“I knew that that Christ had turned his face away from me and that only a Jesus who no longer care for me could kill those people that I love and leave me alive with my shame. Oh God! So I went to the church and I took the glass that I know was there and I..I’ve cut my wrist. But I didn’t die, of course. Of course not!
Oh Stingo,there are so many things that you don’t understand, there are so many things that I can’t, I cannot tell you.”