he-s-dead-jim replied to your post “he-s-dead-jim: vulcanplomeeksoup: he-s-dead-jim: Ok, Abigail…”

@bonearenaofmyskull I don’t know. I understand your point, but I still feel there’s some kind of lie in what he said. He admitted with Hannibal he didn’t feel guilty for Hobbs’ death, so maybe he felt guilty just for killing the father but not the killer. I just thought about this because I never considered that first conversation with Abigail as I should. Actually there’s also a very eloquent look from Hannibal at that phrase, like he is judging Will’s words.

Obviously, Will didn’t include “but I really felt good about it until I had a chance to think about it,” but whether or not he told the whole complicated truth of his muddy moral ambiguities was not the point to the post I was responding to: the main point is whether Abigail understood it as a lie. We know she didn’t understand it that way because she held it up as how she was supposed to feel after killing Nick Boyle, and that she figured there was something wrong with her instead of with what he said when she felt good instead. Which is part of what got in her way of bonding better with Will, rather than otherwise: Hannibal presented reassurance and no judgment, while Will inadvertently implied that there was something wrong with her. 

In the end, though, she began to understand it as the truth that it was, which is to say that she told Will that she didn’t get it because she didn’t feel bad, like she didn’t do anything wrong, and she began to understand that that was exactly what Will was talking about when he said it was the ugliest thing in the world. “You felt good,” she tells him, and it’s this fact that she realizes is the ugliness that he talked about–feeling good about killing is the ugliest thing in the world. She “finally get[s] it.”

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friendly reminder that this was all canonically said and it pains me to think of how much Hannibal wanted to create a family with Will and Abigail but it all went tits up what with the framing, the betrayal, the gutting and the brutal murder of their daughter-to-be *wipes away tear whilst Adele sings ‘they could’ve had it all’ in the background.

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A remake of the original 2002 Red Dragon trailer (this is the one I used for reference btw https://youtu.be/VQvuC7_qgTE) using clips from NBC’s Hannibal (a.k.a. it’s a lot gayer)