actually better than everyone

Two Sides to Every INTJ:

INTJ: why are humans such idiots? All these idiots, running into walls and screaming and gossiping behind each other’s backs. Teenagers suck. Why are we all so horrible. This is why everyone hates me, I am evil.



a few highlights from the turn panel:

  • alexander rose asking (and i’m paraphrasing on this one), “what self-respecting actor would really want to wear those wigs?” was priceless. nick was first to respond with, “no one.” ian followed with, “everyone.”
  • ian still has that wig, too. they joked it’s under his bed now.
  • when alex began asking the actors questions, he had to decide in which order they should go. they decided rank, but he still had to muse, “i could go with heather first. ladies first and all.” he paused, considered profusely… annnd carried on with ian. 
  • they did mention the music featured on the show, but nothing of the releasing soundtracks, only how they went about choosing. that said, they were playing full tracks from the first three seasons before the panel began.
  • “love is patient, love is kind.” it was this verse, heather said, which was her inspiration for anna strong.
  • nick’s favorite scene was the rob/arnold moment from the season 3 finale. he thought it was beautifully written and exciting, knowing how robert would be risking his life once more.
  • ROBERT WILL EXPRESS HIS MOTIVES THIS SEASON. nick was excited for this, and rightfully so. 
  • nick also went on to say rob has some of his best scenes this season with with james rivington and abraham woodhull. ngl, my heart soared.
  • alex posed the question of, if we were living in a alt universe where turn got another season, what would it be? of course a musical came up, thanks to hamilton, and someone pitched jamie’s dancing. nick was all nods and grins to that, then pitched his own: a buddy comedy. “like cheers, but with james and robert. he gives one-liners and robert grunts.”
NCT Dream as People in Marching Band

Mark: Drum Major. Everyone is supposed to watch him, but no one is really paying attention.
RenJun: Sax player. Section Leader, doesn’t complain about neck strap tan line anymore, and gets emotional whenever someone compliments their section.
Jeno: Mellophone player. Gets along with the other players and his best friend is an annoying trumpet player. Trying his best to ignore people calling his Mellophone a big trumpet. 
HaeChan: Drum Line. For some reason likes to HIT EVERYTHING AS HARD AS HE COULD TO ANNOY EVERYONE. 
Jaemin: Your Typical Trumpet player. Loud as FUCK and think he’s better than everyone else.
ChenLe: Clarinet player. Doesn’t actually know what’s going on, but they’re trying their best and somehow is the only one who’s five measures ahead of everyone.
Jisung: That one guy playing the flute and likes to make puns. 


I took a little journey to the unknown,
and I come back changed I can feel it in my bones.
I fucked with forces that our eyes can’t see.
Now the darkness got a hold on me.


8. A: It’s okay, I’m not mad.
   A (5 mins later): Actually? You can go to Hell.
14. Why am I better than everyone? Jesus, life’s hard.
46. You know, having feelings is ruining my reputation of being a heartless bitch.

/with James Barnes as the young Sirius/

Here you go! :) (love the request :D)

Being childhood friends with James had it’s pros, you can’t deny that. You got to prank people and then blame him and his friends for it, it was like having your personal ‘live comedy show’ whenever they were around, and that was often. 

You really enjoyed their company and often stayed with them and most of the times you did everything together, though James was still your closest friend out of them all. Not in a bad way, but he had known you for so long and let’s say he knew all your deepest, darkest secrets.

Something you weren’t too happy about, because he didn’t know when to shut up and so usually you end up in a pretty ridiculous, but memorable situation.

Like the one you were going to talk about now. However this one at least ended up well.


You were laying on the red sofa in Gryffindor’s commont room, talking with Remus, when James and Sirius came in, loudly laughing about something. Sirius just winked at you and motioned you to move your legs off the coach so he can sit down.

You scoffed at him playfully and he tickled your sides. “So what were you guys laughing about?”- you asked curiously, while resting your head on Sirius’ lap.”I was just telling James about yesterday night, he was wondering why you were yelling so late.”

Remembering what had happened yesterday made you laugh out loud “Well you were being a little bitch as usual” - you said wittily.

“What”- he choked on his laughter but proceeded with his saying “I asked you if something was wrong at least twenty times and you were like “It’s okay, I’m not mad” and five minutes later you lost all shame and barged in my room “Actually! You can go to hell Sirius!” - his mimics and the impressions of your voice made you crack up and you almost teared up from laughing.

“Shut up, I don’t talk like that! And besides, you weren’t doing anything in that room, so I lost no shame!”- he smirked at your comment and ran one hand through his hair “You prefer if I was doing something? Could you be more specific?”- he said expectingly, trying to contain his laugh and winking at James, who was just as amused. 

“He was having a heated conversation with his right hand, who also happened to be called ______” - you gasped at James’ joke and instantly threw one of the cushions at him “James Potter! You are horrible!” 

“Don’t worry. It’s not really named after you.”- Sirius whispered in your ear smugly, and you just moved from his lap and slapped his chest “You idiot! – What the hell do you mean it’s not named after me?” The little pause between your sentences made the situation even more hilarious and Sirius just took you in his arms and kissed you “I’m joking babe”. 

You felt your lips forming a smile and then kissed him again “ You know, having feelings is ruining my reputation of being a heartless bitch.” - “Oh well, that’s the risk of dating me.” - “You had to ruin it” - you shook your head ,poking his forehead.

Laying back on down with his hand on his lap, he was stroking your hair, and he exhaled heavily “ Ah, why am I better than everyone? Jesus, life’s hard.

You rolled your eyes “Don’t know if you know it, but you’re one cocky bastard” - you mocked him sarcastically and he pulled off a satisfied smile:


CW: Home of The Mary Sues Ultimate Edition!

This is the ultimate edition of the CW Mary Sues. The Mary Sueness just doesn’t know when to end with these girls do they?

1. Elena Gilbert (aka Black Hole SuePurity SueSympathetic SueFixer Sue)

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2. Lana Lang (aka Sympathetic Sue/ God-Mode Sue/ Black Hole Sue/ Purity Sue)

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3. Hayley Marshall (aka Jerk Sue/ Anti-Sue/ Black Hole Sue/ Fixer Sue)

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I’m going to be Copying and Pasting each and every trope that these 3 posses that make them Mary Sue characters. BTW here’s the link to the site (

Let’s start with Personality:

What personality? In these cases, it’s fairly blatant that the author is just writing the character for amazing stuff to happen to instead of a character that actually exists as a person. Obviously, this is only a Mary Sue trait if what happens gives the character special powers,fantastic romances, or somehow lets her be a big damned heroine ; otherwise it’s just another faceless first-person perspective.

  • The personality of a Mary Sue — if she has one — is not nearly as important as how other characters react to it. No matter how shy or socially awkward Mary Sue is supposed to be, other characters will be drawn to her and inexplicably prefer her company over that of anyone else. All of her ideas are brilliant, all of her jokes are funny, all of her advice is an amazing breakthrough. People will trust her immediately, or very quickly, and feel more comfortable talking to her than to anyone else (even their own family or their significant other), even if she hasn’t done or said anything to make them feel that way about her.
  • If another character doesn’t feel this way about Mary Sue, it’s usually to portray them as either bad or just an idiot.
  • Mary Sue doesn’t have to actually do anything to be considered a good person—she just is good. By extension, anything she does is good, and even when she does nothing she brings more good into the world simply by existing than any other character ever could. Goodness just seems to seep out of her body like radiation.

All 3 of them suffer from bland personalities, and are praised for being brave, amazing, compassionate, etc. Here are some examples:

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  • Highly persuasive, regardless of the actual content of the conversations. Everyone finds her opinions are just better than their own — even when they’re usually stubborn bastards. This is especially likely in an Author Tract.
  • Is either brave and cheerful (despite her pastnot unheard of in real life, but with Sues it tends to come across as Angst? What Angst?) — or unnecessarily mopey and depressed.
  • Friend to All Living Things. It’s becoming gradually less common as authors catch on to the Mary Sue Classicframework.
  • She loves everyone and forgives them all for their imperfections. Plus she is willing to save, protect or risk all for the sake of someone she has met just seconds ago.
  • Occasionally a complete asshole, especially when she’s supposed to be all of the above. Nobody will call her out on her abrasive, casually abusive behavior. Strong badass characters who would normally rip someone’s spleen out for squeezing the toothpaste from the wrong end, are instantly cowed and become meek, spineless Wangst factories as soon as she “puts them in their place.”
  • Full-on Jerk Sues will routinely be flippant, snide, and rude, yet will be treated as a charmingly sarcastic character. They will flout authority as a matter of course and never suffer the consequences. Even if said authority figure is known for a tough stance on disrespect, they will either gamely ignore the Sue’s challenge to their authority, or—worse still—praise her for her “cheekiness” or “boldness.”

Now that (Jerk Sue) applies more to Hayley:

Her “major flaws” will be stubbornness and a bad temper. These will only ever help her, never hurt her — because she’s always right, so whatever cause she dedicates herself to with such stubbornness will be a good cause, and whoever she loses her temper with will deserve it.

  • Sometimes they’ll mess her up once so she can learn an important lesson. And then they’ll help her for the rest of the story.
  • A character who’s described as being blunt to the point of rudeness or tactlessness will be praised for being “refreshingly honest” or for “telling it like it is.” Only the bad guys or other unsympathetic characters will ever say, “What a bitch.”
  • If she has any flaws intentionally written in by the creator, expect them to be Informed or not really flaws to begin with. Bonus points if they’re genuine flaws that would actually be pretty awesome were it not for their drawbacks (e.g. substance abuse, nymphomania, etc.), and of course the drawbacks will never be shown.

This one relates more to Elena when Julie Plec stated that Elena’s only flaw was that “she cared too much.”

Let’s move onto Skills:

I mean… I have to pull up the gifs:

BTW, in one of the gifs Hayley is pregnant and is picking fights with a vampire. Not to mention when she fought Mikael while she was 9 months pregnant. You couldn’t get more Mary Sue than that.

  • Skilled in a type of martial arts in a setting or with a backstory that doesn’t allow for it. Not regularly skilled either; she could kick the ass of the resident ninja of her choice.
  • And with all this — don’t expect the Green-Eyed Monster to show up. Envy appears in the Mary Sue’s life only as a means of angst, and so does not appear just because the Mary Sue has everything.
  • Alternately, anybody who does get jealous is a bitch and is wrong. This is typically a single other character and may be Die for Our Ship or for other reasons. (Caroline jealous of Elena in Season 1, Alicia jealous of Lana in Smallville)

  • Mary Sue always has excellent fashion sense. Even if she’s meant to be a rough-and-tumble Tomboy type who doesn’t care about that sort of thing, she will always look effortlessly beautiful and other characters, often males, will frequently talk about how they like that she isn’t as high maintenance as other girls (if she has a female rival they might mention her specifically).

If anything a Mary Sue typically has a fashion sense of a teenager throwing random things together, but she makes it look sexy or badass. Here are the receipts:

Let’s move onto Physical Appearance:

  • So Beautiful, It’s a Curse. While being attractive isn’t a qualifier of Mary Sue (who wants to be ugly?), it’s a bit excessive to try and play it as being some sort of disadvantage. Alternatively, she may only be Suetiful All Along. In an Anti-Sue, this is reversed into a hideous monster. Regardless, her astounding beauty (or astounding lack of it) will make her stand out from the crowd — or so we’re constantly being told.
  • No matter what she’s been through, Mary Sue will never look ugly. The worst she’ll ever be reduced to is Unkempt Beauty, and even if she is somehow injured and scarred or handicapped, the scar will always be a cool-looking, Bond villain-type scar that serves as more of a decoration than anything else. Plus, when she overcomes the handicap, she will be just as amazing as she was before getting injured (or better).
  • Likewise, if Mary Sue has a birthmark, it will be in a significant shape (heart, half moon, etc.) and never in a place that compromises her beauty. Expect the Mary Sue to think the birthmark makes her unattractive. This will be despite the fact that other characters insist that the birthmark makes her more attractive, especially in comparison to physically flawless characters. (Hayley’s Crescent Moon Birthmark)

Now onto Accessories:

  • Magic jewelry. It might be used as a Green Lantern Ring to justify her abilities. Bonus points if it glows.  (Elena’s vervain necklace created by a witch, Lana’s kryptonite necklace)

Now onto Canon Character Relationships:

Some Wish Fulfillment with a character you think is hot isn’t that bad. But a Mary Sue seems to grab their attention straight away. Even if they already have a stable love interest in canon, that relationship will be treated as either non-existent, or the couple will be split up in some way. (Elena and Stefan were retconned so Damon and Elena could happen, Gia and Elijah were completely ignored so Elijah could go back to pining after Hayley)

  • Bonus points if the love interest stands aside or sacrifices himself/herself so Mary Sue can be happy, or is twisted into a hateful person to justify Mary Sue breaking up the canon couple. (Stefan becoming a ripper/no humanity in Season 3 in order to breakup Stelena)
  • Turns out to be the offspring of a canon character. Made worse if that character would have been too young to have the Mary Sue, is gay/asexual, or perhaps is just physically incapable of it. For added Wangst, it’s the villain.
  • Even the characters who don’t have sex with her give her more heed than they normally would. Characters she likes can’t stop praising her positive traits. Characters she doesn’t like can’t stop making themselves look bad by insulting her. Even if she’s not physically present, that just means everyone can speak “freely” about her. In addition to the previous scenarios, at least one character will confess to being secretly be in love with her. There may be just “something special” about her, with no particular reason why anybody would think that. In the worst-case scenarios, they pay no heed to their own responsibilities or lives, only to Sue
  • .Bonus points: the disliked character behaving badly toward the Sue eventually sees the “error” of his/her ways and grows to love Sue as much as everyone else does.More bonus points: the bad behavior and treatment of the Sue by disliked characters is portrayed as jealousy.
  • Previously-established personalities change in reaction to her. Arrogant gimps may admire her for everything. Sweet, mild-mannered characters (that she and the author don’t like) insult and degrade her. A leader with responsibilities pays attention only to her. Young, reckless characters who would never settle down just yet will become totally reliable. Evil characters follow her around like a puppy or seem uncharacteristically obsessed with her. Extremely competent characters become stumbling buffoons who require her help to do anything. The characters in general just seem unnaturally focused on her, positive or negative.
  • She may have relationships of some kind with multiple major canon characters. For example, she’s the secret daughter of A who gave her up to be adopted by B’s parents, making her his sister, and she goes on to have a passionate affair with C, remaining friendly with him even though she goes on to marry D, and she’s E’s best friend, F’s closest advisor…and so on.

Mary Sues tend to have multiple love interest either currently or pre-season:

Lana and Whitney

Lana and Jason

Lana and Clark

Lana and Lex

Matt and Elena (pre-season, but Matt was still in love with Elena in Season 1)

Stefan and Elena

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Damon and Elena (Bleh!)

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Liam and Elena

Hayley and Klaus

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Hayley and Elijah

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Hayley and Jackson

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All of the men fawn over them.

Now onto Story Elements:

  • Mary Sue is always on the Spotlight-Stealing Squad. Without her, there would not be a story.
  • She’s The Chosen One. Even if the canon hero is already The Chosen One, she either ‘shares’ the position or just steals it away from them.
  • Sympathetic Sue has an unusually Dark and Troubled Past to excess, but other subtypes often have them too, just to emphasize how brave and special she is to live through it. This past is never really a point in the story, just dropped casually into the conversation to get attention. Alternatively it’s written badly owing to not doing much research. How much she Wangsts about it is usually out of proportion with how bad it really is. (Elena and Lana)
  • Redeems the villain through her overwhelming goodness. Might be through Redemption Equals Sex (bonus points if it leads into IKEA Erotica). Even more bonus points if the story decides to mention that this is her loss of virginity. Yet more bonus points if the villain comments on how awesome she is in bed despite said virginity. (Elena and Damon, Hayley being the incubator for Klaus’s redemption) 
  • Is a princess. Everything’s Better with Princesses, after all. Bonus points if she grew up as a peasant (or equivalent social class) and only just discovered this during the story. Of course, in any case, it will be a position of high opulence and little actual responsibility. (Obviously Hayley)
  • Perform a Heroic Sacrifice as a way to prove that she’s Too Good for This Sinful Earth. Bonus points if the story goes out of the way to ensure she doesn’t leave an ugly corpse (whether it be by a method that doesn’t involve external physical damage or by her body not being recovered). More bonus points if it turns out to be a Disney Death. (Elena in Season 2)
  • She will often have a tragic family life. Coming from an abusive background is quite common. Her mother is often either dead or a Wicked Stepmother. In the latter case, she will most likely be in Cinderella Circumstances. Her father is frequently an Overprotective Dad (or in some cases, a Wicked Stepfather). Orphans are also very common, as is Parental Abandonment. (Elena is adopted by her Aunt and Uncle, her biological parents are assholes who want to kill the Salvatore brothers. They eventually end up dead. Lana’s parents die from meteor crash, and it turns out that she is adopted. Hayley’s biological parents are killed by Jackson’s grandfather as a result of a civil war in the Crescent Pack. Her adopted parents kicked her out at 13 when she transformed into a werewolf in front of them)
  • She will often suffer from Special Snowflake Syndrome, having some trait or backstory that sets her apart from her race. 

Now onto Presentation:

  • In visual media, the camera just can’t stop staring at her. Every angle is seen several times and her every action gets a heavy emphasis with close-up shots galore. Other characters don’t get to be in the frame alone if it can be helped.
  • When the character is off-screen, if ever, the other characters are still talking about her, taking it as a chance to speak “honestly” about the new girl. If they like her, they sing her praises; if not, their dislike will be taken as jealousy, as her “haters” will only talk about petty issues (Sue’s background, perceived promiscuity, etc.), and not genuine gripes (massive attention whoring, for starters).
  • She’s the vanishing point - everything revolves around her.

Reading these tropes I can honestly say that Hayley, Elena, and Lana are the poster children of these tropes. Reading all of these tropes I couldn’t help but think about how all 3 of them fit them so well. And that is honestly sad because writers write these characters as if they’re badass, awesome, compassionate, strong, and just want to be loved, and is what girls should look up to. When in reality that is not the case, Mary Sues are misogynistic, anti-feminist, self-insert characters. They are what writers imagine themselves to be, and place themselves into the story making up this character that is so perfect and badass, but has a tragic past. Mary Sues are what girls fantasize what they want to be in their favorite TV shows or movies, and they completely ruin the story. Mary Sues are the reason why people can’t stand watching a certain TV shows at times because they take up all the screen time and everything has to be about them. People say things like “Oh, but she’s the main character so it has to be about her.” when in reality that’s not how being a protagonist works. Yes they are the key center to the story, but you know what makes a good TV show is when they focus on the side characters or the supporting characters. For example True Blood, even though everything was supposed to be about Sookie the show still payed attention to the side characters and as a result people had a reason to sit through Sookie’s bullshit. Because the side characters had the same amount of screen time as her, and at times the show didn’t bring up Sookie at times. You would think she was a side character because the side characters got more attention than her, but nope she wasn’t. Being a protagonist is one thing, a protagonist is key central to the story but they still are no the center of attention or a Mary Sue, but being a Mary Sue is a completely different thing. Being a Mary Sue means you are bland, dull, lifeless. You are so perfect you have all of the guys fawning over you, and you can be a damsel in distress at times but then you become a badass bitch. You have some sort of supernatural lineage, and all of the girls that trash talk you are just jealous and want what you have. Everything revolves around you!

And the CW doesn’t seem to get the message that others are getting…


Applying To Medical School Series- Part One: Are You Sure?

It starts early.

You’re 14 years old and your teacher tells you that you’re going to be starting the GCSE syllabus now. You still have to ask permission to go to the toilet but your future begins now. You have to start paying attention, even when everyone else is talking. You have to do your homework even if the rest of the class makes a pact not to do it and tell the teacher they forgot to assign any. You have to ask questions and study hard and do loads of practice questions to perfect your exam technique so that by the time exams roll around a year or two later, you can smash them.

August comes. You get your results.

Your results need to be great. Now this is relative, it really is. If the average GCSE grade across your year is a D and you got mostly Bs, a few As and maybe somehow scraped an A* or two, this can actually better than if everyone at your school averaged 11 A*s and you got 9 A*s and 2 As. Don’t worry whatever the case, all hope is not lost here.

Sixth Form begins. A lot of people will choose an “easy A” subject. Subjects they don’t really need to work very hard in and which aren’t particularly useful to them in the future.

You, on the other hand, need to have Chemistry. You also choose Biology and Maths. For your 4th subject, you decide on Spanish because you’d quite like to go to UCL and you’ve heard they prefer a non-scientific 4th subject. But crap. You were also thinking that with GCSEs like the ones you worked your butt off to get, maybe you’d consider Cambridge if your AS Results turn out well. And don’t Cambridge love you to have 4 sciences? Well whatever. What’s done is done. Biology, Chemistry, Maths and Spanish it’ll have to be.

Oh but this isn’t all. 

You’re volunteering in a care home, tutoring younger students, acting as a mentor, working with autistic children at a weekly club, captaining the basketball and hockey teams, raising money for the school in Senegal that your own school is affiliated with and of course, you’re going to South Korea over the summer to teach English to children.

You’re also reading New Scientist and books by Atul Gawande and other popular medical books. You don’t read The Man Who Mistook His Wife For A Hat because medicslacks on tumblr told you that everyone and their hat has read that book and seriously if you put it on your personal statement you are just wasting characters.

And of course. Work experience. You emailed every GP in the area and they all told you they can’t take you because it might compromise patient confidentiality. So you ask that girl in class who you kind of know but don’t really talk to if she could ask her dad, the GP, if you can shadow him for a day or two. She looks confused but says sure, she’ll ask.


You shadow the GP and realise this is only primary care. One of the patients really gets to you, a patient with Multiple Sclerosis and this intrigues you. You go home and read up about the condition. You then decide to email all the neurologists about your interest at your local hospital on the off-chance one of them will let you shadow them.

A miracle! A week later, one of them replies! Oh, but there’s a lengthy official process. That takes a month or so and then FINALLY you get some hospital work experience- just one afternoon, but you get to meet patients and ask the doctors more about MS and you decide it’s all worth it.

You grit your teeth as the kids with doctor parents talk about how they just follow their mum or dad around whenever they want.

And all this while you HAVE to keep working hard at school. You pay attention in class. You go home and do your homework, you flag things you don’t quite understand to ask at school. You start making notes early and you revise so hard in the run up to exams because secretly you’re still hoping to go to Cambridge and you’ve heard you need a minimum of 90% UMS in all your papers to have a chance. It’s okay if you don’t though- you know a family friend who got ABBC and still got an offer from Manchester.

But you’re hoping.

Results day rolls round aaaaand… YOU’VE DONE IT!


Now the nightmare that is application season begins.

UKCAT booked. Okay. You’ll worry about that later.

Everyone else has until January but YOU need to get everything done by October. You panic and sit down to draft your personal statement aaaaannnndddddd…

You draw a blank.


The hell.

Do you write?

It’s okay because I AM HERE TO HELP. Personal Statement Help Post Coming Soon!

But for now, let’s just assume you somehow get through it. You draft it and you take it to your careers advisor who looks at it and then asks where you’re thinking of applying. “Cambridge, Imperial, Leicester and Hull York.” you say. You like the variety.

Your careers advisor looks baffled. “You can’t apply to those 4.” She tells you. “Your personal statement will never tick all the boxes for them all, they’re far too different and are looking for completely different things. They all teach medicine in completely different ways. On the spectrum of Traditional to PBL, you’ve really run the whole gamut.”

So you go away and you look into the courses and you decide that you’re not particularly bothered about research and you want to see patients as early as possible. You don’t really care about the city you’re in or the prestige of the university.

“Ahh that’s better.” Your careers advisor smiles as she sees you’ve scrawled across the top of your page: “Leeds, Hull York, East Anglia and Sheffield. You know, with GCSEs like yours, you should really consider Birmingham.”

You decide to see how your UKCAT goes.

Your school also registers you for the BMAT since Leeds requires it. But you’ve got the whole summer to worry about that.

Over the summer you prep for next year by reading ahead in the text books a little and making some notes. You carry on with all of the extracurriculars and volunteering you were doing. On top of this, you start doing practice questions for the UKCAT and BMAT.

After your first day of these questions, you break down. This is impossible. How does ANYBODY do this?

The next day you take a deep breath and try again.

They’re a little easier.  

A week later and you’re finally starting to get the hang of it. You’re starting to know what to look for. You’re starting to notice patterns and learn the rules. You’re starting to think the right way.

You can do this!

You sit the UKCAT in the same seat where you did your driving theory exam. You get a 750. Excellent.

School starts again.

You refine your personal statement, you fill out the rest of your UCAS form. You see your reference.

You hold your breath as your Head Teacher clicks Send on your form.

Then you wait.

You don’t have time to stop. On top of school you’re now having to go over GCSE science again for the BMAT. And practicing writing as tiny as possible so you can fit an entire essay onto a page. As well as still struggling with all those logic questions. You’ve already applied to Leeds so now you HAVE to do it. You get a 2.5 in Section 2 of one of the past papers. You wonder if you might as well just give up on Leeds now.

You sit the BMAT and are fairly sure you failed every section. Whatever.



You’ve got an interview. AAARGGGHHHHH.

Mock interview. You NEED a mock interview. You beg your careers advisor who sorts out for a local doctor to come in and interview you. They ask you about your personal statement, your work experience, they ask you about a few ethical dilemmas and some odd questions that seem to have no purpose. They also discuss some topical issues in the NHS with you. You make a joke about Jeremy Hunt.

They laugh.

A few days later, you get your BMAT results. You did SO much better than you thought. Excellent.


Another interview.

You’re on cloud nine when… UCAS Track updates again.

Your first rejection.

It feels as though someone just snapped a rubber band around your heart. Why would they reject you? What was it they didn’t like? Were you not good enough? Did you not seem dedicated enough? Why?

You swallow down the disappointment. You already have TWO interviews. You’re so lucky. There are thousands of people who don’t even get that. And you have EARNED it. You’ve been working hard for years for this.

You prepare for the interview. You ask yourself questions and change the answer every time. “Why do you want to be a doctor?”

You know they’re going to ask you this but what do you say? You have an idea! You’ll talk about a patient. The patient with MS you saw at the GP who really touched your heart. You can say you liked how the science that the doctor knew would be nothing without the way he was able to console her more personal worries and concerns and this kind of application of science to help people really convinced you that you want to do this. At least by adding in a patient you saw, your answer will be more personal.

Interview day arrives and you’re sitting nervously with a few other students. A boy in an oversized suit and a girl wearing heels so high you’re worried she’ll break her ankle on her walk to the room. A student at the university smiles and calls your name. She walks you to the door. “Are you ready?” she asks. You nod but it’s not true, your stomach is full of butterflies and you feel a bit sick.

And for a second you pause.

Are you sure?

Are you ready for the path this could lead you down? The life of a doctor. Forget that. The life of a medical student! Antisocial hours, a lifetime of having to keep requalifying and doing exams, mountains of paperwork, not really saving lives so much as helping to reduce the effect of symptoms. Putting your heart and soul into delaying the inevitable.

Is making a difference to even just one life, is making life less painful or less miserable for just one person, is keeping just one person alive so their loved ones can see them for another day, or helping even one person to die in as little pain as possible… is that enough for you?

You take a deep breath and open the door.

Two weeks later. You get an offer.


You end up getting two more offers.

August rolls around again.

You cry when you get the email from UCAS confirming your place at your Firmed University.


It was all worth it. You got into medical school.

Your parents buy you a copy of Gray’s Anatomy and this is when you realise… The work has only JUST begun. The first 18 years were nothing.

So I’ll ask you again.

Are You Sure?

You know what I want?

I want a fic where Natasha and SHIELD answer for invading Tony’s privacy and imprisoning him in his own home, and for writing a report stacked against him while still dragging him in to win their battles for him when they need him, despite him ‘not qualifying’ for their super secret boy band. 

I want a fic that pulls the avengers up and points that he has been funding their bases and funky gadgets and most likely been paying for damages caused during their battles, that every time they get to whizz around the world in their fancy jet and fuck shit up, is because he has been funding it to make it possible.

I want a fic where Rhodey and Pepper actually defend him because they know him better than everyone else, instead of them arguing with him and things always being his fault.

I want a fic where Tony is not the one who always has to compromise, who is always in the wrong, who is forced to open up and be sociable and answer for things when the avengers are guests in HIS tower, when everything he has done is to try and atone for his mistakes.

I want a fic where Tony gets to stand his ground and make his case, where he doesn’t have to apologise for doing what he thinks is right, because Steve never does, so why should he get away without consequences when Tony has to keep answering for his mistakes?

I want a fic where Tony doesn’t automatically forgive Steve after the end of civil war, and isn’t expected to. I want a fic where Steve has to re-earn Tony’s trust. 

I want a fic where Steve has to answer for being such a hypocrite, for condemning Tony during AoU for keeping secrets when he deliberately kept the fact that he knew about the assassination of Tony’s parents hidden.

I want a fic where Tony isn’t automatically the bad guy. I want a fic where the avengers don’t automatically choose Steve over him.

I want a fic where Tony’s motives for the accords are fucking listened to. I want a fic where the avengers pick Tony. 

I want a fic where Tony’s feelings and motives aren’t sidelined by the others.

But most of all, I want a fic that fucking values Tony Stark.

anonymous asked:

WHo would be who in ToG high school? I feel like Aelin would be the popular/slightlymean girl at school. Dorian would be the cute little hipster. Rowan the jock. Chaol, the one that doesn't say the right things at times. Manon, the girl who minds her own business and

I feel like Dorian would be that dude who is friends with everyone. Effortlessly cool, casually graceful—everyone loves him. He probably drives a Jeep. Nothing fancy but it’s a newer model. He likes to take it off road when he can. He’s got money, but he doesn’t act like it.

Chaol would definitely be his sidekick, but he’d probably also probably be on the student council and very committed to his duties. Also, he’s really good at fixing automobiles. He drives an old beat up pickup truck that (for reasons Dorian doesn’t understand) the ladies love.

Manon would be the attractive girl who looks like she could kick your ass but is actually really nice. She rides a motorcycle to school, and you always think she looks like she skips class, but oddly enough she’s at the top of the class. She’s also probably the captain of the ice hockey team. She plays center.

Elide would be the president of the drama department. She’d never act in plays, but she’d write and direct them. And she has a reputation for being a hard ass, but her shows are award winning. She really gets to the heart of the human condition—the girl can tell a story.

Lorcan is elide’s main bitch. He probably a techie. But also he is a defenseman on the men’s ice hockey team. And he is a BEAST! They can’t win a game without him.

Asterin is the assistant captain of the ice hockey team, and she’s a forward—right wing. She is the leading goal scorer for the team and probably a better coach than the actual coach.

Fenrys is the rich kid everyone knows is rich. He has a modeling contract, an acting agent, and has been in a few commercials—mostly local stuff, but a few national bank ads. He’s that guy in class you’ve been sitting next to since kindergarten who still can’t remember your name.

Lysandra is the usually the star in all the school plays. She’s fantastic, and everyone loves her or wants to be her. She doesn’t do musicals, but everyone knows she’s the best singer. She likes the gritty plays. The ones where she gets to be characters who are flawed and hurt and starving for life. She was voted most likely to win an Oscar.

Nesryn is swim team champ! She is the pride a joy of the high school athletics department and she’s already got a full ride to college on a swimming scholarship. She is focused, but she knows how to have fun. She doesn’t have a car, but for some reason that guy Chaol like to take the long way to school, and figured he’d pick her up in he mornings since he was already going to pass her neighborhood. On the weekends, she helps out at her dad’s bakery. She makes a MEAN apple pie.

Aedion is kind of a bully. He likes to skip class, he had problems with authority, but the odd thing is, he is actually really nice when it’s only you and him. When there’s no one else around to make him feel inadequate, or like he needs to put up a front. He likes to hang out in the art room and builds these really great sculpture out of metal. He welds and solders and bends scrap metal he finds at a local junk yard, and puts them together until he’s built something beautiful. He’s never sat through a whole play before, but one time when he was building a set piece for one of Elide’s plays, he caught Lysandra rehearsing on stage alone… he thought her performance, the pain in her eyes, was beautiful.

anonymous asked:

K so you're taking short writing requests, right? I have one: The squad finds out Lance can really sing/dance by watching a personal video they accidently found in his room. They blackmail him by threatening to show Allura the video which he's embarrassed by and is forced to sing/dance a song for them. You can decide whether to put Shiro in it or not I really don't mind either way

“Guys, how did you even find this?” Lance asks, throwing his arms up in the air and then pointing at the video of him playing on Pidge’s laptop. “I didn’t even know where that went until today.”

“I went snooping around in your room ‘cause I wanted to hang out.” Pidge replies, still focused on the younger Lance on the screen. “You didn’t tell me you were a youtube sensation.” She giggles. 

“I helped record some of his videos, after we became roommates.” Hunk supplies, “But this is an older one, maybe two years ago?”

The younger Lance in the video was playing a guitar through the crappy camera, his voice coming through Pidge’s laptop all grainy and ugly. Lance had better videos, but those were back home and on another USB. Peering over Pidge’s shoulder, where Keith and Shiro were also situated. The song he was singing was some type of Spanglish version and he could so clearly hear the running of cars and noises behind his bedroom door. 

Lance could not believe that Pidge found this USB. “I want this back you little shit.” He mock growls, reaching to steal the USB right out of her laptop. She pulls it away before he could grab it though. 

“Nope!” She grins. “Payback for not being there when you promised me that we were going to hang out.”

“I was busy cleaning Blue!” He whines, but he knows Pidge isn’t really angry. She just wants him to suffer for a little while longer. “Don’t be such a rude child, Pidge.”

“You’re pretty good at singing, Lance.” Shiro muses. The embarrassed flush on the back of his neck turns darker and rises to his ears. “You should sing for us.”

Keith, knowingly, nudges Lance with a small smirk. “I-I don’t really sing in front of people anymore.” Lance stammers. “It’s too embarrassing now, and I don’t have my guitar.” 

“Give us two hours and Hunk and I can make you one.” Pidge says, giving a thumbs up to the bigger engineer. “Better than your old one, anyways.”

“Lucy and I had a great relationship and you can’t replace it with some shoddy space guitar!” Lance exclaims, putting a hand to his chest in offense. “You can try, but it won’t be better, not by a longshot.” He misses the fond look that Shiro sends his way while Lance talks about his guitar, but Keith doesn’t and his smirk widens. 

“Sing for us, or I’m showing this video to Allura.” Pidge says, closing the video and opening up a cringier version. A young, fifteen year old Lance singing along to some old Beatles tune. Admittedly, his voice wasn’t too bad, but the fact that he recorded himself and uploaded them was a little too shameful for him to remember. Especially with that hair and acne, yikes. “You guys are on good terms now, but she’ll definitely take it and use this against you, you know.”

Lance grumbles, knowing the way the Princess would tease him over and over again. “Fine, whatever, if you can build a better guitar than Lucy, then maybe I’ll sing a song or two for you.” He looks at the group, who smile at him gratefully and the looks on their faces overwhelm his embarrassment. 

“Could I request a song, then?” Keith asks, and, to be completely honest, Lance had never believed that Keith actually listened to music that wasn’t the X-Files theme. Lance casts a wary look on his face but nods anyways. 

“I wanna request a song too!” Pidge exclaims, and soon the four remaining paladins of Voltron are clamouring over each other with song requests and asking permission to. Lance grumbles, knowing how happy they are and letting them enjoy their time. 

“One song request, each.” Lance says, but he knows that he’s also just as excited and giddy as them, finally able to hold a guitar in his hand and to sing in front of the others. At the knowledge, the rest of his team pauses to think about their requests. “You guys can decide on your top three, because I don’t know if I’ll know a lot of your songs, but by the end of the two hours you can tell me and I’ll play them.” 

He doesn’t miss the way everyone looks when he says that, because the atmosphere is lighter and the entire group looks so happy and relaxed that Lance wishes that he could always sing them songs to calm them down. 

He doesn’t miss the way the group separates, with Shiro putting a warm hand on his shoulder and thanks him for the effort. He misses the way Shiro’s grateful smile turns down and the older man leans forward, because Pidge is pulling Lance along to talk about his music taste so he can provide the best possible concert that the Alteans have ever seen.

Unsurprisingly, they actually do build a slightly better guitar than Lucy, and somehow everyone in gathered in the common room with Lance sitting in a high chair with the space guitar in his arms. The weight of it is slightly heavier, and the neck of the guitar is made of malleable but thick metal with another metal body with a thinner substand that resonated better, somehow, than wood. 

He plays around with chords, starting off with simple ones before muscle memory kicks in and he starts to play more complicated chords. Fingers moving across the fret board and loving the feeling of home in his hands. 

He looks up nervously at the group, who’s already focused on him with intent. “Shiro?” He turns to the leader. “What’s your request?” He asks shyly. Allura asks Hunk what he’s talking about, and the man explains quietly as Shiro smiles at him. 

“Any Elvis song.” Shiro says, and Lance nervously plucks the strings and thinks for a moment before grinning widely. 

He plays the opening notes for a moment, letting the tune ring out before clearing his throat to sing. His ears flushed red while he got ready to sing. 

Wise men say, 

Only fools fall in

But I can’t help falling in love with you

Keith rolls his eyes, Allura coos, Hunk and Pidge both snicker at the expected song. Lance doesn’t stare at either of them, because Shiro’s grin is blinding and Lance focuses on him to get rid of his nerves. 

His voice is rough but smooth, notes sailing along the room while they close their eyes at the calming song. Lance prides himself on being better at singing after his growth spurt. 

Like a river flows,

Surely to the sea,

Darling so it goes

Some things are meant to be

Third Wheeling

A/N: this came to me in history class and I couldnt get the idea out of my head, so here it is! Oh, and Jordans text are in quotation marks. This is cheesy, dont read this or do because I need constant reassurance and validation

Prompt: Jordan is always busy when you and your friends have group dates, which leaves you as the odd one out.

Pairing: Jordan x reader

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Masterlist | Request!

You were back in Virginia to visit your family for a week. When your two best friends heard you were back they immediately invited you to a girls day at the famous Virginian amusement park, Busch Gardens. You were super excited, you hadnt had a girls day with them in far too long. When Anne and Christina pulled into your driveway to pick you up, you were surprised to see two men in the car.

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anonymous asked:

What If Jieun didn't lie/insult Bum and only said that she was hurt because she didn't get much attention and confessed her love for him (again?). Would Sangwoo treat her differently, even though he gave much effort for his plan? He kind of find her annoying, ignored her texts, and she is not as submissive as Bum, so I'm not sure If it would change his mind. I think he also knows that she wouldn't be in love with his real self. Your perspectives are really helpful, thank you for taking your time

Thank you for reading my KS rambles! They are not too long and elaborate these days but I still hope they would help people to understand my view of the story!

Regarding your question, I think if Sangwoo wasn’t sure about what kind of person Jieun is, he would never carry out the plan in the first place. He first approached her because he was aware of her situation & status: the hot girl on campus who is socially known and loved by everyone. For all we know, he started talking to her because he wants to confirm his take on her personality. And he was right, to Sangwoo, Jieun was a spoiled, shallow girl who was praised so much by others that she actually thought she was better than everyone else and gave herself the right to openly look down on people like Bum. You see, it’s not about her insulting Bum, it’s about her thinking that she could just go and insult others because she deemed them ‘lesser’. Sangwoo knows that and thus, her talking shit about Bum wasn’t a surprise to him. Rather, it was just an extra annoyance and a bonus to his ‘plan’ (to kick start Bum’s murder intent). Hence these lines he told her:

Notice how he says ‘‘disgusting to the end’’. Sangwoo already found Jieun’s personality to be ‘disgusting’ from the start, now she just proved it once again, nothing special. He fully trusted her to insult Bum.

We also have to talk about Sangwoo’s huge ego. Notice how his interaction with other people usually highlights his disdain for them, like how he called the hotel receptionist ‘perverted granny’, or told the husband from the old apple couple: ‘you don’t need to impress your wife, old man.’ Sangwoo is very good at seeing the bad in people and focusing on them as a defining trait of that person. Does he see Jieun as ‘a poor young girl who was too in love and spoiled by receiving too much attention for her own good?’. No, to him she’s just ‘annoying vain bitch who wouldn’t hesitate to put down someone else for her ego’. Like how we see Bum as ‘poor boy who was abused and look down on so much his whole life that he really needs love and help now’. But to Sangwoo, he’s ‘weak homo who is an isolated freak and also too submissive to even fight back his abuser’. In a way, Sangwoo is not too different from Jieun. He thinks he is superior to people and allows himself to judge their worth, and to ‘choose’ his next victims just because in his mind, they failed to be a decent human being.

So with that ego, even if Jieun were to never insult Bum, Sangwoo’s impression of her personality already cemented and he would have treated her the same.


Imagine: Being Wade’s daughter, and you’re dating Pyro…

“Hey, (Y/N/N)!” Wade exclaimed enthusiastically, all but marching into his apartment. You and John were currently sitting side-by-side on his couch, watching TV, his arm slung around your shoulders,“ How’s my amazing daughter tod-”

“Hi, Dad…” You replied awkwardly, cautiously watching your father’s every move; if he wanted to, he could flip the shit…which definitely end well, especially if you consider the mutant sitting next to you was just as temperamental and powerful. John flicked his lighter open and closed rhythmically, something he often did when he was nervous, but not keen to show it.

“Who the fuck is this?” John’s head raised at this, leaning back slightly into the couch cushions.

“Name’s Pyro, you must be (Y/N)’s dad, huh?” John stated, trying to soften his tone as best he could. He didn’t want to start a fight, especially with you here.

“Oh, Pyro…right…the one with the superiority complex that all douchebags seem to have?” Wade quipped, an eyebrow quirking under his mask. John tensed, teeth gritting together; knowing that he was about to blow a fuse, you rested a calming hand on his knee, which seemed to help slightly,“ You know, it doesn’t matter who writes or creates douchebag characters, like you Johnny Bravo, they all think they’re better than everyone else - when they’re actually little whiny bitches with issues…see even they agree with me!”

“Who?” You asked. Wade seemed offended, hands flying to his face with an exaggerated gasp.

“The readers of course! We’re on this website right now called Tumblr - it’s awesome!”

“Is he always like this,” John whispered to you, looking a lot like a deer in headlights. You nodded slightly, watching Wade’s theatrical movements as he started to try and explain this Tumblr thing…

He must have became more insane than he already was - I mean, how could someone  have written this scene out and posted it on a blog? Insane.

a good hurt [bucky barnes]

after a wonderful night with bucky, reader wakes up with bruises on their hips and thighs from where bucky held onto them with his metal hand. bucky is disgusted with himself. i feel like this ending is rly lame but idk. gender-neutral reader.

Your name: submit What is this?

You opened your eyes to a broad chest pressed up against your back and a heavy arm draped over you. You sighed happily, relaxing into the man behind you. You enjoyed the clingy side of Bucky that you got to see when the two of you were in bed together. Still, you needed to pee, so you lifted his arm—the left one, the one with which he had refused to touch you and which he now tucked you under protectively—and wiggled forward until you could sit up and swing your legs over the side of the bed. The covers fell away from your naked form, and a chill ran down your spine from the cool temperature of Bucky’s room. You stood up, padding into the bathroom.

You flicked the light on, blinking against the sudden brightness. When you were finished with the toilet, you flushed and washed your hands in the sink, studying your reflection in the mirror. You paused, shutting the faucet off to look at yourself. Your neck was speckled with lovebites; they were a faint shade of red, lighter than the first ones Bucky had ever left on you. He knew better than to leave actual purple marks after everyone gave you such a hard time about it the first time. These you had expected, but what you weren’t expecting were the bruises littering your hips and upper thighs.

These were different marks: longer, darker, wider. Some were a faint yellowy green, while others were deep purple, almost black. Not from teeth or harsh sucking, but from fingers. Metal fingers. You could clearly remember the sensation of Bucky’s hands, both flesh and metal, pressing into your skin as he held on to you. You wondered briefly why they were present on both sides of your body until you remembered sheepishly all the positions from which Bucky had taken you last night. You turned to see the back of your body and discovered the fingerprints marking your right butt cheek. Oh, he had held on to you tightly, alright. Experimentally, you poked a bruise on your right hip; it ached slightly. You would have to let them heal before getting rough with Bucky again.

“I’m sorry.”

You whipped your head around to see Bucky standing at the entrance to the bathroom, as naked as you were. His eyes were wide with horror, his jaw slack as he gaped at you. You stepped toward him. “It’s fine, Buck, they don’t hurt too ba—”

“I hurt you.” He lurched away from you, his voice hoarse. “My arm… I left bruises on you. I’m so sorry, Y/N.”

Your eyes softened. “Bucky, honestly, it’s O.K. Just give me some time to heal and we can—Bucky?”

He had his head in his hands, his whole body shaking as he walked back to the bed and sat down on it, rocking back and forth. He was mumbling to himself over and over. From the sounds of it, it seemed to be a incoherent combination of English apologies and harsh Russian scolding. You could pick out a few parts of his rushed apology before the words were so fast they were unintelligible: “I’m sorry… I didn’t mean to… I don’t deserve to… I can’t do this, not to you… I’m sorry…”

You reentered the bedroom, flicking the bathroom light off. You knelt in front of him, but he was shying away from you. “James, please, look at me. Look at me!” you demanded, more harshly than you’d intended. You grabbed his wrists.

Bucky froze, allowing you to part his hands so you could look at him. You were staring straight into his eyes and he couldn’t handle it. He could only see the bruises he’d created on your body, your precious body that you had entrusted him to care for, to protect. He had marked you up like one of his old targets. You were more to him than that. You deserved better than that. He started trembling again, unable to look away from you.

“James,” you murmured, rising to your feet. Bucky shivered at your closeness, his whole body stiffening as you wrapped your arms around his neck and settled in his lap. His gaze was locked on the bruises on your right thigh; you lifted his chin until his eyes were on yours. “I trust you. I know you’d never hurt me on purpose.” You gazed deep into his steel blue eyes and swore that you saw tears brimming in them. You blinked, feeling tears of your own start to form. “Don’t you ever consider yourself unworthy of me. I know you. I know how kind and how loving you are, how much you care about me, and I trust myself with you. Even if you do get rough with me, it is never out of hate, out of anger. It’s always out of love, and I know that. You know that, don’t you?”

He didn’t like how sad you looked. This wasn’t your fault, yet he could see how much of the blame you put on yourself. After careful deliberation, he rasped, “I… I do.”

You smiled, so softly, so sweetly. Bucky knew he didn’t deserve that smile, nobody did, but maybe, if what you said was true, if you believed in him as much as you said… maybe he deserved a little more than anyone else did.

“Good,” you whispered, leaning forward to kiss his forehead.

The action was so tender, so loving, so soothing. You held your face in his hands and kissed his mouth, your lips moving slowly against his. He relaxed against you, allowing his arms to come up and wrap around you: first his right hand, then, gradually, his left. His metal hand curled carefully around your right hip, cooling your bruises like an ice pack, hoping to undo the pain, to undo the ache.

mukkun please observe proper safety procedures when shaving


Yay more profiles! These are the latest ones that I have gotten. I believe the next ones should include our missing two…(? I think we’re still missing Takebayashi and Justice) Maybe we’ll be able to see the Big 5 and their profiles cause, personally, I find them rather interesting. 

So, I don’t know why Itona looks the way he does, but it’s so cute. Itona is actually really cute as a character (yeah, yeah, I know you shouldn’t call guys cute, but like, look at him. I’m taller than he is and it’s adorable). I want my very own Itona. Preferably with the personality of Isogai, but one could dream. (Or maybe someone should give me an Isogai. I like that plan too)

And Gakuho… I legit have no words for you except that I hate you for being better than everyone at everything. In all honesty, I actually like the Principal quite a bit cause I find him a rather interesting villain. He isn’t completely horrible as one might think, I just think he’s rather misguided. Wanting people to succeed is not a crime, but taking it to his level is, which makes the reasoning rather complex in my opinion. 

However, you stubborn old bat. That is all.