accomplishment of the month

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Queer black people used #BlackGaySlay to show their vibrant beauty for Black History Month

  • Most people associate Black History Month with celebrating black accomplishments. 
  • But on Friday night, a new hashtag emerged on Twitter that was about more than just black accomplishment — it celebrated black queer beauty.
  • Twitter users of many genders shared photos of themselves slaying all of your faves with the hashtag #BlackGaySlay. Read more. (2/11/17, 12:29 PM)

“I see you eating whatever you want and not exercising” - Pants

Dear girl trying to get back in shape,

I know it’s hard. I know the hardest thing you may do all day is walk into the gym. I know how easy it is to want to give up and go eat Chicken McNuggets, but don’t do it. I know it feels like you work so hard and get no where. I know how frustrating it is to see that person across the table from you eat a Big Mac every day while you eat your carrots and still be half of your size. I know that awful feeling where you don’t want to go to the gym because you know how out of shape you are. Trust me, I know.

The important thing is you are doing something about it. I’m sure you get mad at yourself for letting your body get this out of shape, but life happens. You have made a huge accomplishment by not having a soda in over a month, and those small changes are huge. I understand how hard it is, I understand how frustrating it is to not see results and I understand why you want to give up. Being healthy and fit takes so much time. As much as I wish you could wake up the day after a good workout with the 6 pack of your dreams, that just isn’t the reality. If being healthy was easy, everyone would do it, and it wouldn’t feel so good when you got there.

Remember how last January your resolution was to get back in the gym and get healthy again? Think about how incredible you would look right now if you would have stuck with it. The great thing is that you can start any time, and you can prove yourself wrong.

Tired of starting over? Then don’t give up.

You are only as strong as your mind. You will get there one day. Just be patient and keep working.

— 

The Odyssey Online

Originally posted by quicksilver123456

🔮Tarotscopes🔮 May 2017

Aries

This is the perfect time for you to get a jumpstart on your passions. Use this month to take the appropriate steps to manifest that idea that you’ve been toying with in your head, because it’s a good one! You may feel a little self-conscious about what others will think, but rest assured that the idea is brilliant!

Taurus

The Wheel of Fortune is turning giving out doses of luck, but as with all luck it can be a toss up as to whether it is good or bad. If you continue your self-destructive behaviour and proceed to feed your indulgences and addictions, chances are the Wheel won’t spin in your favour. If there is something specific that you want to accomplish then use this month to straighten up your act to influence the luck given by the Wheel.

Gemini

May will bring a lot of changes for Gemini so buckle up and enjoy the ride! Brace yourself as things you previously thought would happen won’t happen as you have expected. The Universe has heard your cries and wishes and is in the processes of delivering what you seek. If you start to become overwhelmed this month due to the changes, take a day or two for yourself to recharge your batteries.


Cancer

Cancerians can expect joyous, and harmonious celebrations this month. Current friendships and relationships will blossom as the two of you grow in understanding for each other garnering a deeper appreciation for the relationship. You can also expect to reconnect with a loss connection this month, be it a long-lost friend or an ex!


Leo

It may be necessary this month to let some of your fire burn, as there are people around you that will try to take advantage, which will potentially create a bump in the road in your future plans. Firmly put your foot down to keep this from happening.

Virgo

This should be a fairly harmonious month for Virgo. If there is a goal that you have been steadily working towards, you can expect noticeable progress and gains this month. If you’ve recently been experiencing some hardships, you can expect this month to provide a safe haven and some resolve to a few of your problems.

Libra

You’ve spent a significant amount of time in your head over-thinking and jumping to conclusions, which has caused you worry and stress over the past few months. There is a chance that Libra has been experiencing headaches as a result. Your continued over-analysing is not going to get you to where you want to be and will prove to be counterproductive and futile. Use this month the recalibrate yourself and remind yourself of what is truly important. Consider reprioritizing your life and what you deem important. This is vital for you to calm and slow the mind.


Scorpio

If you feel that you have faced recent disappointment in the work-place or in your studies, rest assured that it was simply a bump that can easily be overcome. If you continue to look as your situation as a failure, then it will be through thought alone that you create a self-fulfilling prophecy. Everyone has snags sometimes so get up, dust yourself off, and charge ahead.


Sagittarius

Trust your intuition this month! There are going to be a lot of misleading instances that will cause you to veer off path if you do not listen to your inner voice. You know what is best for you, and there will be circumstances this month that will challenge your already existing knowledge. Don’t be swayed by the opinions of others.


Capricorn

You will face a bit of resistance this month manifesting itself in a competition of sorts, perhaps with family or colleagues trying to outshine you and steal your thunder. Don’t allow this to demotivate you, because you will come out on top anyway. As you long as you stay calm, people will pick up on their antics.


Aquarius

This is going to be very transformational month for Aquarius. You’ve known for quite some time now that you’ve been needing a change, and that the path you are currently on is no longer doing it for you like it did before. If you are brave enough to take a leap of faith this month, or have done so already, you will see that the decision you’ve made is the right one. The cards drawn for Aquarius are asserting that it is time to move on.


Pisces

It been a very emotional time for you lately. Take some much needed time this month to retreat into yourself. The answers you are searching for already exist within you, so practice trusting your intuition. It is only when you realise this that you will reach a state of equilibrium. It is imperative that you get a handle on your emotions this month.

MAY HOROSCOPES

Mercury ends its retrograde this month, but a full moon in Scorpio and an intense new moon in Gemini are on the way!

Aries: Know that no one can truly understand the kind of person you are. And it has been especially hard these last few weeks. You are the only one who can see how strong you are. You are a fighter and a warrior and you will never see your land be conquered by another’s bones.

Taurus: To someone, you are their whole world. You must see yourself as the sun. The things you will accomplish this month will be grand because you are ready to give your whole self away. Sometimes this is good, especially when everyone around you needs your light.

Gemini: It feels as though you’ve been far away from yourself, lately. It seems like all you do is pick at yourself until you don’t have any more to say. Learn to take control of that lion voice again. With all of its working parts, you will be growing once more.

Cancer: It seems that you may have had an overwhelming few weeks. There’s no other sign who could have handled this with as much compassion as you. Prioritize yourself first this month. Send out those postcards and relax. Let your mind catch up to your body.

Leo: Let the right people step into your light this time. I know you wish to shine on everyone like a comet swallowing the earth whole. But, some only want to crush rocks. You must protect yourself but you mustn’t sacrifice your shine.

Virgo: Let those birds in your heart fly free this month. Finally, the universe has aligned for you and all of your endeavors. Learn to listen without those eyes in the back of your head. Listen with your whole heart and let yourself trust.

Libra: Life has been steering you in all different directions lately yet nothing drastic has happened. This month, the places where you have gone and the people you have met will all make sense to you now. There’s a spot right in the center of the universe for you and you may get there sooner than you think.

Scorpio: You are way more complex than people can ever imagine. You may have been a bit down these past few weeks but trust that the stars have other plans for you, if you only let them in. Your personal goals have a way of just falling into your lap this month so don’t close your eyes just yet.

Sagittarius: Leave old habits behind because a new breed of chaos is about to stumble in. An exciting surprise is on its way and the arrow is pointing straight at you. There’s new air to breathe, and there’s new life to take out of your old one.

Capricorn: There’s been a huge change in your life this month, but don’t worry, something good will come out of it. All you have to do is greet it like an old friend. There’s things that it will tell you about where you’re headed in life and where the universe will take you this month.

Aquarius: There are people in your life that want you to believe that what you’re doing is wrong. But your way is the one that works for you. It’s the one that will lead others straight to turmoil, but to you, that’s adventure. Hardships come your way, and instead of going around them, you go through them.

Pisces: A surge of confident energy is coming your way this month and you have to grab on. New people will walk into your life and they will have a bigger importance than you know. But soon, you will realize that there can be no dark without light. And there’s much more sunlight coming your way.

—  May Horoscopes 2017, Allison Morgan
ASK ME SHIT
  • Red: What's really attractive in a person (physically and not)?
  • Orange: What/Who was your first and last concerts?
  • Yellow: What is something you're looking forward to?
  • Green: What did you want to be when you were a kid?
  • Blue: What's your favorite type of pie?
  • Indigo: Who is your celebrity crush right now?
  • Violet: Would you bang the last person you text messaged?
  • Black: Turn your music on shuffle. What's the first song that came up?
  • White: Do you think you'll change in the next three months?
  • Gold: What's your most recent accomplishment?
  • Silver: Would you ever swim with sharks?
  • Pink: What's your biggest/weirdest pet peeve?
  • Grey: What are you wearing right now?
  • Brown: Have you ever embarrassed yourself in front of a crush?
  • Copper: Random question of your choosing.

anonymous asked:

Do you arrange your spotify playlists in any particular order or is it just kinda, "Here, have music"? I hope you're having a great day/night/whatever it is when/if you see this!

I do have somewhat of an order to them haha. The first four, I will say, are just so that the cover art color scheme matches haha. And then I just try to have the songs ordered so that hopefully slow songs will be followed by upbeat songs, there’s not too many electronic songs in a row, different gender singers are represented throughout, and the ending song seems adequate. Haha this is what I try for (which may be why it takes me til the middle or later of the month to accomplish), sometimes I succeed, sometimes I’m not as successful, but this is where my mind is at haha

archiveofourown.org
In the Dark - ThirtySixSaveFiles - Tales from the Borderlands
Part of the Street Rat AU
By Organization for Transformative Works

Pairing: Handsome Jack/Rhys
Warnings: nsfw, unhealthy relationships, manipulative behavior, jack is a predatory fuckstick, a/b/o, very brief description of violence, but basically just porn
Summary: “Patience is a conquering virtue.” - Geoffrey Chaucer 

Jack’s making himself wait for Rhys’ heat to knot the kid for the first time, but that doesn’t mean there aren’t other things they can do.

Notes: This started as a prompt fill for @thethespacecoyote that grew immediately out of the 100-word limit and then sat in my drafts for five months. I’m sorry it took me so long to finish it - I hope you like it.

I also want everyone to know that @jilldrawblog wanted me to call this “Killer in the Streets, Omega in the Sheets,” although I suppose I did bring that one upon myself.

Also also, if you haven’t picked up on it by now, this is a deeply fucked up dynamic. Caveat emptor and all that.

some asks 🌻

1. reading or watching movies?
2. favourite song to listen to when you’re sad?
3. favourite song to listen to when you’re happy?
4. do you wear a watch?
5. describe your favourite article of clothing that you own!
6. are you a morning or night person?
7. what’s your favourite blog?
8. tea or coffee?
9. pizza or pasta?
10. what’s one of your favourite memories?
11. first album you ever owned?
12. favourite flower?
13. least favourite food?
14. favourite movie?
15. favourite book?
16. when do you feel most calm?
17. what’s something that calms you down?
18. rain or sunshine?
19. dogs or cats?
20. favourite joke?
21. what’s your lucky number and why?
22. favourite tv show?
23. what is happiness to you?
24. what are three words you associate with yourself?
25. what are three things you’re good at?
26. the best compliment you’ve ever received?
27. are you a procrastinator?
28. how are you?
29. what’s one thing you want all your followers to know?
30. do you wear glasses or contacts or neither?
31. when you type the letter ‘o’ into the #tag section, what is the first suggested tag?
32. what do you want to accomplish this month?
33. do you prefer to handwrite or type?
34. do you wear makeup? if so, what’s your favourite item of makeup?
35. favourite quote?

Things I adore about Monsta X
  • Their genuine friendship and the way they care about each other is so beautiful x x x x x x x x
  • You ask them to take a group picture and they do this x x x
  • Every single one of them are gorgeous, every single one x x x x x
  • I don’t know why Starship keeps allowing them to do self mvs at this point x x x
  • They are literally such dorks it’s hard not to love them x x x x x x x
  • They’re all 100% done with each other x x
  • They will find a way to take everything too far x 
  • Their performances on The Remix were so good x x x
  • LISTEN their cover of Mirotic needs a whole appreciation post of its own they slayed me x
  • So they once played arcade basketball. Shownu got angry. Wonho yelled at himself. Jooheon swore. All this for arcade basketball x
  • Hyungwon didn’t understand a game and they got so frustrated, Minhyuk was on the verge of popping a vein x
  • Apparently to Monsta X, switching their parts in songs means going crazy and Changkyun almost bursting a lung x
  • They make the best facial expressions on rides I swear x x
  • So humble and just great people I mean they do so much for the fans and their relationship with Monbebe is amazing
  • They all take so much bs from each other, regardless of age or whatever and yet they still have a level of respect for each other.
  • Every single time they end a video, either they’re pushing each other or saying random shit I don’t understand x x
  • Safari in Monbebe World. No other explanation needed really. x
  • Once decided that piling on top of a sick and frail Hyungwon was a brilliant idea x
  • They won’t stop climbing Kihyun like he’s a tree :( x
  • The concept they have for The Clan trilogy is incredible they just keep bettering themselves
  • Monsta X when they were babies PLEASE x
  • They’re all talented and contribute so much to the group
  • Claimed to be bad at sports but ended up breaking the ISAC archery record
  • They’ll get impressed if you kill a moth I mean x
  • They get so proud of each other’s accomplishments, months after they still listen to Kihyun’s OST, Hyungwon encouraging Wonho to talk about his song, watching Shownu on Hit The Stage etc x x
  • Such weirdos honestly x x
  • They keep toys and gift given to them by fans in their rooms x
  • They have inside jokes that they still remember and laugh about together x
  • They drew pictures and hand wrote letters for Monbebe to congratulate us on our first year
  • Hoo! Monsta X!
  • They are such hardworking, talented, kind, funny and amazing people. They really work so hard and manage to stay humble and positive; not to be as cheesy as Wonho but honestly stanning them is a great decision, the amount of pure happiness they bring is insane.
You are My Heaven Pt 2 [End] (Steve Rogers fic)

Characters: reader, Steve, Sam, Natasha (mentioned), Maria Hill

Summary: Falling for a good man, who happened to be her training partner, was unavoidable. What if you can’t stay away, even after heartbreak? Is it possible to be friends with some one you’ve fallen for? Life rarely unfolds the way we hope it would. (Events take place after CATWS)

Warnings: lil fluff, lotta angst. Heartbreak. I’m sorry.

Word Count: 2.8k

Song Inspiration: Litost by X Ambassadors

Tags are at the bottom

A/N: This one hurt. Once again, I drew from my own personal experiences, so it took a lot out of me to write. I hope you enjoy it? I’m considering an epilogue, so let me know if that is of interest! Please let me know your thoughts! Special thanks to @buckyywiththegoodhair for helping edit. Bless you!  

<<<Part One   Part Two   Epilogue>>>

Masterlist

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Originally posted by from-wizards-to-soldiers

The next morning after a maximum of 3 hours sleep, you dabbed on some concealer to hide bags under your eyes and got dressed. Hopefully you could blame your ‘illness’ on not looking your best. Once you arrived, it seemed you didn’t have to worry. Apparently Nat was a little too good at telling the story that you’d been sick. When you walked into work, everyone was shocked that you were “up and around” so soon. It was like you had the plague or something.

Assuring everyone you were fine, the office was back to business as usual. However, partway through your first day back, a mission report update arrived from Steve. Upon seeing the email, your breath quickened with a twist of your still-tender heart. You sought refuge in the bathroom until the pain in your chest subsided and tears dried. 

The rest of your week passed without incident, the only unusual being your lack of visiting the gym. Even without Steve there, too many memories lingered. You kept yourself distracted by catching up on work and spending time with the other Avengers. That weekend, you actually made an effort to go out with friends and socialize. The pain in your chest still lingered, but less sharply than before.

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Questions to Make You Smart About Yourself

What do you want to achieve over the next year?

What is your greatest challenge right now?

What is your greatest desire right now?

What is your greatest frustration right now?

What, if you accomplished it in the next 12 months, would be worth $100k to you?

How committed are you to achieving that? (1-5) 5 = total commitment

What is your monthly income goal?

What was the most money you made in one month in the last year?

How do you feel about your money and finances?

Who are the most powerful people you want to emulate?

Do you take any psychotropic drugs, prescription or recreational? If yes, which and how often?

What are your biggest health challenges?

What are your desires for relationship?

How likely are you to try new things and stick with them if someone you trust recommends them? 1-5 5 = very likely


Motivation and Clarity Questions

Rate the following from:

1 Not true at all for me to –> 5 Absolutely true for me.

 On what level do you identify with each of these statements?

  • I sincerely need and want to improve my life.
  • I realize that everything I want is probably just outside my comfort zone.
  • I am not looking for a quick fix.
  • I am open to honest feedback and candid assessments.
  • I acknowledge my life will remain the same unless I make change a priority.
  • I am the only one who can make my life better.
  • I accept responsibility for my actions and do not expect anyone to “fix” me.

If you want info about programs to help you achieve what you wrote, PM me.

Black history month day 23: American aviator Bessie Coleman.

Bessie Colman was born January 26, 1892 in Atlanta, Texas as tenth of thirteen children born to sharecroppers George and Susan Coleman. At the age of six, Coleman began walking four miles each day to a segregated one-room schoolhouse, where she loved to read and excelled in math. When she was 23, she moved with her brothers to Chicago and became a manicurist at a barber shop. It was there when she first heard stories of the pilots in World War I and decided she wanted to fly.

At the time, both black and female pilots in the United States were practically unheard of, so Coleman studied French so she could learn flying and get her license in Paris. On June 15, 1921, Coleman became the first woman of Black and Native American descent (as her father was part Choctaw or possibly Cherokee) to earn an aviation pilot’s license and an international aviation license from the Fédération Aéronautique Internationale.

Coleman begin a successful career of stunt flying, saying: “The air is the only place free from prejudices. I knew we had no aviators, neither men nor women, and I knew the Race needed to be represented along this most important line, so I thought it my duty to risk my life to learn aviation.”

Coleman’s dream was to start a school for young black aviators. Unfortunately, On April 30, 1926, she died after being thrown from a malfunctioning plane. But her numerous accomplishments served as inspiration for many future aviators.

Getting real with today’s sweaty selfie because I decided to workout without a shirt since I get too hot 😵It was so liberating!! 💃🏻Plus it was leg day today and I felt like showing off my legs 💁 yes I have stretch marks and rolls, no I don’t love them even though I’ll probably always have stretch marks. But I love myself, and I love what my mind and body have been accomplishing in the past month 💪

Stolen Heart: Part 3

Prompt: Can you do a Damian Wayne Imagine where the reader is Catwoman’s protogé and they have a relationship just like Bruce and Selina but the mentors don’t approve?

AN: I am rocking it today!!!

Words: 850

Part One, Part Two


You had never really been one for small towns. You’d spent your entire life in Gotham, and then you’d moved to New York City. Small town life had simply never appealed to you, but after three years, you could admit it had grown on you. Sliding the heels from your feet you sigh at the feeling of the hardwood. Tossing the shoes to the side you move farther into the house.

          You hear the footsteps before you hear the call. Widening your stance, you brace for impact. Gideon rounds the corner, a smile on his face, as he dives into your arms. At seven years old he’s getting almost too big to do the hug and dive. It won’t be long before he’s knocking you over.

          You ruffle his hair, as he starts talking about his day. You listen as you move towards the kitchen, the smell of papaya wafting towards you nose. You smile at Damian, who gives you a quick kiss, before handing you a glass of wine.

          He’s still dressed in his sheriff’s uniform, a towel tossed over his shoulder. The two of you listen as Gideon continues to talk, before he runs off towards his room to play. There’s a moment of silence before Damian says, “I have no idea where he learned to talk for that long. It’s not like either of us come from a family of talkers.”

          You smirk, “I suppose that’s what happens when you live the normal life.”

          Damian scoffs, “Normal.”

          Your smirk widens, “I know. You despise that word.”

          He turns to stare at you, before moving towards you, and caging you against the table with his arms. His voice lowers to a whisper, “You are a former international burglar, and I was trained by the League of Assassins before becoming a superhero vigilante at the age of ten. Normal is an insult.”

          You lean up and kiss his jaw. “I kind of like it. No bad guys, no mortal wounds, no discussion of what’s right or wrong. Just a normal librarian married to a normal police sheriff, with their normal son. It’s quiet and different than what we’re used to, but I love it here. Gideon loves it here.”

          “What if we didn’t have to stay?” He asks quietly.

          “We’re being chased by an unknown organization that wants to kill me and our son. We’re safe here, why would we move?”

          “Because I’ve secretly had the League working on identifying the group, and taking care of our problem. And as of three months ago, that goal was accomplished.”

          You take a deep breath, “So your father knows …”

          He nods, “Yes. He’s invited us back to Gotham.  Offered me a place at the company, wants to train me to take over the family business.”

          You frown, “You’re not talking about just Wayne Enterprises are you?”

          Damian shakes his head, “He’s getting old. He can’t keep it up anymore. He needs me to take over.”

          “He has four other sons, Damian.”

          Damian finally pushes away from the table, “All of whom have their own identities and territories. I’m the logical choice. I put in my notice at the department today. We’ll be back in Gotham by the end of the month.”

          You shake your head, and he stares at you. You can feel your voice going raw as you speak, “You’ll be in Gotham by the end of the month, but Gideon and I are staying.”

He looks at you in disbelief, “We’re a family.”

You shake your head “A family would have discussed this. A family would have taken Gideon into consideration.”

“He’d be in one of the top private schools in the world.”

“And taken away from all his friends and the only home he knows.”

“The Manor …”

“The Manor is not a home, it’s a place where soldiers are trained. And Gotham is the place they fight. I won’t allow my son to become that.”

“Our son.”

You just look Damian in the eye and say, “Right now, he’s my son.” And without another word you leave the kitchen. You go to your room, and make sure to lock the door. With a scream you collapse on the bed, and for the first time in four years you feel like that nineteen-year-old who had left that city behind.

When you wake up the next morning it’s to Damian, sitting down beside you. You’re not all that surprised to see him, the locks on the doors are amateur hour. To be completely honest you hadn’t expected him to wait this long.

The next words out of his mouth shock you to your core, “I told my father no. We can stay here. We can be normal.”

Happy Aqours 2nd Anniversary!

It’s been two whole years since Love Live! Sunshine!! was first announced in Dengeki G’s Magazine on April 30th, 2015!

Looking back on the past year, we can see that Aqours has released a whole bunch of albums and a TV anime. They’ve also had a handful of mini-lives and performances as well as their first major live concert! And now they’re currently on their way to a second live concert and many more smaller performances, not to mention they have a second anime season coming up. On top of that, they’ve basically brought an entire dying town back to life. Aqours has worked so hard and accomplished so much ;__;

Thank you so much, Aqours. I love each and every one of you.

Since it’s a perfect time to reflect upon my personal involvement in Love Live! Sunshine!!, I wrote a bit about that too. Under the cut. Do not read if you don’t appreciate excessive amounts of sentimentality, I’ll gross you out.

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The Girl Who Ran

Request(s):

  1. Long story short: Newt and reader get into an argument, the reader is a builder and she ran into the maze when she couldn’t take the argument anymore and everyone thinks she dead cuz the next day they can’t find her. Maybe after a few months the reader is back in the maze and everyone is shocked and Newt has his limp now cuz he tried to die cuz he thought he lost her. Sorry it’s so confusing and long. Heated argument at first than fluffy and stuff at the end. Thank you in advance!! XX
  2. Hello, may I request a Newt imagine where she’s actually been the first one in the maze and stayed there and after a year or two she gets lost in the maze (runner) and everyone thinks she’s dead but she ends up finding her way back one day and everyone is shocked. The reader and newt were and still are dating. Newt never stopped loving her. Fluff, sad (kinda) and you can add more. Sorry I just love your Newt imagines tbh. Thank you in advance 

Warnings: none?

Notes: Decided to combine these two!

Being a Builder in the Maze was always fun. You got to work with all the tools and make sure everything was secure. One mistake and you’d get hurt, which was always the risky part of it. Though that’s what made it really fun. 

Being the Second-in-Command in the Maze was stressful. You had to make sure everything was running smoothly. You had to travel from job to job around the Glade, and make sure no one was getting riled up at another. sometimes there were unsolvable problems which made it even more stressful. 

But you being a Builder, and Newt being Second-in-Command worked out well. Especially when together. You took Newt’s stress away, calming him down so much. Newt always patched you up when you got hurt. You were both so in love with each other, and worked out so well. Everything was peaceful when together.

That is until today. You and Newt were a very serious couple. But lately Newt was on edge. He was becoming a little more angry and more stressed. It was so much for him that he snapped at you. 

“Jesus, Y/N, lay off! Bloody hell, you are smothering me! You’re too much!”

Although you were a tomboy, you were still sensitive. Newt’s words hurt. A fear of yours was becoming too clingy, or smothering him. Now it was obvious that fear had come into play.

“Fine.” Your voice cracked. “I’ll fucking back off.” 

Due to Newt being stressed out beyond belief made you stressed out. You didn’t know what to do with yourself. He had been exploding lately. Each time he got upset and you were around, he’d lash out and say things that really hurt. This time it especially hurt. He knew that you were afraid of smothering him and becoming this annoyance. 

The only thing you thought of doing was something unimaginable. You ran off into the Maze.

Gladers tried to stop you. You were trying to be sneaky about it, packing a bag with food and water. You tried slipping through the Doors without disturbance, but Gladers caught on to what you were doing. 

“Y/N, no! That’s breaking a rule!” Someone yelled. A few Gladers tried to capture you, but you were faster than you looked. Once you passed the Doors, Gladers stopped, not daring to go inside. You ran and turned a corner, disappearing.

Multiple Gladers–especially Gally–were infuriated at Newt. They knew it was him who started this. He was so rude and mean lately. It wasn’t like him. But he really hurt you, and you didn’t know what to do.

Newt, who was in the Homestead, didn’t hear about you fleeing into the Maze until after you were gone. His mood instantly changed. He had no idea he pushed you over the edge to the point of running inside the Maze. Newt felt awful, and was now worried about you. Would you come back?


Newt moped around. He couldn’t believe that he pushed you to suicide. You never came out of the Maze and none of the Runners that day saw you. It had been two months. You were dead. You had to be. And Newt knew it was his fault. 

“Newt… You might want to see this,” Alby said urgently. Newt furrowed his brows, leaving his spot. He went outside into the Glade, seeing all the Gladers surrounded at the Doors. Clint and Jeff rushed passed Newt with a makeshift stretcher.

“What’s going on?” Newt asked, trying his best to run.

Arriving at the crowd, there you were. Shockingly enough there you were. The backpack you took was gone, your clothes were tattered, hair a mess. You had scratches and a few marking that needed stitches. Blood soaked some parts of your skin and clothes. All in all, you were on the brink of death. 

Clint and Jeff arrived with the stretcher. Newt helped hoist you up on it and you were carried away. Half of the Glade was silent while the other half was questioning about how you were still alive.

Newt, Alby, and Gally followed the Med-jacks. They kept telling you to stay awake, keep your eyes open. They needed you to keep fighting. 

Multiple questions were thrown at you, but you weren’t responding at all. You were non-responsive, just looking around and blinking slowly. Everyone was concerned. But everyone was more baffled by how you managed to live in the Maze for an entire month.


A week passed. You slept a lot. A lot more than a person should, but it was understandable. You were stitched up and heavily medicated, but no one could determine your recovery. You still hadn’t spoken a single word.

“Y/N…?” Newt asked, peeking in. You made eye contact with him from your bed. “How are you doing, love?”

Nothing. But you moved your arm slowly, motioning for Newt to walk in further. He followed your small demand, walking right next to your side. He slid a chair over, sitting down and caressing your forehead. 

Newt hadn’t said much to you since you were sleeping so much, or were busy getting checked. This was his first real moment alone with you since being back. 

You looked up at Newt, tears in your eyes. Everything hurt and there was so much pain. You were physically and emotionally scarred to the point of no talking. 

“Don’t look at me like that,” Newt sighed. “Y/N… I’m so sorry I lashed out so much. I’m sorry I pushed you to the point of… you know. You could have told me I was pushing you too much. Hell, you could’ve lashed back at me and told me to fuck off. But I’m so sorry.”

“I…” You whispered. “Sorry.”

Newt’s eyes went wide. He wiped the few stray tears that had escaped your eyes. “No, don’t be sorry.”

It was silent again. Newt didn’t say anything, just gazed at you. You stared right back into his eyes, missing them. You made a huge mistake about leaving through the Maze, but it was also a huge accomplishment. During that month, so much happened. Including finding the exit. Once you were healed and recovered, you’d inform everyone. Though for now you needed to rest.