actually 'smack it' is not one of the things

I think, I think one of the worst things about realizing you’ve been abused is the actual realization. Slowly learning what’s normal and what isn’t. Having it smack you in the face that “oh god that wasn’t normal that’s not normal all” and it’s just this horrifying realization

And it gets worse. You remember more trauma. You remember more of the hell they put you through. You wonder how they still think they did nothing wrong?

You doubt. You refuse to doubt. You panic. You become this mess of “is this real” and “I know this is real” and “I don’t want this to be real”

AUs

Here are some aus, divided in different themes.

College themed

  1. I’m really passionate about this cause and I will give you this flier if I have to shove it down your throat
  2. My roommate’s boyfriend is staying over so can I please sleep on your floor
  3. We’re studying in the library and there are two people very obviously fucking in the stacks and we keep sharing embarrassed glances
  4. You peed on my car. You were drunk. I was in the car. There will be hell to pay
  5. My friend dragged me to this party and I just saw my ex quick make out with me
  6. It’s 3am, in the dead of winter, some motherfucker pulled/set off the fire alarm and I am being very vocal about how I’m gonna make that fucker pay
  7. I swear I’m wearing this Batman costume because of a dare
  8. Accidentally knocked on the wrong dorm room college au
  9. Heard a scream and thought you were getting killed but it was just a spider
  10. Somehow, we always end up sitting next to each other during the weekly gatherings to watch [Game of Thrones, SVU, Rupaul’s Drag Race, pick a show] in our dorm’s really good TV room 
  11. I took a bunch of free condoms from health services just because i could and they all fell out of my bag at once and now you’re staring at me weirdly

Awkward first meeting themed

  1. “This horrible umbrella won’t extend! Oh shit I just hit you in the stomach/crotch! I’m so sorry!”
  2. “I just tripped and fell face first into your crotch, god end my life now please.”
  3. “I drunkenly tried to fight you and knocked myself out but you were kind enough to take care of me till I woke up.”
  4. Trapped in a bank during a robbery 
  5. “I met you last night when you were drunkenly patting my dog in my backyard at 3 in the morning and when i asked you what the hell you were doing you slurred something about dogs being great and then you threw up on my feet and then fifteen minutes later you were passed out on my couch so that’s why you’re here right now also what the fuck is your name and why were you patting a dog in a stranger’s backyard in the middle of the night”
  6. “Last night was a haze for both of us and somehow we woke up hungover in a bed that isn’t either of ours and also neither of us recognize this apartment we should probably get out of here before someone calls the cops on us”
  7. “You found me hanging by my fingertips from your window and i don’t want to tell you i was trying to rob you but idk how else to explain this and i don’t want to go to jail and also you’re kind of cute we should make out when i’m not clinging onto your window ledge for my life”
  8. ‘you thought i was someone else and started making out with me at a club and you’re really hot so i just went with it and now we’re heading back to your place and idk how to break it to you’
  9. ‘we’re two thirds of the threesome we had last night and we’re walking awkwardly out of the last persons’s apartment together’
  10. ‘i’ve had a really awful day so i started kicking a car out of frustration and it turned out to be your car i’m so sorry’
  11. “I ordered pizza but the pizzeria got my order wrong so now I’m screaming at my really cute pizza delivery boy because I’m angry and very hungry”

Nobility themed

  1. “your country’s trying to take over/annex my country and you’re making it difficult to hate you because you’re so nice and attractive stop it”
  2. “we’ve been engaged to be married since we were three but this is the first time we’ve met and your portraits really don’t do you justice”
  3. “i’m a prince/ss and you’re a servant and we’re not supposed to hang out but we’re gonna fall in love anyways”

Opposites attract themed

  1. a hopeless romantic and a single-but-proud meet at a store on valentine’s day. the latter is buying valentine cards ironically, the former buying them sincerely in hopes of getting a date
  2. a scary-looking person who unintentionally makes kids cry and a daycare volunteer meet at a children-filled park
  3. rebellious teenager who’s failing all their classes is assigned a studious tutor
  4. really distinguished food critic and fast food chef
  5. a hopeless romantic and a horny beast are set up on a blind date

High school themed

  1. “We’re the only ones in detention”
  2. “I desperately need my books but my locker is blocked and you’re the only one in the hall”
  3. “Someone wrote I’m cute in the bathroom stall and your notes match the handwriting”
  4. “I twisted my ankle and you’re the only one here strong enough to carry me to the nurse’s office but we’re both really awkward”
  5. “We were both left out when everyone was picking partners and now we always choose each other when we have classes together”
  6. “I lent you my cool pencil months ago and you still use it”
  7. “I accidentally took your notebook thinking it was mine and you have really nice handwriting and cute doodles”
  8. “You started sitting by me at lunch because I’m alone at my table but we never talk to each other”
  9. “I was really hungry but had no money and you bought me lunch even though I don’t know you”
  10. “I left my phone number on the bathroom stall wall and you text me about your day and your frustrations for a month & it’s really nice and cute but I still don’t know who you are”
  11. “I fell asleep on your couch after a party but you didn’t complain and made breakfast for the both of us”
  12. sharing a textbook and leaving each other notes and answers in page corners
  13. found their phone number in a library book
  14. dancing partners
  15. younger siblings are best friends
  16. playing romantic interests in a play
  17. “yes i understand that it’s may and this classroom is stuffy but why are you taking your shirt off and why aren’t you in trouble (not that i mind)”
  18. “i can’t believe you dropped the frog we’re dissecting on tHE FLOOR WHAT THE FUCK”
  19. “i’m fightin this person and they shoved me into u im sooo sorry- oh hey you’re cute- oH MY GOD UR KICKIN ASS MARRY ME!!! PLEASE!!!!”
  20. “you asked me to prom by filling my locker with ping pong balls that say “prom?” on them but i tripped on one and smacked my head on a locker but thanks for taking me to the nurse!!! i still want to go with you!!”

Ridicously sentence themed

  1. “I’m going to need you to put on some underwear before you say anything else.“ 
  2. "Quick catch that cat it stole my wallet!”
  3. “I hope you know that my name is actually ________.”
  4. “That is the tenth demon summoning this week holy shit.”
  5. “Please put me down it’s just a sprained ankle" 
  6. “Why exactly do you need chloroform at 2AM?”
  7. “I’m like 75% this won’t explode on us.”
  8. “I understand the whole sleep talking thing but what I don’t understand is the princess dragon dream and why I’m in it.”
  9. “I’m sorry that I got way too into playing house and accidentally kissed you passionately.”

Height difference themed

  1. “I’m in a bookshop and I really need that book can you get it for me??? Wait you’ve read that book? let’s have an in depth conversation about it.”
  2. “You were trying to reach for a box of cereal and a whole shelf’s-worth of cereal boxes fell on you here let me help”
  3. “We’re both baristas and sometimes I have trouble reaching for things and I show up to work one day to find a personalized stool with hearts and my name on it i hATE YOU but also thanks”
  4. “You are very tall and I am very short so you run into me all the time and honestly this is getting ridiculous”
  5. I’m in art class and I just opened a cupboard to find a tiny person (you) squished inside and you just looked at and said “shh i’m hiding”
  6. “We’re on the bus and I’m really not trying to take up your space I’m sorry I just have rlly rlly long legs” 
  7. “You’re afraid that you’ll lose me in big crowds so you always hold my hand but now you just hold my hand when there’s only, like, five people around and I’m getting vry suspicious” 

Reincarnation themed

  1. I fell in love with you three lifetimes ago and I’ve been looking for you ever since but I’ve been starting to give up and my friend’s new crush has your eyes and oh god I’m not going to steal someone’s date just because I’m hoping you’re the person I met in a past life
  2. We keep reincarnating as people who speak different languages and it’s kind of pissing me off because I can never initially confirm if it’s you but at least I keep learning a bunch of cool new languages each lifetime

Mythical creatures themed

  1. “i’m a newly-turned werewolf without a pack and i can’t really control myself well on full moon nights yet and you keep finding me passed out naked on your lawn”
  2. “i got cursed and turned into an animal and taken to the shelter and ended up getting adopted by someone who is really hot OH NO”
  3. “i’m a history major and i keep getting into arguments with one of my classmates about things because they keep saying i’m wrong so i finally scream, ‘how would you know?!?’ and they’re like, ‘because i was THERE!’ and that’s how we all find out that there is a centuries-old vampire taking our British history class”

Funny meeting at a party themed

  1. “i was on my balcony and you started loudly quoting romeo and juliet at me”
  2. “spilled my drink down your shirt and then tried to drink it off you”
  3. “we had an impromptu rap duet in the middle of the party”
  4. “you kept asking everyone to play the cha cha slide then proceeded to pass out when the song started”
  5. “you keep shouting “THIS IS MY JAM” at every song that comes on i have a headache the size of nebraska you’re lucky you’re cute”
  6. “whenever you saw me you’d shout ‘WHOOOOOOOOO’ really loudly and then do finger guns at me before walking off to god knows where”
  7. “you thought I was your friend and pulled me up on the table to dance with you now you’re shirtless and grinding on me”
  8. “you got up to the mic and started singing and holy shit you’re really good???”
  9. “you’re really bad at beer pong but you do this really cute dance before you throw the ball so I’m letting you stay on my team”
  10. “our mutual friend dared the two of us to chug a whole pint of beer and I’m not going to let you beat me”
  11. “we both grabbed for the last bottle of the good beer and i’m not saying we’re going to fight for it but we are”

Competitive themed

  1. we’re both ‘team leaders’ at a summer camp for little people and you may be hot but goddammit my collection of twelve-year-olds are going to beat yours into the dust
  2. I used to be the best baker in the neighbourhood but then you showed up at Mrs Appleby’s 80th birthday with a stack of brownies which almost gave me an orgasm my honour is at stake and I’m going all out for the next event
  3. a mutual friend invited us to their laser tag party and we’re the last two alive on opposite teams and goddammit if I’m going down you’re going down with me
  4. you’re going to be at the halloween party and you’ve won best costume for the past three years but this year I am wearing the best costume ever if you defeat me I will eat my - wait you actually look really cute when did you turn hot what the fuck um
  5. we’re always making stupid bets like 'bet you can’t drink this whole bottle of BBQ sauce’ but then you did and now you’re sick and I feel really bad here let me look after you
  6. did you actually just blue shell me on our date you fucker

“We’re bad at dating” themed

  1. I can’t tell whether this is a date because you asked to see a movie but I’m still not sure you’re queer, and I’m toeing the line because maybe you’re just trying to make friends
  2. I decided to flip a coin about every decision in my life for a week and that’s how we ended up on a date
  3. We’re both meant to be going on blind dates with other people but we sat down at the wrong table and got our hopes up
  4. We had one really bad date and never spoke again and now our friends have set us up on a blind date
  5. We’re going on a blind date - but wait a moment, aren’t you that went down on me in a back alley behind a club year ago? … what do you mean “which one”?
  6. You’re my waiter and I’m on a really crappy date with an asshole

Some Things Kent Has Said to the Rookies While Sober: (See Drunk version here)

1. (About his blind date) “He’s a nice guy, but he kissed me and then he left me at the door? What the fuck?” (“Maybe he wants to take it slow?”) “I’m not the fucking Pope, James. I’m horny now.” (“The Pope doesn’t—”) “Maybe I need to flash my ankles some more. I’ll wear booty shorts for the next one.”

2. “I hope everyone here knows that if a—” (shouting) “—hot, tall, single dad in this establishment would like to buy me a drink and take me home tonight, I would literally leave all my friends in a heartbeat—” (turning back to rookies) “—Sorry. I see you guys like everyday.”

3. (On why he isn’t speaking to Jeff) “Jeff convinced me to watched ‘Me Before You’ yesterday. He promised me nobody dies. I cried the entire time when I was trying to order takeout afterwards. And then I cried on the toilet. I’m so fucking pissed. I can’t even look at him right now.”

4. “Dom and I are going to sing ‘I Have Nothing’ for the AcesTV special. I practiced every single fucking night in the shower this past week, and my neighbors filed two complaints against me, so just letting you know to like, get ready to eat my entire ass.”    

5. “My favorite things? Kit dressed up in one of those cute bowties they make for cats on Etsy. Mashkov’s ass in nice jeans. Extra guac in my burrito. Finding the love of my life and then realizing that they’re actually a prince or Batman. And winning the Cup every year. I don’t ask for a lot. It’s not a lot.”  

+1. “The lighting in the locker room is amazing, what the hell, did they change the bulbs? It makes my abs look fantastic. Someone help me sext my husband, he’s gonna want to see this.” (Smacks rookie’s arm.) “No, not like that. Take the photo from the top-down, do you not know your angles? God.”

Tiny, Rambly Rant

This can’t be said enough:

Eliminate mundane causes before turning to the supernatural.

And I can understand how that would seem counter-intuitive, but let me explain you a thing …

When one takes up the craft they often feel like a whole brand new world opens up to them. Everything changes, and nothing will ever be the same, and we sometimes take this new attitude and apply it to everything. Everything becomes magical and everything has an underlying magical aura.

This is something a decent craft teacher will stop with a newspaper to the nose. *smack*

When we flip the perception, and look at everything with mundane suspicion, we are actually less likely to miss the woo. By eliminating all of the mundane causes for a thing, you also eliminate that pesky doubt you keep hearing me grumble about. You are more sure about what you’re dealing with, and can act accordingly.

For example:

I wear hematite to help with my social anxiety. They’re really energy sensitive. It is said that when they’re overwhelmed they shatter.

They are also pretty fragile and if you smack it against everything, of course, it’ll shatter.

So, when a ring breaks off my hand and I know that I’ve just been literally running into shit for the last couple of weeks. I know that it’s because gravity plays favorites, and I’ve accidentally put too much force on it.

But when a necklace that has just been sitting on my bedside table, protecting the homestead goes kaboom without being knocked around, dropped or otherwise provoked, then I know something is up.

Saturating your world with a perceived magical-ness, weakens your senses. It desensitizes you to what is out there. I recommend picking up a deliberate, goal oriented practice as opposed to a wild, come-what-may, practice. Trust me, if you’re open, the fuckery will come to you, you don’t have to go looking for it.

No, really though. Go see a doctor if you feel physically weird. Go see a mental health professional if your brain feels off. Eliminate the non-magical causes, first, and then start to investigate the supernatural.

I hope that ramble makes sense.

-St.

Character Analysis: Holly Blue Agate

Anonymous said:
what were your thoughts on holly blue?

I’ll keep the introduction short for this post. Holly Blue is the second Homeworld character introduced affiliated with Homeworld and a specific Diamond. The first character was Peridot. While the Rubies openly talk about their service to Yellow Diamond, they don’t share the deep investment that Holly Blue and Peridot have shown in the story.

It’s interesting looking at her character knowing what we do about Peridot now. So let’s get right into it!

1. Gem Placement

Anonymous said:
What do you suppose Holly Blue Agate’s gem placement (the back of her head, at the base of her skull) symbolizes?

Going by anatomy, the back of the skull is where the occipital lobe of the brain is located. The occipital lobe functions not necessarily to let us see, but to help us make sense of what we’re seeing. That is, the occipital lobe helps us interpret and comprehend the images that our eyes are looking at.

And to me, there’s something interesting about every single moment we get to see Holly Blue’s gem in Gem Heist, when she’s first introduced. In those moments, she sees the CGs just as they’re doing something they’re not supposed to do, and each time, she misinterprets what happens and they don’t get caught.

The very first time we see her gem is when the CGs just arrive and try to convince the Amethysts of their credibility. That Sapphire isn’t a “disgraced” Homeworld defector and that she’s the leader of the entire operation bringing a new human for Blue Diamond’s Zoo. Holly Blue buys into this narrative completely and leads them exactly where they want to go.

The second time is immediately after Pearl is ordered to open the first door. Pearl makes a very un-Pearl face at Holly, who, with back turned, ignores it unknowingly, saving Pearl and Sapphire what could have been a heated questioning.

The third time, she and Sapphire walk in on the other CGs trying to destroy the door. And they look so obviously guilty, but Holly blames it on the Amethysts instead. 

Close to the end of the episode, we have one more shot of her gem as the Amethysts take Steven away and he’s very loudly resisting. We know that’s a sign of the upturn that Steven causes later on, but Holly interprets it as a sign that things are running smoothly and going to be fine.

Note that none of these circumstances immediately signal to Holly that things are going wrong. The Zoo is a far off outpost that has been very low-key. Working there must be very quiet, save the occasional visit from BD. Holly wouldn’t be expecting trouble and that tinges the way she processes what goes on around her.

I’d say on a normal day, the Famethyst pulls a few pranks, Holly makes them clean up and then they train for a while. Holly goes around inspecting everything. And it’s boring. So when a noble gem shows up, Holly wants things to be the best they can be.

It’s a point in how our contexts tinge how we interpret what our senses tell us. In experiencing the world, there is definitely going to be an element of subjectivity. No two people experience the same scenario the same way because just from a physical standpoint, they’re never really in the same place at the same time.

I think this is especially true for Holly. Her gem, which I’ve mentioned before gives us an idea of how gems interact with the world, is behind her. That means she wants to be on top of everything, but she doesn’t face things directly when interacting with them. She’s always just a little bit behind on what’s going on.

Additionally, we’ve already seen a discrepancy between what she sees and what she makes of it. It implies that she’s out of touch with what’s happening on the ground. Extending it further, she’s a bit out of touch with herself. Functioning at her best, I’d say she’d be very perceptive. But that “gut feeling” has to be cultivated.

And being out of touch is a very real phenomenon. Holly is in the middle of nowhere. She doesn’t get to interact with a lot of gems and the gems she does interact with are ones she’s been with for thousands of years from very early on in their lives.

I’d say that she’s amazing at telling what the Famethyst are up to. She’s always suspicious of them, and that’s maybe because they’ve given her a reason to believe something is always brewing. If the mischievous character of our own Amethyst is anything to go by, poking fun at Holly’s uptight nature is something they’d be doing very frequently, even before the CGs came. 

Holly can probably tell what the Famethyst are plotting even at a glance. She’s attuned to them, whether she wants to be or not. And that leads to the next point.

2. Position on Homeworld

Keep reading

you know, in the summer, sana and isak and even will hang out at this park with a basketball court and sana will bring her ball and it’ll be 20:00 on a friday night, and the sun will still be up but it’ll be a little colder, with a gentle breeze, and it’ll be sana’s favorite weather. and the first time the boys try shooting hoops, isak is actually pretty damn good at it, and sana is like “hmm, not bad, not bad!” and isak smiles wide at her and replies “just admit that i’m really good, a master, the best you’ve seen all year, the -” and then even is wrapping an arm around his shoulders from behind, and he’s mouthing “blah blah blah” at sana and she starts laughing, and when isak notices, he gasps and smacks even’s arm 

and the funniest thing is that even is actually really bad, he doesn’t manage one successful shot, no matter how close or far he is from the hoop. and sana is trying to teach him the right way to do it, and she says “you’re the tallest one here! you’re supposed to be naturally good at this!” and even sighs, little smile on his face and he says “i’m not sure that’s how it work”. and then they go get themselves popsicles and they eat them on a bench and at some point isak and even try to intertwine their arms to eat theirs, but it’s a little clumsy, and the popsicles are melting a little, and they’re giggling. and sana wants to tell them “you guys are the cheesiest couple i have ever seen in my entire life”, but instead she just sighs contentedly, because, yes, they are the cheesiest couple she has ever known, but they’re also some of the loveliest people she has ever met, and some of the best friends she has ever had, and she’s so glad she gets to spend some of her summer nights with them, and that they’d try to share her passion for basketball with her, making her laugh and have such a good time, and she wouldn’t trade them for anything 

Through the Ages

This is my first request and ended up being longer than usual, but I think it’s really good. 

Pairing: Laurens x reader

Warning: making out, I guess

Requested: Yes, @secretschuylersister requested #56 ( “What if I told you I’ve been in love with you since I was eleven?”)   with Laurens.

Requests are super open.

Word Count: 2680

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You met John Laurens the day you were born. Since you were fresh from the womb, and he was only one, it’s safe to say neither one of you remembers that day. However, his parents and your parents, being old friends and next door neighbors, remember it very vividly. They love to tell you how John sat next to you in the hospital bed and was completely memorized by you, a tiny, slightly pink baby.

It often times made him blush, especially when his parents joked that he was taken with you since birth.

You were six and John was seven when John declared you to be his best friend. It was your first day at school and you were headed out to recess, where all the first graders were playing. You saw John and ran over to him. You thought his friends would accept you just like John. Instead they sneered at you because you were a girl.

“You can’t play over here with us. Go sit on the swings and gossip with the other girls,” one boy said.

“Guys, it’s okay. She’s my best friend. She’s cool,” John insisted.

“Then you can go gossip with the girls too,” the other boy chimed in.

“Fine,” John grabbed your hand and tugged you away. You smiled at John.

“Thank you,” you said, as the two of you sat on the swings.

“Anytime,” John smiled his lopsided grin.

From then on, that’s the way you always spent recess.

You were ten and John was eleven when John stopped seeing you as just his best friend.

You were both sitting on the hill near your homes. It was the last day of summer. John was stressed about school, and you were trying to cheer him up. Your jokes were corny, but John couldn’t help but be completely enamored by your laugh. He couldn’t even remember what you two had been talking about.

He turned to look at you, deep in though.

“I could marry you, you know?” John blurted out. You turned to look at him and smile.

“Let’s do it then. Promise me, you’ll marry me, and I’ll marry you,” you smiled.

On that day, John couldn’t imagine he’d ever marry anyone else. He sat his head on your shoulder in content. The sun went down and reflected in your eyes. He couldn’t seem to look away from your beauty.

“You know what married people do?” he mumbled. “They kiss.”

“Kiss?” you said surprised.

“I mean, we’re gonna kiss someday. Why not kiss each other first?” he shrugged. You smiled.

“Sure,” you leaned in.

The kiss was a hot mess, but the two of you were happy and content in that moment.

You were thirteen and John was fourteen when you realized you loved John as well. John got back from a month long vacation in New York during the summer. He knew that was where you wanted to go when you graduated, so he snapchatted you a bunch. However, when John got home, you took notice of how much taller he was and how much deeper his voice had gotten.

“John!” you called. He had come over to your house the moment he had gotten home.

“Y/n!” John yelled, engulfing you in a hug.

“Look at you! You’re so much taller now!” you marveled.

“Yeah, puberty does that to you,” John smiled a lopsided smile. “You wanna go sit since it’s actually late and I start high school like tomorrow?”

“Sure,” you smiled. You couldn’t help but notice the way his hazel eyes sparkled in the dimming sunlight.

The path wasn’t far and the two of you plopped down to watch the sunset. You leaned over to look at him. He had his lip in between his teeth in deep thought.

“You okay?” you asked.

He turned to face you in surprise.

“Hm? Oh yeah. I’m just…nervous about tomorrow I guess,” he smiled weakly.

“Don’t be,” you said. You felt a weight in your chest before speaking softly. “Uhm…and if you should find you don’t really have time for me anymore, I understand,” you said, not letting him see your sad face.

“No,” he said. He grabbed your face in his hands to make you look at him. “I’m gonna be here. We promised to get married, remember?” you both giggled at the memory.

You both got quiet and the silence grew thick as you were both close. You saw for the first time the way his hair curled around his face. The way his freckles made a map of his face. The way his eyes flickered from your lips to your eyes.

You took a leap of faith and leaned. John was quick to close the tiny gap. In your mind, you saw fireworks as the two of you kissed.

You pulled apart breathless.

“We should head home,” John murmured. You both sat in the dark now, the beautiful sunset long gone. You nodded in agreement, but your mind was running with thoughts of John. You were in love.

That same year, you almost lost a best friend. John took you up on your offer of being too busy to see you. That year, he saw you nine times. Your parents had dinner every month, and that was the only time John was ever free to hang with you.

You tried not to let it bother you. John deserved happiness and friends, and he had that.

In the night, you couldn’t stop the thoughts from creeping in.

That summer, however, things went back to a more tense version of normal. You were nervous about high school. John was nervous about making the baseball team. There was still the tension of not talking to you for a whole year.

When you started your freshman year, John looked out for you. Your friends were in the same social group, yet there was always an unspoken division of boys and girls.

That year John had a perpetual blush on his face. His friends teased him endlessly about his crush on you, but your friends did exactly the same. Things were going perfectly, until John got a girlfriend.

You were fifteen and John was sixteen the first time you both experienced a heartbreak.

It was around this time you realized John was actually hot. He had grown up nicely. John was noticing the same things about you. You had started to fill out, and John’s friends were taking notice. John had to constantly smack the backs of his friends’ heads for making comments on your appearance right in front of you.

John’s friend Charles Lee was the one who finally asked you out. He was notorious for being a fuckboy, but you were naïve, and John was too busy with his girlfriend to notice you. You said yes, even though you didn’t want to.

You and Charles had a lovely date at the movies, until he drove off into a little clearing. You were just thinking how lovely it would be to have an older boyfriend as a freshman. He could be your summer romance, and then for sophomore year, you’d have an upper classman as a boyfriend.

However, Charles had another idea.

“So, how did you like tonight?” he asked.

“It was incredible. Thank you,” you smiled shyly.

“Well, maybe I could show you something more incredible,” Charles smirked.

“What could be more incredible than tonight?” you asked naively. Charles just chuckled before leaning over to kiss you. The kiss was nothing like with John from forever ago. It was too pushy and needy. Soon Charles pushed his tongue into your mouth and clawed at the hem of your shirt. You pushed him off of you.

“Stop. I don’t want this,” you frowned.

“Come on. Don’t be such a prude,” Charles murmured, going to kiss you again.  

“No,” you pushed him back. Charles just stared at you shaking his head.

“I knew you were always Laurens’s whore,” he spat, driving you home.

Tears formed in your eyes, and when you got home, you wanted to run straight to your room. John however, was outside waiting to see how your date went, when he saw the tears in your eyes. When he asked what was wrong, you couldn’t help but spill the whole story, crying even harder. He hugged you tight, muttering things about Charles.

The next day, he found Charles laughing with your friends and slammed him against the lockers.

“John! Stop! He’s not worth it,” you said your voice cracking. John repressed the words he wanted to say. Instead, he pulled back and let a puff of angry air out. His girlfriend came by like she did every morning to whisk him away to make out. There you were, heartbroken and alone. Charles didn’t love you, but that didn’t sting as much as knowing that John didn’t love you like you wanted him to.

John’s heartbreak came the next school year, when you were a sophomore and he was a junior. It was a few days before his seventeenth birthday. The two of you were born one year and two days apart, and you were excited to show John what you had gotten him. It was a wedding ring as a joke, since you two promised to get married.

John’s newest girlfriend had other plans. For his seventeenth birthday, she was going to give him herself. A few days before John’s birthday, she did just that, after only one month of dating. That didn’t sound like the John you knew, and it only added to the long list of heartbreak. However, soon after she broke up with him. John cried.

You two sat on the hill for the first time since middle school, staring into the sunset. John’s head was in your lap, and you were lightly running your fingers through his hair.

“I thought she loved me…I thought she was gonna want to stay with me, but it turns out she didn’t know I was a virgin. She was only in it for the sex,” he couldn’t look you in the eye.

“She sucks. I’m sorry,” you said, not knowing what else to say.

“I’m done with stupid love and shit,” he grumbled. You had planned on giving him his gift tonight, but that seemed to be in poor taste now.

“Promise me something,” John said, sitting up to look you in the eyes.

“Sure,” you crinkled your brow.

“Save yourself for someone who loves you,” he said, urgently. “Don’t make my mistakes.”

“H-How do I know if they love me, though?” you stammered.

“If you can’t decide, just…save yourself for me then,” he rambled out, surprising himself.

“You?” you asked surprised.

“Yeah. If you’re ready and you don’t want it to be some stranger, I’ll be there,” he smiled. He wanted to add “because I love you” but he wasn’t that bold just yet.

“S-sure,” you stammered again blushing.

You looked down, but John tilted your head up. You looked into each other’s eyes for a moment before kissing passionately. John slowly pushing you down into the grass. You slowly began to lift your hands up into his shirt. He broke the kiss momentarily to slip your shirt off. John kissed down your neck softly, then he began to suck on one spot, nibbling on it slightly. You moaned out in response. After a minute, when you were sure, he’d left a hickey, he suddenly pulled back.

“I’m sorry,” he whispered, sadness in his eyes. “I shouldn’t have done that.”

You were too stunned to tell him it was okay. Your mind screamed at you to tell him how much you liked it, how much you liked him. Instead, you sat there. He ran home. You slipped on your shirt.

You slowly drifted apart after that night.

It didn’t take long for the hickey to fade, but it never faded from your memory. It constantly tormented the both of your minds. You wondered if it meant John loved you. John wondered if you enjoyed it and loved him.

You were seventeen and John was eighteen the time the two of you finally fucked. Although, you wanted it to be sweet and slow and nice sex. You knew immediately after that it was a casual fuck.

You and John had found your way together at a party, drunkenly reconnecting. By some grace, you actually made drunk plans for dinner the next night.

That night John couldn’t keep his eyes off the way you filled out so nicely, and you couldn’t keep your mind from wondering about how he had developed.

The sexual tension was so thick you could cut it with a knife.

The dinner ended with nothing substantial happening, however, when you got to the street you both lived on, both of you fully aware your parents were away on vacation together, things picked up.

“So,” John began. “Did you ever…met someone you loved?” John asked. You fully understood what he was implying.

“Never,” you whispered, leaning in close. “Although, I think I’ll take your advice from forever ago…” you trailed off.

That was all it took. John slammed his lips into yours. You trusted him, although in hindsight he was going to graduate and leave in about ten days. You should have known.

You should have known the way his hands knew just what to do was muscle memory. You should have known this was routine for him.

But the way his body pressed against yours. The closeness you felt with the man you loved. You couldn’t hardly stop yourself and justify it in that moment to your needy brain.
I was incredible, but short lived.

Lying there after, you felt vulnerable and stupid. He rolled right onto his side and began to fall asleep. You sat up, embarrassed. He couldn’t actually love you.

His arm shot up and pulled you back to the bed.

“Stay,” he mumbled. So, you stayed. This changed nothing.

The next Monday, John’s last Monday, everything was the same.

You ignored John. When he graduated, you took one forced photo with him. You didn’t see him for a while after that.

You were twenty-two and John was twenty-three the next time you saw him.

You had finally moved to New York. You had gotten into Columbia college, but had forgotten John was going to graduate school there until one fateful day.

John was rustling around with his friends when he saw you. He wasn’t sure if it was you, until Alex started calling out your name.

“You know her?” John whispered to Alex.

“Yeah, I’m the teacher’s assistant in her intro to law class,” Alex replied as you walked over.

“Hi, y/n! These are my friends, Hercules, Lafayette, and Laur-“ you cut him off

“John?” you asked hesitantly.

“Hey, y/n. Can we talk?” John asked.

“Uhm…We’ll just go now,” Alex said looking suspiciously between you and John, before raising an eyebrow at John, suggestily.

You and John started to walk.

“So…Uhm…It’s been a while,” he began. You scoffed.

“Yeah,” you said coldly.

“So why’d you ignore me after we…” he trailed off, hurt lacing his voice.

“Fucked?” you finished. “Because, you were just going to leave me anyway. You just wanted my virginity for some power trip or something.”

“You have to believe me. That’s not what I meant to do,” he said, his sad eyes betraying the anger in his voice.

“You can’t prove it. You just feel bad about it,” you yelled back.

“Yeah, well what if I told you I’ve been in love with you since I was eleven?” he yelled, his patience gone.

You instantly softened.

“Y-you have?” you asked. He nodded his head in response.

“Well, if you were to say that, I would probably tell you I’ve been in love with you since I was thirteen?” you smiled.

“I’d probably do this,” John leaned down to capture your lips in his. From somewhere in the distance, his friends cheered.

You were twenty-four and John was twenty-five when the two of you got married, and your lives began.

Dating Ethan (In Several Different Scenarios) Would Include

- fake complaining about his pineapple pizza

- staying up late binge-watching big movie series like harry potter or star wars together

- eating like 82173987349203 pounds of food in the process

- tyler having to accept that fact that your basically always at their house anyways so you basically live there

- you and ethan having to keep reminding yourselves that tyler does in fact also live in that house

- as much as you love doing events with the whole gang together like when you got together for the superbowl

- your favorite days are the days ethan says “let’s go mini-golfing together; just us”

- and just spending time doing fun activities like that with him to get to know him better without being surrounded by the social situation

- speaking of mini-golfing with ethan

- him accidentally cursing in front of some child

- and you having to keep lightly hitting him every time he gets close to saying something potentially worse

- being playfully competitive with each other like just think about it and breathe it in okay

- like getting all “i’ve got this” and taking the perfect stance and practicing your throw and then hitting the ball and screwing it up royally on purpose because you like seeing him proud of himself

- and him pulling the same move and you both just hysterically laughing because the six-year-old on the advanced course is getting holes-in-one

- but when one of you actually starts to have a lead, the other keeps doing things like smacking their elbow before they hit the ball

- or trying to distract them by weirdly dancing or whispering weird phrases into the other’s ear

- it’s the best time of your life honestly

anonymous asked:

rfa react to an mc who loves to tweet dumb shit like "toe tap the flea" and "phills yeast nah be dad" would they join in,,

Zen

  • He doesn’t totally get it, but he’d retweet the ones he found funny.
  • His fans make fun of him whenever he joins in on the memeing.


Yoosung

  • Usually just sits next to MC and watches them as they cackle at their own shitty “jokes.”
  • He laughs a lot too, but usually only because MC is laughing so hard.
  • Sometimes when he makes them dinner, he’ll say something like “blind refugees,” or “John ate the queen.”


Jaehee

  • “MC, what are you laughing at???”
  • Mostly confused.
  • She thinks people actually speak that way and believe that they’re correct.


Jumin

  • Actually thinks it’s moderately funny most of the time?
  • MC walked in on him one day, laughing so hard that tears are streaming down his face.
    • “Jumin, what’s so funny?”
    • Through tears, he replies, 
    • “Scone app the beef”


707

  • THE MEME MAN.
  • Literally starts to say all of these things out loud.
    • “I made you a roman attic dinner tonight, babe. Smack the pony and leave, Phil leg minion, and ass Pegasus. Bony African feet.”
  • They end up laughing on the floor at least once a week.
Book!Gems I wish the BBC had included

 D’Artagnan showing up, alone, at the monastery to get Aramis like “I am so tired and hungry and have had such a hard time Aramis let’s go” but Aramis is like “First let me read you my thesis and also some poetry…I can’t get you real food but we do have spinach” and d’Artagnan’s entire reaction

Athos teaching his manservant a form of sign language so there’d be at least one person he wouldn’t have to speak verbally with

Athos locking himself and his servant in the cellar of this dude’s inn and drinking all his wine, ransacking all his groceries

D’Artagnan being so overwhelmed by Athos’ angst, so awkward, so uncertain how to respond so he just pretends to fall asleep and Athos lowkey finds it adorable like “aw look at this. lightweight. #BlessHim”

D’Artagnan showing up to talk to Athos. Wearing a dress. And Athos not even batting an eye.

The Inseparables teaching d’Artagnan to play tennis but he nearly gets smacked in the eye by the ball and panics, “I have to meet with the king I cannot go to the palace with a black eye” and that one guard dragging him about it so d’Artagnan chases him all over Paris on a duel and actually kills the guy. The king finds this hilarious and gives everyone money I’m crying

Papa “Do not sell this horse” d’Artagnan, Charles *Immediately Sells the Horse* d’Artagnan

Athos “d’Artagnan don’t do the thing” de la Fere, Charles “Athos I did the thing it went about as well as you expected” d’Artagnan

D’Artagnan’s hysterics over Constance and Athos initially trying to calm him down but then just telling him to go ahead and weep, d’Artagnan actually fainting from being so upset about Constance

Athos “You jostled my injured shoulder, prepare to die” de la Fere

Short!d’Artagnan

Athos being the leader of the Charles d’Artagnan fanclub

D’Artagnan making smalltalk before his duel like “is your arm okay for fighting?” and then apologizing to Aramis and Porthos because he’s that sure Athos is going to kill him before he can fight them I mean in what way was that not pure gold c’mon son

The Boys scrounging for food and they all contribute and then d’Artagnan being like, “I know a guy who has chocolate”

Rochefort and d’Artagnan hating each other to such an extent they kinda bond over it

The musketeers forming a Friendship Walk so many across it takes up the entire street

D’Artagnan fighting Rochefort at that inn and then getting the hell beat out of him by everyone there, subsequently fleeced, and then showing up at Treville’s office like “look man, I got nothin’”

BUCKINGHAM

That one scene where Athos spends like half an hour giving d’Artagnan a detailed play-by-play of gambling, losing all their stuff, winning some back, losing it again, while d’Artagnan steadily wilts on the spot.

D’Artagnan’s tendency to exclaim/whisper/mutter/hiss “merde !” so often it’s practically his catchphrase

D’Artagnan being lowkey insulted and quite honestly alarmed by life in general

Running into your ex, Harry (AU)

Or when neither of you can remember why you broke up anyway, and it’s just dinner right?

Sundays are your favorite day. Sundays are meant for cozy snuggles, farmers markets, coffee shops and used bookstores. This particular Sunday you woke with a smile, already looking forward to the soothing sips of a hot coffee and smells of the old worn pages of books.

Today is one of the first days in months you feel a lasting feeling of happiness. Pushing up and towards the bathroom, you can’t help the little pep in your step.

Groaning as you catch a glance of yourself in the mirror, you shimmy your baggy pajamas off your legs and head towards the shower. As the water flows over your skin, your brain begins to wake up and plan the morning to come.

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Famous Romans as Dril Tweets
  • Livia: i pay good money to load my sons bag with treats, and if Erasmus Infowars Copfucker wants to devour them in the university library, so be it
  • Ovid: if youre one of the guys who blocked me on here, i Forgive you, and im ready for you to unblock me now.
  • Catullus: I TAKE BACK EVERY KIND THING I'VE SAID ABOUT THE GIRLS ON HERE ! SHALLOW AND CRUEL ! HEART LESS DEVILS ! MANIPULATING MY POSTS & TRICKING ME
  • The Gracchi Brothers: "FEAR IS USED 2 ENSLAVE THE MASSES," I SAID AS I RIPPED THE FUCKIN DECORATIVE CARDBOARD SKELETON OFF OF THE COMMUNITY CENTERS BULLETIN BOARD
  • Cicero: in the midst of jade helm 15 and high gas prices. a good boy looks to the stars and asks where have all the angels Gone ...............
  • Claudius: startling how im the only person on this site with an actual human soul. you would think the other guys on here have one, but no
  • Agrippina the Younger: "This Whole Thing Smacks Of Gender," i holler as i overturn my uncle's barbeque grill and turn the 4th of July into the 4th of Shit
  • Caligula: me: nobody has to get owned today. please, please put down the keyboard and step back 9 year old child: Fuck oyu
  • Julia Domna: measure to approve massive depressing statue in the center of town depicting an emaciated mayor carrying a boulder that says "My Sons" on it
  • Julius Caesar: dis charged from the army for doing memes too much
  • Augustus: blocked. blocked. blocked. youre all blocked. none of you are free of sin
  • Nero: the jduge orders me to take off my anonymous v mask & im wearing the joker makeup underneath it. everyone in the courtroom groans at my shit
  • Cornelia: THIngs other people like: being bastards, being Uniformly tasteless THINGS I Like: Being reasonably kind, and trying to help, when i can
  • Cato the Elder: ive never laughged at a piss joke. (sees how impressed everyone is, takes it one step further) in fact, ive never laughed before in my life.
The Breakup Bureau

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Genre: Fluff, Angst

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Originally posted by eatkookiie

Saying goodbye is never easy.

Held hands over the table, she looks at him with softened eyes and a thoughtful expression. As he finishes with a gentle exhale, she nods. “You know what? You’re right! I deserve better!”

“You deserve the world and more.” He charmingly smiles, gaze dripping with honey.

She breaks out into a grin and pulls her hands away from his, leaning back in her chair. “How could I have been so blind?! I can’t believe I went through a relationship like that for an entire year!”

“And now you get to start fresh again. With someone who will treat you the way you deserve.”

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anonymous asked:

I totes agree with your Cassian headcannon. Gotta say, whenever I see the whole sexgod!Cassian stuff pop up it smacks of racist fetishizing of Latino men. Actually, one of the things that made me feel so relieved (to the point of tears) was that they allowed Diego to play him the way Latino men are almost never portrayed in American films, serious (almost dour), shy/bashful, conflicted+determined. *NOT* a lothario and certainly not using his accent or ethnicity as a punchline to a sex joke.

Thanks!

In fairness, I do think part of it is het romance tropes. I’ve never been in a het-focused fandom that didn’t leap to the man as an expert sex god confidently guiding an inexperienced, nervous woman, regardless of the original characters’ personalities. But I also think that, um, there is a LOT of Latino-specific fetishizing that goes on with Cassian on many, many levels, which makes it function differently than the hypersexualization of, say, Darcy in Austen fandom.

I very much agree about his character, too—it was a huge relief that he is the way he is. There’s no attempt made to diminish his background, but he’s also not exoticized or reduced to a one-note brooding love interest. They talk in the featurette, actually, about how they were specifically concerned with avoiding that sort of male lead and developing him in his own right. He’s allowed to simply exist organically in the world of SW. 

And I love that, even in such an action-dominated movie, we got to see so many different angles to his character. Hell, in his opening scene alone, there’s this whirlwind of emotion and personality, when it would be so easy to just go for some sexy space James Bond stereotype.

I noticed—I was double-checking the interview about Cassian’s terribad life, and it says:

However, Cassian is in the intergalactic spy game, where distrust is usually part of the gig. The character is cold-blooded when it comes to informants, has done some questionable things for the good guys, but it’s all in order to bring freedom and change for the cause.

It’s not the James Bond approach, where you know he’s having fun and getting the girl and the martinis. No, this guy hates his job,” Luna says. “He would love to not be doing this and when we find him in this film, it starts to be a little painful. But he’s (emotionally) wounded and he’ll do anything.”

He helped develop the character’s personality and backstory with Rogue One director Gareth Edwards, and the filmmaker admired the vulnerability that Luna brought to Cassian. “It’s more relatable when you can see the humanity,” Edwards says. “True strength is when, despite the fact that you want to stop and you fear you might not win, you keep going.”

:) :) :)

There is a spoiler picture just dropped, which looks like this…

Well, I feel mixed about this.  I seen something like this in the Gravity Falls fandom. When the show was still airing, Alex Hirsch, the creator of the show, posted up a fake spoiler in order to mess with the fan base.

So yeah…I’m sceptical about this.

From what I heard, the post was on Kimiko Glenn‘s Instagram account. Kimiko Glenn is a voice actress and in the picture, there was a microphone in the background.  I went to her Instagram account.   Well…dead end. I couldn’t find the post. So either she deleted it because she was showing spoilers to the show or Montgomery and Dos Santos are fucking with us…or I’m missing it like a complete idiot.

Examining the picture closely, it’s hard to say if it’s fake or not.

On one hand, the art sticks close to the show style (although that is not saying much) and the stamps on the screen seem right with the DreamWorks logo being the official one (again, not saying much, since there are sites where you can get high quality vectors for free, including major name brands like DreamWorks).

On one hand, there are some red flags with it. There’s a tag on it reading “Hyperbolic Audio” smack dab in the middle of the screen. After googling that name, it’s a recording studio in New York. The thing is – that’s not the logo for the studio, this is…

It’s missing the hourglass in the middle. That strikes me as super odd, since if this is being recorded at that studio, why would they get their own logo wrong? It’s like a McDs restaurant actually spelt it WcDonalds, it just seems odd.

Also, far as I’m aware, the studio that records VLD is in LA, not New York. With that being said, Kimiko Glenn is apperently working on Broadway right now, so it is possible she could be recording at a New York studio while she is working on another project and not working at the official studio.

There’s also little shading in it. Either because it’s half finished and just a visual for the actress while she is recording her lines…or this is a fake.

Matt also looks off as well. Matt in the series looks like this in bright light…

His hair is more of a brownish-red. In the picture, he almost looks blond.    It seems odd for his hair to be a lot lighter, even in different lighting conditions. In animation, there are certain pantones you must use on a character to keep things consistent. Sure, it can alter a bit under lighting conditions, but not by that much. 

Either way, right now, I’m not  sure if it is or not, especially since this is coming from a VA and not on a random 4Chan forum. We’ll have to wait and see.

If this is real, Matt’s armour design is badass. It is awesome to have another badass female on the show (I mean, the VA is a girl, so she has to be voicing one of the rebels if this is real).  Matt and Shiro teaming up is awesome on so many levels. And Shiro’s alive!

…if not, fuck this is like Gravity Falls all over again.

I JUST NOTICED SOMETHING
I’ve always wondered how the hell Layton knew so much about Clive just by looking at the Scotland Yard files.
And then I realized
“A famous London newspaper“ most likely refers to the Times, which Layton is often seen reading; it’s likely that he’s reading every single article every day.
At some point Clive worked at the Times as a reporter, meaning that his name was probably printed down at least once, in whatever context, as someone working there.
Ok this alone wouldn’t make sense at all since Layton didn’t even know what his name was.
Well, let’s talk about Lady Dove.
She must have been incredibly wealthy. And judging by the people, it was probably a big thing that there was literally only one heir for all that money, and I bet they mentioned his name at least once in the newspapers, of course only his new name though, probably not even a photo, bc who wants to be interviewed after his mother died
So how the friggedy frig did he connect this?
First; he must have had at least a little suspicion.
He didn’t know Dimitri too well obviously (since a fake moustache was enough to hide his identity) but it’s pretty damn clear that he didn’t have reasons to set this fake Layton shit up, that there was no way he could have gathered enough money to even put together the fake time machine from the opening scene, and that things around this mafia just didnt add up. He knew there was someone else behind this; if you consider that Bill Hawks couldn’t do shit for Dimitri’s plan to build a working time machine, personal hatred aside.
I don’t know where it started, or from which point on he worked his way to the solution, but yeah.
The files probably just contained a list of victims, and he probably looked at them in the first place because he suspected someone seeking revenge for what happened, since there was no damn reason to kidnap Bill Hawks this way if not for personal reasons.
In the unwound future, it says that ten people died, and that only one house next to the lab building was damaged. Knowing that this one was the house of Clive’s parents, we can assume that next to Claire, and Clive’s parents, the other seven victims were lab workers/unfortunally in the building.
That means: He could see exactly who Clive parents were, since they probably had the same last name and were, judging by the fact that no other family was affected, the only people who he could possibly belong to.
Now knowing that he had a possible culprit (Clive didn’t change that much lets be real), he went through scenarios how one could have done such a thing. This person would have had to have the power to set this up. And so he came to the conclusion that this person had to own a SHIT TON of money.
He then probably remembered the death of Constance Dove and how it was a big thing that she gave everything to just her adopted son.
Adopted son
Incredible amount of money
Around 18 when she died
We know Layton’s memory, so it’s possible that he actually remembered seeing Clive’s name in the Times after Constance Dove died and then seeing his name again as someone working there; he probably found it unusual to take a part time job if you’re as wealthy as the heir of Lady Dove.
So he could easily draw the line: The boy’s name was Clive. His parents died in the fire caused by the explosion, and his age matched. He was adopted by Constance Dove, who died five years later, leaving only him as the heir of her money, making him really rich (and without people who would mind if he disappeared into the void). He, for some reason, also worked at the Times at some point, which doesn’t make that much sense.
He had his culprit: He had a personal reason to hate hawks, he had the recources to resarch who was responsible for the death of his parents and enough money to set up fake London, and he went through enough shit to consider this a good way of bringing his point across.
And: He concluded this at the time he realized the underground London was a hoax.
You may wonder how he came to the point where he could safely assume that London was a fake. Here are just a few reasons stated casually as a side note during the first half of the game:
1. It’s always hot and even at the waterside, the air feels heavy; also indicated by how the plants at the Thames look a little like from a swamp. The clima is tropic and there is no wind.
2. The sky is always foggy, concealing what’s underneath.
3. They both feel dizzy after traveling between the “times“; the quick change of air pressure is causing them to react like this.
4. The many empty areas and areas still in construction. It doesn’t make sense to build new things in the middle of a nearly deserted area.
5. The media is also controlled by the mafia. A man states that the Times wouldn’t write about anything relevant anymore.
6. People having no clue about where they are and why they are here after being hired as construction workers
7. The damn tower of the clock shop IS AS HIGH AS THE CEILING
All of these made it highly plausible that the mastermind was hiding in close proximity to guide them through this, leaving only one more possible culprit: Future Luke, who could of course not be who he claimed to be.
A few more reasons that probably added to the Professor’s suspicion about him:
-He didn’t recognize Flora at first
-He told the Professor that the Casino was run by the mafia, and the guy at the entrance would only let people with a casino membership pass. Why would Future Luke have a casino membership at the mafia casino, and why meet Layton there?
-To have them be attacked by the mafia of course. Clive hired Bostro and Bostro was the one initiating the attack (and slapping him across the room which is suddenly 1000% more funny to me (“just attack us and when I backtalk, just hit me“ “are you sure“ “yes just smack me across the room“)). This was supposed to make Layton trust “future Luke“ by being attacked in an enviroment where Clive could easily help and appear trustworthy (never wondered where he got the coins from? This is a casino! These things equal money! They dont just stand around in buckets)
-Clive actually dropped out his roll often enough (in the pagoda for example when talking to the two mafia guys that look like chelmey and barton).
-Clive was actually refered to as “young master“ by accident which is of course not suspicious at all

Yeah so here is the longest analysis I’ve ever written :))):

sazawen  asked:

Hi! I really loved your analysis of the love that Jungkook has for Jimin and the way that he express it! :3 I wanted to know if maybe one day you could do the same but with Jimin and his love for Jungkook? :3 I just discorvered your blog and I love it <3

A ‘Jimin Loves Jungkook’ Analysis

*I thought this would be shorter than the JK Loves JM Analysis because Jimin is more subtle these days in comparison to Jungkook but nope lol, it’s just as long*

I don’t think we realize that Jimin is equally as whipped as Jungkook.

Jimin takes care of Jungkook. He feeds Jungkook whenever he gets the chance. Takes him out to meals on his birthday. Sometimes even just go out to eat when they have breaks. He worries about Jungkook. When Jungkook fell during his solo dance in AHL he stayed with Jungkook even after everyone else had left, comforting, consoling and encouraging him. At a fan meet an audio tape was released of Jimin saying how worried he was for Jungkook because of his crazy sleeping habits. When Jungkook hurt his back at MAMA, Jimin could be seen walking with him at the airport with a hand on him, supporting him. At the Global VLive, JK was supposed to give out the punishment but Jimin saw that his hands were cold, so he suggested a different punishment to help JK out. When JK was about to fall at the 3rd Muster off of his Segway, Jimin moved so fast in order to catch JK. (There was this time when Jimin was starving himself, eating only one meal a day and intensely working out. It made the members worried and they wanted him to stop. Then JK said he was going to do the same thing too and Jimin stopped him, because he didn’t want JK to go through what he doing. Sometimes I think JK said he was going to do it just to make Jimin stop, because he know he would.) He is Jungkook’s person to go to when he is sad and needs comforting. His shoulder to hold, to cry on. When JK cried at the music awards he wiped his tears. When JK spent the night on the couch with him, he brought blankets and pillows for him and covered him up while he was sleeping, making sure he was comfortable. He waited for Jungkook for hours so he could finish his filming. He used to let Jungkook sleep in his bed during the early days even though he had his own. He also helps Jungkook out at photo-shoots. Because JK gets nervous, he tries to make him laugh and relax. He apparently gives JK intimate back massages (Tony from AHL said it, not me). I also strongly believe that he likes to kiss Jungkook’s boo boos better because I swear he was going to when he hit JK with the Pokeball plushy (the reaction was a bit too natural).

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Auston Matthews #16

Requested by Anon:  Hey!! I love absolutely everything you write!! I was wondering if you could write a Auston Matthews one were he’s sad about his goal drought and the reader comforts him or something like that. ❤️❤️

*Hiii!! OMG This was from such a long time ago! I can’t believe I missed this one. I’m so so sorry and thank you very much. This is very sweet, I guess. I hope you like it! Enjoy. :)*

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The door banging had gotten so normal in your house that when it happened again, a few seconds ago, you didn’t even flinch anymore. The first time Auston banged the door, you almost fell from the couch – it literally sounded like a bomb went off, just imagine the power those massive muscles held. Now, though, you can sleep through the night even if he banged his way down to the living room.

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The Elvebakken case:Hvem er Yousef?

Trigger warning for mentions of suicide.****

Indeed. So far he seems to be a dream! An illusion! Created from the depths of Sana’s subconscious. An answer to the question “Is there really anyone out there worthy of Sana’s love and attention?”

At the moment the answer seems to be no. Which is sad. I really like Yousana. It’s the cutest ship. And he seems seemed to make Sana so happy.

So the question is, why does Yousana feel so…wrong? Why most of the viewers are so suspicious of Yousef? He’s nice. We all like him. We all agree that he’s a good person. Elias (my bro!) agrees!But for some reason, since the day we saw the very first photo of him, everyone had other plans for Yousef than him being Sana’s love interest. So many good theories on that. We all thought this might be a case on unrequited love or love triangle or just Sana imagining the obvious interest Yousef shows.

This is a theory based on the assumptions made in this post.

Recap of The Elvebakken case: I think Mikael lied. He’s not the one Even kissed.

This theory: Whatever happened in Elvebakken is actually about Even and Yousef. I think Yousef kissed Even or vice versa.

Let us go way back!

It’s 2015. The balloon squad has a hazy number of members. Most probably: Elias, Yousef, Mikael and Even.

We know that Mikael and Even were best buddies. But it also seems Yousef and Even were very close. If we listen to what Yousef himself said about Even, he was just “a guy they used to hang out with.”. But going by the story Yousef himself goes on to tell and photo evidence, they seemed to have been closer than that.

Losing your religion is a huge deal. I would know. I went through it. It comes with a lot of baggage. It comes with doubts and years of not-being-here-anymore-but-not-there-yet-either. It’s also not a decision you make one night and execute the next day. It’s a process. So even if there are catalysts, none of these things can be the reason™. So when Yousef says he doesn’t believe in Allah because of what happened with Even, it’s not that I don’t believe him but I think it wasn’t the only reason.

I think what happened in Elvebakken is that Even was probably discovering his sexuality.Based on the very little that we know we mainly think that he struggled with it back in Bakka. He kissed/or was kissed by one of his friends. The feelings were not returned(?) and somewhere along the way he got the idea that something was wrong with him and he could cure it by reading the Qur’an and what happened was that he saw all those verses in it that condemn homosexuality. This led to his suicide attempt and Yousef was so deeply affected by this that he abandoned religion for it. But weird thing is Mikael who was supposedly smack in the middle of all this, felt nothing!

But just look at that kid’s face! Have you ever seen anything as pure as Mikael?! He’s so sweet! There’s no way in any of the parallel universes that he is a heartless person, completely unaffected by Even’s issues from before. But whatever he feels, he is guilt-free. Someone else however, looks hella guilty.

Now I think Mikael is a super good friend to both Even and Yousef. I think he is the one person who actually knows what happened in Elvebakken. And I think what he knows is this:

I think Yousef was also questioning his sexuality. It is very likely that he and Even had feelings for each other(maybe?) they kissed once. And maybe Even took it a bit more seriously and tried to kiss Yousef again. Maybe someone saw, but wasn’t sure who it was that they saw. Maybe rumors started flying around and Yousef freaked out. Lashed out even, then Mikael comes to the rescue. Telling Yousef that he’ll pretend it was him that Even kissed. They hide what actually happened. Even goes along with it because he thinks what he did was wrong and he feels guilty. In his attempt to fix things, he reads the Qur’an to cure himself “just like Yousef”. Then those other things happened and by the end Yousef felt guilty for pushing Even away like that.

So he started to doubt everything. Imagine Yousef and Even going through the same thing but Even’s experience turns outward, people recognize his struggles, he finally accepts himself but not Yousef. He turned it inward, his struggles hidden, a wound within him that would neither heal nor open. He hides it but it eats away at him. So first he quietly turns his back on his religion, because he has come to the same conclusion that Even had. Then he tries to make it work by acting straight. But he doesn’t really want that.

So what he does is he finds himself an impossible love-interest. I’m not saying he does this consciously or out of the malice. But maybe subconsciously Yousef develops a crush on Sana because ultimately she’s unavailable. Here’s the thing, as a former Muslim, Yousef must know that Sana won’t really pursue a relationship with a non-muslim. So the fact that he went for her and did so, so blatantly is a bit odd. But if we assume that he’s trying to find an acceptable excuse for not being in a relationship, then claiming he has fallen for an impossible person, is both true and convenient.

Everything is going well until Sana flat out blocks him from her life. Making it virtually impossible for Yousef to start a romance that would eventually fail. But then Sana invites them to a party. An invitation to be reintroduced into her life. What happens though is that Yousef comes face to face with Even. A person that he might have residual feelings for and at least some unresolved emotional involvement with.(Even’s reaction is very strong too) If you look at the clip’s screen shot, he looks fine until he spots Even then he returns to Sana with a look that clearly says “How could you?!”. Yousef looks betrayed.While he should look at least a little pleasantly surprised, because if he was so sad about what happened to Even, seeing him supported and healthy and happy should be a good surprise. 

He seems to be thinking about the safest way to get out of the situation. Meanwhile Mikael has disappeared from the face of earth. Probably because he hears Even’s voice and is just freaked out by the notion of being in the same room with Even and Yousef.

Anyway, what happens next is The Fight! Looking at the clip, whatever is happening outside, Elias and Yousef and Adam, are only watching it from inside. Then Yousef calls Sana, telling her Elias (his best friend!) is in trouble but stays inside as Sana goes to deal with the fight between Balloon squad and boy squad.

Why? I think because he didn’t want to face Even. I think he hides inside, his façade cracking, his emotions all over the place, cue heartbroken and bitter Noora who finds him attractive. I think maybe Noora made a bitter comment about heartbreak. Maybe Yousef agreed. Maybe they found a common ground in their heartbroken states. And then in a last attempt to prove just who Yousef really is, he kisses Noora.  The kiss however looks a bit weird since Yousef has his hands by his side, almost unengaged in the kiss.

Here are 180 reasons that support this theory(!):

1.Our introduction to Yousef is by his “accidentally” left open Facebook and the photos in it. Photos that to this day, no one can view again.

2.The metaphoric conversation with Sana about how they play for “opposite teams”. More on that in this theory Here!

3. His reaction to Even’s name. More on that here

4.His aluminum leg story.Basically the Even story that he tells Sana. But he’s actually the Mikael in that story. Just like Even used the Sonja has aluminum leg to talk about his bipolar disorder.

5.The Rainbow flag that ends up right next to his face

Also see this theory

6.The fact that Mutta says “Lie all the time” and then the video shifts to Yousef’s face. Courtesy of @heltchill

7.The country mouse and city mouse: One lives with little but free, the other has the potential to have it all but lives in fear so it has nothing.

8. Now the whole “How to get over someone you love” article has a new victim too! 

*sigh* this is over! This is my attempt to explain Yousef. I don’t know if I’m right. There’s a 90% chance I’m overthinking but this is what I came up with *shrug*. 

I hope you enjoyed this. Thank you for reading <3