgers.”

“Really? The way I eat burgers?”

“Yeah, you’ll eat like a squirrel if we’re out in public but you’ll eat like a proper truck driver when we’re alone. Like a lion feasting on its prey.”

“Ha! Is that so? That’s the main reason why you love me? That’s the mane reason? Do you get it? Do you get my pun?”

“I get your pun, and the way you’re laughing like a four year old now, that’s also another reason why you’re my favourite. I love the way you laugh and even when the big joke happened hours ago, I’ll still find you laughing and let me tell you, that laugh of yours, can change moods from sad to happy to uncontrollably laughing with you, in a second.”

The waves are not calming down and actually, they might’ve become even rougher and the drizzling definitely changed to rain and the hairs on my arm are now upright and she, she’s smiling even more despite all these things.

“You’re my favourite because you cry possibly the easiest in the world for movies, television shows and books. You’re my favourite because when you catch a glimpse of yourself crying in the mirror, you’ll start laughing at how you look and why you’re crying, and I know I’ll shake my head, but I actually love it when you do that. You’re my favourite because you have the biggest heart and the best manners and you’re patient and you’re incredibly funny and witty and when you’re stressed out, you’ll never take it out on anyone and you’re honest and you’re my best friend and I love you the most in the world.”

“I love you too. Dan, I’m gonna cry right now, why are you…”

“I know, this day, it’s not perfect and it should’ve been. It really should’ve been.”

Great, it’s raining so hard and the ocean’s going crazy and the wind is practically moving us backwards and I’m screaming at her trying to get heard.

“You deserve perfection, you out of all the people in the world and I’m sorry that I won’t ever be able to give it to you, but I really try and I’m sorry that I failed today.”

“No, dan, this is perfect, today is perfect because I’m with you and that’s all I ever want to be, with you.”

“That’s good, because I kind of want you to stick around forever.”

And that’s my cue, I guess.

“Oh my god, Dan, you’re on one… you’re bent… Dan, I’m gonna cry.”

“Will you marry me? Keep in mind that if you say yes, we’ll get ice cream later and if you say no, well, you won’t get any.”

“Damn it, Howell, my hair’s a mess and you pick now to propose?”

“Is that a…?”

“That’s a yes. That’s a big fat yes, that’s…”

And now the knots are replaced by butterflies and she’s kissing me and I feel like fainting but in a good way and now we’re hugging and she loves the ring (that Phil chose) but she doesn’t have to know that and the day, the day is suddenly perfect.

And we’re on our way to get ice cream.

[thank you for reading and soz for the cheesiness ^_^]

I’m a lil bit tipsy and watching Wayne’s world alone now.
But it’s ok cause I went on a date today with this new guy and he bought me drinks and gave me compliments and made me laugh lots so that was nice.
Then I went shopping and bought pretty makeup and a really lovely dinner and I got my favourite drink from Starbucks so I’m pretty okay today.
It’s actually the first day I’ve not cried..I hope it stays like this.