about nicole

Once upon a time there was a boy who loved a girl, and her laughter was a question he wanted to spend his whole life answering.
—  Nicole Krauss, The History of Love

Zeke takes Ivory to an elegant hotel restaurant in the Arts Quarter, only blocks away from his home. He wasn’t afraid of running into Niara while dining with Ivory. Niara hated living in the Arts Quarter, as she thought it was beneath her. She never frequented any of the shops or restaurants in the area.

Ivory and Zeke make small talk over wine and dinner. After a comfortable silence, Zeke leans forward, his face growing serious.

Zeke: Ivory-forgive me if I’m overstepping my boundaries. But-I was there when Nico called you today. I heard how he spoke to you earlier. I confronted him about it. Told him he had no right to speak to the mother of his child that way.

Ivory gasps: What-I mean-now he knows you know? About Nicole? Oh, Zeke! He must be furious.

Zeke: He was very upset that I knew. But I’ll work it out with him. He’s my best friend. But what concerns me is the way he’s handling this situation. The way Nico spoke to you was unacceptable! 

do you ever think about how gay you are and then get this really bubbly happy feeling in your chest where it’s kind of hard to breathe because you’re just so happy that you get to like girls??

if you actually call disabled people “differenly abled”, “challenged” “handicapped” or “handicapable” i will immediately stop caring about any opinion you have on anything involving people with disabilities and the struggles we face.

and if you dont know why, thats just another reason why i shouldnt listen to you.


Love is a many splendored thing, love lifts us up where we belong. All you need is love! 

Nessian Parallels

Nesta’s throat bobbed. “Please.” I didn’t think I’d ever heard that word from her mouth. “Please—do not leave us to face this alone.”
The eldest queen remained unmoved. I had no words in my head.
We had shown them … we had … we had done everything. Even Rhys was silent, his face unreadable.
But then Cassian crossed to Nesta, the guards stiffening as the Illyrian moved through them as if they were stalks of wheat in a field.
He studied Nesta for a long moment. She was still glaring at the queens, her eyes lined with tears—tears of rage and despair, from that fire that burned her so violently from within. When she finally noticed Cassian, she looked up at him.
His voice was rough as he said, “Five hundred years ago, I fought on battlefields not far from this house. I fought beside human and faerie alike, bled beside them. I will stand on that battlefield again, Nesta Archeron, to protect this house—your people. I can think of no better way to end my existence than to defend those who need it most.”
I watched a tear slide down Nesta’s cheek. And I watched as Cassian reached up a hand to wipe it away.

 I was quote flicking for writing purposes but I think this part is interesting for a reason that…Has never really been talked about. But I think it’s incredibly important that at no point in this scene does Cassian say ‘you’. He does not say ‘I will protect you’ he says that he will protect her house, her people. He will protect what is important to her. 

Nesta in this scene implores the queens not to forsake them but instead to help them. She says that there is no way they will all be able to evacuate (’they’ meaning all of the humans beneath the wall. All of them) She asks the queens not to abandon them. Not her and Elain. Not her household. Not her estates. Not even her town. All of them. People. Her people. 

And what Cassian says and does that so moves her and is so important to her is not that he will defend her. He doesn’t swear that he’ll be her shield and stand before her and ensure she is protected. He swears to return to war, to stand on a battlefield again, to fight- his kind and hers side by side again as it once was- to defend her people, those who cannot fight for themselves. 

And this is…Even more interesting because this is what Nesta does, and has always done, as well. 

Nesta would buy Elain time to run. Not my father, whom she resented with her entire steely heart. Not me, because Nesta had always known and hated that she and I were two sides of the same coin, and that I could fight my own battles. But Elain, the flower-grower, the gentle heart … Nesta would go down swinging for her.

This is really, really early on in ACOTAR but it gets overlooked a lot, I think, and leads to Nesta being misunderstood a lot as well. I’ve meta’d a lot on Nesta and Feyre before and I’ve pointed out that Feyre would probably have either resented Nesta for trying to take over and not letting her do what needed to be done or just been downright baffled for it. Nesta doesn’t bother fighting for Feyre here because she knows Feyre is more than capable of doing that herself. She’ll fight instead for Elain - Elain who can’t fight or defend herself in that way. And we see this again when Nesta goes to the Wall for Feyre because something felt wrong. Something about Tamlin and the lie he sold Feyre didn’t sit right with her and so when her sister actually did need her, Nesta tried to find her. (Which very neatly parallels Feyre warning Nesta of Tomas as well - because there was something wrong there too but that’s another meta) 

The point is that Cassian here not only recognises that Nesta does not need anyone to fight her battles for her, and would likely hate them if they tried (this is..a big part of why she and Feyre clash. Nesta resents having to rely on her little sister, she resents Feyre doing this thing that she can’t and looking after her - looking after all of them) and Cassian gets that. 

This woman does not need anyone to fight for her or protect her or coddle her. They understand each other He fights for the same reasons and the same kinds of people that she fights for: those who cannot fight themselves. 

TL;DR: Cassian does not promise to fight her battles for her. He promises to fight her battles with her. 


A bazillion years ago @Deb_Renee asked me to draw “Wayhaught as Wonder Woman and Supergirl”. I haven’t been as active as I’d like but I thought Halloween was a good time to do this one!

(The universe did not though. My computer’s charged stoped working and I had only 40 minutes to finish this. I am posting from my phone. Pray for my computer’s soul)

When you see someone in the Carmilla tag complaining that the bundles are just Elise and Natasha and you're like oh no how dare a show called Carmilla where the protagonist is Laura and the Hollstein relationship is core only use the two actors playing those two characters to promote it! What a shock that the two main characters and central relationship are what people (the majority) want to see!

So I saw the original ad on my dashboard and I saw Lewis Hamilton’s picture (whom I am a big fan of). I clicked it as I just wanted to see what bs they made up about him and Nicole Sherzinger. BUT TO PUBLICLY ADVERTISE AN ARTICLE (which itself is advertising a gambling site) CLAIMING SOMEONE RELEASED REVENGE PORN IS WRONG AF HOW CAN YAHOO ADS ALLOW THAT TO BE ADVERTISED

Why does one begin to write? Because she feels misunderstood, I guess. Because it never comes out clearly enough when she tries to speak. Because she wants to rephrase the world, to take it in and give it back again differently, so that everything is used and nothing is lost. Because it’s something to do to pass the time until she is old enough to experience the things she writes about.
—  Nicole Krauss